lie guilty

"Tell me, what happened to the fifty thousand? When did you borrow it? Also," I stared into his eyes, "what's your relationship with Zhao Mingjie?"

I don't know what Mu Tian is doing in this world?Why Mu Tian borrowed so much 5 yuan, I have no news at all.Even I haven't seen Zhao Mingjie for many years, otherwise I wouldn't be able to answer the phone but wouldn't be able to hear the other party's voice.Zhao Mingjie actually bypassed me to borrow money from him!

When I think of this, I can't bear it all over.

Mu Tian frowned, "What's the relationship, what are you talking about? He is your relative, he borrowed money from me, how can I not lend him?"

Hearing what he said with such a clear conscience, I couldn't help but sneer, "He's my relative, he's my shitty relative," I pointed to his nose, "His surname is Zhao, and he has a little something to do with our family. The family name is related, but it is not far away at all. Let me tell you, if he borrows money again in the future, you must not borrow it. If you have to borrow it, at least let me know—"

Before I finished speaking, I was interrupted by Mu Tian, ​​"Tell you?" Mu Tian smiled, "Why should I tell you, who are you to me?"

I was really surprised, I didn't expect him to say such a thing today.I held a deep breath in my chest, but because my heart and lungs were dead and my internal organs couldn't function, I couldn't spit it out.

"Who am I to you?" I couldn't help walking back and forth, and then strangled his collar, trying to pull him up from the chair, but thinking about his legs, I couldn't help putting him down again, I even despised myself for liking him so uselessly, "Who am I to you?" I strode back and forth, trying to exhale this sullen breath.

Finally calmed down, I walked up to him, "Who do you still ask me to be yours?" I said this softly, and then immediately said with the loudest voice: "Just because I like you!" The sound was so loud that it could almost lift the roof of the house.I pointed to the computer screen, "Did you see every word here?"

He raised his head expressionlessly, his eyes staring at me were obviously very indifferent, but the inside was red.

"Every word here, as long as I have your day, I can't help but write it up. After so many years, so many years, I dare not forget a single thing. Occasionally, when I have time, I will take it out and let myself have a look. , and then smiled like that."

"I am your lover, do you think I am qualified to control you?"

Mu Tian slowly clenched his fists.

I just control too much, I can't give up, so what?

I, Zhao Mingze, are just so worthless, I don't even want my life, so why do I need a liar!

I stared at him with wide eyes, the sockets were about to burst.

He opened his mouth, as if to refute me, as if to say something, I waited for him to say.

But when his piercing gaze fell on my arm, it suddenly softened, as if the bow that had been stretched into a full moon suddenly shot an empty string.

No, it can't be said soft, it's just that he showed that expression again.

I already know that look.After that night, I seemed to have suddenly opened up. Obviously his expression has changed more than then, but I can still understand it.

I grabbed his collar and stared straight into his face, keeping his eyes from falling on my body. "You pity me?"

He didn't speak.

"You pity me?" I continued.He still didn't speak.

I let go of my hand bitterly, and took two steps back, "I don't want you to sympathize with me. I'm already dead, isn't it just my body rotten? Even if all the flesh is rotten, so what? I want you to be like before for me."

He didn't speak again, but his eyes seemed to finish his words again.

Forget it, he didn't treat me very well before, at most he didn't sympathize with me.

"But I want you not to pity me."

pity?If I needed sympathy for this thing, what was I doing hiding it from him earlier?If I had asked for his sympathy earlier, I would not have gained his resentment.I will not lose this life!

"Let me ask you, what is your relationship with Zhao Mingjie." I didn't use a questioning tone, maybe I don't want to know anymore, maybe I just want to know the answer from his mouth.

After a while, he slowly said: "He just borrowed money from me."

I was so angry that I took another step forward and grabbed his skirt, "Money, money, 5 yuan is not a small amount. If you want to borrow it, you can borrow it. You are not familiar with him. Why do you lend him? Borrowing money from you, why did you lend it to him so quickly! Why didn't you discuss it with me, why?" I yelled blindly, actually I didn't know what I was angry about, but I was angry, and my anger had already overwhelmed me. My chest was so full that I couldn't breathe out of this stuffy breath.

I don't want an answer, I just need to vent.

I really want to know what the person on the other side is thinking. He always hides it so deeply that no one will know, never let people know.

"You tell me, let me lend him the money," I continued to yell, "Your little money is used to start the company, operate it, and invest it. Your money has been used for many purposes, unlike me. , " I patted myself on the chest, "My money is just for idleness, so what does it matter if I borrow it all and don't spend a single penny?"

