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October [-]th is Yinzhen's birthday.Yinzhen rested and took a bath that day, invited An, and had a small banquet after returning to the mansion.Many of my brothers came to congratulate me, but they were just going through the motions.The person I care about the most is not there, and the presence of others is just to add to my heart.

It's rare that Yinhu had the heart, and prepared a congratulatory gift in advance before leaving, and he didn't lose his etiquette at all because of the unhappiness between the two last time.When Yinzhen saw the uninspiring things on the gift list, he first threw the list aside, then took it over again, and saw that the handwriting on the list was Yinhu's own handwriting, so he felt a little more at ease.In the end, he blamed himself for being too troublesome, so why bother about these details.Now that the kindness has been cut off, why bother to be so obsessed with it.It seems like a little girl, not open-minded enough.

Thinking this way, Yinzhen tore up the gift slip and threw it on the ground.Thinking about stepping on it again, but felt that it was too deliberate, Baifu happened to come running, and Yinzhen squatted down to pick it up, teasing it in his arms, and ignored the shredded paper on the ground.

However, that night always seemed to have something on his mind, and he couldn't sleep well.Woke up in the middle of the night, but happened to run into Dai Duo who had the news to report.Yinzhen was agitated in his heart, seeing Dai Duo's brisk steps, he was even more displeased, and pulled the elder with a face: "It's so late, what's the matter?"

Dai Duo suppressed his joy, saluted respectfully, and got up before replying: "Go back to the master, the matter of the northwest is done."

After hearing this, Yinzhen's anger subsided a little, and he unconsciously thought of Yinhu, and blurted out, "Is Lao Ba back?"Yinzhen couldn't help thinking that Yinhu might not be able to do anything, so he would rush back.This is his first birthday after founding the mansion, and he wants to see Yinhu, even if it's just in the name of his brother.

Dai Duo was silent for a while, a little uncertain how deep Yinzhen's friendship with Yinhu was.But when he had the news, he had to say it, so he said in a deep voice: "Master, Ba Ye, I'm afraid I won't be able to come back."

Dai Duo's voice was very soft, so soft that only two people could hear it, even if there was another person beside him, he would not be able to hear it if he was a little far away.But Yinzhen felt that it was too noisy, he wanted to cover his ears with his hands, but he held back after all.With a hoarse voice, he asked the sentence squeezed out of his teeth: "Is he dead?"

Only then did Dai Duo report: "The news came from when I was a child, the Lord Long Live hastily summoned the crown prince, Tong Guowei, and Erlundai's eldest son Bu Xiye to discuss matters in the Qianqing Palace late at night. The Tong family has already prepared the funeral ceremony. Eight Ah Brother's saber was also brought back, as well as a memorial to the emperor, all of which said that he was guilty of committing crimes, saying that his death would be a debt to the emperor..."

Yinzhen couldn't hear the words that followed.

For some reason, the first thing Yinzhen felt was relief.The whole body seemed to be light and fluffy, without any strength.It's like being in the clouds, unable to use your strength, but extremely happy.He didn't have to worry anymore, with a strong opponent standing in front of him and a mountain pressing down on him, Yinhu left, and he was relieved, completely relaxed.

Yinzhen was laughing, for the first time in his life, he laughed heartily, more sincerely than ever before.His heart seemed to be empty all of a sudden, the deep feeling like the sea was gone, the memories like the smoke were gone, everything was gone, it was gone...

A young man once said: "I believe in the fourth brother, so I will tell you the truth and entrust you with important matters."

There was once a boy who said: "The fourth brother is really cute."

A teenager once said: "My fourth brother looks good when he smiles."

Once a teenager said again: "Fourth brother, I also have you in my heart."

There was once a teenager who said: "I've always thought about my fourth brother."

Once his memories were full of that shadow, calling four brothers, four brothers...

The boy disappeared, disappeared, and never came back.At that moment, Yinzhen felt that he had forgotten everything, could not remember anything, and did not need to remember anything.A hundred twists and turns are entrusted with empty intestines, the love is not dead, and the person is dead.

Dai Duo didn't know why Yinzhen was smiling, but felt that the smile was very desolate, not happy, but sad.He quietly withdrew, leaving Yinzhen alone, like crazy, smiling all the time, especially creepy in the silent night.

The news of Yinhu's death was kept under wraps and was not made public.But everyone seems to know it.The speed at which bad news spreads is always exceptionally alarming. As soon as the court came down the next day, Yinzhen heard that Concubine Liang passed out. Kangxi's complexion was not very good in the early court.Yinzhen went to Qianqing Palace to make a fuss, and was ordered to study behind closed doors. Yinzhen and I have been holding Yinzhen silently, but I couldn't say a word of dissuasion. Both Yinqi and Yinyou looked very sad, only Yinzhen , still the same, as if he didn't know anything and didn't care about anything.

Yinzhen buried himself in the official affairs of the household department, and sat in the household department for a whole night. It seemed that he really couldn't remember the past, he couldn't remember Yinhu, and he could only do his duty well.I still get up early to study on time every day, go to court on time, and do business on time.For several days, there was almost no difference from usual.It's just that the person lost weight quickly, with a sharp chin and sunken eye sockets. It looked like he had suffered from a serious illness.

Later, it was Su Peisheng who had the courage to persuade him: "Master, you feel uncomfortable, just cry once."

