Eros kisses Psyche

From that day until the end of the New Year's Day holiday, Cheng Zhu was basically in a closed state, staying at home, and went to the garden and the basement as far as possible to make up for the previously delayed progress.The sound of electronic fireworks and firecrackers in the community outside continued, and greetings and greetings came from time to time through the garden and the open doors and windows; but the house seemed to be isolated from the world, where time was like a stone.

Cheng Zhu didn’t look much different from the outside, but Lele was keenly aware of the difference. He was too frightened to speak loudly, and he didn’t dare to say that he was going out to play. Neck, looking forward to the person who will come is Brother Fan, so he can rescue himself and go out to play.

However, he wasn't the one who delivered the food for the first time, nor was it the second time.He knew instinctively that he couldn't ask his father "Where did brother Xiao Xu go?" If he asked, it seemed that the room would freeze on the spot and then crack open.

However, he didn't come that day... Dad was clearly looking forward to it... No wonder he was so sad afterwards.Well, actually, I'm also looking forward to it... I really want to go to LALAND to play... But, Dad is already feeling very uncomfortable, so I'll let him a little more.

He has learned to take the bag from the takeaway brother he doesn't recognize, then climbs onto the chair by the dining table, arranges the food, and calls carefully, "Dad, come and eat."

"Well, eat by yourself first. Remember to wash your hands." Every time, Cheng Zhu said this.However, he doesn't actually eat much, and he won't come over when the food is cold.The only thing he ate these days was the box of birthday cakes on the table.Even Lele was not allowed to touch it. While drawing the picture, he ate it all up one bite at a time.

The only thing that keeps people alive in this prison-like room is the phone calls that come from time to time.There are students who call to greet the festival, partners who confirm and coordinate the cycle and production progress, and old friends who come to invite him to eat, drink and have fun.But Cheng Zhu didn't care much about it, sometimes he would avoid Lele, go out to the garden to make a phone call, and then come back to write on a list.

Gao Feng called and urged him to type up the applications from China, Japan and South Korea, so that the first draft could be pre-reviewed.Because this is a semi-official invitational exhibition that represents the image of the country, the number of places in the country is limited, and the pre-selection places allocated to the provinces are often overwhelmed.But generally speaking, due to the minority and lack of attention of sculpture in our country - it is often regarded as a branch of painting - usually in this case, representatives of sculpture will not be selected, lest "cannot fully display the major categories of artistic creation in our country" The real level of development", in short, I am afraid that you will not be able to win glory for the country and go out to shame.Just like the Olympic trials, the performance of the rookies is unstable, and the pressure of competition is high... After that, there will be opportunities, so it is better to focus on the key events, let the veterans who are steady and steady, strive to keep the second and compete for the first... There are various considerations.Therefore, if Cheng Zhu can finally be selected, the pressure he has to bear on this is actually very unimaginable.

Cheng Zhu was preoccupied with something, and now he didn't even bother to perfunctory with her, so he agreed and was about to hang up.Gao Feng was a little dissatisfied, so he mentioned: "Is your condition not good recently? You used to be very aggressive in dealing with these things, and no one can stop you from doing what you want to do. What happened these two days? When you divorced The time has never been like this, and I will never delay work because of personal affairs."

Cheng Zhu had no choice but to respond: "It's a little bad. I didn't delay, didn't I hand in the first draft?"

"Cheng Zhu, since you have expressed your opinion to me, then I have my own judgment in my position. As the person in charge of the association, my attitude is to be able to fight with the above for you to get this spot, representing us Sculpture to occupy this place. This is not just your business, because if you want to participate, other sculptors in the same association may withdraw from the competition. If you take out something that cannot show your full strength, it is the same as fooling the government It's useless to fool me; besides, you still have a strong competitor in province A this year. Under the same conditions, they will definitely choose him. Why should they choose you? You are still young, and you have won international awards, so there are many opportunities. "

"Who?" Cheng Zhu was rather curious. Because the overall style of the China-Japan-Korea exhibition is avant-garde, it is generally not the first choice for veteran artists who are deeply involved in technology and focus on freehand brushwork.Of course, there are no absolutes.

"Gan and Yu, old Gan."

