crossing the northern latitude

After self-study next night, Li Xiaoyuan went back to the dormitory.

There are not many boarding students in Dingyan No. [-] Middle School, but because there are many students from towns and villages mixed in, the environment is particularly complicated.There are two in this dormitory that are not in my class, one is in the music class, and the other is studying painting, neither of which is a character to mess with.

After pushing open the door of the dormitory, the few girls who were playing loudly at first fell silent.

She got used to it, and walked in with her head down, trying to minimize her presence.Several other people in the dormitory were making an appointment to go to the cafeteria for supper, but no one spoke to her.

She was on the bed——Liang Qian straightened her desk and complained casually: "My toner is used up so quickly...I always feel like I just bought it and it's gone."

The other one, Song Jiayi with a sharper voice, answered, "Keep it well, who knows if someone will use it when you're not around."

Li Xiaoyuan went about her own business without saying a word, pretending to be deaf and dumb.She turned on the kettle only to find that the hot water she had previously tapped was gone and the kettle was empty.

After two seconds of silence, she chose to pretend nothing happened as usual.Picking up the pot, she was about to go out of the dormitory to fetch water, but another person in the dormitory——Zhang Yu, blocked her way.

The girl in front of her was wearing a white dress.They used to do this, when they went back to the dormitory, they would change out of their school uniforms and put on nice clothes, even if they were about to turn off the lights and go to bed.But Li Xiaoyuan likes to wear school uniforms, because she doesn't have so many clothes to change.

Zhang Yu looked at her expressionlessly: "Did you give him what I asked you to give?"

Li Xiaoyuan stared at the lace on Zhang Yu's skirt, nodded: "Yes, I handed it to him before class that day."

The cause of the incident was that Zhang Yu gave her a box of chocolates and a letter that day and asked her to show it to Lu Yan at the back table.

Zhang Yu took a step closer: "Tell the truth."

Li Xiaoyuan was silent for a few seconds.

"I really did, letter... chocolate." Her voice became softer, "I told you the other day, he took it, and then gave it to Meng Tunan..."

Zhang Yu smiled: "I heard that Lu Yan fought with Yang Cheng because of you. I am very surprised why it is because of you, and also very strange why it is you."

"I..." Li Xiaoyuan could only explain, "I really gave it to him and told him..."

Zhang Yu interrupted coldly: "What did you say? You gave him the things you said?"

Li Xiaoyuan didn't have a chance to finish that sentence, because the next second a glass fell under her feet, and the glass shards bounced up, almost jumping onto her face.

She could only block it with her hand.

Liang Qian cursed in a low voice: "Bitch."

They are gone.Li Xiaoyuan stayed in place for a long time, then silently cleaned up the debris on the ground, opened the exercise book, and found a paper to do.Other than that, she can't find anything else to do, so she can only do the questions... Doing the questions can make her forget for a while that her mother is a psychopath whose head was smashed by a drunk father. Being framed for stealing things for no reason, and being able to forget what others said——Li Xiaoyuan, like her mother, is sick.

It is best to pretend to be deaf and dumb.She is the best at pretending to be deaf and dumb, and she can bear it better than anyone else.

Sometimes forbearance is not just because of fear and fear, it may also be just waiting for an opportunity.She has endured it for a long time, and she has long since stopped caring about those innocuous exclusions. After all, one day... can those things become bargaining chips?

Waking up early the next day, Li Xiaoyuan got up lightly, and was the first to leave. After breakfast, she went to sit in the classroom. She was often the first person to arrive in the classroom.

After entering, I found that Lu Yan was already on the seat.This is Li Xiaoyuan's new discovery after Lu Yan transferred here. This boy came earlier than her.

Li Xiaoyuan found that Lu Yan is a very self-disciplined person, not as playful as boys of the same age, and has good study habits, but... his temper is a bit weird.

Lu Yan is different from others, he seems kind and stubborn, Li Xiaoyuan is not used to getting along with such a calm person, she knows how to pretend to be scared and weak, and also knows how to swallow her anger, but this person makes it difficult for her to use fake " Li Xiaoyuan" to deal with it, because he is a very clean person.

When he walked over, he saw the bruise on Lu Yan's chin.After he sat down and hesitated for a while, Li Xiaoyuan turned around and knocked on his desk.

