In the golden cage

Li Chen immediately panicked, so panicked that he didn't even have time to react to Ji Shaoting's tenderness on his cheek, he grabbed Ji Shaoting's wrist, arched his whole back, and asked repeatedly: "Tingting, are you going to leave me behind?" Do you want to leave me? Why do you want to leave me when you have made me so embarrassed? "

His emotionally kidnapped words followed one after another, even he himself had no room to breathe, and Ji Shaoting had no room to explain.He had no choice but to turn up the volume, trying to suppress it: "Li Chen, Li Chen, listen to me, Li Chen—A Chen!"

Li Chen suddenly lost his voice.

Ah Chen.

It seems to have been called tens of millions of years ago.

The first time Ji Shaoting called him that was in August last year.He picked up Ji Shaoting from the airport, and after lunch, he drove directly to the hospital.Ji Shaoting asked him what to call him when he waited in front of his mother.

"Chen has only one word, and adding some embellishments may make it more intimate." Ji Shaoting's smile at that time was only polite. "Ah Chen, or Brother Chen, even the first and last names are fine, and it looks familiar."

Ah Chen, these two words are particularly charming when they come out from between his lips and teeth.

"A Chen," Li Chen made a decision, "That's what my mother called her."

Ji Shaoting's answer at the time was: "Then you can call me Tingting, that's what my family calls me too."

Li Chen didn't respond at that time, one of the reasons was that he was afraid of creating too deep a relationship with Ji Shaoting, he knew better than anyone that Ji Shaoting would leave one day.

Such a good Ji Shaoting, picked up by him once in a thousand years, must not be able to keep him, so he had to lock him up.

The second is because he hasn't recognized his mind yet, and he doesn't know that this phrase put together by a very common square character will become the greatest meaning of his life, and it is his dream every night.

At that time, how would he know that as long as the owner of this name calls "Achen", he will immediately return to the world from hell.

Li Chen calmed down, Ji Shaoting took a deep breath and asked, "Can you let go of my hand first?"

Li Chen was startled at this moment, he didn't even know that he was trying hard on Ji Shaoting again: "Are you—"

"Don't say I'm sorry," Ji Shaoting found an opportunity to interrupt Li Chen this time, "I just told you."

He has suffered this kind of pain, and he doesn't want Li Chen to suffer it too.

The pain in the wrist is not too much, just take it easy for a while, and more importantly, Ji Shaoting found that when he looked at Li Chen from a different perspective, there was room for concessions in many things.

Don't use that too idealistic standard as the only criterion, he will be able to understand Li Chen.Li Chen said that he couldn't control himself, not an excuse to avoid responsibility, but that he really couldn't control himself.

Some behaviors are his unconscious instinctive reactions, the products of stress in his nature, as an organ that he cannot remove, an inseparable part, and Ji Shaoting has to accept it in its entirety.

These eternal flaws can be covered up with normal flesh and blood, but he is destined to be incomplete.

It's just that although Ji Shaoting knew it, it still took time to accept it.He moved slightly into the bed, and distanced himself from Li Chen.

Li Chen remained silent. Although he understood that Ji Shaoting's actions were understandable, he still felt uncomfortable.

Ji Linzhang once questioned him why Ji Shaoting, who was a favorite of the Ji family, had to be tortured day after day in his hands.At that time, he still thought about what this was saying, and he also thought that Ji Shaoting was a treasure.In the end, he actually told the person he hated the most, but he saw clearly that his extremely bad nature was actually tormenting Ji Shaoting.

Ji Linzhang's voice sounded in his mind: "If there are rules in love, then this is the first rule: You cannot use any form of violence against him."

He stared at Ji Shaoting's wrist, blaming himself over and over again in his heart: why he can't always do this well.

Why can everyone provide Ji Shaoting with qualified love, but he can't.

"I know you might think I'm being miserable." Li Chen's voice was deep and low, "But Tingting, these pains are real. You don't know how hard it was for me to see you again, if I didn't remember Speaking of that girl's graduation ceremony, I may never see you again in this life... Ting Ting, I remember every word you said, let's not separate again..."

Ji Shaoting sighed, and said: "I didn't say to separate, I just said to give me a month."

"What are you going to do this month?"

"Sit on the bed first," Ji Shaoting paused after finishing speaking, and added in a low voice, "But...but don't get too close to me, once you get emotional, it doesn't matter what you do."

Li Chen knew this better than anyone else, he didn't say a word, just sat on the end of the bed as Ji Shaoting ordered, keeping a distance from Ji Shaoting.

