crossing the northern latitude

Lu Yan didn't know that a world war broke out in his home while he was sleeping.

Woke up once around noon, just woke up, too lazy to get up, always had a headache the next day after drinking, and he fell asleep wrapped in a quilt not long after.Meng Tunan came in again, saying that he was going to class and had no time to cook, so he went out to buy some food and put it in an insulated box, and put his clothes beside the bed, so he could get up quickly.

Lu Yan agreed in a daze, saying that he should not worry about him if he is doing well in class.

He didn't want to sleep anymore before sitting up and began to reflect on himself. After confessing his wrong behavior of sleeping late and having sex after drinking, he went to take a bath and came out to eat the meal that Meng Tunan brought for him.

The other party deliberately left a note saying that he had tasted all the dishes and that he could eat them all.Tried it, it's really ok.

Nothing to do after eating.Lu Yan wanted to go downstairs to find Meng Tunan to get the key, and went down to see that they were in class.

It was not easy for Lu Yan to go over and disturb Meng Tunan, so he pulled up a chair and sat in the back to listen to Meng Tunan's class.

What is not right is that there is an extra piece of gauze on Meng Tunan's forehead.This is very strange, Lu Yan thought about it carefully, he didn't seem to have knocked his head last night, what's going on?

He said: "The ancients pursued beauty, and the piano, chess, calligraphy, and painting all contained the expression of beauty. Although writing is the most common thing in our daily life, the insights you get when you write quietly will nourish you. The ancients said that nourishing energy, we must cultivate What is important is this kind of stillness—breathing, communication with the environment, and the mood when writing, all of which are a whole. Eyesight, writing power, and sensibility are all indispensable..."

He was the only one standing in the classroom, and Meng Tunan didn't seem to like sitting when he was writing.That's right, this person can't sit still, he staggers around when he sits down.

He is dressed in white and looks like a crane from a distance.

In his eyes, Meng Tunan was talking with one hand behind his back, and he was writing with the other hand for demonstration. The camera projected his writing movements on the big screen in real time, and there was a female assistant beside him, helping to adjust the equipment, grind ink, etc. of.

Lu Yan also couldn't understand what was written, but only thought that Meng Tunan's hands were pretty.

This is the first time that Lu Yan has seen Meng Tunan in class up close.

He said: "Most people in this world meet by chance, fate is short-lived, and we are the same, but I can know everyone from words... That may also be the moment when we are closest to each other, pen and ink are affectionate, that can be felt It’s true. Today’s sutra is not difficult to write, please pay attention to the beginning of the pen here, there is a subtle adjustment of the front, and each word must be careful not to be too sharp, like this..."

Brush and ink are sentimental, and they are the truth that can be felt. Lu Yan only remembered this sentence.

He just watched Meng Tunan write a class in such a calm manner.

The students under the seat were also writing at their desks, the fragrance was lingering, and there was silence in the air. Meng Tunan wrote a few words and said a few words. When he was speaking, everyone looked up and listened, and when he was not speaking, he wrote at his desk. It was very harmonious.

Among other things, the atmosphere in his class is very good. Listening to him speak slowly, my heart seems to calm down.He is not bad-looking, and his mannerisms are quite coquettish and freehand, which is quite ornamental, no wonder the class fee is not low.

Lu Yan looked at it, and was touched by the way the man was holding the pen, and those dusty past events emerged, fluttering in his heart like feathers.

forever.

Lu Yan saw Meng Tunan write a word "Yong" on the screen, stretched out his hand, and wrote it once in the air... Lu Yan remembered that he and Meng Tunan had written this word many times before.He remembered Meng Tunan's white shirt and a little ink on the sleeves. That day he knew Meng Tunan's "secret" and kissed Meng Tunan's forehead.

Obviously white is easily stained by ink, why does this person always wear white clothes when writing.

Yong, Lu Yan wrote it again, again and again.

He was distracted thinking about whether it is appropriate to put the words like a person on Meng Tunan. He was screaming at that table with his legs open last night, but now he is copying scriptures there.

This person seems difficult to understand.

When get out of class was over, the students stood up and said goodbye to Meng Tunan.The assistant dipped some water on the four corners of the Diamond Sutra that he had written, spread it on the floor-to-ceiling windows and said to Meng Tunan: "Mr. Meng, today I also took a picture of this picture and used it as a video material?"

Meng Tunan said hello, and the assistant Gao Xue took the phone to change the angle to take pictures.After sticking to the window, the paper is a little transparent when viewed along the light, which makes the characters very clear and visually very good.

Lu Yan took a few glances, walked up to Meng Tunan, and indicated with his eyes what was wrong with his forehead, but Meng Tunan avoided his eyes.

Someone in Lu Yan didn't make a sound, just watched Gao Xue taking pictures.

Not long after Gao Xue finished filming, she came over to show Meng Tunan. When she saw Lu Yan, she smiled and asked casually, "Mr. Meng, is your friend? Hey...why does it seem familiar."

