evildoers

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The entire South China region, the top medical school.He has made great achievements in malignant tumors, and has a lot of exchanges with foreign countries.

The most important thing is that this is the school that Lin Zuoqi wants to be admitted to.

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He is a combined undergraduate, master, and doctoral student. He began to teach students when he was a master. He was a class tutor at first, and then a teaching assistant. He is 25 years old and the youngest associate professor in the history of the School of Medicine of C University.

He has a cold personality, and his temper is not very good, but he has the best face, wearing gold-rimmed glasses, slender eyebrows, pale skin, thin, slender waist that seems to be broken, he stands at the window of the classroom When he was smoking next to him, most of the girls in the class couldn't help but look at him.

But he failed the exam very hard.

He is too young to suppress the group of arrogant medical students. Since he was in college, he has only had four hours of deep sleep every day.

At the beginning, he had to resort to drugs - lying in the school where Lin Zuoqi was going to take the exam, he suffered from insomnia all night long, and always dreamed of the boy with the handsome face.

Then I gradually got used to it.

The last time I went to sit in on a psychology class at a law school, a professor said it very well.

She said: People in this world always confuse loneliness with loneliness.Loneliness is loneliness, loneliness is that you don't know whether that person exists or not, and you don't know if he will come. You have been waiting and waiting, and you feel lonely when you see people around you in pairs.Then you might join them too, just pick someone up at random.

She said: But loneliness is different, loneliness is that you know that person exists, but he is not there.Not by your side, don't like you, or, simply dead.

She said: Lonely people are fragile and easy to make do, but lonely people are strong.

Her name is Shen Wanyi.

A gentle name, but such a woman, her lover, is Yu Zheng, who in the legal world is "hard to recommend with blood, and the law of the world is crying for the same".

At that time, Lin Youxi had already known Xu Xu and Lu Zhixu.

Lin Youxi and Shen Wanyi get along very well.

Their getting along is different from the getting along well between Shen Wanyi and Xu Xu.They didn't get along well. A medical professor and a lawyer specializing in civil disputes didn't really have much to talk about.

It's just that what they believe in is the same.

They are all people who refuse to make do with it, that's all.

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Lin Youqi likes to smoke, he often sits on the window sill to smoke, he doesn't like the smell of smoke, he just wants something to do.

He often drank a wheatgrass juice to replace the vitamins lost by smoking.

Although he is busy with work, he often jogs and gets up early. Although he is sometimes borrowed by Boya to do major operations, which last eight or nine hours, his body has always been good.

He doesn't play games, but occasionally plays cards. He gets up early, and sometimes when he comes back from a morning run, he will go for a walk in the school woods.

Unlike many people's impressions of him, although Lin Youqi is cold-faced, his lifestyle is actually very gentle, and it can even be called health-preserving.

He was afraid of death.

In the past two years, my parents' health has been poor and they are getting old. They don't have many days left.

After they all left, Lin Youqi was the only one in this world who still remembered Lin Zuoqi.

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Ten years ago, a boy with a handsome face was lying on the roof of a building warmed by the sun, helping his brother take the rice from the corner of his mouth, and smiling helplessly: "What will you do if I'm not here anymore?"

At that time, Lin Youxi, who was still ignorant of the world, turned pale just thinking of that possibility, and said in a low voice, "I will wait for you to come back."

"What if I die?"

"I'll wait for you too."

"That's more or less the same." The boy, who rarely showed willfulness, pinched his brother's face, then suddenly laughed, and kissed him on the cheek.

"I lied to you to play," he squinted his eyes and taught his brother: "If I'm not here, you must not wait for me. Live as you are happy. When you meet someone you like, don't miss me. Just go. When I come back , will take you back."

You Qi stared at him blankly.

"What if I'm not here?"

"I'll always be waiting for you, always waiting." The boy put his arms around his elder brother: "So you fool, if you think of me still waiting helplessly, no matter how far you go, you have to run back right away. "

"Why can you wait and I can't?"

"Because you are too soft-hearted and like to cry. It's useless. If you stay alone, I won't worry."

A prophecy.

Shen Wanyi has a box, which contains all the letters Yu Zheng wrote to her when she was away from home. She wrote a sentence on the box: In the past, she said with a smile what she meant, but now she comes to her.

Probably every couple, when they are together, will smile and ask: What will you do if I die?

But when this day really came, it was impossible to do anything.

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Now, I am not soft-hearted, and I don't like to cry so much. Now, I have become very useful.

I will wait and wait.