Lu Yan looked up.He was wearing headphones, and she didn't even know if the man was listening to a song or doing a quiz, the volume of the headphones was so loud... Could he really hear himself talking?This is a question that has always puzzled her, why can she communicate with people normally while listening to the music so loudly.

She guessed that Lu Yan couldn't hear what others said at all.

Li Xiaoyuan tentatively said: "Thank you yesterday."

We used to communicate like this... Maybe he can hear it?

Lu Yan shook his head: "It has nothing to do with you, it's me who sees him unhappy."

He lowered his head again, as if he didn't want to say another word.

Perhaps it was because there was no one around, and the classroom was empty... Li Xiaoyuan didn't know what was wrong with him, but he stretched out his hand——

Like Meng Tunan did to Lu Yan, she pulled off his earphones.Lu Yan was obviously also a little surprised. He raised his head and asked with his eyes - what are you doing.

"You..." She said something that had nothing to do with her, "Didn't Zhang Yu give you that before... You don't seem to respond, I'll help her ask..."

Lu Yan frowned and thought for a while: "Who is Zhang Yu?"

Li Xiaoyuan: "From the music class, she is very beautiful. I gave you a box of chocolates and a love letter before, and there is her phone number in it..."

"Oh." Lu Yan just remembered, he lowered his head to do the question again, and answered casually, "I'll buy the same one in the afternoon, you can return it to her for me."

The bruise on the opponent's chin was too glaring, Li Xiaoyuan felt that it shouldn't appear on Zhang's face.Looking further down, Lu Yan was doing the special paper on ancient poetry that was sent out yesterday.I'm almost done with one side, and there is one question left.

"Here—" Li Xiaoyuan pointed to his paper, "should fill in 'the whole world is wrong without embarrassment'."

Lu Yan moved his eyes upwards, looked at the question and thought for a while, then slowly answered: "Since you remember it, you must understand the spirit of this sentence."

Li Xiaoyuan was taken aback, and looked at him fixedly, but she couldn't answer.

The morning sun shone in, Lu Yan was seated by the window, and her position was against the wall to avoid the sun.The curtains were not drawn, and the light shone on his face, which was dazzling and transparent.

Li Xiaoyuan's voice was very low: "I can't do anything, even if I'm depressed?"

Lu Yan looked at Li Xiaoyuan for a while, hesitated before putting down his pen and taking off his earphones.

"It's okay to be depressed once in a while, but not all the time." He said tersely. "It's not good."

Li Xiaoyuan saw Lu Yan's peaceful gaze.

No one in the class looked at her like this, with such ordinary eyes.Most of the eyes she received were contempt, indifference, and disgust. Many people avoided her. Why is this person in front of her like this?Why are you so normal to yourself?Because he doesn't know anything?

What if he knew all about it?

Will you still say to yourself that the whole world is wrong and not feel frustrated?

"What's not so good?" she asked urgently.

"It's just..." Lu Yan thought for a while, "It's useless to be afraid all the time, I don't think it's good."

Li Xiaoyuan's eyes instantly became sour, and he could only speak to make amends immediately: "Not everyone is so lucky... If I want to change, I need to pay a lot of price."

"It's okay." Lu Yan said, "Just look ahead, don't care about the rest... Just treat it as a practice, and you will have a brighter future after getting through it."

It shouldn't be crying, but Li Xiaoyuan couldn't help crying.People are very strange, maybe they can hold up when a knife is pierced into the flesh, but once someone gives them a word of concern, they can't stand it...

Lu Yan was stunned, he didn't know how to deal with women's tears: "Ah...don't cry...what's the matter?"

Li Xiaoyuan shook his head and didn't answer, but tears kept falling.

Lu Yan was dumb for a moment, he was thinking whether he should talk... His mother Xie Min would also cry when he was at home, but Xie Min came home after getting drunk outside and dragged him to dance in the living room, crying while dancing.He doesn't know how to dance at all and Xie Min doesn't care, he just has to pull himself around... At that time Lu Yan usually doesn't talk too much, because every time he wants her to go to sleep quickly and don't bother, Xie Min will only Crying louder and sternly telling him to shut up that your dad can't talk when he dances with me!

Should girls talk when they are sad or crying?Can Li Xiaoyuan and Xie Min deal with it in the same way?Lu Yan went over this question in his mind.At this time, he very much hoped that Meng Tunan was on the sidelines. Meng Tunan must know what to do.