Yinzhen still smiled, since he passed his birthday, he seems to be particularly fond of laughing.It's just that that empty, miserable smile is even scarier than a cold face.

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Kangxi issued a death order, to see people alive, and to see corpses in death.Yinhu's body cannot be mourned until it returns to Beijing.Almost everyone in the court knew that the eighth elder brother went to Qinghai, but died there, and even the body could not be found.But no one can say it, no one dares to say it, like an open secret, but it is a forbidden area that cannot be touched.

On November [-]th, it snowed in Beijing.It was just in time for Yinzhen to take a bath, and he was not bothered by business, so he sat alone in the pavilion in the palace. The earth dragon was burning warmly, and Yinzhen felt very sleepy.I don't know how many days he didn't have a good sleep, he dared not sleep, he didn't have to think about it when he was awake, what should he do when he fell asleep?

Qiang cheered up and recited Buddhist scriptures silently. After only a moment, he leaned against the pillar and fell into a deep sleep.Probably because he was extremely tired, Yinzhen didn't have a dream, he fell into a deep sleep until midnight, and when he woke up he was still in the pavilion, but there were already extra pillows and quilts.

After the snow cleared, the sky seemed to be clear and blue after the dust had been washed away.The snow around the pavilion was melted by the earth dragon, and large areas of stone flowers bloomed enthusiastically on the bluestone slabs.The moonlight is like water, shining on the crystal snow, which is very beautiful.Yinzhen looked at it for a while, then felt that his eyes were a little blurry, and he stretched out his hand to wipe it, but it was already wet.

Yinzhen smiled wryly, and sighed, he was really tired after holding on for half a month.

The wind was a bit chilly at night, Yinzhen didn't call anyone, wrapped in a quilt and still sat in the pavilion, curled up in a corner.Just like when I was a child.At that time, in Gandong No. [-] Institute, he took a child and babbled about how his mother was and how his younger brother was, and kept complaining.The person next to him held him with a small hand, and said some words of comfort in a tender voice.

Who is that person?

Yinzhen rubbed his temples, only to feel a severe headache.If you don't have to think about anything, that's fine.

Yinzhen was dazed in a daze, when suddenly the snow fell on the opposite roof, a figure flashed by, and an arrow with a letter nailed to it hit the pillar behind Yinzhen with a whoosh.Yinzhen dodged instinctively, and was about to call for the assassin to be caught, but the man had disappeared.

The silence in the palace was instantly broken.Someone was yelling to catch the assassin, the lights gradually turned on, and people from Yinzhen's place immediately gathered around to ask questions.Yinzhen said it was all right, and sent them all away. He took a handkerchief to cushion it, and went to read the letter nailed to the arrow.

The letter was written by Yinhu himself: "Fourth brother personally wrote it."

In an instant, memories flooded in, and Yinzhen's head was about to explode. Yinzhen put his head against the pillar and opened the letter with difficulty.

Fourth Brother:

The northwest is remote, and there has been war and chaos for thousands of years.The Han family stationed in Luntai, moved the Yin Mountains, and preserved it in an instant.The younger brother dare not compare himself to a loyal minister and good general, and he does his best to share the worries of his father and brother. He is often afraid that he will not think carefully, play tricks and be self-defeating, and fail the emperor's kindness.

The wind and sand all the way, the starry night and the journey, sleep on the pillow for a while, and travel to the north of the desert.Brother suddenly arrived in the middle of the night, repeatedly exhorting and giving advice.My brother's tears are hard to stop, and his saddle is stained with tears.I am afraid that the road to Huangquan is near and there will not be many days to come, so I have this gift.

Life and death have been in a hurry for [-] years, my younger brother, who is an ordinary talent, met him by chance, and made him his confidant, standing shoulder to shoulder and working hard together, luckily!It's over to peek at each other through the gaps, follow each other over the wall, and die without mercy, even though there are thousands of people, I will go there!Unexpected fortunes and fortunes, short and long life, deep love in robes, shallow ties of flesh and blood.I am a childish child, please take care of my brother, I hope my brother is well, don't miss it.

Yinhu's last pen. 【1】

Yinzhen almost glanced over, those words, like a sharp sword, pierced his heart one by one.Yinzhen finished reading it hastily, but as if he was not sure, he read it again.Memorizing every sentence by heart, Yinzhen suddenly crumpled up the piece of thin paper, threw it into the snow, and cursed in a low voice: "Aixinjueluo Yinhu, I have no relationship with you, why did you send me to you?" Someone sent a letter to me? You go to Huangquan Road, don't drag me. You didn't say that there are no brothers in the Tian family, and I'm not your brother. If you want to ask Gu, go find your brother, why bother looking for me!"

Yinzhen was trembling with anger.The letter fell on the snow, and the ink faded away after a while, and I could no longer read it clearly.Standing there, Yinzhen stared at the last letter left by Yinhu like a knife, and said fiercely: "If you want to die, I will let you die well. Even in the underworld, I will not let you go. Just I want you to see it and make you regret it, why didn't you try your best to live and fulfill your promise to me!"

The self in the memory is saying: "You have to remember, you owe me once, and you have to pay it back alive."

How did Yinhu answer?By the way, he smiled softly and said, "Okay."

The author has something to say: [1] The suicide note is still not written by me... the first two paragraphs were written by Mr. Lantern, and the second paragraph was still written by Mr. Baoyu.