Reborn the tamed beast

It's just that the legs are a little weak, and it's not that I can't stand up.Just now I asked Gu Shen to help because I was afraid of falling while wearing pants, and I didn't expect it to be so embarrassing.Gu Ziming tried his best to make his walking posture more normal, hurry up and go home earlier.

However, the moment I stood up, I felt a little powerless.It's easy to say that his legs and feet were weak, but his head was aching. He stood up abruptly, but his eyes turned black, and he couldn't tell the direction at all. It took a long time for his eyes to recover.

Gu Ziming glanced at Gu Shen's unmoved back, thinking that this might be the last time that Gu Shen would be willing to meet him, he didn't know what kind of emotion came out of his heart, it was not a good feeling anyway.I want to repent - or talk to Gu Shen again, but I don't know what topics to talk about.Gu Ziming opened his mouth, just took a deep look at Gu Shen's back, and then walked forward slowly.

A slight slam of the door was heard.Gu Shen frowned imperceptibly, his hands hanging stiffly by his sides.

That afternoon, Gu Shen packed up his clothes and temporarily stayed away from this bustling land.

Because of his age and level, he can only participate in the national youth piano competition, and stand out in the competition. This is the key to victory without background. Due to some insider reasons, Gu Shen may not be able to get No.1. But this is not important, what is important is to make an impression on the company, so that it can be successfully participated in the fair national competition in the future.

What Gu Shen wants is not to become famous all over the world in one fell swoop, on the contrary, he prefers this kind of process of chasing slowly.

This competition will last for a week, at least this week will not see Gu Ziming's face, so it is very good.

Gu Shen adjusted the position of the headphones, closed his eyes, and quietly enjoyed the afternoon sunshine before boarding the train.

However, when the train is moving, it doesn't feel comfortable.The company treats newcomers very stingily, the train they take is not only cramped, but also the whistle is so loud that it seems to tear Gu Shen's eardrums.I don't know why, but Gu Shen feels very quiet, as if his ears have some special places - he can hear the sounds he wants to hear, even if it is insects flying, and the sounds he doesn't want to hear can be isolated in his world Besides, even if it is thunder.

He has a strange premonition that no matter how powerful the enemy's background is, he will not lose.

It's amazing, like the feeling of fingers on the keys, smooth and stable.

In the air, Gu Shen turned his head sideways, leaned against the car window, tapped his fingers a few times to draw a rounded arc, and closed his eyes.

He felt peaceful, very quiet.

That feeling, once had a long time ago.

That was the feeling when the self in the previous life met Gu Ziming for the first time before rebirth.At that time, I felt peaceful because I finally met that man, but now I feel at ease because I can escape from his control.The impression of Gu Ziming at that time is very vague, I only remember that the man bent down, as if he wanted to hold himself in his arms.

Why do you act like that to a child who is so dirty to the first time you see it.

Gu Shen has always been very strange. In his previous life, he wondered why he took care of himself so much. After his rebirth, he discovered the reason, but he was even more puzzled.He Gu Shen has nothing special about him except music - he thinks.

Is it the looks?

Gu Shen slowly opened his eyes, glanced at the distant scenery, saw the slowly setting sun, remembered that Gu Ziming was going out to eat with other people at night, and with his legs that could not stand still, he felt There was a 'buzz' in the head, and the moment of tranquility just now disappeared without a trace.

Gu Shen took off the earphones, only to feel the sound of the train's rumbling wheels drowning his mind instantly.

Standing on the huge and empty stage, Gu Shen suddenly felt confused.

Is he fit for the stage?

It should not be suitable, he hates such lighting and the feeling of being watched, he is only suitable for music.

Gu Shen rubbed his stiff fingers with his hands behind his back, adjusted his breathing, thought about his peaceful feeling on the train, and the feeling of meeting that person for the first time, for a moment, without knowing why, he closed his eyes.

The sound in my ears is similar to the 'quiet' sound, not the sound of fingers touching the piano, not the sound of lights shining and glowing -- not even the sound of hair brushing the collar.

Gu Shen felt that his whole body was soaked in the water, the touch of his fingers completely disappeared, his body leaned back slightly, as if he was buried in the bottom of the water thousands of meters below, he couldn't even hear the sound of bubbles, even the sound of breathing. Can't hear, - blood can't flow, eyelashes can't quiver.

He could hear the sound in his right ear.

Gu Shen suddenly opened his eyes, touched his right ear in disbelief, stood up in shock, and was startled by the thunderous applause.

His right ear was photographed as if it had been flooded after swimming. Hot liquid filled the ear canal, and he could really hear the sounds of the world.

how could this be?

Gu Shen widened his eyes and hurried off the stage.

He covered his right ear with one hand, completely confused why he heard a sound suddenly. He suddenly thought that after observing his ear canal, the doctor said that all the organs in his ear had not suffered a devastating blow. It may be psychological deafness caused by too much pressure.At that time, Gu Shen blamed Gu Ziming too much, worried about his future, and didn't listen at all. Now thinking about it, damn it, he can really hear it.

