What about actor?

When Shi Feng heard these words, he turned his head and gave Qi Mo a faint look.

Go faster.

He got into Qin Cheng's car face to face, and from the corner of his vision, he could see Qi Mo looking at him through the car window.

Shi Feng didn't want to talk to this bad man for the time being.

Qi Mo could only watch the car start the engine, turn around and drive away after exiting the parking space, and disappeared from sight in less than 10 seconds.

He subconsciously wanted to follow, and he felt that he had done such a thing as stalking, and finally cursed secretly, and slammed the steering wheel heavily.

After Shi Feng finished ordering to the waiter in English, he expressed his doubts to Qin Cheng who was opposite him with his eyes.

"Don't you order?"

Qin Cheng glanced at the menu, then turned his gaze back to Shi Feng, "Just like you."

The waiter nodded and walked away, Shi Feng lowered his eyes, took a sip of water from the cup, and said nothing.

Soon, two traditional British roast dishes were served.

When Qin Cheng saw the color of the food, his eyes froze almost inaudibly for a moment.

But seeing that Shifeng's face remained unchanged and he began to eat, he also picked up the silver knife and fork, and put a piece into his mouth.

The spicy taste buds spread on the tip of his tongue, Qin Cheng coughed a few times, his fair cheeks flushed slightly.

"Ah, I've been eating too much light food recently, so I asked the chef to make it a little more spicy."

Shi Feng's chewing movements were elegant and slow, he raised his eyelids to look at Qin Cheng, and suddenly his eyebrows and eyes curved.

He laughed and said, "You still can't eat spicy food."

Qin Cheng also laughed and drank water, "It's okay, you can still eat it."

He said that he could eat, but put down the tableware in his hands, and watched Shifeng intently while drinking water.

After watching, he put down his cup, "Xiaofeng."

"Let's be together again."

After saying this, Qin Cheng stared fixedly at Shi Feng's expression, as if trying to capture some emotion from it.

But Shi Feng's expression was natural, and he only smiled slightly when he heard the words.

After the food in his mouth was completely swallowed, he slowly talked about another topic: "Speaking of which, you haven't told me about He Manman yet."

It seems that he asked casually, but in fact this is his main purpose.

If you want to talk, you have to sacrifice time, sit down and have a meal together, and find the right time.

Qin Cheng was stunned for a moment, thought for a while and said, "Are you looking into He Manman, are you trying to follow the clues to clarify things with her?"

Know and ask.

Shi Feng propped his chin up in a single sound, the silver fork poked at the vegetables one after another, raised his eyes, and looked at him innocently.

"Will you help me? Brother."

The moment this title was called out, Qin Cheng's throat tightened.

It's been a long time, and he hasn't heard Shifeng call him that.

Forgot when, the time when Shi Feng followed behind him and called brother, is gone forever.

Shi Feng pondered the other party's reaction, thinking that there should be some effect, otherwise the other party would be petrified.

He struck while the iron was hot, and the voice that came out of his mouth was clear and Lingling: "Didn't you say that you love me."

"Don't you even want to tell me about this?"

Qin Cheng really responded immediately: "I am willing, but Xiaofeng, I am not familiar with He Manman."

"I might know something about her by accident, but even if I told you, she wouldn't be so kind—"

"I want to listen." Shi Feng interrupted him, opening and closing his straight and long eyelashes, "Tell me."

Qin Cheng had no choice but to compromise, "Okay, I'll just say I know."

Shi Feng looked at him fixedly, showing that he was listening.

"He Manman has touched drugs, and has been involved for quite a long time." Qin Cheng pushed the water glass aside and continued, "She hides it well, but there are still a few people who know about it, such as me."

Shi Feng recalled He Manman's true state when he was in the dressing room without makeup, and secretly thought that his intuition was really accurate.

"You can expose it directly, but she is protected now." Qin Cheng said, "A person who dares to touch that kind of thing is so courageous, you probably can't threaten her."

Shi Feng also felt troubled, "Could it be that she has no weaknesses."

When Qin Cheng heard these words, his eyes moved away and stayed there for a few seconds.

He hummed very lightly, with a half-smile, and said meaningfully: "Who knows."

After dinner, Qin Cheng held Shi Feng to let him accompany him to see the night view of London.

Unable to refuse, Shi Feng reluctantly went patiently.

In the night, the two walked slowly along the Thames, one behind the other.

Qin Cheng said: "My role is over, I'm leaving tomorrow."

He walked unhurriedly in front of Shi Feng, "Although I want to go back on the same flight as you, I still have an announcement to make."

Shi Feng responded lightly: "Work is important."

Qin Cheng seemed to be in a good mood, humming some song in a low voice.

The atmosphere was calm and peaceful, but Shi Feng was absent-minded and in no mood.

He said: "This song has long been outdated, and others will laugh when they hear it."

Qin Cheng raised his hand and pointed in a random direction, "Look, the swan."

