crossing the northern latitude

Are there ghosts and gods in this world?

Lu Yan didn't believe this before, but maybe too many unusual things happened in his life... The girl sitting in front of him had a murder case, his best friend said he liked him, and the teacher who was very kind in the class might be a... …

He began to suspect that he was really like what his grandma said—that he had fallen into evil, otherwise why would he always meet strange people and always say goodbye to them.

It seems to happen quietly, and it always comes without warning.

After class on Monday, when he and Meng Tunan walked to the school gate, they found an eye-catching car.

People coming and going had to look there a few more times, because there was a handsome man in a windbreaker standing in front of the car, as if he was waiting for someone.

Lu Yan didn't realize it at first, so he stood there for a moment, Meng Tunan laughed, tugged his sleeve and pointed to that side: "Bambi, look, a luxury car!"

Lu Yan looked over there, silent.The man in front of the car had already seen them, raised his hand and waved at them.

Meng Tunan was still confused, before Lu Yan explained: "...that's my uncle."

In the car was not only his uncle Xie Yu, but also Xie Lin who hadn't seen him for more than half a year.After receiving them, Meng Tunan also got into the car, Lu Yan and his mother sat in the back seat, and Xie Yu drove.

Needless to say, Meng Tunan could tell that Xie Lin was not in the right state. She must be drunk and smelled of alcohol. Lu Yan called her mother several times without much reaction, just perfunctory, staring at her. Watching with my hands, playing with my hair, lazily unwilling to talk to anyone.

However, Meng Tunan found that both Xie Lin and Xie Yu were quite good-looking, with a noble appearance, and Lu Yan should have followed his mother more.

Grandma Peng has always disliked Xie's family, and it was impossible to live at home. In the end, the car stopped at Meng Tunan's house, and she also stayed in his hotel.

Unchanging Tavern

The two adults politely ate a meal, Xie Lin vomited after eating, Xie Yu and the nurse skillfully helped her into the room to take care of her, Lu Yan ran upstairs and downstairs a few times, the only contribution she made was to help her uncle He poured a glass of water for Xie Lin to take the medicine.Xie Yu didn't call him out until he fell asleep, and said, "Go for a stroll outside?"

For some reason, Lu Yan felt that something was about to happen, and he instinctively began to resist: "I still have self-study at night."

"I asked Uncle Meng to help you ask for leave." Xie Yu's tone was unquestionable, "Tomorrow will be the same."

They went downstairs, and Meng Tunan was helping to wash the dishes in the kitchen. Seeing that they were about to go out, he was a little strange and asked, "It's time for class, where are you going?"

Xie Yu was here, but Lu Yan just shook his head at Meng Tunan: "Go to school by yourself later."

Meng Tunan interpreted Bambi's expression, then looked at Lu Yan's cold-faced uncle, rushed to get an umbrella from the cabinet, trotted out and stuffed it to Lu Yan from behind, and squeezed it quickly Bambi's hand, silently expressing his encouragement, gave him the umbrella and walked back.

How can this little action escape Xie Yu's eyes.

He asked slowly, "Do you have a good relationship with him?"

Lu Yan nodded a little stiffly: "En."

"I've never seen you hold hands with anyone since I was a child." Xie Yu smiled, "Don't you hate people touching you?"

"...No." Lu Yan said, "I've known him since I was a child, but I'm still... different from others."

"Really, Faxiao is so close? Don't think I don't know. Before your grandpa and grandma pinched your face, you secretly went to the toilet to wash your face. Could it be that grandpa and grandma are not as good as that kid?"

Lu Yan was a little speechless, he held the umbrella tightly, trying to change the topic: "Are you bringing mom back to see grandma this time?"

The wind was very strong by the river, and Xie Yu's windbreaker was blown all the time.

Hearing this, he stopped by the pier, turned around, and solemnly looked at Lu Yan who was wearing a blue school uniform.

Lu Yan's heart shrank, he didn't want to hear what his uncle said next, and even wanted to cover his ears.

