crossing the northern latitude

Lu Yan's eyesight has always been very good.

When his peers wore thick glasses because of poor eye habits, he carefully protected his eyes and maintained good habits. Even now, he can clearly see the thread ends of the teacher's clothes on the podium in the last row.

Perhaps because he could see clearly, Lu Yan found that he had an obsession with cleanliness, and hated some irregular and unclean things, such as Meng Tunan's room, Meng Tunan's table, Meng Tunan's test paper bag...all in a mess.

At first, he thought about it, since he was gone anyway, he had nothing to do to help Meng Tunan tidy up the desk.When planning to act, he hesitated again. The tangled point is that if he cleans up...the shadow left by Meng Tunan may disappear.

From time to time, after class, he would walk over to have a look, observe for a long time, and wait for the opportunity to make a move.

Li Ya next to him took the initiative to ask him: "Are you looking for something from Mencius? I'll help you find it. His things are in a mess and you can't find them."

Lu Yan: "No, it's just...it's too messy, I want to help him put away the table."

Li Ya waved his hand: "Don't do it, even if you take him back, it will be a mess in three days..."

Lu Yan nodded, and Li Ya asked again: "By the way, has Mencius settled down? I haven't seen him write us a letter, and he doesn't reply when we send messages... Lu Yan, do you know how he is doing over there?"

Send a message but not reply?

"I told him not to use his mobile phone." Lu Yan explained awkwardly, "He is easily distracted, so I told him not to take his mobile phone out."

"It should be like this." Li Ya agreed, "Well done!"

Just as he was talking, Lu Yan picked up Meng Tunan's glasses and looked at them.

Meng Tunan is a little short-sighted, but he sits at the front of the class, and he is not used to wearing glasses. After wearing them for a few minutes, there will be marks on the bridge of the nose, and they are worn out a few times, so the glasses are just a decoration.

Lu Yan looked at the pair of glasses, picked them up and tried them on.

He turned his head to look at Li Ya—feeling dizzy.

Li Ya smiled: "When you put on glasses, you look like a face with perfect scores in mathematics, physics and chemistry."

Lu Yan took off his glasses: "What about now?"

"Now, now... it feels a bit like..." Li Ya looked at him for a long time, "Don't laugh, let me think about it... Yes! I know!"

She suddenly realized: "Lu Yan, I've always thought that you look like a soldier. These two days, the Air Force is just recruiting...Pilots, do you want to sign up?"

Lu Yan seriously asked: "How do I look like a soldier?"

"Ah?" Li Ya was stunned for a moment, "I don't know, temperament... I think you are very self-disciplined and serious..."

Lu Yan shook his head: "No, I never thought about being a soldier."

"There is also civil aviation, let's think about it now!" Li Ya was in charge of publicizing in class, and immediately found a few watches and stuffed them for him, "There is also a civil aviation school here, you can take a look... Go and try it, Civil Aviation I went to City X for a unified physical examination on Monday. The air force will pass some time, and the registration period will be closed. The physical examination will be back and forth for three days. The physical education teacher leads the team. I heard from Zhou Tao that half of the students in their physical education class went to the teacher to register. Going to play on vacation."

Lu Yan looked at the registration form in his hand: "Thank you...but isn't there a mock exam on Monday?"

Li Ya said: "Yes, it's a mock exam..."

Lu Yan walked back to his seat, and casually put the registration form into his schoolbag.

After Meng Tunan left, Lu Yan's life became very busy and empty.You have to do questions in class, digest knowledge with your heart, go home to talk with grandma, and deal with many people who inadvertently bring up the topic of Mengtunan.

There is one more project in my life now, and I have to call Xie Lin frequently.This was requested by his grandparents. Xie Lin's alcoholism and dependence on drugs have eased, and the elders hope that Xie Lin and Lu Yan can care for and communicate with each other more.

The strange thing is that the relationship between him and Xie Lin has really become much closer, perhaps it is the distance that creates beauty.

As he walked out after school, he dialed the number for Xie Lin.