So, Lin Zuoqi, you fool, you just think that I'm still waiting here, alone, without any joy.No matter if you go too much, run back to me quickly.

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A long time has passed since the year Lin Zuoqi died.

Her parents moved abroad, and most of her old friends moved out of C City, only Shen Wanyi stayed here.

Probably, it is indeed old.

He stopped teaching and moved back to the original house of the Lin family. Zuo Qi had been dead for 14 years, and his room was still the same.

He started not to go out all day long, and only planted flowers in the garden. Sometimes, when he watered the flowers in the evening, he saw groups of students coming back from school, with green faces, white shirts, and sunshine on their faces .

Gradually, he couldn't remember that he had been so happy back then.

It's just that it's all over.

He lives alone in a huge house. Sometimes, he can't sleep at night, so he puts on his clothes, turns on the light, and does it in the living room for a while.

Sometimes when he was sitting, he would have hallucinations, as if these miserable years were just a nightmare of 17-year-old Lin Youqi. When he woke up from the dream, he should still be the ignorant and kind Youqi, His Lin Zuoqi would still stay by his side, calling him brother and kissing him on the cheek with a smile.

He is a medical student. Originally, he should not believe in ghosts and gods.

But he very much hopes that there are ghosts in this world.

Be it ghosts or people, only Lin Zuoqi is still there, seeing him like this, how could he be left struggling in this world alone.

This is Lin Youqi who he regards as a treasure.

How could he be willing?

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Lin Youqi's first gray hair was at the age of 32.

Ke Yao came to see him.

He stayed at home for too long, and his skin was pale. When he opened the door, the bright sunlight outside shone on him. At that moment, Ke Yao thought his hair was all white.

Lin You stayed with him to eat at home.

While eating, Ke Yao suddenly said, "Teacher, you have a white hair."

He reached out his hand, but Lin Youxi avoided it.

Ke Yao asked him.

"Teacher? Do you want to accept me even for a second?"

"No."

"Even for a second?"

"No."

In this world, there is a vast sea of ​​people, and there is no boundless void throughout the ages. There is only one Lin Zuoqi in this huge world, with 60 billion people.

And now, there is none.

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After Ke Yao left, Lin Youqi sat on the sofa in the living room and had a dream.

He dreamed of Lin Zuoqi.

He dreamed that Zuo Qi was wearing a white shirt, as tall and handsome as he remembered, and he glanced at You Qi, then suddenly turned around and left.

Barefoot, Lin Youxi stumbled after him, calling his name loudly, crying with tears all over his face, heart-piercing.

Please take me with you.

You take me away.Don't leave me here alone.

I beg you.

After waking up from the dream, he was still alone in the dark.

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In the dream, he cried heart-rendingly, but when he woke up his throat still hurt. When he heard the knock on the door, he thought it was Ke Yao who turned back.

But the one standing at the door was not Ke Yao.

Is a strange middle school student.

Wearing a high school uniform shirt, tall and handsome.

Yuqi remembered these eyes.

This pair of eyes will bend down when she smiles, and when she is acting like a baby, her eyes are full of smiles.

These eyes are scary when he is angry, but he is not afraid at all, because he has never been really angry with himself.

In the last days of his life, he always laughed and was mean, and he can't remember those vicious words, but You Qi still remembers the sadness in these eyes.

The pair of eyes looked at You Qi for a while, and then, slowly, but just as in memory, they curved up.

Brother, I'm back.

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Many years later, You Qi still remembered that one month before Lin Zuoqi's death, Lin Zuoqi woke up late one night.

He touched Youxi's face, but Youxi was pretending to be asleep and didn't wake up.

"Brother, do you believe in reincarnation?"

"Brother, I believe in reincarnation. Therefore, when I die, I will definitely tell myself desperately: You must remember that the person you love the most in this life is Lin Youxi. You must remember, come back to him, don't Leave him here alone."

"Brother, if there is a next life, I will definitely come to you."

The author has something to say: Do you believe in reincarnation?

Lu Jiaming's Diary

baby diary

My name is Lu Jiaming, and I am four and a half years old.

I am in kindergarten, and my brother said that I will be able to go to elementary school in a few months.

My favorite person is my dad.

I also like Brother Xia Chen.

Brother Xia Chen and we are a family.

March [-]th, sunny.

Today the teacher told a story called Little Tadpole Looking for His Mother.

Xiuxiu didn't like the story, he said it was silly.But other students like this story very much.

I also like the story.