Ji Shaoting contemplated for a while, and gradually formed a sentence, fingering back and forth between Li Chen and himself: "You are in pain, and I am in pain too."

"You are sure that I am soft-hearted and know that I will have a psychological burden. You are right, I have not had a good life in the past three months. I really want to forget you, but I don't know why, but I still ask my brother about you Things. You can't help it, and I can't help it either, they are all in pain."

If things go on like this, it won't work. This state of perpetual torture must be changed. In this case, there is only one way out: "You said you want me to save you, but I can't save you in this state. So can you Give me a month and let me adjust."

Li Chen listened to Ji Shaoting finish this paragraph, suddenly a little light appeared in his distressed appearance.He opened his eyes wide and stared at Ji Shaoting.

Ji Shaoting felt those two hot and hopeful gazes, but he was still a little scared, apprehensive and unsure.

He sat on the head of the bed with his knees hugged, looked sideways at the shadow of the base of the bedside lamp, and continued: "I don't want to save you because of the psychological burden. After all, I don't owe you anything."

"Don't use my sympathy and guilt to hijack me so blatantly. In this way, the tone of our relationship is still unhealthy. If it is unhealthy, it will not go far. You know it, don't you? We have made a mistake once. gone."

Li Chen just stared at Ji Shaoting blankly, thinking, is he trying to save their relationship...?

The wind has died down, the curtains have been put back on the window, and the room is quiet, except for Ji Shaoting's murmur: "I made a mistake once, and I have already hurt both. No one can afford to do it again."

It took Li Chen a long time to understand the implication of this sentence. Ji Shaoting was actually saying: Now I will give you a second chance.

Li Chen couldn't describe his mood, the four words of ecstasy were too shallow, and the pardon of the death sentence was not one ten thousandth of the joy he was experiencing now.

He took a deep breath, stared at Ji Shaoting in the light, and went back to the turn of spring and summer last year. Under a street lamp on the side of the street, Ji Shaoting was sitting in the light with his knees hugged like this, with a wet look on his face. tear stains.

The pictures overlapped together, and the illusory light and shadow blended together. It was hard to tell whether it was the first meeting or the reunion after a long absence.

Li Chen concentrated his attention on watching carefully, and finally recognized Ji Shaoting at this moment.

At this moment, Ji Shaoting slowly turned his face away from the light of the bedside lamp, met Li Chen's eyes, and through the wreckage of the previous love, he called out by name: "Li Chen."

He said, "Let me fall in love with you again."

Ji Shaoting formally submitted his application for resignation, one week after Li Chen left the UK, because he was not used to living in a different place after marriage.

Colleagues held a simple party for him, and asked about his future plans, Ji Shaoting said that after returning to China, he planned to follow Sally and start from scratch, and he would not leave this business anyway.

After the party, Ji Shaoting asked Sally and Berg to stay and help clean up. After sending the guests away, Ji Shaoting turned around and asked them to sit on the sofa.

"It's a long story," he said.

After leaving the UK, Ji Shaoting first set off to the Middle East, followed the organizations he had cooperated with before, and came into contact with the refugees who were still in the battlefield.After flying back to China directly from the Middle East, Ji Shaoting's biggest change was his skin color, which became two degrees darker.When Li Chen picked him up at the airport, he couldn't help shaking.

When Ji Shaoting smiled, his teeth were still white. "The sun is too strong," he said, "even after wearing sunscreen."

Li Chen took his luggage and replied, "You are fine anyway."

This month Ji Shaoting cut off all contact with Li Chen, in fact, contact with everyone, including family members.Without a phone or WeChat, he went to a world completely out of the old pattern.

The essence of making this decision is the same as his decision to study abroad. They all want to try to change. Although he will return to a new established track in the end, he has indeed become a little braver in the process of changing and adapting. .

You have to be brave to be with Li Chen.

Four months later, when Ji Shaoting returned to Li's house, all the surveillance cameras had been removed.

When he passed the study, he caught a glimpse of Li Chen's safe.He is already familiar with it, and it is only now that he understands something through it.Then he looked up and looked around, this magnificent mansion.On the first day he came here, Li Chen told him: Don't leave without his permission.

In fact, this has always been Li Chen's way of expressing love.

Li Chen would hide everything he valued in the safe and lock it up, for fear of being snatched away.All the details are explaining Li Chen to him, but he only understands it now.

"By the way," Ji Shaoting suddenly remembered something, and turned his head to look at Li Chen, "My family didn't know that I was back, after all, you were in front of them... well, I left a bad impression, and they were more resistant to you—especially my brother."