crossing the northern latitude

After his father passed away, Lu Yan didn't like to talk for a long time.

His highest record was that he didn't talk to anyone for three days, and he didn't answer any questions from his family, just stayed in a dull mood for three whole days.After going to school, he didn't get much better. Unless it was necessary, he didn't bother to open his mouth, and his classmates would pass notes to him when they had something to do.

It seemed that his anger was completely taken away, and he was tired of even communicating with people.

In fact, it was not like this before.

When he was young, Lu He couldn't take care of him because he was away from home for three days at work. His mother, Xie Lin, was a dancer with a lot of activities, so she didn't take care of him.

All sorts of reasons piled up, the family was a bit wary of Lu Yannian, Lu He didn't have time to take care of it, Xie Lin didn't dare to take care of it, whoever let Lu Yan have a good grade as a talisman, the troubles caused are not painful or itchy , and it can't rise to a matter of principle, half a child, just let him go.

When he was in junior high school, he had the experience of being bullied, and after bottoming out, he turned directly into rebellion.

When his secondary illness was the most serious, he changed four classes in one semester, transferred from private school to public school, tossed and tossed... Thanks to his uncle Xie Yu who had money for him, the family also felt indebted to him, Otherwise, it would be so noisy, and I would have no books to read.

Fortunately, the situation improved a lot after entering high school, mainly due to the poisoning incident at school.Lu Yan gradually understood that the world was full of dangers, and his father fought every day with lunatics.He also understood that making troubles all day long won't make Lu He come back and look at him more, it will only make Lu He lose face, so he plans to stop playing, do something serious, and study hard for a few years.

After two years of silence, the temper has not completely improved, and the accident came just as it was said.

Knowing the day his father died, Lu Yan was in school.

It was a self-study class. He played Doudizhu with the people at the back table. He obviously won every game, but the strange thing was that he never won.When he was frantically throwing the cards, the homeroom teacher hurried to find him and called him out...

Then everything happened very quickly.His mother, Xie Lin, fainted when she heard the news, all the things were done with the help of Lu Yan by his uncle.The situation was special and couldn't be dealt with. The police department organized a simple memorial service. Lu Yan was holding the photo of his father wearing a police uniform. He was dazedly watching a group of police officers salute the photo in his arms. He couldn't help crying. I can't cry.

Don't dare to cry, don't dare to collapse.There seems to be a voice telling him in the dark: You must grow up quickly.

Xie Lin couldn't stand it, and self-harmed twice.The first time he cut his wrist, Lu Yan who got up to drink water found out that the toilet was full of blood, dripping all over the floor.The second time she wanted to jump off the building, she was rescued when Lu Yan came back, and her uncle took her back to her natal home.There was no one at home, so Lu Yan could only be forced to live in a dormitory.

Damn Lu Yan, beautiful life.When she was not married, she was pampered by her family, but when she was married, she was spoiled by her husband. Even Lu Yan, who was abusive every day at that time, had to give her three points. After 40, she still looked like a little girl, and no one was a mother. look.Her husband passed away, and half of her sky collapsed. She wanted to follow Lu He, so she didn't care about Lu Yan's life or death.

Those days were difficult, and Lu Yan hated school very much.

Originally, he was not very popular at school, and if something like that happened at home, his classmates were also afraid of making him suffer.He seems to have become an existence that everyone in the school can't avoid - the teacher dare not say anything about him when his grades are seriously regressed, the students look at him with complex and cautious eyes, and they are cautious in every word they say to him, wishing to put their sympathy in two The words are engraved on the face.

There is no way to avoid it.You can't whitewash the peace by pretending nothing happened, and you can't do it if you want to accept it calmly, but you will be more sensitive to everything around it.

He didn't want to talk more and more.

Because he tended to talk to him and ignored him, the group leader always wrote notes to convey his homework. He seemed to be dumb. Over time, people in the school could only write notes when they had something to ask him.

Because he hated the school so much, before leaving school, Lu Yan skipped a week of class for no reason, and didn't even bother to ask for leave.He didn't do anything, just lay in the dormitory in a daze, slumped, looking for comedy movies to watch when he was bored, rubbing the corners of his eyes while watching.

The teacher was very anxious, afraid that something might happen to him at school, but also afraid that he would be stimulated by going up and preaching, so he had no choice but to invite his uncle to the school to save his life.

When Xie Yu came, he didn't even have a buffer, so he gave him a lot of words.Ask if you want to study in a different environment, go to Dingyan and live with his grandma.

"Dingyan's conditions are not as good as here, but the good thing is that no one knows you, no one knows what you were like before, and no one will look at you with eyes you don't like." Xie Yu said, "I don't Know whether this is a good choice, I just give you a suggestion. Now you can't help yourself at home, don't let your dad look at you and sigh in the sky, understand?"

Just such a sentence cured most of Lu Yan's middle-aged illness during adolescence, and passed his most hopeless period of time.