On March [-]th, it rained.

it rained today.

Aunt Shen came to my house for dinner again.

I used to dislike Aunt Shen because she always introduced new mothers to Dad.

I don't want a new mother.

Because with a new mom, my mom wouldn't be coming back.

Dad said that I want to like Aunt Shen.

But I don't like Aunt Shen.

I am not good.

On March [-], it rained again.

I asked Xiuxiu if my mother would not come back by herself and asked us to find him.

Xiuxiu said that if I asked his mother any more questions, he would trample my little daisy to death.

March [-], sunny day.

Aunt Shen came again today, bringing another aunt.

That aunt asked me a lot of questions.

Later, I heard the aunt and brother say that because I don't have a mother, I will have psychological problems and I need to see a doctor.

I don't want to go to the doctor.

The injections are painful.

Xiuxiu said that psychiatrists are cheating money and idiots. He went to see psychiatrists before, and those doctors also said that he had psychological problems.He didn't believe it, and it turned out that nothing happened.

Xiuxiu also has no mother.

I asked Xiuxiu, can you take me to my mother, and if I find my mother, I don't need to see a psychiatrist.

In the garden of Martha's Manor Private Kindergarten, under the bushy rose trellis, there are two children sitting.

"Have you brought your pen? Where's the bread? Where's the bedtime story book?" Li Xiu, who had smooth brown hair and was wearing sturdy denim overalls, was sitting on the grass, flipping through Lu Jiaming's bag with a displeased expression.

"Xiuxiu," Lu Jiaming, who has milky white skin and is wearing a goose yellow sportswear, argued tenderly beside him, "I brought them all."

Little Hades flipped through Lu Jiaming's bag.He took out his bag again to show off: "Look at what I brought, this anesthesia needle is very powerful, if you encounter bad guys who don't have eyes, you can stun them with one injection, and they won't kill you...don't you... Afraid, I will teach you how to use it, put your hands here..."

Lu Jiaming looked at the small syringe in fear, carefully touched the place Li Xiu was pointing at with his finger, and retracted again: "Xiuxiu, I still can't use it well."

Little Hades gave him a look of resentment, and took out a watch with a compass to look at him: "It's eight o'clock, we're leaving!"

"Can I go home and see if my father is looking for me?" Lu Jiaming asked weakly.

"Your dad won't look for you! He thought you were in class!"

"Then can I go and see if my brother is looking for me..."

Little Hades sighed deeply.

"Lu Jiaming, if you don't leave, I won't take you to find your mother!"

The two children set off from Martha's Manor.

Li Xiu took the GPS and took Lu Jiaming on the bus to N city - after interrogating Lu Jiaming's baby, he felt that there must be clues to the place where Lu Jiaming's father would take Lu Jiaming back every year.

Lu Jiaming was carrying a backpack in the shape of an angry bird, and sat obediently on the seat, not moving or looking around, while Li Xiaoyan was holding the bag and scanning the people in the carriage vigilantly.

When changing buses for the second time, Lu Jiaming couldn't help asking Li Xiu: "Why do we take the bus? Dad used to take taxis..."

"It's safe to take the bus."

"Safe?" Lu Jiaming looked puzzled.

"Think about it, if we take a taxi, people will see us as two children, and no one will know if we are dragged to sell. There are many people on the bus. So be safe."

Lu Jiaming was puzzled: "Don't you have an anesthetic needle?"

"You're stupid, what if I hit him with an anesthetic injection and he drove his car into a ditch?" Li Xiu frowned, with a look of disgust on his face: "So I hate this kind of abduction in a car the most, it's not safe , there is no technical content at all!"

Lu Jiaming looked at him adoringly.

The third bus went directly to the gate of University N.

It was the time when class was over in the morning, and there were students everywhere at the school gate. Many girls saw the two beautiful children holding hands and walking towards the school with short legs. Take out your phone and take a picture.

Li Xiu frowned in disgust, and gestured towards them.

Lu Jiaming asked with a puzzled look, "Xiuxiu, what are you doing?"

"Erect middle finger."

"Do you remember which floor it is?"

"I remember, it's the fourth floor." Lu Jiaming was very enthusiastic.

"You remember correctly?" Li Xiu kicked the door: "Do you know the ten numbers?"

"I know," Lu Jiaming recited to him, "One, two, three, four, five... Xiuxiu, listen to me, one, two, three..."

Li Xiu lay on the door, watching the advertisement for unlocking with his feet on his feet.

"Did you come last year?" Li Xiu folded his arms and looked at the door with a questioning face.

