The daydream of a salted fish stand-in

Zhuo Yangbing suddenly became serious, Yan Suiyuan was a little flustered, he had an intuition that Zhuo Yangbing might say something more serious next, but he thought he didn't intend to discuss this issue now, so he was eager to get rid of the current predicament .

But Zhuo Yangbing didn't want to give him this chance to escape. In his opinion, some things must be said when the right opportunity comes.

"It doesn't matter if you don't feel it."

Zhuo Yangbing's mind that had never had any light suddenly became extremely sober at this moment, he didn't even give himself an excuse to hesitate any longer, and said calmly: "I didn't realize until this past month that I made a terrible mistake. "

Yan Suiyuan stared at him blankly, every hair on his body stood on end as if in response.

"At the beginning, I shouldn't have mistook you as Xiang Jiayu's... stand-in. I apologize to you." Zhuo Yangbing looked at Yan Suiyuan sincerely, "Si Yuanyuan is right, I will regret it sooner or later."

"It's too late for me to understand."

"But it's not too late, after all, there is still a chance to turn back, isn't it?"

"Yuanyuan, I...I like you."

Zhuo Yangbing had never told anyone in his life whether he liked or disliked such nasty words. Even at this time, he planned to face everything directly, but he couldn't express these words neatly. He was both embarrassed and a little excited.

Yan Suiyuan didn't expect to hear this sentence from Zhuo Yangbing's mouth one day. Although he had prepared a little bit, he still couldn't believe it when he heard it with his own ears. It was Zhuo Yang ice!

If Zhuo Yangbing said that he only desires him in that aspect, Yan Suiyuan might nod his head. After all, he can't ask the donor to be so strict, and he won't disagree with the conditions that should be paid. To recognize people give and take anything.

But once Zhuo Yangbing said "like", the meaning was completely different.

The problem is that Yan Suiyuan never intends to be with anyone in this world. In life, feelings are the last thing he needs, and they can even be regarded as a burden.

He can betray himself, but he is extremely repulsed by the topic of "love".

Zhuo Yangbing was still waiting for his answer, Yan Suiyuan looked into his expectant eyes, the words of refusal stuck in his throat and he couldn't speak.

It's hard to imagine that Zhuo Yangbing, who has always been vigorous and resolute outside, would be so uneasy. When he looked at Yan Suiyuan, his eyes were shining, as if there were stars in them, which was far from his usual serious and indifferent image. The contrast is particularly large.

Anyone who faced such Zhuo Yangbing could not be ruthless to reject him, Yan Suiyuan was silent for a long time, and said in a low voice: "I may not be able to give you the answer you want."

These words were rejection in disguise, Zhuo Yangbing frowned slightly, thinking that he had not explained clearly enough: "I really don't like Xiang Jiayu."

"Why?" Yan Suiyuan looked at him calmly, still puzzled: "In your heart, Mr. Xiang should be a very important person. Why did you not know the difference before, but now you say you can?"

"We've only known each other for four months, just a very short period of time, why do you think your feelings are right?"

"You haven't seen him for ten years, why can't you empathize because you're lonely?"

"Maybe you don't necessarily really like Xiang Jiayu, but you don't necessarily really like me either."

Zhuo Yangbing was left speechless by his question, he felt that Yan Suiyuan seemed like an old man who had experienced vicissitudes at this moment, he seemed to see everything very clearly, as if he was sure that he was a naive child.

"You're right." Zhuo Yangbing nodded, "We've known each other for a very short time."

"But I don't think I'm going to make the same mistake over and over again."

Zhuo Yangbing's IQ finally gained the upper hand once, "I made a mistake once, and I won't make a mistake a second time."

"I'm not as stupid as you think."

Yan Suiyuan took a deep breath, and said: "But I don't like you." He was well prepared that Zhuo Yangbing might be angry.

He didn't want to delay the other party, even in the current situation, it would be better for him to lie, at least he could make the benefactor happy.But Yan Suiyuan has a conscience, he doesn't want to deceive Zhuo Yangbing, he is the best person in the whole world to him except his aunt and Zhiqiu, he doesn't want to cheat him in any way.

"I am very grateful to you, and I am willing to be beautiful as an adult, but...the object cannot be me." Yan Suiyuan felt that his throat was a little dry, and he wanted to drink water under Zhuo Yang's icy gaze, "I'm sorry."

Zhuo Yangbing didn't look as angry as he imagined, on the contrary, he was calm and calm like never before, not like a person whose confession was rejected.

"Can I know the reason?" He took out the calm attitude of facing a strong enemy in a business war, carefully analyzed the current battle situation, calmly induced the "enemy" on the opposite side, and asked calmly: "Can you explain in detail what is wrong with me?" Are you dissatisfied?"

His posture is neither humble nor overbearing, just like a good student who really needs to be inspired, especially those eyes that are too deep and calm, people can't help but answer along with his words.

Yan Suiyuan also counted countless people, but he was not enough to look at in front of a real strong man. He concealed the throbbing in his heart for a moment, bowed his head and replied: "No, you are very good."

"It is my fault."

"I think this is just an excuse for you." Zhuo Yangbing's emotional intelligence has never been so good, it is simply super god, "I am sincere to you, shouldn't you also be more frank with me?"

