Reborn the tamed beast

After finally finding time to be quiet for a while, Gu Shen returned home and took a bath first, and then soaked his fingers in hot water, only feeling pain like needle pricks.Thinking that he should relax properly, he decided to go home tomorrow to see Gu Ziming, and rest for two days by the way.

Thinking of seeing Gu Ziming, I felt inexplicably anxious, and something in my heart desperately resisted.

Gu Shen glanced at the phone by the bedside, not wanting to call Gu Ziming, but remembered the letter Gu Ziming wrote to himself when he just came out of the house, just when he was bored, he took it out and read it carefully.

Under the desk lamp, Gu Shen frowned and endured the pain in his fingers, and calmed down, reading the letter written by Gu Ziming word by word.

I don't know if it was because it was handwritten, but he actually had the illusion that Gu Ziming was standing beside him.

The full text of Xinde is as follows:

Walk alone, walk alone.For my dear son.

For a father, the most painful thing is probably being separated from his son.I don’t know what other people think. When you begged me to let me go in public, I felt like a knife was piercing my heart. The first thing I thought was, how big is the generation gap between you and me? .

Dad was admitted to a very good university that year. At that time, your grandfather was not willing to let me go to a big city so far away. It was at that time that Dad talked back to him and argued with him for the first time.

Later, I went to university, and went further abroad to study in graduate school.I was the one who won that war. Until now, I feel that my choice was correct. I thought that even if everything happened again, I would definitely stick to my original choice.

However, I was already an adult at that time, Gu Shen, and you, how old are you?

To be honest, I am worried about your future.According to what you said, now that you are in high school, you want to drop out of school to concentrate on studying music. So, let me ask you, what if you don't have that talent at all?

I am very worried, if you can choose again in the future, you will regret the decision you made this time.

Dad looked at your righteous expression in embarrassment, and felt that it was unacceptable and that it was too early.You are a freshman in high school this year, and I doubt whether you can have what you call 'ability' to face the society.

You are not yet an adult, and you don't even understand the most basic rules of survival, so how can I feel at ease?

But, I let go, Gu Shen.Gu Shen, you, do you know?

How difficult it is.

I feel the skin-like pain, not because of 'losing control over you' as you said, but because of deep love.It is because I lost the ability to understand you and relieve you prematurely, so I feel pain.I think my performance at that moment must be very calm, because I thought of a word, not "independence and freedom", but "self-willed". It's ridiculous for "control", Gu Shen, I have countless examples to refute you, but I didn't do it, do you know why?

Because I always want to maintain your pride and dignity, but I am afraid that you will come into contact with this society too early. If you want to be independent, you will not be able to obtain the capital of pride.I'm shaking with your damn precociousness and self-confidence, and I don't even know, where did you get your self-confidence from?Who did you learn to be so rebellious?What capital do you have to sever ties with me, decisively?

In the early days, the reason why I did not agree with you to study abroad was that I was worried that you would become a casual and rash person.I agree with you that going out to live alone is the most reassuring decision among the necessary trade-offs between sacrifice and dedication.You said that if you like music, it's like giving it your all.Then let me tell you that music and studies are not contradictory in themselves. The reason why you are so extreme is not that you cannot get freedom.

You and me, Gu Shen.Although I don't know why.

But I can feel it.You who can calmly analyze everything, but when you encounter things about me, you appear indifferent and irritable.Abandon your demeanor, like some unknown wild animal, must push me back far away, use your sharp claws and your fangs.You have succeeded, this war.

On the way you grew up, I was just a passerby. I walked in when I was eight years old, but you kicked me out after a few years. This is a failure.I thought that I would accompany you for the rest of my life, but in the end you left, and I walked alone on your past life path.

If you have the patience to see this, well, I'm glad my son isn't so impatient with me yet.

Let me tell you, Gu Shen, you can't even imagine it.I love you so much.

It is love, so I tell you that the road you choose is extremely difficult and dangerous, and you will pay the price for it. I am waiting for the day you regret it.If one day you regret it, please come back to me.

Night, Gu Ziming.

Gu Shen read the letter expressionlessly.

With light force on the letter paper, both hands trembled as if slightly electrocuted, and moved up and down in dislocation.

The letter was slowly torn in half.

Gu Shen overlapped the two halves of paper, and then slowly tore them apart, with an expression on his face as if admiring a work of art.

Gu Ziming's letter was cryptic, but it all hinted at Gu Shen. Gu Ziming didn't like the path Gu Shen chose at all, and he was convinced that Gu Shen would not be able to persevere.

Gu Shen smiled softly, with cloudy eyes all over his brows.

Gu Ziming is the one who commands him so high and high, isn't he?

To a large extent, the person who forced Gu Shen to give up his studies and choose music so early was actually Gu Ziming himself.

Because he wanted to prove himself and tell him about his success, Gu Ziming had to face himself and admit that Gu Shen's choice was correct-this is why Gu Shen was so anxious.

I don't know if it's because of the physical relationship. Although Gu Shen still refuses Gu Ziming's invasion of his life, he can no longer say "I hate him very much".The reason why the letter was torn up was because the words behind the letter were too much to cover.In other words, even if outsiders would not be suspicious, Gu Shen would still feel creepy when he saw the blatant expression of love, and he would walk on thin ice, for fear of being discovered by others.

Gu Shen sandwiched the wreckage of that letter in "Prudent Thinking Self-Clearing", frowning involuntarily.

Literati like Gu Ziming, the articles written are too charming.How much Gu Shen hates thinking of himself when he was a child, but since he watched "Careful Thinking", he wants to continue to read it again and again.

That book contained a lot of Gu Ziming's psychology, which made Gu Shen seem to see another Gu Ziming.

The powerful psychological hypnosis that makes people feel terrible is, perhaps, the power of literature.