crossing the northern latitude

After the exam, Lu Yan did not feel relieved like the others. As soon as he and Meng Tunan left the exam room, they were stuffed into the car by Meng Jianjun and went straight to the hospital.

No matter how Meng Jianjun and Meng Tunan called Lu Yan along the way, Lu Yan didn't respond at all. He just lowered his head and frowned, looking out the window with some resistance.Meng Tunan felt that Lu Yan looked very calm, so calm that it was so strange that people couldn't bear to see it.

When they arrived at the hospital, Gao Hui who was at the door first looked at them and shook his head. He was fine at first, but when he saw Lu Yan, his eyes suddenly turned red, and he held his hand and started to cry.

"Yanyan..." Gao Hui's voice was sad, "Don't blame us for not letting you take a last look, it's the college entrance examination..."

Lu Yan shook his head towards Gao Hui, exhaled, and asked, "You left suddenly?"

Gao Hui nodded, and wanted to say something else, but Lu Yan had already opened the door and walked in, shutting them out.

Meng Tunan looked at the door and stopped Meng Jianjun from following him: "Dad, let him stay alone for a while."

Meng Jianjun nodded, and turned to discuss with Gao Hui how to help Mrs. Peng's funeral first, and how to bring Lu Yan to live at home...Meng Tunan felt depressed after hearing this for a while, but he dared not leave , so he guarded the door and waited for Lu Yan to come out.

After dealing with the hospital, Meng Jianjun sent them home.On the way, Lu Yan didn't know if he was too tired. He fell asleep on Meng Tunan's shoulder and woke up only when he got home.Meng Tunan suggested going to his house to sleep for one night, but Lu Yan refused, saying that today would be forgotten.

"I forgot where I heard it... It is said that the old man's spirit hasn't left in the past few days, and he will find it back home from time to time." Lu Yan said, "I'll go back and stay, so that she won't find me when she goes home."

Not wanting to be looked at by them that way, Lu Yan turned and left.

There are signs... he thought, the lights went out, nightmares, overturned cars, lost penis, nosebleeds... He'd never had a nosebleed before.

Not in the mood to eat, but feeling sleepy and tired, Lu Yan went home and fell asleep.

After waking up, what greeted him was to deal with funeral affairs and receive relatives and friends.

After all, he is a young man who has just finished the college entrance examination, and in the eyes of others, he is still a child, how can he handle the tedious chores, let alone a funeral in such a small place - such as going to the coffin to report to the temple, road sacrifices and funerals, Opening the earth round grave... Lu Yan didn't understand this series of procedures, and Meng Tunan's family helped him finish it.

The largest proportion of weddings and funerals in a small place is to set up banquets for dinner. Lu Yan is very uncomfortable with this atmosphere. It is obviously a funeral. What does it mean for a group of people to gather together to eat and drink?I didn't see many people who were really sad.

There is very little time to feel sad, because Lu Yan has to constantly receive a bunch of strange relatives and friends.Fortunately, Neng Mengtunan was by his side most of the time, and he would take the time to let Lu Yan eat and rest, and he was somewhat comforted by someone to accompany him.

Most of the people who came were unfamiliar to Lu Yan, but this time someone from his mother's house also came.Xie Yu, who was busy flying all over the world every day, came, and even Xie Lin, who was recuperating in New Zealand, rushed back.Perhaps knowing that he was alone and helpless, he came all the way to accompany him to see off his grandma... Lu Yan was grateful in his heart.

Xie Lin and Mrs. Peng didn't get along well. At first, Lu Yan was worried that she would get drunk and behave inappropriately in front of Mrs. Peng. As a result, Xie Lin behaved very well this time and did not cause trouble. Watching the old man's burial quietly, very well-behaved.At the end, he said with emotion: "It's not easy for your grandma to bring up your dad alone."

Lu Yan nodded silently.

"Although she speaks badly and has a bad temper, she really has nothing to say to you and your father." She sighed, "There's no way, as you get older, you always have to go."

She took a cigarette out of her bag and planned to smoke it, but she failed to light it after lighting it several times.Lu Yan stepped forward to help her, and Xie Lin smiled at him: "I met your father because he helped me light a cigarette."

Lu Yan shook his head: "You carry it back and don't let grandma see it."

He sat with Xie Lin in front of Mrs. Peng's grave, and did not go home until dusk.This time Xie Yu and Xie Lin came back specially for his affairs, Xie Yu pushed a lot of things, both of them lived in Meng Tunan's house, and they planned to leave after Lu Yan got his grades in the college entrance examination.