Meng Tunan didn't even raise his head, and pointed to Lu Yan: "Gao Xue, get to know me, this is my wife. Anyway, Jiang Yang sent you over to me, and we should meet often in the future. You recognize him, his surname is road."

Gao Xue: "..."

Lu Yan: "..."

After class, Meng Tunan seemed to be in a bad mood, and started to chase people away expressionlessly: "Gao Xue, you go back first, I have some family conflicts with him to resolve, it's not convenient for you to listen."

Gao Xue came to his senses and hurriedly grabbed the bag to say goodbye without daring to turn his head.

When the door was closed, Lu Yan immediately exploded: "That's your colleague, what are you doing?"

Meng Tunan lazily replied: "What's wrong with my colleague, do I like men who break the law, will the police come to arrest me, will I be dragged to soak in a pig cage?"

How come get out of class with people is like a different person, what a gentle scum.

Not wanting to quarrel again, Lu Yan suppressed the fire and swallowed, and pointed to his forehead: "What's the matter with the head, what should I say if I knocked it?"

Meng Tunan turned around, as if trying to calm down, and didn't answer at first.

"I'm asking you something."

After waiting for a while, Meng Tunan replied sullenly: "My mother beat you with a cup. They were looking for you, and they happened to meet me. I wanted to bring them here to talk, but I was afraid that it would disturb your sleep, so I stayed at your house Chat with them for a while, don't you mind."

Meng Tunan added: "Use your cup to pour water for them, but the cup was smashed by my mother. I will buy it in the afternoon to compensate you."

Lu Yan let out a breath after digesting for a long time, and asked him, "Where else are you hurt?"

Lu Yan pulled his arm to pull him over to look at him, but he didn't.He could only use a little strength, and when he was pulled over, he also saw Meng Tu Nantong's red eyes, and he was about to cry.

He held the pen tightly, his joints turned white, and he didn't look at Lu Yan, maybe he wanted to pretend to be calm.

Lu Yan asked: "Already left?"

Meng Tunan hummed: "I left after a quarrel... We seemed to scare your dog when we quarreled, and Zhima kept barking. After they left, I wanted to coax it, but it ignored me Well, I hid in the cage, it wanted to bite me even when I touched it, and the mung bean also hid away from me..."

He rambled on and on about dogs for a long time.

Lu Yan comforted: "Maybe I was frightened. There are very few people in the house, and they haven't seen people quarreling much... It should be fine next time you go."

"I'm so angry." Meng Tunan shook his head, "They've been looking for you more than once, haven't they?"

Lu Yan paused for a moment, and quickly lied: "No, this time it's because of the holiday, they said they came to see me..."

"It doesn't look like an appointment. It's definitely not the first time I've seen that posture."

Lu Yan didn't bother to make it up anymore, so he simply shut up.

"At that time." Meng Tunan asked, "Did my dad come to you at that time, and you broke up with me because of him?"

"...No, it's mainly because of me."

"Okay, you face them." Meng Tunan dropped his pen angrily, "I don't understand, why are you protecting them and talking for them? Let people bully you out of anger, and treat me as dead?"

"It doesn't matter to me." Lu Yan took a step back, "That's your parents... and they are thinking about you."

"If I was still 17 years old, I could still listen to what they and you said for my own good, but I am 27 this year, Lu Yan, I am 27, I don't want you to be good for me, I might as well take care of myself when I have time."

Lu Yan sighed: "Then I have no choice..."

"I'm really convinced!" Meng Tunan yelled, "You are wasting other people's feelings! If you have a happy and happy family after separation, what is it now? Do you think your home is like home? Dog I have more things than you, and the kennel is about the same. I thought you had a good life, and the money was worth the fart, and I bought a house to raise the dog... My parents also suffer when they pick on you, and they even acted with me Don't say goodbye and bear everything silently, you are acting in a TV series? How old are you, don't you feel that you are not mainstream?"

Seeing that he didn't speak, Meng Tunan blushed furiously: "Come to play with me yesterday to revisit old dreams, and I don't know what it means. Aren't you afraid? How dare you come to me again now? I feel that my wings are hard, can I fly or what? I mean to be afraid of this and that, it’s really unnecessary.”

When he was angry he spoke meanly, like an enraged beast.

Lu Yan was also used to his bad temper, and waited for Meng Tunan to vent his anger before speaking.

"Meng Tunan, to be honest, it's not just because of my family." Lu Yan frowned, "I think too many things happened that year, and my life would be messed up. If I'm with you again, I'll treat myself Not responsible, nor responsible to you. And we had a lot of conflicts at that time, do you agree with what I said?"

Meng Tunan froze, not speaking, not admitting.

"And your parents are very good. I envy you for having such parents." Lu Yan said slowly, "Even if they approach me, they are very kind. Your mother always brings me food. She never came to see me. I won't mention you, it seems that I really only care about me... I am sad sometimes, but most of the time I forgive them, because I think they are good parents, and they do these things without malice. I promise them no Looking for you is to understand the feelings of being a parent."

Be considerate of being a parent.

Then why don't you understand how I love you?How many times have I cried over the years, how many times have I drank, and those sad nights, who will compensate me?

