crossing the northern latitude

When Lu Yan walked out of the office, the class bell just rang, and it was getting dark.

When I went out, I saw Meng Tunan waiting outside.He stared blankly at Meng Tunan for a few seconds, maybe because he was in a really bad state, the other man stepped forward and shook his arm.

"what happened?"

It was also at that time that he realized that his palms were covered in cold sweat.

Lu Yan shook his head: "Let's talk after class."

Not interested in speaking, he walked directly back to the classroom.

Later, I was absent-minded in class, and my mind was full of what the policewoman said——

"—Do you have the impression that Li Xiaoyuan usually has the habit of sharpening pencils with a knife?"

"—What kind of person do you think Li Xiaoyuan is?"

"—No, no, no, the knife wound is not important, Li Xiaoyuan's injury is mainly later..."

Think dizzy.Lu Yan couldn't concentrate, and went to a class in a daze.

After class, those rumors and gossip began to drill into his ears.

"Will Zhang Yu and the others go to jail?"

"I heard that a knife was used... It is said that it was stabbed very deeply and bled a lot!"

"It's nonsense. People say that he bled when he was pushed down the stairs and hit his head."

"No, I heard it was stabbed in the stomach..."

"No, I heard them say they pushed it downstairs."

"Who said that?"

...

Lu Yan didn't want to hear it very much, but the nerves in his ears were extremely sensitive at the moment, and he couldn't avoid hearing it.

After a day of confusion, I came to class the next day, but the situation still did not improve.I don't know if it's a psychological effect, but Lu Yan always feels that everyone he meets is talking about Li Xiaoyuan.And the empty seat in front is also very uncomfortable, as if there is an empty piece in my heart.

Guilt weighed down like a mountain, making it hard to breathe.

The worst thing is that there are always people who are not afraid of death to "care" about him, and pretend to ask: "Lu Yan, are you okay? Did the police tell you anything? Is Li Xiaoyuan okay?"

Reassure or inquire.

He shook his head and said he didn't know.

After finally staying up until night, unfortunately, it was the head teacher's class again. Yang Wenyi hadn't shown up at school since yesterday, so they could only study by themselves.The familiar scene started, the people around were whispering and changing seats... There was always a humming sound in the classroom, and the volume was getting louder unconsciously. The monitor stood up, she threw the book to maintain order, and said what was the noise , you don't learn from others, you have to learn...

Feel out of breath.Lu Yan closed his eyes, grabbed his schoolbag and ran out of the classroom.

When he reached the door, he ran into Meng Tunan who was chasing him head-on. The man looked anxious and asked, "Where are you going?"

"……do not know."

Meng Tunan had a complicated expression: "...Are you going to skip class again?"

Lu Yan nodded.

After the fight, he skipped class...Meng Tunan sighed, packed his schoolbag silently and walked back: "Let's go."

They finally went to the ancient wharf. Meng Tunan bought two bottles of cheap Erguotou and a pack of hard-to-smoke Double Happiness. The two of them sat on the bank of the river to soothe their inexplicable worries with a sip of cigarettes and wine. , Spicy and choking.

Lu Yan began to talk about the Li Xiaoyuan in his memory sporadically.Speaking of coming to school on the first day, the girl smiled at him carefully and said hello.He said that he didn't like to write math homework, and always handed in blanks. Li Xiaoyuan even copied homework for him a few times and handed it in.Said that he is used to drinking mint honey water, and he is always too lazy to refill the water after drinking. When he wakes up during class breaks, he finds that Li Xiaoyuan will silently fetch the water for him.He said that he was not good at geography. Li Xiaoyuan explained the problems to him and was very patient.Talk about what he said to Li Xiaoyuan, say everything will be fine, and say don't be afraid.

Meng Tunan also talked about Li Xiaoyuan in his mind.He said that he had known Li Xiaoyuan since he was in junior high school. They were in the same class before. At that time, the boys in the whole class liked to bully her.He said that Li Xiaoyuan studied very hard and worked very hard, but his grades have not been so outstanding.Said that he didn't dare to talk to her too much, and always felt that the girl's eyes were scary.

They feel diametrically opposed to the same person.

Lu Yan talked a lot tonight, as if he was talking about something, and he started to get drunk after speaking: "You are right, maybe I really hurt her."

"..." Meng Tunan was silent for a while, "Don't burden yourself, this matter has absolutely nothing to do with you."

"It doesn't matter how."

How would you react as a friend at that moment?

Maybe I should comfort him, maybe I should pat him on the shoulder and say something pale, "Everything will be fine", what should I do?But what Mengtunan was thinking at the moment was: why did he care so much about Li Xiaoyuan?

They can be regarded as a childhood friendship, their parents knew each other, and their parents regarded Lu Yan as a half-son. These connections forced Meng Tunan to treat Lu Yan in a special position.But after working so hard for a long time, why do you feel that you are not as good as Li Xiaoyuan?

Who said women are brothers like clothes?It seems completely wrong now!

Why do you get more and more angry? !

"You care a lot about her," he said. "You're such a nice fellow."

"I don't care..." Lu Yan's voice gradually became weaker, "It's just a little uncomfortable..."

It is a deep sense of powerlessness, because after trying hard, nothing can be changed, and there may even be a possibility of screwing up something.

Meng Tunan frowned: "Were you like this before?"