The name made Cheng Zhu frowned slightly. "Him? He hasn't had a work for many years, hasn't he participated in a competition? Isn't he relying on training courses to lead apprentices now? He is still relying on the works of 20 years ago to win the world. This competition system requires original works in the past two years to participate in the exhibition. "

"I can't resist the fact that he is famous, has been in textbooks, and is full of peaches and plums. He will be 65 next year. He wants to take advantage of the relaxation of conditions in the past two years and catch the last train to apply for Changjiang Scholars. This will make it much easier to apply for State Council subsidies in the future. Now He is only short of an international heavyweight award, and he is determined to win it this year, and his disciples have already taken care of it, and I didn't expect you to be an extra stumbling block out of thin air."

Cheng Zhu snorted: "What's the matter, let me respect the old and love the young, and fulfill the old man's wish, and give up his seat on the bus? I'll let you go. Will you go to a foreign family to take care of you?"

"If your water is clear, there will be no fish. Foreign exhibitions are not run by people? As long as they are run by people, he can find a way." She sighed, "Cheng Zhu, Rules are dead, people are alive, and many places can be manipulated. Not everyone can be like you, have enough talent to push forward, and let the rules clear the way for you. You can't always have That kind of energy and their toughness, such as now... I feel that your heart is not enough, and your strength is not enough."

Cheng Zhu squeezed Jingming acupoint. "So you are also here to persuade me to give up my seat to the old man?"

"I'm reminding you, maybe in the next two days, his big apprentice will come to your family as a lobbyist, you should be mentally prepared, it will be a tough battle, if you want to quit, I have to prepare early. "

"Aren't all the works he published in the later period ghostwritten by his big apprentice? Who in the industry doesn't know? This time it's so big, is it going to be played on the bright side?"

"That's not true. He's doing it himself this time, taking the portraits he's best at, and I heard that he even hired a model..."

There was a buzzing in Cheng Zhu's head, and all the blood rushed up: "...What?" He suddenly sat up straight, and found the note that Cai Yanyan had written to him from among the messy drafts beside the computer. list.

"What'what'?" Gao Feng didn't know, so he said, "Hello, Cheng Zhu? Hello?"

Cheng Zhu held the phone to his ear almost at the same time, put on his coat, turned and went out the door.

"...The first draft of the review he submitted has an electronic file, can you find it?"

"I can see it, but it's against the rules for you to see it."

"Come on, this special code is not a sealed paper for the college entrance examination. Whoever sees it won't see it. Many works have been published before the competition. Didn't you just say that when the water is clear, there will be no fish?" Cheng Zhu said coldly , "Then I'll be messed up too."

"You really don't need me to go with you?" Li Mian leaned against the door, watching Xu Budie hunched over and put on his shoes.

"It's okay. I'm fine now...Thank you. Thanks to you for helping me take care of my mother these days..." Xu Budie tightened his shoelaces, and even this simple movement made him feel dizzy, almost Some disgusting episodes flashed back in his mind, and he tried not to think about it.It's good to get busy and stop lying around feeling sorry for yourself - I have experience with all this.It’s the same when parents have an accident. Get busy and let your brain empty. When you are a puppet with a set mechanical movement, you can’t feel anything.

But he had to get the battery car first... On that day, he parked the car under that man's studio and didn't take it away.At that time, I couldn't ride a bike by myself, or I simply forgot about it. Now I have to go back and get it.Just thinking about this made him feel his entire stomach and intestines twisted together.

"That's fine... But, what are you going to do with him?"

Xu Budie paused for a moment, and casually asked as if he really didn't understand: "Him?"

"Don't play dumb. Otherwise I'll think you're stupid."

"Just... do it like this. What else can I do."

Mianmian frowned, and finally said: "I don't think he's too bad."

Xu Budie's face turned pale: "You still said that you almost ate him that day."

"Who am I for!" Mian Mian pouted angrily, "If it wasn't for him hanging you up with his self-important appearance, playing ambiguously with you, and wanting to die If you want to please him, how can you-"

"Okay, okay, I was stupid. It wasn't what he asked for, it was all my own thinking. He never asked me to do this, and he refused in various ways. It's because I was overwhelmed. ."

