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He Yicheng glanced at Mu Xi to confirm the truth of Cheng Quan's words.

"Damn it, I asked you to clean it in the morning, and you're only here now."

"You didn't say whether the time is good or not, I just—" After receiving Mu Xi's call, he got up and watched TV for a while.Had a fight with his mother.That's why he came to this point, thinking that he could still stay here overnight.

"You didn't see anything." Mu Xi lowered her head and sat down in shame.

"I thought you simply asked me to come and clean it, but did you come to live here?"

He Yicheng basically explained the matter.

"That's nothing to do with me, I'll go first." Cheng Quan wished he could leave sooner.

"Key." He Yicheng said.

Cheng Quan turned back and put down the key Mu Xi gave him on the table.

"Come here, let's eat here."

Cheng Quan didn't dare to make decisions, and looked at Mu Xi.Mu Xi nodded at him, and he nodded.

The process of eating this meal was like sitting on pins and needles, like a thorn in the back, uneasy.

Those two seem to have made an appointment, showing off their affection in front of them, I'll serve you food, you'll serve me food, it's not like you broke your hand.Who doesn't get sauce on the corner of his mouth when he eats, is it necessary to kiss him, it's so disgusting.If I'm guilty, you can punish me with the law, but don't let me see you showing affection.There are so many things to do for a meal.

Cheng Quan felt that He Yicheng did it on purpose, so he did it on purpose for him to see.

When Cheng Quan walked out of Mu Xi's apartment, the snow stopped.Received a call from Gu Shenghai.

"I'm off work, are you coming tonight?"

Cheng Quan looked at the streetlight in front of him and took a breath. He couldn't tell what kind of relationship he had with Gu Shenghai.What he wanted was a sincere love, like Mu Xi and He Yicheng, and Gu Shenghai couldn't give it to him.All along, he has deviated from his own heart, and now is the time to jump out of this comfort zone.

"No, I won't go."

"Ok!"

Judging from his tone, Gu Shenghai seemed disappointed.

Cheng Quan hung up the phone and dialed another number.

"Mom, I'll go to the blind date you introduced."

After Cheng Quan made the phone call, he suddenly squatted down on the side of the street, feeling uncomfortable.In the morning, his mother told him to let him go on a blind date, and Cheng Quan had a fight with his mother for this.

For more than a year, he and Gu Shenghai got what they needed and lived in peace.Recently, he has realized more clearly that he is relying on Gu Shenghai, whether in bed or in life.

It's not that Gu Shenghai doesn't have every advantage, he is very loyal, in order to win over Mu Xi and He Yicheng, he was able to bow his head in front of him and let him fuck him once.Cheng Quancai confessed the plan and helped He Yicheng.

Gu Shenghai was also kind to him. On his birthday, he bought a lot of flowers and placed them around the house, with candles in the middle, for a candlelight dinner for the two of them.

In winter, if he came over, Gu Shenghai would heat the water in advance and let him take a bath quickly, and when he did something wrong, Gu Shenghai would first apologize and buy gifts to coax him.

If Gu Shenghai was a dedicated person, he would be a very good lover, but he is not.They are just bedmates.

Cheng Quan didn't dare to ask Gu Shenghai how many people he had played with in the past year.

Thinking of Gu Shenghai's kindness, Cheng Quan felt a little bit reluctant to part with him.

Gu Shenghai walked out of the operating room. Before he could take off the surgical gown, he got his mobile phone from the nurse and went to the first floor to find Cheng Quan, and learned that he had already left work.

Gu Shenghai felt disappointed. This week, Cheng Quan was very indifferent to him, even if he was asked to come over, he said he was busy.I left after get off work, and I didn't ask him to eat supper.

Gu Shenghai called Cheng Quan, but a woman answered.

Gu Shenghai was a little confused.

"I'm looking for Cheng Quan."

"He's taking a shower."

Gu Shenghai felt hostile.

"who are you."

"I'm his girlfriend."

"He doesn't have a girlfriend."

"Who is it?" Cheng Quan's voice.

"The one looking for you, he is very fierce."

"Room service." Gu Shenghai heard a faint voice coming from the phone, he gritted his teeth and held back his anger.

"Hey?"

"It's me, where are you?"

"at home."

"I'm going to take a shower first." The woman's voice just now.

"Where are you?"

"Family."

"Where the hell are you?" Gu Shenghai growled.

"Didn't you guess it, I'm in the hotel, Gu Shenghai, we're just bed partners, who I'm with doesn't seem to be your business."

After Cheng Quan finished speaking, he hung up the phone.

Gu Shenghai froze for a few times when the phone heard a busy voice.Then he threw his phone to the ground angrily, he didn't know why he was so angry, something blocked his chest and felt uncomfortable.He wants to vent.Like a trapped beast.

Cheng Quan has a girlfriend, and he can't imagine what Cheng Quan is doing at this time.

Gu Shenghai seemed to lose his strength instantly, slid down the wall and sat on the ground.

Two nurses passed by, saw Dr. Gu sitting helplessly on the ground, and hurried up to help him up.

"Doctor Gu, what's wrong? What's wrong?"

Gu Shenghai waved his hand towards them.

"I'm fine, just sit down."

"Let's take you back to the office."

A nurse picked up the mobile phone on the ground and returned it to Gu Shenghai.

The screen of the phone was broken, and on the screensaver was a group photo taken during dinner at He Yicheng's house.Cheng Quan was next to him.

