crossing the northern latitude

It was a different feeling from that time when Meng Tunan secretly kissed himself.

It was just a touch that time, but this time they were actually pasted together.Rebellious psychology was at work, Lu Yan didn't close his eyes, just watched all this happen...something hit him and knocked him down.

Wait a little longer, wait a little longer and push him away... That's what I said to myself, but I don't have much execution power.

Meng Tunan hung his hands around his neck and strangled him tightly. Lu Yan didn't know where to put his hands, so he could only put them in his pockets... When he touched the string of beans with engraved words, What is the word?Do you have to guess for yourself again?

It seems like an unavoidable compromise.Lu Yan thought to himself, maybe there is no turning back from here.

He calmed down and had time to observe Mengtunan.Eyes, eyebrows, hair...

He looked at it carefully for a while, and felt that this man's hair should be cut, and maybe they should go to have a haircut together before the New Year.

Meng Tunan's hands were not idle at all, he fumbled everywhere.Lu Yan endured it for a long time, and when he waited for an opportunity to touch up from the hem of his clothes, he finally couldn't bear it anymore, squeezed his wrist and twisted it... I don't know how it was stimulated, and Lu Yan was pushed onto the bed in the next second...

Lu Yanxin said yes, I'm not welcome if you want to be serious.

He pinched Meng Tunan's neck, passed his leg through it and lifted it... The two positions were changed.Still wanting to resist, Lu Yan lifted up the man's sleeves, Meng Tunan hid, and retracted his arms - that's okay, he simply used two empty sleeves to tie a knot on Meng Tunan's chest, Tie it tightly.

"Don't go too far." Lu Yan pressed his neck, "If you dare to move...you can't beat me."

The room was warm, and both of them were sweating after such a commotion.Meng Tunan still didn't give up, he kept writhing around while being held down.

Rubbing around makes people angry everywhere.

Gradually, Lu Yan found that this posture was a bit ambiguous, it seemed to be... and he also seemed to...

Soon Mengtunan noticed it too, and stared at him with wide eyes in surprise.

Lu Yan could only get up from Meng Tunan's body quickly, and sighed while holding his forehead, feeling that he was really defeated.

Meng Tunan was happy: "Come on, can't you be quite capable!"

The mouth is the most powerful.Lu Yan casually grabbed a book on the table and threw it at Meng Tunan: "Be careful anyway, is there anyone like you?"

"What about me?"

"...a look of color on his face."

"Ah?" Meng Tunan looked back at him seriously, "It was you who reacted, not me, why am I so lewd?"

"...Then who is to blame?" Lu Yan was instantly shocked, "Who made you... like that!"

"It must be your fault!" Mengtunan said convincingly, "Who made you grow like this, no matter where you are, you grow according to my preferences... Can I bear it!"

"I can't help it, I can bear it!" Lu Yan's ears became more and more red, "How can you be so shameless!"

"Are you sure you don't want me to do that?" Meng Tunan said quietly, "I think you enjoyed it a lot just now, but you turned your face and refused to recognize anyone as soon as it was over..."

Really didn't want to continue the verbal war, Lu Yan turned around and left, but Gao Hui came in before the door was opened, Meng Tunan yelled: "Mom! From now on, please knock on the door first when you enter my room!"

"It's up to me if you don't lock the door." Gao Hui said with a natural expression, "I told you to go down to eat... Yanyan, I made fish for you."

Fortunately, he didn't come in at that time... Lu Yan heaved a sigh of relief.I feel uncomfortable, and I don't know if Gao Hui heard it just now.

He waved his hand and refused: "I just came back, I'll eat with grandma...Auntie, I'll go home first."

"Alright, let's go." Gao Hui didn't force him to stay.

"Mom, hurry up and help me untie this." Meng Tunan was tied up in a mess, "Come and see how Lu Yan treats me..."

Lu Yan turned and went downstairs.There was a commotion in the house again, Gao Hui yelled at Meng Tunan for messing up the room all night after he came back... His voice was a little farther away, and when he walked out of the first floor, he saw Meng Jianjun watering the flowers.

This scene was very ordinary, but Lu Yan saw the warm background, this is a family that makes people feel happy.

He walked out slowly, feeling strangely heavy... He began to imagine unrealistically what it would be like to live in this kind of family.