After he came back, his life became much quieter. There were no more endless visits from leaders to family members, visits from relatives and friends, and Xie Lin’s heart-piercing cries... He escaped, but he escaped easily, didn’t he? Fleeing away, but running away briskly and eager to get rid of something in the body after saying goodbye.

Although--

Although the grandma at home always talks about his mother Kefu in front of him, although the dog named Ding Ding raised by grandma is really ugly, although the people in the class don't seem to have high IQs, although the group of people on the basketball court are great players. Rotten can still indulge in self-indulgence, although the boys smoking in the toilet look more idiot than one, although...

Although he encountered a lot, he finally convinced himself——Ren, don't make trouble in your father's hometown, he must change his appearance throughout the third year of high school, and become a good young man who is gentle, polite and loves to learn.

After all, no matter how noisy he is, no one will call him back and scold him now - "See how I deal with you when I get home".

There is no one who can control him, and some responsibilities have even been shifted to his shoulders. His mother, his grandma, that family...maybe he will be responsible in the future.Perhaps the best growth catalyst is the impermanence of the world, and Lu Yan adapted to his new role very quickly.

In his eyes, the new school is a place where idiots gather, and he always feels that no matter how he looks at the people around him, he is not very smart.The only one who seemed to have a bright head—that man named Meng Tunan was later found to be an idiot, a different kind of idiot... unique and a little funny, as if he had no business to do, and he knew how to pretend to be crazy all day long.

At first, I thought it was someone who had nothing to do with each other, but that day when grandma mentioned Lu Yan at the dinner table, she realized who this person was.At that time, Lu Yan was shocked, and it took him a long time to match the big boy who was laughing and joking in school with the little boy with blood all over his face when he was a child.

Lu Yan was impressed because he bled a lot. The scene of bleeding was very scary.Maybe he forgot his face and eyebrows, but he remembered the blood on the other end very clearly.

Lu Yan also thought about it, could he be so stupid now because he was stupid at that time?It's not my fault, is it?

Ever since he remembered that incident, he has been feeling inexplicably guilty. He always feels that he owes the other party something, and he is too embarrassed to mention it.

After the note was passed on, Lu Yan was very satisfied. He felt that those few words should express his apology, and it was expressed in letters, so solemn.But Meng Tunan didn't understand at all. After all, normal people can't see that there is apology...

After class, Deputy Sun said that he would have a meeting in the next class, and that he asked the math teacher Jiang Bo to watch over them for self-study, do the test papers, and then correct each other.Chaos broke out in the classroom as soon as Deputy Sun left. Everyone looked for relatives and friends to change seats.They often do this in self-study classes, and teachers like Jiang Bo don't even care about it, so today's situation is very chaotic.

Lu Yan is not used to this kind of scene.Although he was skinny in the past, but because of his good grades, he was always able to stay in good classes. The school atmosphere is good, and the teachers are strict but also helpful. He has always respected the teacher for what he should do in class, how to make trouble after class, and manage time reasonably. .The loose atmosphere of Dingyan's low-level school made him very uncomfortable, and he always felt that he was not here to study, but to come to school for vacation.

It's noisy to change seats.

He took out the earphone plugs, took out the paper and started to work, thinking that he could sleep if he finished it early.

I couldn't finish listening to a song, and only did three questions, and the earphones were ripped off.

Looking up, the girl at the front table was gone, and Meng Tunan's face was in front of her.

The other party's face was smiling brightly. At the moment, he was holding a notebook in both hands, and smiling with his face on it.

The words are beautiful, and it looks like it has been practiced.

It says——

"I changed seats with Li Xiaoyuan."

Lu Yan finished reading, looked up at him, and nodded to indicate that he had read it.

Meng Tunan also nodded, indicating that he received it, and turned a page later——

"Do you want to go to some exciting activities together?"

What a mess.Lu Yan looked up at him: "...how do you want to stimulate?"

"Oh, so you can talk." Meng Tunan put down his notebook with a smile, "I thought you liked to use a pen instead of your mouth... I would be happy to accompany you. Anyway, I write beautifully, and I can make an appointment anytime I need calligraphy."

Lu Yan didn't answer his words, and asked, "What activities are you going to do? It's raining outside."

"I have an umbrella." Meng Tunan approached him, "Go, go smoke."

If you want to fucking teach me, I will be able to do it in elementary school.Lu Yan let out an oh, and replied in a lukewarm manner: "Smoking is harmful to your health."

Meng Tunan opened his eyes wide: "Wow, are you so obedient?"

Lu Yan wanted to persuade him not to waste time on those things, and not try to do these things to make himself look like a fool.But the last thing I said was: "It's raining, so I won't go."

"so what!"

Yu Yan's Adventure Diary

After all, the person who set up a three-good student for himself cannot be collapsed, Lu Yan insisted on refusing: "You go by yourself."

He no longer needs to fill his life with so-called "adult" activities, and even begins to resent those behaviors.

Meng Tunan thought for a while: "Then why don't you skip the next class? I'll take you to my calligraphy classroom to play. I can engrave seals and teach you how to engrave things."