"I will take your mother to New Zealand the day after tomorrow." Xie Yu spoke slowly, "We plan to let her live with your grandparents and change the environment. I brought her to say goodbye to you, thinking that you will have a long time I can't see you for a while, and you know your mother, about her drinking..."

Later, my uncle talked a lot, about taking good care of yourself, about not causing trouble to other people, about not using the card he gave him indiscriminately, and giving him a few business cards, saying that he should call those people if necessary... It seems to be explaining everything .

Lu Yan listened numbly, and silently said um, okay, I know, don't worry, it's the same as before.

Later, when it rained, he nervously urged Xie Yu to leave, held up the umbrella Meng Tunan had given him, and quickly walked back to Meng Tunan's house.

He went upstairs, walked to the door of Xie Lin's room and opened it quietly, and looked at it quietly.

I thought that Xie Lin had fallen asleep, but after watching for a while, she suddenly sat up and said in a low voice, "Who is it?"

He went in and tried to turn on the light, but Shailene refused.

After sitting on the side of the bed, Xie Lin took his hand and touched his face. When she touched something wet, she tasted it and said it was bitter.Lu Yan pulled her hand to touch the jade around her neck, and then she called out, "Son."

Lu Yan hugged her tightly.Xie Lin is very thin, and the feeling of holding her is too unreal, like hugging the wind.

Her mind was in a mess, Lu Yan started to chatter, and told Xie Lin something she didn't care to listen to at the moment:

"Go over there, you have to eat and sleep well, I don't want you to worry, you can take care of yourself... I am very obedient now, I can take care of myself, you wait for me, I can take care of you when I grow up... "

"Yanyan." Xie Lin seemed to hear nothing, her voice was low, as if discussing, "Mom wants to drink, can you help me get it?"

He shook his head, his voice choked up: "Stop drinking, don't touch a drop. Dad doesn't like you drinking, so don't drink."

"You can only see him after drinking." Xie Lin said in a low and aggrieved tone, "You don't know anything."

"Don't think about him." Lu Yan's eyes were sore, "Can you take a look at yourself first?"

Xie Lin burst into tears instantly: "Yanyan, I miss him so much."

Perhaps because she couldn't get anything, Xie Lin quickly lost her patience.She pushed Lu Yan away vigorously, and began to pace around the room. Whenever Lu Yan touched her, he would hide and pull his hair.

Xie Lin's alcoholism is getting worse and worse, and Lu Yan also knows that his uncle's choice is right, and if he doesn't control it, it will be a matter of time before he collapses.She hides in her own world in a daze all day long and doesn't want to face reality... She starts to cry when she drinks too much, and spends most of the day in a state of confusion, talking to herself and not letting anyone touch her.

After a while Xie Yu heard the movement and trotted over to pull... Meng Tunan just came back from evening class at that time, he had never seen such a battle before, he was dumbfounded in the corridor.

Xie Lin looked at Lu Yan with disheveled hair... After a while, she steadied herself, looked straight at Lu Yan, and yelled, "Lu He!"

That cry made Meng Tunan tremble.

Mess up.Lu Yan stubbornly refused to leave, Xie Yu could only forcefully drag Lu Yan out to Meng Tunan with a sullen face: "Take him to sleep."

Lu Yan was taken back to his room by him in a daze.In such a situation, Meng Tunan didn't dare to talk nonsense, so he could only help Bambi wipe his face in silence and coax him to sleep.Lu Yan was not in the mood to pay attention to him, and skillfully shrank to the back of the bed, covering himself under the quilt.

Meng Tunan looked at him worried for a while, his mother Gao Hui knocked on the door again, and said that Lu Yan didn't eat much at night, do you want to make some supper, she also looked worried, Meng Tunan was very worried persuaded her away.

He really didn't expect Xie Lin to be like this.

Meng Tunan closed the door, went to poke Lu Yan who was pretending to be an ostrich: "reach out, I'll give you a good thing."