All the incidents that happened when I was with Gu Ziming, and my naive revenge, all turned into a joke.

Gu Shen didn't think about the huge sensation caused by his performance at all, and went back to the hotel on his own, wrapped himself under the quilt, stuck to the bed tightly, and his mind went blank.

What qualifications does he have—

Including the previous life, since this life, thinking for the first time.

What right does he have to enjoy everything superior, what right is he to be proud of Gu Ziming, what right is he to want to work hard like an ordinary person.

what.

Thin cold sweat broke out on Gu Shen's forehead, and his fingers were tightly gripping the corner of the bed sheet, stiff and pale.

Just when I was feeling flustered, my phone suddenly started vibrating.

Gu Shen raised his head and looked at the time. It was already twelve o'clock in the middle of the night. If nothing else happened, it should be Gu Ziming.

Didn't you say that you will never disturb him again?

'If you can't completely belong to me, don't provoke me easily, Gu Ziming. '

Gu Shen held the phone in his hand, felt its mechanized vibration, and had no intention of answering it.

his cherished love

It may not be appropriate to choose such a night. The heavy rain came inadvertently and stopped soon, but I couldn't calm down and felt anxious.I don't know if you have a time like this.The two protagonists in this article are very unpleasant, especially Gu Shen, who should be an even more unpleasant character, awkward, childish, rude, self-righteous, and ungrateful, you can call him anything.But I really sympathized with this guy.In a way, equally self-righteously, I think I understand him.

There is a kind of person who needs to be pure, and for what he really wants, he is obstinately demanding purity out of reality, and nothing else is necessary. What he wants must be pure, and he will not forgive what he can’t give him, yes, do not forgive.He hated being sullied, hated to be controlled, hated to be violated, hated to be abandoned, and that feeling only made him sick and tear up.

It's not that he doesn't grow up, but that he will never accommodate and never compromise.Never say that he is naive, he will be the same in another 1 years.Its texture is brittle and violent, like a vase covered with spider veins that won't break, like the unapproachable rocky Gobi Desert.Beneath the indifference is the turbulence.He is as unworldly and untamed as a beast.He pressed what he wanted tightly under his paws and held it in his mouth.For him, love is not a tender thing first, but a kind of intrusion. He intrudes on others, and others intrude on him, which will bring severe pain. After the pain, we must grow together to get peace.

Getting it is not a pain for him, because he will force himself to pay back.In his previous life, he thought that what he got was pure family affection, someone loved him "selflessly like a father", and he could only repay it with endless concessions.That is actually not a normal relationship at all. Would a "normal" son obey his father from life to career and marriage?No one can do more than him.He is forced to restrain himself for what he "gets".Rather than saying that Gu Ziming persecuted him, it is better to say that he persecuted himself until the jade was broken.

However this is false.The feeling of gratitude that you died for and even died with is "fake", how could it not be a betrayal? ?That "love" turned out not to be "selfless", but to have "aspirations", and the person who had "aspirations" didn't even have the courage to say it. Such a cowardly person despicably defiled what he cherished most. The only thing he felt own.How can you not resent?But he couldn't, it was this person, this person saved him from the fire.So this resentment and unbelief is planted.

Fate teased him again, and Gu Ziming left him and walked away, just when he wanted to swallow the bitter fruit himself.He was abandoned.He saw clearly the cowardice, despicability, and hypocrisy of this person, and this person still made demands on him under the banner of "selflessness". He didn't believe him, didn't understand him, didn't tolerate him, and accused him like an "outsider" He even wanted to control him because of the peeping that he dared not speak out.If there is the grace of nurturing, he repaid it, in the last life, this life, not only life, but he can't go, it is he who really invested the most sincere and purest feelings for Gu Ziming, no matter whether it is or not, it is what made him fall in love later. Gu Ziming could use this as a coercion to invade him step by step and pester him.If Gu Ziming has been seen as cowardly, despicable, and hypocritical before, the symbolic significance of the incident of occupying the room is that Gu Shen saw the "unclean" of the "love" given by Gu Ziming, or "Unbelievable" He has only been gone for a few days? ?The person who kept saying that he loved him the most let his room be occupied by others. He couldn't even enter his own room. In a few days, he didn't even have his "home". It was just a room, right?You don't understand anything do you?Then, the "love" you give is really nothing more than that.This "love" is too frivolous and mixed with too many impurities.Gu Shen hated being tarnished, controlled, violated, and abandoned.Gu Ziming did everything.If you believe that everyone has a bottom line, how can a person push into everything?What is enough?Is it enough to die?He's already died once.This dirty love.

The love he cherishes.

Liu: I can't write any more. Gu Shen's part has a sense of aphasia, incoherent speech, incoherent speech, mistakes and omissions, and it is temporarily published for correction.Gu Ziming's part hasn't even started yet, to be filled. //morning