evildoers

September [-]st, Friday, the weather was fine.

The school starts today, the school is very beautiful, and I am very tired from carrying luggage. I walked around the school with Yang Ying, and the meals in the cafeteria are similar to those in junior high school.

Yang Ying has been talking excitedly about a classmate of hers in junior high school, saying that she is a couple with the monitor of her class.I was just her classmate in elementary school, and I haven't seen her for three years. I didn't expect her to be so lively.

Yang Ying claims that she is a new kind of human being called a rotten girl, who supports boys and boys together, and in her words, it is called "stirring the base and having love".

Saturday, September [-], the weather was overcast.

After the first class meeting in high school, the head teacher was a fat female teacher, and she said that military training would start tomorrow.

During breakfast, Yang Ying came over with a group of girls to congratulate me, saying that I was in the same class as her junior high school monitor, which meant that there would definitely be two handsome guys in the class that people couldn't take their eyes off.

I think she is exaggerating too much.Good-looking boys are mostly frivolous, and they don't have any connotations. If they are only good-looking, it doesn't make any sense.

Sunday, September [-]rd, the weather was fine.

I saw the boy whom Yang Ying called handsome.

He is really good-looking, his skin is very fair, his eyes are especially beautiful, the corners of the eyes are slightly upturned, like a cat.His eyes are black and white, and when he looks at people, his eyes are extremely clear.

And he doesn't like to show off at all. There are many boys in the class who deliberately wear loose T-shirts to military training, and deliberately interrupt the instructor's words.He was wearing a school uniform and stood there quietly.A few girls next to me have been talking about him in a low voice, saying that he got the second grade in the exam.But I felt inexplicably proud in my heart, and I always felt that I discovered him first.

Is my head broken!

Monday, September [-]th, the weather was fine.

I think my head is really broken.

He stood at the head of our class. He was the temporary monitor chosen by the head teacher. Because of my height, I stood behind him, separated only by a boy.When I stood in the military posture, my eyes kept looking at the boy over his shoulder.

The school did not issue clothes for military training, we wore school uniforms like white T-shirts.They all said it was ugly like a face pocket, but it didn't look bulky when worn on him.

He stood tall and straight, and I suddenly thought of a very old-fashioned metaphor: standing like a poplar.

It turns out that in this world, there are people who are tall and straight like trees, covered with sunshine, making people feel warm and bright at a glance, they really exist.

Tuesday, September [-]th, the weather was fine.

I am really happy today.

Although I cried a lot, I was still very happy.

Before the class meeting tonight, a few more lively girls in the class were discussing the blackboard newspaper, and they were reading a sentence aloud. It was "Linjiang Fairy" by Yan Jidao. "They said it was written by Yan Shu, I think they remembered it wrong, because Yan Shu's is "Helpless flowers fall, deja vu Yan returns", but they insisted that it was Yan Shu's.One of them, a girl who shared the dorm with me, said, "Doesn't Lin Xuan often read poetry? It's best to ask her!"

Although they said so, when I recited the whole poem and told them that it was written by Yan Jidao, they didn't believe it again and insisted that it was written by Yan Shu.

I'm not good at arguing, so I just argued a few words and stopped talking. They were still urging me to write down the lyrics of this "Yan Shu"... I almost wanted to leave them and leave, but beside Suddenly someone said: "This poem was not written by Yan Shu, but by Yan Jidao."

I don't know why I had a sore nose at the time.

Maybe it's because the girls who were contradicting me one moment believed him the next.

Maybe it was because I really felt wronged in my heart, and the person who rescued me was "he".

I walked out of the classroom in a hurry, and I didn't care what he said later, because when I just walked out of the classroom door, my tears had already fallen.

I cried a lot in the toilet.I haven't cried in a long time, but today I shed a lot of tears.

Probably, because I know very well in my heart that the better he is, the less likely it is mine.

September [-]th, Thursday, the weather was overcast. A very special student came to the class today.

Before the boy approached, a few girls in the training class nearby whispered, and the girls in our class also started talking in a low voice.

When I saw his face, I was taken aback for a moment, and then I remembered that this is the domineering "His Royal Highness" that Yang Ying mentioned.

His name is Li Xiu, he is of mixed race, he looks like someone who came out of a cartoon, with dark brown hair, a high nose bridge, and a pair of eyes as blue as the sea.When I read the translations before, I always felt that these descriptions were very vulgar. After I saw them, I realized that this is the purest beauty.

I don't like Li Xiu.

Because as soon as Li Xiu came over, without introducing himself, he grabbed "him" by the arm and dragged "him" aggressively under the shade of a tree near the stand, with a disgusted expression on his face, talking to "him" What.

"He" has been standing by Li Xiu's side, accepting Li Xiu's accusation, "he" has a troubled look on his face, and looks this way from time to time, showing a sorry expression.

Li Xiu's voice was very loud, and I vaguely heard words like "training for the mentally handicapped" and "wasting life". I hoped that Li Xiu would scold him from time to time.

Even Yang Ying's "His Royal Highness" is not qualified to scold "him".

However, "he" has a really good temper, with a gentle smile on his face all the time, no matter how upset Li Xiu's expression is, he would just add a word or two in a low voice, he doesn't look cowardly like this, Rather personable.

I think I am really poisoned too deeply.

On September [-], Friday, the weather was light and rainy.

The military training is over, and the class officially begins.

