crossing the northern latitude

During the Mid-Autumn Festival, Lu Yan still had to go to work.

There was no class, and the work at the school was also suspended. It was rare for Meng Tunan to have a few days off.He has nothing to do, and he doesn't want to finish the work ahead of time, so he harasses Lu Yan remotely every day.

He is idle, but Lu Yan is not idle.Thinking of finding something for him to do, Lu Yan tentatively suggested on the phone: "Otherwise, you can go home during the holidays."

Meng Tunan sighed: "I'll go back to find them bad luck during the big festival, and my mother may not even let me in."

"It's because of the holidays that it won't be like this, and your parents are not that kind of people." Lu Yan's tone was firm, "It's not sensible for you to get angry and not go back, just go back when you should, there's no need to go back because I'm so stiff, they I just don’t want to see us together, but I still miss you in my heart.”

Meng Tunan thought for a while and asked, "...I'm leaving, what about the dog?"

"It's fine to send them to a pet store. If you feel guilty, arrange a luxurious single room for them...the conditions are no worse than at home."

He seemed to have made plans in advance, and every arrangement was reasonable, and he asked Meng Tunan to take two bottles of wine from his house.

Meng Tunan wanted to hide but couldn't dodge it, so he could only respond first.At noon the day before the holiday, I settled everything and drove on the road, preparing to go home to face the storm.

The car was driving, the sky darkened, and it rained a little.After being stuck in traffic for a while before getting on the expressway, Meng Tunan asked if everything was preventing me from going back?Otherwise, just turn around and forget about it, ask Lu Yan where he is flying today, quietly buy a ticket and fly over to find him...

Just after thinking about it, the road is clear.Meng Tunan was still struggling with what to do, but the car behind had already honked its horn and started urging.There was no other way, he could only drive forward quickly, keep driving... then drive back to Dingyan.

Mengtunan thought he would be kicked out of the house, but none of the expected bad scenes happened.

As Lu Yan said, he entered the door without incident and greeted them. Gao Hui and Meng Jianjun's attitudes were neither salty nor cold, neither warm nor indifferent. They meant to add a few dishes for him. No one mentioned unhappy topics, they just talked about how the family's business is doing, how Mengtunan's school is doing, how the big guy is doing...

Meng Tunan was absent-minded.

He was distracted to look at his parents - he felt that Gao Hui was a little fatter, and his face looked a little older.There are always some changes when I get older, people are a little more lazy, and the food I cook seems to be not as delicious as before.Meng Jianjun has more gray hair, and his figure has gained weight.

I haven't been home for too long, and I always feel a little alienated when talking.Looking at them, Meng Tunan always felt a little strange, as if he had become their guest, and he was no longer as affectionate as he was when he was a child.

After dinner, he accompanied Gao Hui to wash the dishes.The two of them didn't speak at first, but when he handed over a plate, she looked up at Meng Tunan's forehead and said, "Mom didn't hit you on purpose that day."

It didn't sound like an apology.

Meng Tunan didn't care at all, and replied, "I know."

"My parents seldom touched you before, but that day..."

Meng Tunan didn't want to continue this topic: "It's okay, it's over."

But Gao Hui insisted on continuing the conversation.

"I was angry that day because you yelled and yelled as soon as you met us, and you were very disrespectful when you sat down to talk. You rushed, talked back, and were very rude."

Mengtunan was silent.

Gao Hui continued: "Your mother hasn't read much, but your father is a man of culture, Tunan, you know I care about this...your father always says that your bad temper is exactly like mine...you Do you understand? I hope you are educated and polite, not like me, and don't let your father blame me."

She was much calmer when she spoke today.

Meng Tunan was dumbfounded and a little sad when he heard it, so he nodded quickly and said submissively, "It's my fault."

"When I go to see Lu Yan every year, he definitely doesn't want to see us in his heart, but Yanyan won't show any displeasure when he sees us. Look, this is where you are inferior to others." Gao Hui glanced at him , "Lu Yan's father is gone, mother is still so obedient and polite no matter what, look at you again! Lu Yan is such a good child, you want to lead him to this crooked road, how do you want your father to see you in the future Uncle Lu?"

Gao Hui has done a lot of things to hurt his self-esteem by stepping on and stepping on him. This remark made Meng Tunan so angry that he didn't dare to talk back, so he replied: "It's me. wrong, I will make it up to him."

"You haven't cared much about us these years, it's because you blamed me and your father, I know." Gao Hui continued, "I will fight with you that day, and another reason is that I think you are very unfilial...you It was just that your dad and I were looking for trouble for Yanyan, but you didn't ask how your dad and I were doing. That time I went to see a doctor, and there was a small thing growing in my chest, and I had a minor operation... Did you quarrel with us when you came up, did you ask me about this, Meng Tunan? I was too chilled to beat you."

