Reborn the tamed beast

Gu Shen rubbed his sweaty hair, stood up, took out the bathrobe from the closet, prepared to take a bath, and said to Gu Ziming: "Do you think that in that situation, I can open the door and go in and tell you 'I'm back Yet?

Gu Shen chuckled and said, "So don't mention that again, Gu Ziming."

Gu Ziming sighed lightly and said, "Gu Shen, do you have time now?

"I'm getting ready to take a shower."

"Can you wait a moment?" Gu Ziming's voice was very low, but Gu Shen didn't know how to refuse.

Standing up from the bed, the sweat on his body dried up immediately.Gu Shen sat on the sofa topless, cross-legged, nodded, and said, "Okay, what do you want to say?"

"Actually, I didn't call you today to talk about the incident just now..." Gu Ziming paused and continued, "Today, I participated in an interview, and one of my readers suddenly asked me, 'how do you Looking at family relationship issues? How can we get along well with our children?'”

Gu Shen: "..."

"Then, I was stunned and couldn't say a word." Gu Ziming's voice was a little dim, and regardless of Gu Shen's lack of any response, he continued, "I know this reader. A car accident took her away a long time ago. Fertility, I adopted a child in the same year as me, and that child is younger than you, and he is in junior high school this year."

"..."

"Gu Shen." Gu Ziming called him suddenly, "Do you know what I mean?

"No." Gu Shen took a glass of water from the bedside and took a sip, "I've never figured out what you mean by saying these things to me."

Gu Ziming sighed softly, and said: "I know - you can't have the same feelings for me as I do for you, you can even say that you hate me, but I don't know, what did I do to make you hate me so much?" things? It’s like you don’t know why I did these things to you, same, Gu Shen.”

"..." Gu Shen paused, "You can speak very well."

Gu Ziming was noncommittal, thought for a while, like a memory, and said: "I remembered some things, for example, you don't know, I was found to have congenital hepatitis when I was born, and a third of my liver was cut off. You You don’t know that when I was a student, I got stomach problems when I was hungry and full. You don’t know that as long as I eat faster, it will be as hard as an iron block.”

Gu Shen: "..."

"However, I am not a doctor, but I can clearly know the name and efficacy of almost every eye medicine." Gu Ziming's voice was very low, as if he was recalling something, "I can memorize the precautions for using soft aligners " Paused, "I also know the intentions of many of your small movements—for example, you seldom use your arms when fighting, and for example, you deliberately train your left hand when eating."

"Okay, stop talking."

It's a bit chilly at night without a shirt on like this, but Gu Shen is even more unwilling to listen to Gu Ziming dissecting himself as if he thinks he knows him well, like a frog tied up in a laboratory, and he has to be pointed at when his belly is broken point.

Gu Ziming paused and changed the subject: "I just want to know you and participate in your world. But I'm afraid I don't understand your world, so I want to impose my ideal future on you."

"..."

"It was my mistake, Gu Shen."

Gu Shen stared blankly at the dark night in the distance, and said 'um' in a hoarse nasal voice, "You hate me—so you can't understand me, my pain." Gu Ziming said, "I once saw other colleagues, they children, clinging to their parents, holding their hands, hugging each other. And I can only hear your voice on tape—you know, how jealous I am?"

Gu Ziming spoke slowly, but he said every word sonorously and forcefully, as if after tens of thousands of years of deliberation, the words were deafening. Thin sheet, covering the upper body.

Gu Ziming sighed, as if he had been struggling for a long time, he was silent for two seconds, and continued: "If you really feel sick, I'm sorry, Gu Shen, I feel like I'm crazy, longing for you. Longing for everything about you, wanting Let you stay by my side, I want to watch your growth little by little. It is a failure that I love you like this, it is just your burden. I never thought, never imagined that I can have physical contact with you... ..."

"..."

As if a little embarrassed, Gu Ziming coughed unnaturally, pondered, and then said: "But I never thought that you would feel it with such a decisive attitude. I understand you, one... one is so much better than myself. There are many men of the same sex.” Gu Ziming said word by word, “It’s really disgusting. It’s so disgusting that when you hear that I recorded your voice because ‘I miss you’, you drop your phone I went out." [Author: ...] Gu Shen opened his mouth to explain something, but in the end he didn't say anything

Gu Ziming: "I have been tossing and turning and can't sleep these days. This situation has lasted for more than half a month. I really want to call you all night long, but I know it is impossible, so I dreamed of talking to you and transcribing the recording. Come out, listen sentence by sentence, don't even want to let go of the sound of breathing, just spend night after night like this."

Gu Ziming's voice came to Gu Shen's ears along the phone, and he felt strange, but he could even hear the sound of his swallowing saliva clearly.

Gu Ziming: "I want to use all my strength to force you to repeat the fantasy events over and over again, making you completely mine."

Gu Shen: "..."

Gu Ziming smiled wryly: "It's really crazy. After you left, missing became the only thing in my day, but sometimes, when I think about your words, I feel cold from the top of my head to my toes.

Gu Shen kept silent from the very beginning, but listened carefully and clearly 8

"I envy the reader above who asked me the question. She is still looking for a solution to the problem, and she may solve the problem." Gu Ziming said, "But what about me? My son hates me so much that he doesn't even have a relationship with a stranger." I don’t want to maintain it, Gu Shen, what can I do?”

The conversation this time was too long, and it contained many questions that Gu Shen could not answer.Gu Shen cleared his throat: "You haven't tried it yet, how do you know it's impossible?"

"Why haven't I tried it?" Gu Ziming retorted, "When I was in Germany, I thought about it every day, over and over again, the next time I see you, I can't talk to you with that attitude anymore. It’s time to consider your feelings, not to do what you find intolerable, to see you as an ‘other’.”

"If you really did this, I wouldn't hate you so much." Gu Shen said bluntly and Gu Ziming smiled: "It's just that the next meeting is far away, Gu Shen, when are you willing to see me?"