And the source of anxiety was probably because the family was very kind to him, but he was doing something that would make their hearts hurt. Lu Yan even hoped that they would stop being so kind to him.

When I got home, the food was ready on the table.Grandma didn't wait for him, she ate by herself, and didn't say hello when she saw people coming in.

Lu Yan didn't dare to take the initiative to provoke her, so he took off his coat and ate.

After taking a few mouthfuls, Mrs. Peng coughed twice, frowned and said, "Why don't you go to that woman's place to celebrate Chinese New Year...do they celebrate Chinese New Year abroad?"

He said helplessly: "You told me that I would celebrate the New Year with you, but you still drove me out."

"That's because you don't want to stay here." Mrs. Peng looked at him all the time, "running to other people's houses all day long."

After thinking about it, Lu Yan felt that he really did something wrong in this matter.He admitted this, and said submissively, "It won't happen in the future."

In the end, Mrs. Peng still persuaded: "You can go there to celebrate the New Year. There is no need to stay with me, an old woman. Those relatives will come to see me. I used to go to your Aunt Mei's house for the New Year. Their family has Children, it's very lively..."

Lu Yan flatly refused, "I'll stay with you here, and I won't go anywhere."

"I still don't like your company." Mrs. Peng waved her hand, "I'm used to being alone."

Lu Yan dealt with her in a good-tempered manner... Sometimes he always felt that grandma was saying something ironic on purpose, in order to let him coax her, and when he got older, he would have a childish temper.

He was not brought up by Mrs. Peng, and he met very few times during the growth process. It is not about relationship, but more about responsibility.It's just that seeing the old man alone, he always feels sad... Maybe he was so lonely in the end, relying on a little thought to survive day after day.

The concept of family is very vague in his eyes.Neither of his parents gave him complete company, so Lu Yan could only get the so-called "good" concept from Meng Tunan's family.It's just that what belongs to others belongs to others, so it doesn't belong to me after all...

What if I and Mengtunan continue?Will it destroy the happiness and contentment of that family?

Lu Yan is actually not a person who is used to worrying about gains and losses, but this matter seems to be difficult to continue no matter how he thinks about it.The more he likes Meng Tunan, the more guilt he feels towards Gao Hui and Meng Jianjun.

After realizing that the situation seemed to be developing in a direction beyond his control, Lu Yan developed a mentality of evasion, and was even a little afraid of seeing Meng Tunan's parents again after that day.

He went less, and Meng Tunan came more.Lu Yanding didn't want to stay with him in a place with elders, so he could only drag him out for a walk when he had time.

Meng Tunan was not an idiot either, he soon realized it, and asked him directly: "What's wrong with my mother, I've been avoiding her all day long."

Lu Yan had no choice but to pull him to face the problem together: "Aren't you afraid that she will know?"

But Meng Tunan was very brave in this matter: "To be honest, I'm not very afraid. The worst is to kill me...It's useless to kill me. I still want to stay with you."

"So you should understand why I don't want you to go to your house, why I am afraid that you will come to me." Lu Yan was not very happy, "Have you thought about my situation? You are not afraid of me."

"What are you afraid of?" Meng Tunan said indifferently, "I didn't do anything wrong."

It's hard for Lu Yan to understand his mood: "Do you never think about the consequences when you do things?"

"Then did you think about the consequences when you fought for Li Xiaoyuan at school?"

"...Can this be the same?"

"I think the same." Meng Tunan stopped and looked at him sideways. "I may have thought about it, or I may not have thought about it. Anyway, the result is the way it is now, and I have nothing to do. Do you have a solution? Otherwise, you will teach me , tell me what to do."

"The best way is that you don't say those things to me again, don't kiss me, don't hug me, treat me as, later..."

Before he finished speaking, Meng Tunan hugged him directly... on the busy street.

"..." Lu Yan pushed the person away angrily, "Deaf?"

"I'm not deaf, but I'm very sad." Meng Tunan's voice was very soft, "I love my parents very much, but I also love you very much. I want the person I like to be with me all the time, now and in the future. I don't want to wait .”

Love.

Lu Yan shook his head repeatedly in his heart. Saying love at an age with nothing seems to be the most sincere but also the least convincing sentence.There is nothing but the flood of likes, and I feel that I have no confidence in doing anything.Meng Tunan has the confidence to be so ignorant, he has a home he can go back to no matter what... What if he loses everything if this continues?