Hearing this, Meng Tunan's face turned red and then turned pale, and he thought it was too late to care now, but it's not right not to care. He is the most eloquent person on weekdays, but after thinking about it for a long time, he only managed to say: "Mom, I'm sorry... now feel better now?"

"You don't need to worry about it. I know to see a doctor when I'm sick." Gao Hui lowered his head to wash the dishes without looking at him, "Anyway, you are promising now and have something to do. But... we don't care about what you like, just don't come back to make a fool of yourself, we don't want to be gossiped by the neighbors."

He hesitated for a moment, and was about to speak up to defend himself, but out of the corner of his eye he saw Meng Jianjun pretending to be pacing back and forth outside the kitchen.He lowered his head and saw Gao Hui's old slippers.

It was normal for his family not to accept it.Saying that they don't care seems to be a compromise.

Meng Tunan hesitated and said, "Thank you, Mom."

A thank you for some reason made Gao Hui suddenly unhappy.She shook the half-washed pot, first sighed heavily, and then asked: "Is this problem of yours...can't be cured?"

Meng Tunan paused.

"Naturally." He stared at the faucet, not daring to look at her. "I felt it when I was in junior high school. At that time, everyone loved to see pretty girls. I didn't like to look at them, but I liked to follow her." Nice boys to play with."

She asked seriously once, "Do you really want to be with Yanyan?"

Meng Tunan was silent for a while, then nodded: "I can't help it, I still like him."

Gao Hui seemed a little helpless: "Have you tried it with others? Girls or something..."

He shook his head: "No."

There was another silence.

"You can do whatever you want when you're young, what about the future?" Gao Hui asked again, "You can't have children, so what will you do in the future?"

"Lu Yan said that when you are old and lonely, you will raise ten or eight dogs."

"When you are sick and old, can the dog bring you a glass of water? Who will take care of you when you are old?"

Meng Tunan replied in a low voice, "I'll take good care of him and treat him as a business with Uncle Lu."

"What about yourself?"

"I take care of myself." He said relaxedly, "I'm older than him, so I should be."

Gao Hui was silent for a while.

After washing the dishes, she took out a big moon cake and cut it. Meng Tunan didn't leave, but watched from the side. Gao Hui cut a small piece for him to eat.

Looking at the mooncake in his hand, Meng Tunan murmured, "Show me, you should lose your temper at me. Don't embarrass him in the future."

"We didn't make it difficult for Yanyan." Gao Hui couldn't hear him either, "We went to him later and never mentioned your matters, so don't let him think too much, we hope he has a good life... ...We don't agree with you and him because you are my own son, and I can't watch you mess up and make a mess of this family. "

After thinking about it, Meng Tunan felt that his parents actually didn't hate Lu Yan, but if they wanted to make their relationship so deformed, it would be hypocritical to save face.The words were stuffy in his stomach, and he didn't dare to say them.

It feels like it won't make sense to her for a while.Meng Tunan looked at Meng Jianjun standing at the door of the kitchen, and could only answer first: "I see."

"I've eaten the meal, let's go back. The things on the table... are pies without fillings, made for Yanyan, and they were supposed to be sent over, so you can take them with you."

After she finished speaking, she started to chase people away.

Meng Jianjun heard it, and said outside the kitchen: "I'm back, I'll stay for a few days before leaving."

"Second sister's family is going to come over for dinner tomorrow, and seeing him ask all kinds of things... Someone has already gossiped before, so I don't bother to lie for him." Gao Hui hurried away impatiently, "Let's go, come back early Say."

After just eating a meal, Meng Tunan was kicked out again, and drove on the road depressed.

Gao Hui didn't come out to see him off, but Meng Jianjun saw him off with his hands behind his back.

His relationship with his father was more polite.

Although Gao Hui usually disciplines more in the family, Meng Tunan knows that Meng Jianjun is the most difficult one in the family.It seems that he has no temper, but in fact it is the most difficult to deal with. He would rather talk to Gao Hui than to talk to his father.

"I still have to pay attention to work. I'm not too young, so I won't talk about it."

Meng Tunan nodded: "Yeah."

"It's too troublesome, so I don't need to come back... It will be better when the airport is repaired later, so that I don't have to drive so tired."

Meng Tunan asked: "It will be repaired so soon?"

Last heard a few years ago.Because there are many mountains, it is difficult for them to repair the railway here, but more and more airports are being built.

"Well, it seems to be next year." Meng Jianjun nodded, "Let's go, drive slowly."

After speaking, Meng Jianjun stepped back, waved his hand at him, and signaled that he could go, without saying a word about Lu Yan.

Looking at it in the twilight, his father's back seemed a little bent.Meng Tunan didn't dare to look any further, and quickly turned his face away.