Does this person know that they are already in their third year of high school?Lu Yan found that Meng Tunan was a little careless, and his ideology was still at the stage of "I want to play with my friends and do everything together".

Or maybe everyone here is like that.

"No, I'll do the questions." Lu Yan sincerely persuaded, "You should also read more books."

After speaking, he lowered his head and wrote a few words on the draft paper, carefully tore off the corner and folded it, and put it in Meng Tunan's palm with a smile.

Meng Tunan opened it in bewilderment, only to see four neat big characters - "OK, OK, learn, learn."

"..." Meng Tunan, who was studying hard with his hands in his hands, was speechless for a moment, and he muttered silently, "Unlucky."

Lu Yan ignored him and did the test with headphones on.After ringing the class bell soon, Jiang Bo walked in and said that everyone should study by themselves. He thought he could stay in peace for a while, but Jiang Bo called him out again.

There are buzzing voices in the classroom, which is annoying.His previous middle school self-study class was very quiet. Why do people here have to talk even when they are writing papers?Lu Yan listened to the movement inside, coupled with the sound of rain outside, he became irritable.

Then Jiang Bo said something that annoyed him even more: "You were a science student before, weren't you?"

Lu Yan nodded.

"Your class teacher said that you have enrolled in the junior class and passed the college entrance examination in advance." Jiang Bo smiled, "How do you think the difficulty of mathematics in the college entrance examination? Is it okay for you?"

Lu Yan was obviously impatient to answer this question.During the half month since he came to school, he was interviewed repeatedly by many teachers, and he was really impatient.

"that's it."

Jiang Bo didn't expect that the student's speech was a bit... harsh, so he stopped chatting.

"Originally we planned to ask you together with several teachers, but your head teacher asked me to ask you first." Jiang Bo pushed his glasses, "I am also the head teacher of the 82 science class, we think you can consider whether to transfer Science, come to my class. To be honest, your comprehensive essay..."

Lu Yan didn't finish listening, so he interrupted directly: "Teacher, I'm just learning Chinese, you don't need to talk to me."

Jiang Bo frowned, with a puzzled expression on his face: "Your grades in science are so good, you won the prize in the chemistry competition in junior high school, and you are still at the provincial level. Even if your grades have regressed a bit recently, I believe that you must work hard..."

"Teacher Jiang." Lu Yan interrupted the other party for the second time, "Can we stop talking about this?"

Because of the sound of the rain, they need to speak a little louder.Lu Yan's words sounded very impatient and a little rude.

Jiang Bo was not annoyed, he said: "Lu Yan, life is very long, you can't do things too much according to your own temperament, you are not a liberal arts student, you don't have enough knowledge reserves, no matter how hard you work now, you are still worse than others After two years of study and accumulation, can the college entrance examination be willful? And..."

Lu Yan interrupted Jiang Bo for the third time: "I'm not self-willed, last time I took the comprehensive quiz..."

"You almost failed the quiz last time." Jiang Bo finished speaking for him directly, "Are you satisfied?"

Lu Yan nodded, looking very sincere.cigarette.read.good. : "Satisfied, it means I have room for improvement and I will work hard."

Jiang Bo had seen Lu Yan's previous report card, and he was even more sure that this kid was talking nonsense and trying to provoke him.

But he was not impatient, and asked patiently: "Then teacher, can I ask why? Why do you want to learn literature?"

"No reason."

"No reason? Okay." Jiang Bo smiled, "Does your family agree?"

family?

The rain was so loud that Lu Yan felt the buzzing in his ears and couldn't take it anymore, he shook his head and became even more dizzy.

"They agreed."

"They agree and we don't agree. Your situation is quite special. We must communicate with your family. At that time, it will not only be..."

It's fucking annoying.

The familiar hostility came out of his head, and Lu Yan couldn't help shouting at Jiang Bo: "I want to learn what I like!"

After leaving this sentence, Lu Yan turned around and pushed the back door vigorously.As a result, not only the door was knocked open, but Meng Tunan, who was lying inside the door and eavesdropping, was also bumped into.

There was too much movement, and the buzzing voice in the classroom suddenly disappeared.Meng Tunan was hit on the head, grinning and rubbing his forehead, Lu Yan kicked him with a complicated expression before striding back to his seat.

He was a little annoyed that he didn't hold his breath.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, more urgent and noisier.At this time, the geography test paper in front of him made his temples twitch. Lu Yan felt that if he couldn't solve this question again, he might tear up the paper in the next second.

He put down his pen and rubbed the space between his brows.On the podium, Jiang Bo stood up holding a cup, probably going to the office to fetch water.

Then Mengtunan in front turned around: "Hello."

Lu Yan raised his head.

"what?"

"Although it's raining, I have an umbrella."

"...I have an umbrella too."

"That's it, let's go!"

It stands to reason that this person should be ignored, he is very noisy.

But Lu Yan accidentally asked, "Where are you going?"

Meng Tunan approached him, his eyes sparkled: "How about going to drink!"