Shi Feng glanced at it, then quickly looked away.

"It will never go out of style here." Qin Cheng looked back at him with a gentle and charming smile, "Because you sang it."

At this moment, Shi Feng couldn't pull any smiley faces anymore.

Night Breeze lifted his bangs, Shi Feng wrapped his coat tightly, and his brows and eyes looking into the distance were covered with sadness.

Stop talking.

His body was already empty.

Whenever this person speaks of love, a huge hole opens from deep within the heart.

Years of unhealed, unfilled wounds, endless anxiety and dissociation tormented him day after day.

Shi Feng lost his mind for a long time and began to be in a trance. He organized his words and said slowly: "It's a bit cold..."

Qin Cheng stopped in his tracks, walked over, and suddenly opened his arms to embrace him.

The familiar scent came into his nostrils, and Qin Cheng asked, "What about now?"

About 15 seconds of stillness.

Shi Feng suddenly covered his ears——

Tinnitus, piercing and sharp howling in the ears, elongated, elongated, like the tearing end of a metal string.

His complexion turned pale instantly, his lips/teeth opened silently, as if he was too painful to cry out.

Shi Feng covered his ears with his hands and squatted unconsciously, "Ah, ah...!"

Qin Cheng's words were close to his ears, his voice lowered and slowed down, and he asked him, "What's wrong, where does it hurt?"

Shi Feng desperately shook his head, his face was completely drained of blood.

He felt that his entire ear canal and eardrum were about to be pierced and ruptured. He wanted to relieve the pain, but the hands on his back never left.

Shifeng's breathing became disordered, and he only knew to shout: "Go away, go away!"

Qin Cheng was confused. He didn't know about Shi Feng's illness, and he didn't understand why he was in pain. He just kept asking repeatedly: "What's wrong? Tell me?"

The vision is distorted, the face of the person in front of him is blurred and strange, buzzing, tinnitus and screaming.

At the moment when he was about to break through the critical point, his thoughts were in chaos, and a memory flashback suddenly appeared in his mind.

--"breeze."

A very calm male voice called him.

Cold, empty, without any emotional ups and downs.

The thick curtains only let in a little light, and Qin Cheng's figure and silhouette standing in front of the bed were all black.

"Xiaofeng, let's separate for a while."

……why?

"I'm leaving, you have a good rest."

Oh……

The black figure began to distort and disperse again, and the picture began to change continuously.

White, lots of white...the clock ticking on the wall.

There was only a doctor sitting in front of her, but her vision was vague. When she raised her head, the voice she spoke seemed to resound in her head.

"You may selectively forget something that is causing you pain."

The writing on the case sheet was like ants crawling over, rustling.

"But maybe someday."

"There are times when drugs won't help you, and you should understand that most people are fighting their own demons.

"Some get better gradually, and some go crazy."

"Take it, or beat it," the doctor said.

At this moment, Shi Feng did recall some memories that had been vague in his mind.

He and Qin Cheng were trainees in the same period.

When they debuted in a group, Shi Feng was 18 years old and Qin Cheng was 19 years old.

Their initial relationship was not that good. Although they were in 714 together, they usually meet, that is, say hello and continue to practice.

It wasn't until later that Qin Cheng did a series of things to show his love to him that the relationship between the two gradually became intimate.

During the period when Shi Feng fell out with his family and had no contact with him, Qin Cheng was his only spiritual sustenance.

He always makes Shifeng happy at just the right time, for example, playing a little trick and suddenly turning into a rose, bringing delicious food for everyone but leaving the best to Shifeng quietly, and so on.

Chatting with him is also very interesting, always having the same topics, the same hobbies, the same experiences...

So the two of them secretly got together without telling everyone.

When they are together, it is really sweet.

Qin Cheng will play the piano for him, from Baiyun to Beiji Dirge, from Petrich to Slow Walk... While playing, he looks at himself with a gentle smile.

At the same time, very innocent.

They held hands in a dark corner, and the most intimate thing they did was kissing. In the camera, they clumsily hid their nascent love in their smiles.

And how long will this state last...

Four years ago, he was already at the center of public opinion, with a suit of lawsuits on his back.

The eyes of the whole people were focused on him, and all kinds of bizarre revelations came out like a flood, and the unscrupulous media poured all kinds of dirty water on him for the sake of popularity.

He was in a quagmire, and the company tried its best to cover it up for him at the beginning, but when they couldn't resist the public opinion of the masses, they completely gave up Shifeng and let him fend for himself.

The fake news was well fabricated, but there was some truth mixed in it. It was revealed that he was holding hands with Qin Cheng and he was actually photographed from behind.

Qin Cheng was scolded head and face by the company, and spent a lot of money to suppress this news.

That day, Shi Feng called Qin Cheng countless times, but Qin Cheng didn't answer them.

He couldn't sleep all night, his hair fell out badly, and his face was very pale.