"Yes." Lu Jiaming lay on the edge of the door, trying to see what was inside.

"The windows are very clean, the door is also very clean, there is not much dust, someone must help clean it." Li Xiu poked Lu Jiaming: "Who else does your father know in this building?"

"I know Grandma Zhao."

"Then her house must have a key." Li Xiu commanded Lu Baobao: "Lu Jiaming, hurry up and get the key."

Lu Jiaming looked upright: "The teacher said, you can't lie."

"Do you still want to find your mother?" Li Xiu said with a straight face.

"If you lie, find my mother, and my mother will not want me."

"Your mother never wanted you."

Lu Jiaming's eyes suddenly turned red.

"Forget it, let me help you cheat, okay?"

"Xiuxiu, why are you wearing my hat..."

"Because I have brown hair."

"Xiuxiu, why are you carrying my schoolbag?"

"Because I can show her my homework!"

"Xiuxiu..."

"what happened again?"

"Xiuxiu, you look like grandma wolf~"

"Evil, such an old house." Li Xiu stood at the door with disgust: "Lu Jiaming, don't come in yet."

"Okay~" Lu Jiaming leaned on the door frame and looked inside curiously.

He was too young, although Lu Zhixu brought him here several times, he never remembered clearly what it looked like inside.

"I'll look for it and see if there are any clues..." Li Xiu walked inside while talking.

The baby squatted at the door and waited for a while, then shouted into the door: "Xiuxiu, can I go in now?"

"No, I haven't checked this room for cobwebs yet."

Thinking of the spider, Baby Lu shuddered, and continued to squat obediently at the door.

After 10 minutes, Li Xiu took a classmate and recorded it.

"Lu Jiaming, this is your mother's classmate record."

Lu Jiaming's eyes widened, and he carefully took the classmate book.

"Xiuxiu, you are amazing..."

"What's more," Li Xiu showed a stack of letters from behind, "Do you know who gave your name?"

Lu Jiaming shook his head.

"It's your mother."

It's just that there is one more thing that Li Xiu didn't tell him.

The late eldest daughter of the Lu family, Lu Zhiqing, was nicknamed Jiajia.

Her husband is called Sun Ming.

Because Lu Jiaming still wanted to find his mother, Li Xiu took him to a construction company called "Qiming".

He told Lu Jiaming that the boss of this company used to be Lu Jiaming's mother's best friend.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, two special visitors came from Qiming Company.

They are two children who are only four or five years old.

One is white and tender, with black eyes, and the other is a little mixed race with brown hair and blue eyes.

The lady at the front desk saw that they were cute and wanted to tease them, so she asked, "Kids, who are you looking for?"

The mixed-race child raised his chin and told her with a sullen face, "Tell your boss that Lu Zhiqing asked us to come here."

Sun Ming has never been married in these years.

There were several women one after another, but in the end they all disappeared.Occasionally, someone would give him advice, but when it was time to talk about marriage, he would always think of some past events.

This afternoon, the front desk of the company called and gave a name, which made him run all the way to the door of the reception room regardless of his image, but stood at the door and dared not go in.

Behind that door, hidden his lifelong regrets.

Finally he opened the door.

There were no floods, no beasts, no scolding and crying on the day of the funeral, and no one who came to ask the teacher for his sins.

Some were just a child with fair skin, black hair, and eyes that looked exactly like Lu Zhiqing.

He was still so short, so small, with his head tilted, a little shy, but also looked at Sun Ming curiously.

"My name is Lu Jiaming, I am four and a half years old..."

He tenderly asked: "Uncle Sun, do you know where my mother is now?"

"Tell him." Li Xiu stood by the door, looking coldly at this man named Sun Ming.

You tell Lu Jiaming that his mother's name is Lu Zhiqing, and she died in the hospital four years ago.

You tell Lu Jiaming, your name is Sun Ming, you are his father, you cheated and raised a woman outside, and until his mother died, she only had resentment towards you.

You tell Lu Jiaming that no matter how well-behaved he is, no matter how obedient, gentle, not deceitful, no matter how much vegetables he eats, no matter how many math problems he does, his mother will never come back.

On March [-], the weather was fine.

Today, Xiuxiu took me to find my mother.

The teacher said that if we were not good, my mother would not want us.

I'm good, I don't fight, I don't lie, I like vegetables, I do math every day.Xiuxiu said that I am very good, my mother will not let me go.

But my mother never came to see me.

It turned out that my mother was dead.