"--Hey!"

It sounds normal.

"...Do you know who I am?" Lu Yan still confirmed, "Sober now?"

"Sober." Xie Lin called, "Son!"

"Well, it's me."

Maybe it was because Xie Lin was in such a good state today, Lu Yan suddenly didn't know what to say, and fell silent.After all, Xie Lin was crying on the phone yesterday, telling the story of her encounter with her father over and over again.She is always like this, and she is mourning every day.

In Xie Lin's world, Lu Yan has never had much sense of existence. His father, eating, drinking and having fun is his mother's world... Now that he is asked to contact her like this, Lu Yan is actually very flattered.

It seems that after leaving each other, they gradually learned how to love each other.

"Did you eat well?" he asked.

"Your grandparents force you to eat every meal, son, I'm definitely going to get fat." Xie Lin's voice became softer, complaining to him, "I didn't want to drink anymore, I almost threw up."

Lu Yan was a little helpless: "You are not fat, so rest assured."

"I'm scolded by your grandpa and grandma every day, son, I really can't stand it." Xie Lin whispered again, "You know your grandpa, he scolds people so fiercely, he found the wine I hid in my boot, and he punished me Go bath the cat, Yanyan, do you know how stinky that cat is?"

"..." Lu Yan suddenly felt that he should have sent his mother there a long time ago, and the curative effect was too amazing. Grandpa and grandma knew how to take care of her.

But this also set off his own incompetence, as if his son was useless.He responded in a low voice, "Has it been like this recently?"

"Yes, I'm fine. I only cry when I call you." Xie Lin began to claim credit, "I didn't drink alcohol for two days, and I didn't take medicine yesterday. I was exposed to the sun and ate a lot of cake today..."

Lu Yan sincerely praised her: "This is very good, keep it up!"

"That depends on whether the weather is good or not." Xie Lin said, "Son, eat well."

"You are the one who wants to eat well."

"Study is too tiring, don't study." Xie Lin began to encourage him to play, "If you are in a bad mood and stressed, go out to play..."

Lu Yan replied dumbfoundedly: "I have a sense of proportion."

He sighed after picking up the phone.I wonder if people who are close to me will get better as long as they stay away from me?Do you have evil spirits in your life?

Then he glanced at Mengtunan's number.

It's been almost a month since the last phone call or text message.I guess it hurt my self-esteem a bit, I really never looked for myself again.

Lu Yan's mood was actually a bit complicated. One thought was: very good, he didn't look for me anymore, he was very obedient.Another thought was: very good, he didn't look for me, really obedient.

He knew very well that contact was good for Meng Tunan, and that man could no longer be distracted.

In fact, I don't miss it much, I just don't get used to it.No one has the first bite of food anymore, commuting to and from school alone, renting dishes can only be watched by one person, the table is not full of snacks, looking up in class... the corner where he used to look with his head was empty.

Habits are the most terrifying, like chronic poisons, they gnaw away at life bit by bit.

Lu Yan began to reflect and examine himself, what exactly did he think of Meng Tunan.

friend.

Do you have such a deep hatred for your friends?But he, Lu Yan, is not someone who likes to interfere in other people's lives, especially when it comes to the future.Would a friend sleep in a bed and eat from a bowl so intimately?Others think it's normal, but it's not normal to Lu Yan.There are many more... It is obviously not a long period of time, but abnormal events are happening intensively.

It's all sporadic evidence, as if reminding something...

Go to class, finish class, go home for dinner alone.In the days when Mengtunan was away, he repeated these boring daily routines, burying all the questions in his heart to ask and answer by himself.

When eating, he always thinks about the meals made by Meng Tunan's family... Thinking about what Gao Hui will cook today, Meng Tunan's house is always lively, with the TV on, and the family chatting... Now With Meng Tunan not around, it is impossible for him to go to other people's houses for dinner every day. There are only himself and grandma at the dinner table at home, and Aunt Mei always leaves after cooking.

Lu Yan was distracted and stared at his meal.Mrs. Peng looked at him for a long time, and said: "After the Meng family left, I feel that our area is so quiet."