Yan Suiyuan was extremely nervous, the little husky probably felt that the atmosphere between the two men was too tense, so it carefully rolled on the carpet and rubbed against Yan Suiyuan's feet.

Faced with Zhuo Yangbing's questioning, Yan Suiyuan finally spoke again: "Mr. Zhuo, I'm really not good enough."

Unknowingly, his address changed back to the time when he was unfamiliar before, and he was thinking about it while talking.

"It should be a wonderful feeling to like someone, but I don't want to like others. I hate building that kind of relationship with people, and I never expect to get it from anyone."

"You should also know my background. I have no need for love and marriage, and I don't think I am a person worthy of being liked."

"Strictly speaking, we are still a subordination relationship of nurturing, which is not equal. Moreover, even if I am a free person, the family background gap between you and me is too big. My parents let me know that we are not in the same household. No, it didn't end well."

"Even if I can put all this aside, but...if Xiang Jiayu comes back one day, how can I know if you will wake up again, you still like him?"

"Mr. Zhuo, I just want to live a good life."

Yan Suiyuan's words hit Zhuo Yang Bing's heart every single one. Looking at the other's indifferent and meaningless expression, he finally realized once again how big a mistake he had made.

What Jian Li and the others said were right, it was he who made all the problems complicated.

From the very beginning, Yan Suiyuan walked into his house with the feeling that he would never have any connection with him. He was originally such a sensitive person, and he was never optimistic about the future, but he used a contract to reconcile with him. The indifferent attitude suspended him in the air, making him unable to feel the sense of security when he landed.

Perhaps this situation was not only caused by Zhuo Yangbing, his irresponsible mother was also responsible, but in the end it was Zhuo Yangbing who paid for it.

It was the first time he liked someone, but faced with such a big predicament, Zhuo Yangbing couldn't say he wasn't depressed.

Aunt Zhang came out of the kitchen, smiled and said to the two people in the living room, "It's time to eat!"

Yan Suiyuan responded, and looked back hesitantly, "Brother Zhuo, do you want to eat?"

"En." Zhuo Yangbing came back to his senses.

Yan Suiyuan got up and wanted to go to the kitchen to help serve dishes, but when he was about to leave, Zhuo Yangbing suddenly raised his hand to hold him.

He looked back, and Zhuo Yangbing, who was sitting on the sofa, raised his head slightly to look at him, his eyes filled with deep apology and sadness: "Yuanyuan, although you rejected me, can you...give me another chance?"

"If you want, we can still maintain the current relationship, and I won't bully you."

Zhuo Yangbing didn't know which step he was going to take next, he just thought that at least there was still a contract between them, Yan Suiyuan would not leave him easily, he still had several months to slowly find the right one. way.

Yan Suiyuan kept staring into his eyes, he didn't want Zhuo Yangbing to waste his feelings on him, but Zhuo Yangbing's expression was so sincere at this time, he couldn't say no cruelly.

"That's not a good idea." He sighed.

He didn't directly say no, but he acquiesced, Zhuo Yangbing didn't make things difficult for him, he let go of his hand and went to eat with him, and the newly bought little husky apple was carried down by Aunt Zhang to feed.

Yan Suiyuan felt that there were too many things for him in the past few days, and he was not prepared for everything when he was suddenly confessed.

In short, he has no confidence in himself, nor in Zhuo Yangbing.

After being rejected, Zhuo Yangbing was not as sad as he imagined, on the surface he looked as calm as usual, but he just sat at the table in a daze in a daze after eating quietly and returning to the study.

If Yan Suiyuan made it clear that he didn't like a certain shortcoming in himself, he could quickly overcome it, but if he rejected having a relationship with someone from the very beginning, it would be very troublesome.

He thought calmly on the seat for half an hour, and finally admitted that he could not solve the problem by himself. Zhuo Yangbing did not forget that there were a lot of people behind him, and he never hesitated to ask others for advice.

Therefore, Xie Wenqian and Si Yuanyuan went online temporarily again.

To say that Zhuo Yangbing is also really miserable, he doesn't like people in 800 years, and when he likes it, he likes a difficult one, which makes everyone around him have to make suggestions for him, and the cards are too big.

Yan Suiyuan was also a little depressed after returning to the room. He didn't know whether his words were too much for Zhuo Yangbing, and the guilt was still lingering in his heart and couldn't dissipate. He walked to the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror for a long time. , and finally landed on the eyes.

If it weren't for these eyes, there would be no connection between them at all.

Yan Suiyuan raised his hand and touched his eyes, feeling at a loss.

What does it feel like to like someone?

What does Zhuo Yangbing like about him?

Is it these eyes?

The phone rang, Yan Suiyuan looked back, it turned out that it was from Zhiqiu, she had just finished her self-study.Zhiqiu would find time to chat with him every day, and would tell him everything about the school, so as to reassure him.

Yan Suiyuan let go of the guilt in her heart and chatted with Zhiqiu on her mobile phone. The results of this chemistry competition came out. Zhiqiu lived up to expectations and won the No. 1 result in the city. Awarded.But she had to go by herself, Gu Zifan just went abroad to participate in another competition yesterday.

Yan Suiyuan's mood improved, and the negative emotions just disappeared in an instant.

No matter what, he still has Zhiqiu.