After waiting for a while, the other party slowly extended a hand.

Looking at the hand, he held it carefully, and said softly, "Yes, do you feel it?"

Feeling being teased and cheated, Bambi wanted to withdraw his hand in an instant.Then Meng Tunan took out a little deer toy and put it in Bambi's palm: "I found it after searching several stores today. It's a toy in a children's set meal. The set meal is very expensive... Next time you come with me, I will eat the set meal , toy for you."

He twisted the tail of the toy deer, and the little thing sang a nursery rhyme, walking slowly in Lu Yan's hand, shaking his head and looking cute.

He propped his head up and looked at the fake deer. The real deer in the quilt had folded his hands together and hid the toy in the quilt.

Meng Tunan knew that Lu Yan must be scolding the toys for being stupid and scolding himself for being childish in his heart at this moment, but he didn't know if he was crying.

Didn't cry, but looked scarier than crying.Meng Tunan still hoped that Bambi would cry, but this man was sad and did not make a sound, which made people feel distressed and uncomfortable.

"It's okay." He hugged Bambi even under the quilt, "I'll sleep with you in my arms."

Xie Yu and the others only stayed in Dingyan for less than two days.

It was also at that time that we met, and after hearing Meng Jianjun mention it, Meng Tunan learned that Lu Yan's mother's family conditions are actually very good. Lu Yan's grandfather is a well-known expert in thoracic surgery, and his grandmother was a university professor who taught law before retiring. He spent his later years in New Zealand. His uncle had already had a successful career at a young age, and even Xie Lin was a well-known dancer before she got drunk.

In the eyes of Meng Tunan, this is already an unattainable family background.But even growing up in this kind of family... Bambi doesn't seem to be very happy growing up, and his life is not as happy as himself... Could this be the conservation of all things?Give you some and you must lose some.

From the perspective of the world, Lu He's marriage to Xie Lin is regarded as a high rise, but Mrs. Peng doesn't like this marriage very much, and firmly believes that Xie Jiake's own son, no, he's dead.

She also hated Lu Yan's dealings with Xie's family, and always felt that Xie's family would kill their son and then her grandson.For this reason, Xie Yu and Xie Lin didn't step into the door of Mrs. Peng's house even though everyone was in Dingyan.

I met my mother, but Lu Yan became more and more silent.He seemed to be resisting what happened, always keeping his head down and not looking at people.

Meng Tunan thought that it would be better not to see him, seeing the one who drove my deer into a trance...the people in his family are really more worried than one.

Fortunately, they came and left in a hurry, the next night when Meng Tunan came home, he found that everyone had left, and there was a red envelope given to him by Xie Yu on the table.He opened it and looked at it. He was very frightened, and there were too many.

Gao Hui came over and took the red envelope away naturally, and said that I will keep it for you, and only give him two hundred.He was very happy with the two hundred, and he put them away carefully, Gao Hui explained: "You should sleep with Yanyan these few days, and spend more time with him."

"Understood." Meng Tunan nodded, and suggested hesitantly, "Otherwise, should I wait for a while before leaving? He..."

"No, how long is the entrance exam? Is there anything more important than myself?" Gao Hui glared at him. "Others have been training for six months, how many months are you? You still have to drag it on. Don't you worry about it?"

There was nothing wrong with saying this, but Meng Tunan was actually very reluctant to leave.He is a family lover, and he hates traveling far away by car. He would blow up at the thought of going to a strange environment for two or three months, not to mention that he really didn't want to leave when Lu Yan was sad.

When people reach a certain age, they always have to learn to face some unchangeable losses and separations.Meng Tunan hadn't really lost anything at that time, but Lu Yan understood the feeling of loss better than him. Once, twice, three times, if there are too many times, he will become numb. Whether it is difficult or not is another story, but there are too many experiences. See Always look calmer than others.