Seeing what he said, Mianmian breathed a sigh of relief: "However, I saw him find the bakery that day, and I just missed it. He chased all the way to the middle of the main road, and probably thought it was you who went to get the cake. Where are you standing?" Calling your name, the whole street is looking at him...Although it's a bit silly...But, I still care about you."

"In the final analysis, I suddenly broke the appointment... He is a good person. If it were someone else, even if it was you, or his other students, he would still look for him. That's the kind of person he is."

"You...don't plan to continue?"

"Whether to continue or not... I haven't even started it at all." Xu Budie smiled, "I'm a little tired. I can't... see... this kind of thing now. I can't even think about it. Then It's not fair to him."

Li Mian didn't know what to say, so he had to chase after him and shout: "At least get back the money invested in him, and don't lose money!"

Xu Budie didn't respond.In fact, he secretly said in his heart, it was not like that.At least not all of those obvious reasons.Even to Mian Mian, he couldn't say some words, he could only rot in his stomach.What has happened just happened, no one can understand that kind of feeling, just like after an accident, suddenly there are many people around him, everyone is full of concern around him , patted him on the shoulder and said, 'I understand your mood', 'I know you are sad', 'Can you find us if there is anything', the words are sincere, full of just the right condolences and sympathy. ——It’s all useless.I want to go back in time and bring the dead back to life, can you do it?

He found his electric car in a corner of the canopy.Although the poncho above was taken away, fortunately, this was the smallest loss imaginable.He sat on it and panted for a while before he finally calmed down.When he was struggling to escape that day, he ran too fast and left his bag and mobile phone there.Logically, he knew that he had better go back as if nothing had happened, and find someone to bring his phone and bag back face to face.Now that he has passed, he is sober, and he is already prepared, and there are other students in the studio, so he probably won't make trouble in public.There is even his ID card in the bag—although it can be reissued to report the loss, but due to his job nature, the ID card is often needed for self-certification, signing contracts, etc., and the mobile phone has too much customer information, not to mention The replacement is another expensive expense for him.

But as soon as this idea appeared in his mind, he wished he could drive away on the spot, and the villain in his heart buried his head deeply in the sand: It's not troublesome to make up for it!It's time to change your phone too! ...

But the rational side is also constantly warning: can't escape!Why be afraid of each other?Isn't that the one who should be afraid?If this matter cannot be resolved, how will we live in the future?

He slapped the side of his face fiercely with both hands, until his cheeks were flushed, then he gritted his teeth, stomped his feet vigorously, stepped up the steps in three steps at a time, and entered the studio.

Inside the glass door is the same as before, peaceful and peaceful like another world, only the rustling of paintbrushes.Gan and Yu wandered between the easels, looking kind-hearted and gentle, no one could imagine him taking off his human skin and turning into an animal.Xu Budie pushed open the door suddenly and made a creaking sound. When he turned his head to look over, he didn't show a trace of surprise, but still smiled at him very gently as usual, "It's Xiao Xu, why not?" Huh?" The usual smile was creepy.His students also turned around following his movements, like a row of vultures, staring closely at the uninvited guest.Xu Bu opened his mouth repeatedly, and suddenly forgot the words he had prepared a long time ago, all the cells in his body screamed, and cold sweat dripped down the seam of his spine.

"...my... mobile phone and bag, it seems, fell on..."

"Oh, so it's yours." Gan Heyu said the obvious but no one can expose the lie with ease. He was as gentle as the wind, even with a smile, and he was very calm: "It's not convenient for me to go to class now. Can you go to my house and get it?"

Xu Budie's face suddenly turned pale. —Shameless!He shouted loudly in his heart, but his lips were trembling and dry, his throat seemed to be split, there was no sound, only the sound of his teeth chattering, and the instinctive fear took over for a moment, causing him to turn around almost immediately. What are you here for, and the rational analysis and judgment that existed before are all gone at this moment, and you just want to run away.

However, as soon as he turned around, he bumped into a familiar embrace head-on.Cheng Zhu didn't know when he got up and stood outside the studio, but he obviously heard what he said just now; his face was terribly gloomy, and he smelled like a powder keg that was about to explode.