Originally, he wanted to leave directly, but after driving for a while, Meng Tunan reversed back.He parked the car in front of Lu Yan's house, and saw that the door was open, and a large family was sitting in the yard drinking tea and watching the moon.

The family saw him looking inside, and the hostess came out and asked, "What's the matter with you?"

Meng Tunan also felt a little embarrassed, and quickly said, "I used to... my wife's house used to live here, and I wanted to take a look when I passed by."

The hostess looked at him strangely and closed the door with a bang.

Meng Tunan took two steps back and forth outside the door, found the place where they kissed and looked, and the tuberose on top of his head was still there.

He sat under the tree for a while, smoking a cigarette, thinking... It seems that many years have passed.

It has been many years, and it is no longer what it used to be when I come back.

Meng Tunan was very sad on the way back.In the past few years, I really haven't cared much about my parents. It's always sad to see their occasional aging, and I feel powerless.It was expected by Meng Tunan that they disagreed, but he didn't want them to go to Lu Yan again, as long as they had any emotions to attack him.

At this age, he has already begun to feel guilty towards his parents, and he also feels that he should not wrong his life. The two thoughts are rambling in his mind, which disturbs people very uncomfortable.

This is too difficult.Meng Tunan couldn't help sighing in his heart, and suddenly understood Lu Yan's mood back then.

It was early morning when he returned to T City.He didn't feel sleepy when he got home, so he went to the study to write for a while.Long-term accumulated practice has given him a habit. If he decides to write a picture before he writes, he will not stop writing no matter what happens in the middle.

His spirit is very concentrated, he is completely immersed in the pen and paper, and Lu Yan's house is exceptionally quiet... It's the end of the holidays, and everyone's feelings are entangled, these words are in line with his state of mind.My parents and relatives are slowly getting away from my life, and it seems that there are not many confidantes left, and everything seems unavoidable.

A line of words was written smoothly, and when he stopped writing, the sky was bright, and the morning sun also sprinkled into the study... Meng Tunan looked at his results, and at this moment he finally couldn't help it, as if he was out of strength.

He wandered to the bedroom like a wandering soul, fell asleep, and decided to take this "Festival Post" to the teacher for exhibition.

This time he slept in a dark state, because he consciously didn't want to remember that way of sleeping... If he could, he really wanted to sleep on this bed and forget all those messy things.

... In the end, he was woken up by being pushed vigorously.

Opening his eyes in a daze, Lu Yan sat on the edge of the bed and looked at him with a gloomy face: "Are you awake? Now explain why you didn't change into your pajamas and go to bed with me. Did you wash up yesterday?"

Meng Tunan nodded, but his consciousness was still confused in the dream, the year when Lu Yan taught him math problems, he said without thinking: "get out of class is over?"

Lu Yan was taken aback for a moment, and after realizing it, he patted his face: "I'm home from get off work."

"Oh..." Meng Tunan smiled at him in a daze, "I dreamed about you."

"What dream?"

"You asked me to do the formula on the back of the question, and take off your clothes if you are right... If you don't wake me up, you should have already taken off your clothes."

"……boring."

Meng Tunan looked at him for a while, and then asked in that ambiguous tone after recovering: "You look so good in this uniform, can you just wear it to me once?"

After finishing speaking, the man rushed over to hug him sleepily, and rubbed his crotch with his hands.

Is this really just waking up?

"..." Lu Yan was speechless and wanted to beat him to death, "Get up, take a shower, change clothes and clean yourself! You stink like a pig!"

"Then you take a bath with me, and I'll wash it for you... You just came back from outside, so take a bath."

After tugging for a long time, Meng Tunan was fully awake, but Lu Yan was still dragged into the bathroom by him.

After the heat surrounded them, Meng Tunan hugged Lu Yan and said in a low voice: "My mother asked me to bring you cakes without filling. Don't you eat mooncakes with only the skin and no filling? It should be She made it specially... You said why is it so troublesome for you to eat, it's really hard to raise."

Lu Yan glared at him: "It's difficult to raise, and I didn't let you raise it."

"I beg you to let me grow up." Meng Tunan kissed him slowly, "Our Bambi, it smells so good..."

Lu Yan originally wanted to ask Meng Tunan if he had a quarrel with his family and what was the situation, but after a while they kissed together under the shower, and separated when they were almost out of breath.

Just as Lu Yan wanted to go out to get a condom, Meng Tunan suddenly knelt down on one knee towards him, leaned on his leg, and said in a serious tone: "I seem to love you very much."

The gesture of proposing marriage and the words were provocative, but he moved his hands and slowly moved his face closer.

……

The author says:

Mengtunan: Can mooncakes without filling be called mooncakes?I don't know much about this kind of moon cake!

) ellipsis to write next time.