"Is there?" Lu Yan responded casually, "It's okay."

"Why not, every time he slaps that basketball and goes home, he still talks at the top of his voice, I can hear it with my ears so hard..."

"Really." Lu Yan skillfully perfunctory, "Wow."

Mrs. Peng glanced at him: "Are you unhappy that the boy from the Meng family is gone?"

Lu Yan felt that grandma was a little upset when she asked this question.

He looked up and answered, "No."

Grandma nodded, and started nagging again: "It's best if you don't stay together, you are like your father, you are light-hearted, the one in the Meng family beats you, you two will cause big trouble if you hang out all day."

Lu Yan couldn't laugh or cry: "Grandma, where did you know that he beat me?"

"I did the calculations when you were young, that time the boy from the Meng family smashed his head." Mrs. Peng put down the bowl, her face serious, "Master told me, you are light-hearted, don't talk to people with bad looks." Staying together, the children of the Meng family have flat ears, and their luck is low..."

started again.

Lu Yan also talked nonsense to her: "It's good to have a light character, as soon as the wind blows, it will float up, and you can fly..."

Mrs. Peng poohed three times immediately: "Talk nonsense, hurry up and pooh three times!"

Looking at each other for a moment, Lu Yan reluctantly followed suit, and Mrs. Peng's complexion improved.

This topic ended, but she brought up another topic that Lu Yan didn't want to talk about:

"Did your mother call you today?"

Lu Yanxin said that luckily he called before he came back.He said vaguely, "I called just a few days ago..."

"I don't want to care about you when I go abroad, do I?"

"how is this possible."

"How is it impossible? She might think that you will still influence her in the future..."

Lu Yan didn't even look at her, and interrupted directly: "...Grandma, eat this carrot."

Mrs. Peng took the piece of radish, and continued: "She is going abroad to treat mental illness, right?"

His chopsticks stopped.

"I went to the hospital. The doctor said that she didn't have that kind of disease. She just drank too much and couldn't regulate herself." Lu Yan tried to explain, "You also know that she has a good relationship with Dad, and she was hit all of a sudden..."

"She's just squeamish." Mrs. Peng sneered, "She's the only one who's sad? Everyone else is fine, but she insists on dying to sing a big show for others to see. I think she used to be a little crazy! She even drank and drank... If I drink it again, my head will really break... I'm in my eighties, why haven't I been so sad? She killed my son and still has the face to cry!"

At this time, Lu Yan could understand his father's feelings well.There is grandma on one side and mother on the other, and it is not right for anyone.The old man is very old, and he will be very stubborn when he recognizes who he hates.

"Anyway, she doesn't have any mental illness, grandma, you don't want to talk nonsense." Lu Yan was a little irritable, "I'll get angry if I talk about it again."

"Drinking too much is also a disease!" Mrs. Peng continued to comment stubbornly, "If you drink too much, you will become mentally ill sooner or later."

As soon as the words fell, Ding Ding at grandma's feet suddenly jumped up and barked.Lu Yan glared at it, and threw another bone to it to stop the barking... At that moment, Lu Yan had the illusion that Meng Tunan had come to the house—every time that person came, Tintin would bark like this .

He looked up at the door, but there was no one there, and his heart was empty again.

Grandma is talking about Xie Lin again.Really didn't want to listen anymore, Lu Yan hurriedly finished his meal, grabbed his schoolbag, said goodbye and left the house.

In fact, it's still early, and now I go to the classroom to do problems and read books.If it was the past, maybe Mengtunan would take him to the stadium to play for a while.

After the sense of loss hit, Lu Yan severely despised this kind of fragility in his heart.

So he went home to get the basketball, and ran to the school basketball court to shoot for half an hour.In fact, there was a junior player next to him playing halftime, and he happened to be short of one person. Someone came over and asked him if he wanted to join him. Lu Yan felt that he was bored, so he shook his head and refused. He and a few kids who sneaked into the school had a relationship under the same basket. Shoot without a tower.