This morning, for some reason, "he" who usually arrived 10 minutes earlier than the class time was unexpectedly late.I think it may be because of the rain.

When "he" entered the classroom, he had already been in class for 10 minutes.He came with Li Xiu, Li Xiu was in a good mood today, even if he was late, he still had a proud smile on his face.Put your hand on "his" shoulder, and whisper something in "his" ear.He pampered him as usual and apologized politely to the teacher.

Why do two people who obviously don't match at all meet each other?

Moreover, in the eyes of others, there is an inseparable feeling between them.

In the afternoon, Yang Ying came over to "accept relatives".

She is much prettier than the last time I saw her, she cut her hair short, she looks very good-looking, I even envy her a bit, because she dares to pester "him" to ask and talk non-stop, even if Li Xiu disgusted her and asked her to go back to her classroom.She also just quarreled with Li Xiu, and continued to circle around "him".The girls in our class all said that Yang Ying liked "him".

I envy her courage, because I decided not to do that.

I think I really like "him".

On Friday, September 29, the weather was fine.

A month passed like this.

The school had a seven-day holiday, and the students all went home one after another.

I didn't go home because my father was on a business trip this month, and there was no one at home.

There is a beautiful lake next to the school, and there are many lotus flowers growing in it.I heard that "he" lives nearby. I often walk by the lake in the evening, wondering if I can meet "him".

It's an idiotic idea...but every time I think about it, I feel a faint anticipation in my heart.

October [-], Sunday, heavy rain.

Today I saw "him" by the lake.

To be precise, it is actually "he" and him.

---------------------------------------- May [-], Monday, the weather was heavy rain.

It has been many years and I have not touched this diary.

The reason why I took it out and read it again was because I ran into Yang Ying again after get off work today.

She was very beautiful when she was reading, and she is even more beautiful now. She has dyed wine red hair and smokes a long and thin cigarette. She is the boss of the company we are working with this time.

I knew long, long ago that she would be a powerful woman.

But at that time, I didn't expect that he would be so powerful.

After talking about business, she invited me to dinner and we went shopping together.Although she has become a strong woman now, her informal temper before has not changed. She suggested to go for a walk around the school.

When I was studying in the past, I always felt that the streets around the school were full of beautiful things, and there were many things I wanted to buy, and I wished I could buy them all at once.When you have money now, it's time to pass.

Those beautiful clothes in the window, the hardcover set that I have seen countless times, have long since disappeared.

But some things never fade.

Yang Ying went to try on a suit and asked me to hold the bag for her.The zipper of her bag was not closed, and my hand slipped, and a lot of things in the bag fell out and scattered on the ground.

The two of us squatted down to pick up together, cosmetic box, lipstick, change... and a photo.

A small one-inch photo with a blue cloth background, the kind used to affix a certificate.

My hands froze.

The person in that photo is a very, very familiar person to me.

High nose bridge, brown hair, sea-blue eyes, and that haughty expression... There are a lot of things that have been dusty in the past, and suddenly they come out.

In a bright classroom, sitting in the front row, a tall and straight boy in a white shirt, always smiling gently... There are explanations for all the things that I have never figured out.

I always thought that it might be "him" that Yang Ying likes, and that's why she revolves around "him".

It turned out not to be.

The courage to not back down even if they were disgusted, the enthusiasm to go around the two of them all day and make jokes day after day, the flushed face whenever they quarreled with Li Xiu... everything has an explanation.

What she liked was never the gentle and sunny squad leader.What she likes has always been the arrogant and irritable Li Xiu who speaks viciously, calls her "crazy", and tells her to stay away from "him".

Her "His Royal Highness" is arrogant and domineering, and only treats "him" differently. No matter how other girls try to talk to him, it is useless. Therefore, Yang Ying will circle around "him" all day long, so as to get a little bit of Li Xiu's attention. .

Then, she was joking with them, saying, "Sir Squad Leader and His Royal Highness the Prince are a match made in heaven", she was being scolded as a nympho, she was clenching her fists and saying "I have love" with a happy face, saying When she said "JQ is full", what kind of mood did she feel in her heart?

Is her mood the same as that afternoon of that year, the afternoon when I wrote my last diary, when I was by the lake, I saw Li Xiu holding "him" by the shoulders, pulling "him" over, and kissing him fiercely? When "he" is exactly the same?

At this point, everything is over.

Looking at this diary again, I laugh more than I cry.

At that time, I almost hypocritically piled up all the beautiful words on "him": upright, sunny, gentle, tolerant...but "he" is also worthy of these words.

Every girl has had a wonderful dream, in that dream, there will be a tall and sunny prince who will come to you at the best age and season.

He is the dream I once had.

Regrettably, not every girl is a beautiful princess. We may be the maids who clean the palace, or we may be the maids who comb the princess's seaweed-like hair and watch the princess and the prince enter the wedding hall.

Who cares?

What I remember is that in a certain year and a certain month, in a hot and bright classroom, he ignored the horrible birthmark on my face and asked me gently with a smile: "Since you like poetry so much, come and help the class together." Let's publish the newspaper..."

Other than that, forget about it.

I heard Yang Ying say that "they" are doing well now.

I always wish "him" well.

Because, in a certain year, in a certain month, in a certain afternoon by the lake, I once had a heart-piercing crush on her.

The author has something to say: Don't shoot me.Baby's last episode looks like this.

I've always wanted to write from this angle, hahaha.