The problem is that I can't bear to let go.

The sense of powerlessness about the future made Lu Yan very tired.He used almost all reasons to convince himself, and imagined all possibilities... The result was very pessimistic.

Then do you really like Meng Tunan?

At that time, it was difficult to distinguish the emotion, but the instinct was telling myself that I didn't want to lose this person.It's good to be together, no matter what form it is...friends are fine, anything is fine.

In the end, he entrusted all possibilities to the "future".Paralyzed himself said to wait until the exams are over, to go to university, to graduate from Dingyan, to grow up...it was always like this when I was young, I always thought that all problems could be solved by growing up.

Humbly messing around and playing around, the Spring Festival is here.

This year Lu Yan was very boring, he would do his homework and read books when his grandma was watching TV, and after a while, he would send a few text messages to Meng Tunan, never going out to play, and stayed firmly at home with his grandma.

On the morning of the first day of the new year, he accompanied his grandmother to the mountain to burn incense. The custom here is to burn incense on the first day of the new year.

The temple is halfway up the mountain, and it took half an hour to climb up.They arrived at the temple at eight o'clock. They thought it was early enough, but when they arrived, they found that there were already many people.

When grandma was buying incense, Lu Yan walked around, walked to a tree and looked at the sign standing, and introduced it as a tree called You Epiphyllum - "The leaves are like pineapples with nine silks, and the flowers are like hibiscus. It blooms every May. The flower has twelve petals, and one petal is added in leap year, it is a strange tree."

Lu Yan took a picture of this introduction card and handed it to Meng Tunan.

The other party replied almost instantly: Bragging... let's see how many petals the flower has in May this year, and see if it really has thirteen petals in leap year.

Lu Yan replied to him: OK.

After putting away the mobile phone, grandma just found him and took him to an old monk to let him tie a safety rope for him.The old monk asked what his name was, and Lu Yan answered. The monk closed his eyes and began to read a few words vaguely.After tying the safety rope, Mrs. Peng felt that it was not enough, so she asked Lu Yan to offer incense in person.

When we arrived at the place to buy incense, the person who collected the money was a very shrewd middle-aged monk.When the man saw the visitor, he pointed to the incense sticks in front of him and said, "The thick ones are 20 yuan apiece, and the thin ones are 10 yuan apiece." He paused, "What do you want?"

Mrs. Peng quickly replied: "Study, study."

"Study." The monk rolled his eyes, "Don't burn incense if you want to study, light a lamp, it's best to light a lamp." Then he took out the thing from the cabinet, "This is the best, wisdom seven-star lamp, 288, two people How about one?"

There are seven lamps, which are placed on the finished lotus shape, which is very delicate.

Mrs. Peng immediately became interested and walked over to ask.That monk is a bluffer, and when he said it all in one way, it made people froze for a while.Lu Yan felt that the monk and the lamp were not very reliable, and the seven-star lamp was smart. Didn't the seven-star lamp be used by Zhuge Liangliang to renew his life, and he cared about his studies?

Lu Yan was afraid that grandma would be cheated, and wanted to take him away, but this time Mrs. Peng was very insistent, and she must buy him this 288 yuan lamp.

Thinking of making grandma happy, Lu Yan still complied with her.The monk handed him a candle, and brought them to a Bodhisattva, first asked Lu Yan to light the seven lamps one by one, and then put his hands respectfully in front of the altar.

He did as he was told, being careful the whole time.But just put it on the top, the "lamp" closest to me flickered, and then...

Went out.

Lu Yan was stunned for a moment, and froze in place.

This is the first time he burns incense and worships Buddha when he grows up, and this is the result?

Went out?

Mrs. Peng's eyes were not good either, she didn't know what happened, she saw that he didn't move, so she asked, "What's wrong?"

The monk immediately reacted, quickly took out the thing and lit the lamp: "It's windy today, I'm fine." After speaking, he stuffed the two offering apples in front of the altar into Lu Yan's hand, "... Take it back and eat it, it’s a good idea.”

Lu Yan took two steps back with the apple, then looked up at the solemn Bodhisattva who seemed to be smiling slightly...

He always felt that the Bodhisattva seemed to want to tell him something.