It's not that if no one plays with you, you will die.

But the world seemed to be silent all of a sudden, and he would even unconsciously look for Meng Tunan's shadow.

A girl asked him a question with a draft. Before speaking, Lu Yan thought about it and asked her, "Will you fold that...Southeast, Northwest?"

The female classmate was stunned: "Huh?"

Lu Yan was still afraid that others would not know, so he gestured to them for a long time, and finally became silent under the strange eyes of the female classmate.But the female classmate still tore a piece of draft paper, folded it two or three times and gave it to him.

The other party helped him write the four characters of southeast and northwest, but there was no writing inside.There are eight sides in total, and Lu Yan writes on them respectively: passed the exam, failed the exam, cried, didn't cry, like it, dislike it, agree, and disagree.

He played that southeast and northwest for a lesson.At the end of the game, I felt that my behavior was also very weak, and I viciously lost the southeast and northwest.After class, I ran to the mountain behind the school alone, looking for the two white twin towers, the place Meng Tunan was afraid of.

Lu Yan always likes to run there when he is in a bad mood, because it is the highest place in the whole school.

The twin towers are very old.He would climb to the top, and there was a very wide platform on the top. Lu Yan would stand there for a long time. He liked to stand on a high place and look down since he was a child.

Sometimes even at night, he would come here alone for a while, and then leave the school through the back door, and find the small shop where Meng Tunan took him to eat rice balls with sweet wine... He would ask for two bowls and eat them by himself, adding a lot of sugar .

Aunt Axiang, who sells rum, asked him why he came alone, and he said that Meng Tunan had gone to take an exam.Auntie Ah Xiang nodded and said that she seemed to have heard about it.She sighed again, saying that all boys want to go out, and she doesn't know how long her Xiaobao can accompany her.

Lu Yan didn't have time to answer, he was confronting a stray dog ​​on his right at the moment.The dog was so dirty, it was looking at him eagerly, looking very pitiful.

Somehow, this scene made Lu Yan inexplicably think of how every time Meng Tunan came to his house, he carefully tried to please Ding Ding with ham sausage.

The dog kept circling around him.Lu Yan casually said to the dog: "Sit down, don't turn around."

As a result, the dog really sat down.

"..." Lu Yan was speechless for a second, "I haven't given you anything to eat when you sit down, so you can go."

The dog didn't leave, just sat on the side and looked at him pitifully.

"Your temper really resembles someone." Lu Yan glanced at it, "Otherwise you get down on the ground, and I'll treat you to eat."

The dog actually got down.

"..." Lu Yan's hand holding the spoon paused, "Do you understand? No... Otherwise, come and shake hands, and I'll give you something to eat."

Thinking that he would not be so obedient, Lu Yan stretched out his hand in disbelief.Who would have thought that the dog would actually stretch out its paws towards him when it sat up...

"You were sent by Meng Tunan, right?" After being shocked, Lu Yan smiled and held the dog's paw and shook it, "Is it?"

The dog barked a few times, with docile eyes, and rubbed its dirty head against Lu Yan's palm.

Lu Yan didn't waste his money, and led the dog to the canteen to buy food for it.Originally, he wanted to take a piece of paper from his bag to feed it, so he looked through his schoolbag, only to find two papers and the registration form that Li Yasai gave him in the morning, there were two.

After weighing it up, Lu Yan still chose to give Gouzi the math test paper that was close to full marks.

Lu Yan sat on the steps and watched the dog eat, and then looked up at the sky...Suddenly, he remembered Meng Tunan's stupid way of wishing on the plane, so he couldn't help but smile.

I laughed for a while and felt a little sad.

How is he?Do you want to find yourself when you are wronged?Did you eat on time?Are you used to the weather over there?When you are bored, will you be like yourself, staring at the sky in a daze?

When you see the plane again, will you still make a wish?

Lu Yan was stunned for a long time.

He stared blankly at the registration form, then took out a pen by accident, squatted next to the dog, and wrote his name on the form carefully.