After returning home, Gu Shenghai huddled on the sofa, took out the lighter and lit a cigarette without turning on the light.When I called the landline just now, everyone in the hospital knew the number of the deputy director's landline.The person who answered the phone said that Cheng Quan hadn't come back yet.

Afterwards, Gu Shenghai called for a long time but did not get through Cheng Quan's cell phone.

Gu Shenghai smoked one after another, and the ashtray was soon full of cigarette butts.

When he was young, his parents quarreled all day long, throwing things and throwing plates and china.Once his dad threw an ashtray and accidentally hit him on the back, leaving a gash on his back.

When the cigarette ran out, Gu Shenghai lit another one.

Thinking of many things from his childhood, Gu Shenghai burst into tears.

He once witnessed his father sleeping with a neighbor's widow. After his mother found out, she held a knife across her neck and took him away at the age of seven, so he also had a scar on his neck.

They were noisy and noisy, and life finally became unbearable.

When he was nine years old, his mother took sleeping pills and passed away.His father married a widowed neighbor less than six months later, and the widow brought a son three years older than him to live with them.

A year later, he had a younger brother.

His father ignored him, his stepmother didn't like him, and the widow's son often harassed him.

When he was ten years old, Gu Shenghai was sent to boarding school. They didn't give him enough living expenses. Even though his family was not poor, he often couldn't get enough to eat. At that time, he met He Yicheng, who often invited him to dinner.He had nowhere to go during the winter and summer vacations, so he could only come back in disgrace, living like a dog, taking care of his younger brother, and obeying his orders.

When he was in high school, his younger brother was mischievous, played with others and drowned.At this time, his father turned his attention to the only son, began to treat him well, and cultivated him with all his heart.It's just that he has passed the age of needing fatherly love, and he no longer needs it.

After going to college, Gu Shenghai never went home again, and he never touched the money on the account his father sent him.He went to work part-time during the winter and summer vacations, and usually tutored others, and with the help of Lin An and He Yicheng, his living expenses and tuition fees were not a problem.

Five years of medical school, six years after graduation, 11 years, he has not been back.

He loves to play because he doesn't believe in the so-called love, he doesn't want a family, he doesn't want children, he doesn't want his son to go through what he has experienced, if the final ending is like this, then marriage is a grave.

It's just that Cheng Quan walked into his heart and gave him the warmth of home.He wanted this kind of warmth extravagantly.

He often sits on a high stool, watching Cheng Quan busy in the kitchen, his heart is warm.

Cheng Quan gave him a lot, he should be satisfied.

What Cheng Quan wanted was marriage, not what he could give.In order not to let himself sink into it, he reined in from the cliff.Cheng Quan made the right choice and helped him make a decision.

sleepless nights.

The next day, Gu Shenghai was stuck in Cheng Quan's office early in the morning.

Cheng Quan opened the door and saw Gu Shenghai sitting on his chair, stunned for a while.

Gu Shenghai's hair was messy and his eyes were bloodshot.

"What's wrong with you? It looks like this."

"Are you asleep?"

"I'm asleep. I didn't expect sleeping with a woman to be very interesting. I suddenly understand you a little bit." Cheng Quan took off his coat and hung it on the hanger, and changed into a white coat.

"Good."

"Don't tell me you haven't slept with anyone during this time."

"Cheng Quan, let's separate."

For more than a year, since Cheng Quan had a stable relationship with him, he really hasn't slept with anyone else, and he doesn't know why, but he is stupid.

Cheng Quan's heart throbbed and his hands trembled as he buttoned the buttons, but he couldn't button them up after several times.

"fair enough."

Although Gu Shenghai had made preparations long ago, when he actually heard this from Cheng Quan, he still felt uncomfortable.Wouldn't it be better if you pretended not to know.He now hates why he brought it up.

"Thanks to you, otherwise I really wouldn't be able to take her down. To be honest, you taught me a lot."

Gu Shenghai smiled wryly.

Cheng Quan kept asking him how he hooked up with one woman after another.Gu Shenghai told him without reservation, but he didn't expect to be self-inflicted.

"I'm going to the emergency room, and you can stay if you want."

"Cheng Quan." Gu Shenghai said to Cheng Quan's back, "Cook me another meal."

"Then let's go tonight, I just have to get my luggage."

"Then I'll wait for you to get off work."

In the evening, Cheng Quan cooked three dishes and one soup and served them on the table.Cheng Quan must make tomato and egg drop soup, two meat and one vegetarian.

Gu Shenghai stubbed out the cigarette butt in the ashtray.There were four or five cigarette butts in the ashtray.

"You go."

"it is good."

Cheng Quan changed his shoes at the door, thought for a while and left the key at the entrance, turned around and opened the door, dragging a small suitcase and left.

Gu Shenghai found that Cheng Quan's things were pitifully small.Although they don't live together, they will stay three or four days a week.

Cheng Quan left, and Gu Shenghai finished the meals crying.It's not a big deal, he does this kind of thing a lot, and in a few days everything will be fine.

Without Cheng Quan, Gu Shenghai returned to his previous living habits, playing with fun-loving people and not hooking up with girls from good families.

When you are tired, go home directly, order takeaway when you are hungry, or go to He Yicheng's house for a meal, go to the bar when you have time, hook up with one or two and come back to sleep, and it's over after sleeping.Seeing Cheng Quan at the hospital, Gu Shenghai only regarded him as a junior and nodded his head in greeting.