The night before Mengtunan set off north for training camp, they stayed up all night talking for a long time.The weather was fine that night, they sat by the window looking at the stars, and secretly took the bayberry wine brewed at home to drink.They put their shoulders together and talked about the future for the first time.

Lu Yan asked: "What kind of person do you want to be?"

"Be a good person!" Meng Tunan smiled, "I want to be a good person."

Lu Yan also smiled with him: "Sometimes I want to be you, and I envy your troubles are not troubles, but being happy seems to be really happy."

Meng Tunan replied angrily: "How do you know that I am really happy." He paused, "You...will you go to school far away in the future? Will you go to New Zealand to find your mother?"

"I don't know." Lu Yan shook his head, "She doesn't seem to need me, does she. I don't think she's useless, 365 days, she might not recognize who I am for 300 days, and get drunk all day long."

"...Don't you just love to drink! Drunk beauty!" Meng Tunan changed his mind and flattered, "Speaking of which, your mother is really beautiful, like a star! Your father must be handsome too!"

"My dad is very handsome." Lu Yan smiled, "I don't think it's good to be too beautiful. Sometimes I think what grandma said makes sense. It might be true. I see her drinking like this. Going down is really..."

"Don't listen to your grandma talking nonsense."

Lu Yan lowered his head: "I don't know when I can see her again."

Meng Tunan shook the small wine glass, and then said softly: "Think about it, no one in the world will be together forever. I need you very much, I don't want to be too far away from you, I don't want to go to training camp, you are not Throw me away."

Lu Yan didn't know if he heard this, he bumped Meng Tunan's shoulder, pointed to the sky and said, "Look."

Meng Tunan squinted his eyes and was startled. He was mostly sober from the wine, and immediately folded his hands and closed his eyes to make a wish.

"……What are you doing?"

"Meteor! Hurry up and make a wish."

What exactly is that look.Lu Yan rolled his eyes: "That's an airplane, can you see it clearly?"

"It doesn't matter." Meng Tunan still closed his eyes piously, "It's all things in the sky, and it's all incredible...I haven't been on a plane yet."

Lu Yan couldn't help smiling.He put down the cup and simply made a wish with the plane.

The next day, in the early morning drizzle, Lu Yan hurled Meng Tunan into the first bus with curses.Meng Tunan turned his head three times a step, jumped down and talked nonsense when the car was about to start: Otherwise, let's elope and don't care about anything!

Lu Yan could only drag Meng Tunan back to sit down, ordered him to shut up, and took the motion sickness medicine.

When parting, Lu Yan hated the reluctant scene the most, and he tried his best to make this parting a trivial matter.At that time, I was actually hypnotizing myself not to be unhappy, and it’s not like I won’t come back.

After Lu Yan watched the bus go away, he looked at his watch and found that it was too late for school.

I wanted to take a taxi, but found that I had given Meng Tunan all the change I had... I had no choice but to run to school, but I was still late when I got to school.Standing and standing, he realized that he hadn't bought breakfast and was going hungry.

Mengtunan used to buy him breakfast, and they ate the same thing.

After studying early, I wanted to buy something to eat, so I went to the office and borrowed 50 yuan from Jiang Bo, planning to go to the canteen.As a result, the English teacher walked into the classroom early and handed out the papers for the exam. There was no other way but to do the papers with a hungry stomach and dizziness.

After the exam, class was finally over, so he hurried to the school canteen to buy a piece of bread, and when he tore off the wrapping paper, he habitually handed it to the side, wanting the people next to him to have the first bite, but there was no one for the bread today Instead of tasting poison, he poked a passing girl on the arm, and he apologized for a long time.

On the first morning of Montunan's departure, he was in a mess.

Lu Yan had a premonition that the rhythm of the whole day would be messed up.He was completely in the mood to eat, and threw away the bread, feeling nauseated in his stomach.

If he was here... Lu Yan just thought about this assumption and forced himself to stop.

If there is no if, don't expect it.

It was also at that time that Lu Yan really felt that the departure of some people would make a noise in your life to remind you - he really left.