After thinking about it, Lu Yan felt that Li Xiaoyuan was very different from Xie Min, because Li Xiaoyuan's crying was not pitiful, she didn't even make a sound, just shed tears, which was completely different from Xie Min's sad crying.Li Xiaoyuan seems to be expressing something - what is it?

help?

Lu Yan decided to boldly try a coping method other than silence.

"I have encountered things like yours before, and I have also met disgusting people." He said, "When I was younger, I was asked for money, my pants were taken off, the toilet was locked, and my homework was stolen... …I was afraid to tell my family at first, I was hungry every morning. Then one day my dad found out that I had lost a lot of weight and was very depressed, and asked me if someone was bullying me…I didn’t dare to say at first. Then he told me , if you are always afraid, you will only be bullied for the rest of your life. He taught me to fight and sent me to learn Sanda martial arts... Later I thought it would be okay to try, so I had the first counterattack, and six or seven hit me One, I fought like a madman, didn't win, but never got scared again."

This is a lot of words for Lu Yan, and it is also the best comfort he can think of.

Li Xiaoyuan smiled sarcastically: "They think I am a thief, my mother is a lunatic, my hands and feet are not clean, and I am a person hated by everyone. I am not as lucky as you. I am cared about by many people and loved by many people. You have a father who taught you how to fight, but no one will stand by my side unconditionally..."

Lu Yan interrupted her quietly: "Me neither, my father has passed away."

Li Xiaoyuan stared wide-eyed and stared blankly.

"I'm sorry……"

"Forget it, I'm meddling in my own business, so just pretend I didn't say that."

It seemed that there was no point in talking about it, so Lu Yan put on the earphones again.Before turning over the paper, he wrote the phrase "the whole world does not feel frustrated" on the blank question.

He finished his Chinese homework before the morning reading, and Li Xiaoyuan didn't turn around again.When the bell rang, he found that Mengtunan's seat was empty... he was probably going to be late again.This person must be late for four days a week, scolded every day and punished every day without making any progress. He is really a hopeless student and school.

School, Lu Yan immediately satirized these two words in his heart.He has been to many schools, fully enclosed, semi-enclosed, private and public, and Dingyan No. [-] Middle School is undoubtedly the worst middle school he has ever attended.The management is loose and casual, and the students are doing things that have nothing to do with learning all day long, so they are brainless and naive.Is this the atmosphere in the experimental class?Can the experimental class bully girls?They're all idiots.

The weariness of studying is raging.After thinking about it for a while, Lu Yan suddenly felt that skipping class with Meng Tunan to play a game seemed more interesting than sitting here in a daze.But after thinking about it, he realized that he was "Mengtunanized", so he quickly opened the English paper and started fighting with himself.

Meng Tunan didn't come until after early reading.When sneaking in from the back door, he bumped into Li Xiaoyuan who was about to take out the garbage, hesitated for a while, and Meng Tunan called to stop her.

"You..." He didn't talk to Li Xiaoyuan often, he was a bit awkward, "Can you pass me something to Lu Yan!"

Li Xiaoyuan hurriedly went to pick up the two bottles handed over by the other party, took a look, there were two bottles of Liziyuan, one bottle of original flavor and one bottle of strawberry flavor.

"The strawberry flavor is for Bambi... No, it's for Lu Yan, I bought too much of the rest, you can drink it."

Li Xiaoyuan felt very strange: "...Why did you give me a bottle?"

Meng Tunan looked a little embarrassed: "Just... hey, I'll treat you to a drink, and then... I want to ask you to stop Lu Yan if there is any sign of conflict with others in the future, because I want to be optimistic about him. You help me with that..."

He stammered, unable to articulate the last few words.

But Li Xiaoyuan felt that he understood, even if he gave himself something and pretended to bring it to you, he didn't want to get involved.She nodded indifferently: "Okay, I will stay away from him, you don't have to worry too much, that kind of thing won't happen again."

She stuffed the things back into Mengtunan's hands, "Give it to him yourself, I don't know him well." After speaking, she took out the trash by herself with the trash basket.

Meng Tunan looked at her back as she walked away, and thought to himself that I didn't mean that...but it seemed to be that way, but how can I feel that I have nothing to do after saying it?

Where is wrong?

He found that he couldn't think of a way to achieve both, and walked away dejectedly with two bottles of Li Ziyuan, feeling that life was too difficult.