On the first day after grandma was buried, Xie Yu mentioned to Lu Yan at the dinner table: "This house was given to you... What do you think?"

Lu Yan was surprised that his uncle mentioned such a thing before Meng Tunan's parents, and he reacted slowly: "What do you mean?"

"At least think about how to deal with it. It is impossible for you to go to university here in the future." Xie Yu put down the bowl, "I have made a comprehensive inspection, and the location of this house is not bad. Although the orientation is not very good, it is an old house type in an ancient town. It is very rare to see them, I see that there are no more than five families with Zhaobi in this ancient town..."

"The screen wall in the old lady's house is amazing." Mentioning this matter, Meng Jianjun became interested, "All those who engaged in cultural tourism have been here a few years ago, and they said that this screen wall has the characteristics of our Dingyan, and it has been around for a long time... "

"So I don't think it's difficult to get out of this house." Xie Yu nodded, "Of course it's good to keep it, there may be room for appreciation in the future."

Lu Yan felt very ironic when he heard it, the talent left and the tea was not cold enough, so he was about to start planning a house?

I want Meng Jianjun and Gao Hui to help me pay attention to selling the house.

He was a little sad when he heard it, but Xie Lin also added a sentence: "It's empty... What to do with it, it looks sad, and it's good to sell it."

Uncomfortable to hear, Lu Yan replied stiffly: "The house belongs to grandma...not mine, I can't make the decision."

Xie Yu was taken aback for a moment, as if he wanted to say something else.Meng Jianjun saw that Lu Yan's face was not good-looking, so he could only interject: "Otherwise, wait for a while to think about it. Selling the house is not something that can be sold immediately... Don't rush the children."

"Brother Meng, it's not urging him, it's because I don't have time to keep running this way, and now I just have time, he can't handle these things as a child..."

It's annoying to hear.At the dinner table, Meng Tunan didn't know where he was. Lu Yan went to look for him habitually. He was a little flustered when he couldn't see anyone. He simply ignored his uncle's words and turned to ask Meng Jianjun, "Where did Meng Tunan go?"

"Tunan..." Meng Jianjun turned to look at Gao Hui, "That's right, where did you go?"

"Ah...Meng Tunan, I haven't seen anyone this afternoon. It seems that I went to do something with his cousin..." Gao Hui thought for a while, "I should be back later."

Really didn't want to stay any longer, Lu Yan stood up: "I've finished eating."

He left the dinner table with a cold face and went back to Mrs. Peng's house.It was extremely sad for him to walk that journey, and he just felt that these adults were too hard-hearted... They seemed to have a very natural attitude towards the death of the old man - when a person is old, he really should leave, there is no way to do it.

He walked a few steps quickly, but in the end it was Xie Lin who chased him out.

She stretched out her hand to hug his shoulder, smiled and said, "If you don't wear high heels, you won't be able to touch your shoulder."

Lu Yan helped her by the hand: "Have you finished eating?"

"Well... I'll walk back with you."

It's just a short distance, and it will arrive in a short while.

Lu Yan felt that he didn't have the heart to ask Xie Yu again, so he directly mentioned it to Xie Lin: "Uncle gave me some information about schools in New Zealand this morning, and asked me to think about it. I think his attitude... is to make me very Look like you can't go?"

Xie Lin nodded, "Your uncle means... your grandma is gone now and wants you to live with us. After all, you don't have anyone to take care of you here. It's always good to be with your family... I'm drinking less now, and I'm in good condition, and I want to open a studio there to teach children to dance...it won't make you very upset."

"Is it uncle's intention to go abroad or yours?"

"I'm happy with you... It's your uncle who thinks you can't leave you here alone... He's been helping you find out about the school." After talking for a while, she looked at Lu Yan's expression, "You Don't you want to?"

Unlike the willful Xie Lin, uncle Xie Yu has never been absent from Lu Yan's upbringing. From a certain point of view, Lu Yan can be regarded as being brought up by him.In addition, Xie Yu has the right to speak at home, Lu Yan knew that if Xie Yu really wanted to intervene in his future, it would be very difficult for him to refuse that man who said nothing.

Lu Yan felt as if he could smell the impermanence of the world.

Because I am still a child in the eyes of others, so many things cannot be mastered by myself.That's right, he doesn't understand anything, he can't even manage grandma's funeral by himself, so what can he decide?

But can't you be the master when you go to college?

With that angry mood, Lu Yan said: "I don't want to leave."