I fucking want you to spend my money, why do you know so well?

I finally knew why I was jealous of Zhao Mingjie, because it was the person in front of me who always didn't want to be so clearly separated from each other. He and I never seemed like people with the same mind.

Oh, no, it should not be like, but not at all!

Mu Tian opened his eyes slightly, and watched me open my mouth to talk nonsense without any image. When I almost closed my mouth, his emotions that seemed to be hidden under the waves suddenly burst out, and even shocked me. .

"Because I don't want to owe you!" His eyes were getting redder, and he said loudly, "Because I hate you, I just don't want to use your money, so what if they borrow money? Excuse me, why do you ask Zhao Mingze to speak and approve?" His voice softened, but became more sinister.

"I don't want to owe you, because I don't want to get entangled with you!" He continued, his voice was soft and sweet, but his tone was so vicious that he poked people.

I knew it, I knew he really didn't want to owe me, I wasn't in a hurry, I wasn't in a hurry.I walked aside and wanted to drink some water, but there was no water at all.I poured a little water into the water glass, but couldn't swallow it.

Fortunately, I am really a dead person, really a dead person, otherwise, such a body that cannot use any function, such a heart that cannot feel anything, how can a living person bear it, how can a living person endure it?

My hand trembled, with five fingers spread out, and the water glass fell on the carpet, but luckily it didn't break into pieces.

Then my body went limp, and my limbs seemed to suddenly become stiff, as if I had been completely frozen in winter, unable to move or use strength.

I fell to the ground on my back.

I want to move my fingers, I want to move my eyes.

But the finger was always there, unable to move a single centimeter.

My eyes, which should have been open, suddenly closed.But my line of sight can pay attention to every corner of the house.

That's it again.

Again.

I couldn't move again, I could only lie down again, and it was the same as the previous few days.

I can only lie like this, unable to speak, unable to move, only to look, and I can't even turn my eyeballs.

I immediately went to see how Mu Tian was doing, since I can still watch, of course I have to pay attention to him.

He just stood there, still expressionless, just facing me, facing my body, facing my closed eyes.

He just stood there without moving, even the posture of his arms, fingers and legs did not change. Maybe his body was already stiff, maybe he was very calm.

I heard the clock "tap, tap" going very slowly, bit by bit, passed into my ears.The world seemed to stand still at this moment.

But time is still ticking.

Because I didn't wait long, I saw Mu Tian's fingers moved, and his face changed.

In fact, he didn't change much, even his body didn't move much, but his eyes changed a bit.

Then he stepped towards me step by step, very slowly, very slowly.I almost thought that he had been standing still like this, that the road would break off halfway if he didn't take a few steps.

But he finally walked up to me and squatted down.

His fingers were very cold and icy. After so long, his fingers still haven't warmed up.He just had a little dip in hot water.Maybe his cold fingers were also soaked for me in the cold shower.His fingers just rested on my face, sliding over the sunken wounds.

The wound does not hurt, there is no pain anywhere.

Because there is no chest pain anywhere.

He just looked at me like that, with long eyelashes drooping down, his cheeks covering his eyes as black as ink, his eyebrows were knotted fiercely, but he didn't lose a single bit of his beauty, his nose was slightly Wrinkled, his thin and affectionate lips were pursed into a line, and then opened, the two lips trembling slightly.

Mu Tian, ​​are you cold?

He grabbed my finger, held it, pressed it in the palm of his hand, and rubbed it, maybe he wanted to warm up my finger and move it.But his fingers were so cold that he couldn't move, and my fingers were frozen too.

I really want to comfort him.His hair is so black, so dense and so soft, if I could move my hands, I would straighten his hair and wipe away the tears he didn't shed.

It's strange that he didn't cry this time, but I could feel him crying.

He opened his mouth, his lips trembled so that he couldn't speak, but he still spit it out, "Who said, I don't want to get entangled with you?" He trembled his lips, and said some staccatoly, "I was talking ironically, I want to tell you... I want to tell you, but I have a good face, you know I have a good face," he said incoherently, "You know, you know... What are you in a hurry, what are you in a hurry for? I just don't want to tell you, I'm afraid of you, I'm afraid of you—!" As he spoke, he yelled out, his tone really shaking, choked, and hoarse.

What are you afraid of me, power, fame and fortune?

It's only 5 yuan, do you think I care?

Even Zhao Mingze doesn't care, what do you care about?