The residence was surrounded by reporters and couldn't go out. Most of the time, Fengfeng was locked in the room without eating or drinking.

The only thing he could do was to call Qin Cheng, because the two hadn't seen each other for a long time since the incident broke out.

Shi Feng said on the phone: "I miss you."

Qin Cheng would comfort him a few words, and when Shi Feng gradually calmed down, he would say that he was going to be busy again, sleep well, don't think too much, goodbye.

Shi Feng comforted himself that the other party was just too busy.

He feels extremely insecure every day, calls more and more frequently, but the number of times he can get through is very few.

One night, Shifeng gastroenteritis broke out, and his stomach hurts like hell.

He cried on the phone and said that he wanted to meet, Qin Cheng was silent for a long time before saying hello.

Qin Cheng arrived in the middle of the night, still looking like that handsome noble son.

But this time, he didn't hug Shifeng, nor did he softly whisper love words in his ear.

He just sat down quietly by the bed, in the darkness, Qin Cheng's breath seemed to disappear.

Qin Cheng said, "Xiaofeng, don't call me again."

"Let's separate for a while."

After speaking, Qin Cheng left.

Shi Feng is not a three-year-old child, he understands that in special times, one must always avoid the limelight.

He was locked up at home for another two weeks, and the number of reporters outside his door appeared to have dwindled.

After a long absence, Shifeng had his hair done. At three o'clock in the morning, he dodged the paparazzi's eyeliner in embarrassment, and was almost out of breath before arriving at Qincheng's house in a certain villa area.

He squatted down, hugged his knees and waited at the door.

Until it was completely bright, around 11 o'clock, Qin Cheng came back.

Shi Feng ran up to him and hugged him violently. He was really happy, and asked Qin Cheng with a smile if he was surprised.

However, Qin Cheng's body was stiff, with embarrassment written all over his face.

Another woman got out of the car, with black skirt and long curly hair, she was unabashedly surprised when she saw Shi Feng.

Without saying a few words, Qin Cheng said that he was just coming back to get some clothes and that he was going to go out to make an announcement tomorrow. He told Shi Feng to stay at home, and left in a hurry after speaking.

Later, Shifeng saw the woman in the black dress again on TV.

She is very beautiful, with exquisite features. Some people say that she is the daughter of the director of a certain brokerage company in the industry.

Now she is about to star in a romantic idol drama with Qin Cheng as the male and female lead.

There are also people on the Internet who say that they are together.

Shi Feng didn't believe it, so he naturally went to meet Qin Cheng again. At that time, the child lover case he was framed for was about to go to court.

This time, Qin Cheng looked very guilty, and his words were quite tactful.

It roughly means: Why are you here again, it is best not to meet now, of course I like you very much, but it is still a bit troublesome to be together, how about we become good friends again?Oh, by the way, you left something with me, I'll go upstairs and get it for you, you should go back quickly.

Shi Feng almost collapsed, talking inconsequentially, sometimes begging Qin Cheng not to be like this, and sometimes accusing the other party of being a scumbag who cheated on his feelings.

Qin Cheng was angry for the first time, his eyes were cold, and his hands were so strong that he seemed to crush Shi Feng's shoulders.

"Why? I'll tell you why Shifeng."

"Because you are a man, and you are still covered with lawsuits, I will be implicated if I continue to be with you. Is it worth ruining a man's career for the sake of reputation?"

"Anyone who stands in my shoes will make the same decision as me."

Shi Feng didn't hear him finish, and rushed out the door.

In just one night, his lover looked like two different people.

Within a few days, the lawsuit was lost.

The judge found Shi Feng guilty, but he was not imprisoned immediately because he still had copyright disputes and was not convicted of sexual assault.

Occasionally, I saw him standing in the same frame with the girl in the black skirt on TV, with gentle eyes and an ambiguous atmosphere. Everyone said they were a good match.

Amid countless pains and anxieties, Shi Feng fell ill.

When I fell into a deep nightmare, I always felt pain all over my body, and I didn't know I had a fever until I woke up.

In a daze, he subconsciously called Qin Cheng, but the other party hung up directly, and in the end Brother Xu ran over to take care of him regardless.

He lay in bed for a week, during which time, Qin Cheng didn't make a single call.

In his dreams, he dreamed of many scenes where he was still at home, but whenever he thought that he could no longer go back, Shifeng would just cry uselessly.

He left his family too early and hadn't learned how to fake strength from his grief.

In the last scene of the dream, Shi Feng opened the door, and the flashing lights outside swallowed him up.

The handcuffs locked the wrist with a "click", Shi Feng accepted everything calmly without any struggle.

He couldn't wait to leave—

He wanted to escape from here completely, to escape the nightmare of this life.

[The author has something to say: It cannot be said that Qin Cheng has no feelings for Shi Feng, but his love for Shi Feng must be placed after interests.

Once it affects his own interests, future, and reputation, he will leave you without hesitation. This person is actually realistic and ruthless, um. 】