Xie Lin smiled and didn't try to persuade her: "There is still time, you should think about it."

She spoke very gently today, and said everything according to herself, obviously not wanting to stimulate her son's sensitive nerves.It's really not easy, Xie Lin can actually care about people... Could it be that losing important people will make you mature?

It would be better to be childish all the time.

Lu Yan suddenly felt very heartbroken. After thinking about it, he chose to tell Xie Lin honestly: "Grandma is gone, I seem to be very sad."

"It's normal." Xie Lin said, "When your father just left, the sadness was light...I don't want to live anymore."

"It's been a long time... will it get better?"

"I don't think so... Anyway, it's like this to me." Xie Lin patted him on the shoulder, "I don't know how to comfort you, but..." She frowned, "But we can at least think about it." They... aren't they? They don't stand a chance."

I can still have a thought...

Lu Yan felt his nose sore, so he could only turn around and walk home, not daring to look at Xie Lin's face again.

He closed the door with a bang, and walked around the yard a few times... The old man's things were left in a corner. Aunt Mei packed them up and said that according to the custom, they would burn them.Walking into the living room, he paused in front of the small stove for a while, remembering that Mrs. Peng held his hand the day before the college entrance examination and said: Yanyan, why don't we become soldiers?

Did you feel like you were leaving early?

Old houses are warm, without the owner, it seems to be cold all of a sudden, it is obviously summer, but there is an illusion that it is still cold in winter.The barking of the dog is gone, the pot of orchids in the yard is almost wilting, and the fresh milk Mrs. Peng ordered in the refrigerator has long expired, and when I opened it, I smelled a sour smell...

Everything in front of him became strange, at that moment Lu Yan suddenly wanted to escape from this place.He now admits that Xie Lin was right, yeah, it's empty... It's sad to watch, and it's good to sell.

There was a knock on the door, and Lu Yan got up numbly to open the door. Meng Tunan walked in with a bag, which contained a change of clothes, and he probably wanted to sleep with him.

He also held a small cake in his hand, handed it over and said, "My cousin went to the city, and I asked her to bring it for me... I heard that this is delicious, try it."

Where is he in the mood to eat cake now, Lu Yan shook his head and refused.

Meng Tunan is not reluctant.After chatting for a while, he spotted something with the tip of his eyes, pointed at Lu Yan's neck and asked, "...where is your jade?"

Lu Yan pulled the wrapping paper of the small cake, and said in a natural tone, "I buried them together at the burial today... I won't need it in the future."

Meng Tunan was speechless.

Then Lu Yan asked: "Why didn't you have dinner at home this afternoon?"

"...do something."

"what's up?"

Meng Tunan looked at his face, and said carefully: "It's not that... Is your penis lost? I asked a few people in the class to look for it. In fact, we have been paying attention to it a few days ago, but nothing happened. Harvest... Let's look again, Dingyan is not very old."

"Don't look for it."

Lu Yan became a little impatient.

"...If you lose it, of course you have to look for it. Maybe Ding Ding is still wandering outside and wants to come back. How pitiful." Meng Tunan gave him a careful look, "I'll help you find it, and you should be able to find it."

"I told you not to look for it." Lu Yan spoke more and more anxiously, "It's not lost, it's gone, and left by itself... What do you do to find it?"

I don't know why I got angry.Lu Yan didn't want to face Meng Tunan and himself like this, so he stood up suddenly and walked upstairs... Meng Tunan couldn't help but pull him back.

"open……"

"I can find it!" Meng Tunan looked anxious, "I'll find it for you, dead or alive... Why did you give up?"

"I have to go anyway, what are you looking for?" Lu Yan raised his voice, "Since we have to go, then don't come back... Let's go, don't we all have to go anyway!"

Nothing can stay, nothing can stay with you all the time.The dog will leave, grandma will leave, father will leave... anyway, people will always leave, and they can't stay.

"I won't go." Mengtunan said in a low tone, "I will always be with you."

fraud.Lu Yanxin said, what you can't do, we can't do it.

Then he was hugged.Meng Tunan hugged him very tightly, with a kind of ruthlessness... as if telling him that it is achievable, and I am willing to be unrealistic for you once, and go all out to realize that "always".

always.

That is, at the moment of being hugged, Lu Yan's originally numb nerves suddenly began to tingle - he couldn't help it, and it was obvious that he had endured for so long but it was still a failure.Sadness welled up from my internal organs... all turned into tears that fell on Meng Tunan's shoulders.

That was the first time Mengtunan saw him cry.