Who will pay for the lost time?

No one is paying for all this.

"They're just bullying and bullying. You shouldn't be too thin-skinned. You can learn from me." Meng Tunan calmed down and began to speak, "Have you ever wondered why they didn't tell me? It's because they know you are soft-hearted and easy to talk. I don’t listen to those nonsense, if you talk to me, they won’t dare to do anything even if I tore off the roof of my house.”

Lu Yan disagreed, "So do you think violent solutions are useful?" He pointed to Meng Tunan's forehead, "This is already the third injury on your head because of me."

"I'm not in pain."

"What does it look like to fight with family members?"

"You don't have the attitude of being a revolutionist. Sure enough, the capitalist class is weak!" Meng Tunan said with a firm attitude, "They... will not be left behind when I do my duty to provide them with old age and die. If I can compensate them, I will try my best to compensate them. One size is one size. I don’t steal or rob, I don’t break the law, I don’t cause trouble to the society, I only have one life, can’t I choose who I like?”

Lu Yan racked his brains and thought for a long time, but found that he had nothing to say.

He looked at Meng Tunan's side face and felt a headache. He just felt that it was justified and he couldn't explain it. After all, he still looked like a heartless person... Otherwise, just kiss him and forget it?Kiss him to shut him up.

Meng Tunan is different from him. His parents are loving and his family is harmonious. He is born with an optimistic and cheerful personality, and he feels hopeful in everything he sees.Warmth, this is what Lu Yan likes most about him, his world always seems to be sunny.

Even if we don't meet each other, this person can still affect his career, his sleep, his mood, his decision...Meng Tunan has influenced Lu Yan a lot invisibly...except for his optimism.

People may like what they don't have.

"You can choose, but I couldn't at that time." Lu Yan said, "I didn't think about myself, I thought about you."

The air was still.

"I don't care about anything else, just give me a word." Meng Tunan's eyes were red, "Let's do it again, will it make it?"

Lu Yan used to think that this day would never come, he couldn't wait for these words.

how can that be possible.

The past relationship is like a broken mirror, and when put together again, there will always be cracks.Some things are over when they are over, it's no big deal, so are feelings, Lu Yan has always hypnotized himself like this.Even Li Yuting kindly reminded Lu Yan that he should think carefully, after all, he is not young anymore, and if he loses this age, it will hurt his muscles and bones, so he can't bet on himself.

why.He obviously has good conditions, why didn't he look forward, but chose to come to him to continue this relationship?

"How come you still like me." Lu Yan was puzzled, "Sometimes I don't understand."

Meng Tunan didn't think for long, looked at him, and said in a low voice: "After you left, my luck became less good. The people I met were not as good-looking or kind as you...God never gave me a chance to like others .”

Lu Yan was speechless.

He already has some distaste for the current life that everything doesn't matter, and he always feels that if he lives like this for another ten, twenty, or thirty years, life will not have any surprises and colors.

He is now pessimistic about many things.Human nature, love, kinship, friendship...all these seem to be gray and hopeless.

After the passage of time, this terrible world has not changed. Meng Tunan's parents have not changed. They still don't like two men together. They still encounter many misunderstandings, cannot hold hands generously, and cannot post group photos in Moments...

At that moment, Lu Yan began to admit that he was afraid that Meng Tunan would lose his home, and he was also afraid that he would be pushed to the edge and become the former Li Xiaoyuan and Jiang Bo...

The thoughts and pain that had been carefully hidden for many years were suddenly pulled out by Meng Tunan, and he was forced to cut off the wound that had rotted for a long time. It was a bit painful, but there was a kind of twisted pleasure.

I repent.Lu Yan said in his heart, I repent all my mistakes, forgive me.

"Do you think you can do it all over again?" He let out a long breath, "I actually don't have much confidence...it's been too long."

"Loving someone only requires sincerity, not confidence." Meng Tunan gently shook his hand, "As long as you want, I will always be with you."

As soon as these words came out, Lu Yan's hand went numb, and his heart softened.

I repent.Lu Yan repeated in his heart, I still like him, please forgive me.

"Then..." He started to stutter, "Then you have to promise... don't blame me for this matter in the future, don't scold me, and don't speak eccentrically, after all, I will be sad..."

After speaking, he closed his eyes and covered his complicated gaze.

Meng Tunan suppressed his anger, looked at Lu Yan, and found that the other party had his eyes closed and looked helpless, as if he was admitting his fate or his mistake.When he lowered his eyes, his expression was a little cautious, and he looked indescribably pitiful.

Does he also have this expression when facing his parents?

Meng Tunan quickly stretched out his arms and hugged him tightly, so sad that he wanted to cry: "I didn't scold you, but I love you, I can't get angry."

"I feel sorry for why I speak loudly and yell at me. I don't know why." Lu Yan gradually became upset, "Aren't I wronged? Is there any law for your family!"

Meng Tunan tightly wrapped his arms around his waist: "According to the rules, fathers should pay their debts, and I will pay you back slowly for the grievances you suffered."