"How?"

"I really like Heroes Save the Beauty."

Lu Yan was quite impatient: "Can't I get used to it?"

Meng Tunan's mind was already off, he put his head on his lap: "I never saw you care about me so much."

Lu Yan glanced at him: "What do you want me to care about?"

Meng Tunan glanced at him and turned his head: "Forget it."

He pinched the cigarette butt, "Don't worry too much, in my opinion, it's still early, maybe what will happen later."

It was windy by the river, Lu Yan might be tired or cold, he hugged his shoulders and leaned against Meng Tunan, lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking.

At that moment, Meng Tunan's subconscious reaction was to grab the man's head.But it didn't feel right to stretch out his hand... In the end, he could only lean against Lu Yan, and the two of them leaned against their shoulders, thinking about different things.

"Don't you really think Li Xiaoyuan is a bit strange?" Meng Tunan asked suddenly, "To be honest, I always think she is a bit scary. Believe it or not, I have a terrible intuition."

strange?

Lu Yan shook his head: "It's strange..." He paused, "Speaking of which, she was a little strange that morning."

"Why is it strange?"

"It was when I was speaking... I seemed to be more confident, and I looked into my eyes when I spoke." Lu Yan carefully recalled that day, "Then...then she said to borrow a magazine to read, and returned it after reading it for a while. "

"Magazine?"

"Well, just the geography magazine that you threw in my schoolbag." Lu Yan said, "I took it out and looked through it that day... She borrowed it to look through it, saying that she looks a bit like the fish on it..."

Perhaps because he felt that he had said a lot of useless words, Lu Yan sighed and stopped talking.

fish?

Meng Tunan frowned, and wanted to ask more, but the words got stuck... Because Lu Yan picked up a stone and threw it forward, and he didn't know if he wanted to get away with it.

He smiled, lowered his head and picked up a piece, and flew out the stone obliquely. He beat it beautifully and made several spins.

Meng Tunan was very proud: "See, you chicken. You have to pick a flat stone to hit..."

Lu Yan glanced at him: "Do you think I want to play that boring game?"

"Then what are you going to do, fill the river?"

Lu Yan picked up another stone, compared it to the sky, and said solemnly, "Knock down the moon."

"...Did the moon provoke you?"

"You don't mind me." Lu Yan flew the stone out, "It's too bright, I'm not happy."

"Where is the light... nerves." Meng Tunan also remembered that part, and laughed, "When I was young, I hit the sun, and when I grew up, I hit the moon. How can you not fly like this?"

Lu Yan threw another stone towards the sky, and said lazily, "I might be able to fly someday."

"...Silly x."

"You are stupid x."

The routine was boring and scolded each other. Meng Tunan was just about to teach this stubborn deer not to drink anymore. If he drank again, he would sleep at his own home again tonight, but the next second Lu Yan tilted his head and put his head on his shoulder. .

Forget it, but actually rubbed it.

After that, Meng Tunan didn't dare to move for half a minute.

After being silent for a while, Lu Yan asked: "Did you buy fake wine? Why am I a little dizzy?"

"...I don't know." Meng Tunan tried his best to calm down, "If you feel uncomfortable, just lean on me and call you later."

Lu Yan seemed to nod his head, and then fell silent, as if he was really resting.

It's not a lot of amazing moves, they messed around all day long, just leaning on each other, no matter how you think about it, it's normal.But Meng Tunan felt very strange, and even felt that the other side's shoulder was burning up, making him very uncomfortable.

That was the first time he realized something was wrong with him.

After not being quiet for a long time, Lu Yan suddenly said: "I still want to drink, why don't I buy it?"

"...Don't drink." Meng Tunan perfunctory, "rest and go home."

"Otherwise, let's find a way to see Li..."

"Don't mention Li Xiaoyuan yet?" Meng Tunan interrupted directly, "Calm down for a while."

Lu Yanzhuang didn't hear it: "Tell me, will she blame me?"

... Really speechless, Meng Tunan simply pretended to be dumb and didn't bother to answer.

He was so angry that his head began to lose consciousness.Meng Tunan really has never experienced this kind of taste, how could he be reduced to the taste of eating a girl?

And he knew in his heart that Lu Yan probably didn't mean that to Li Xiaoyuan.It's clear, but I just don't want Lu Yan to be troubled by another person...

Is this the possessive desire for a good friend?

Or is he actually envious of Bambi, envious of his bravery and fearlessness?

is it?

what exactly is it?

The more he thought about it, the more something went wrong, Meng Tunan was stunned for a long time, and only when he began to feel a headache, he figured out some ways to do it.

Even though it was night, they crossed the river facing the dark and quiet west, but Meng Tunan felt that the river in front of him suddenly became wider and brighter... It was very strange, as if it had become a sea.

Meng Tunan has never been out of Dingyan, nor has he seen the sea.He stared blankly, his body stiffened, staring ahead, feeling that the non-existent sea was moving towards him... The wind blew up the waves, and the waves also became higher, as if they were higher than the sky.

It's getting closer... it's getting closer... it's in front of you...should I run?

At this time, Lu Yan rubbed against his shoulder, mumbled something, his lips and breath brushed against his ear, it was warm.

Meng Tunan shivered in fright.

Just like that, the imaginary sea has overwhelmed him, instantly engulfing him into a strange world.