In the golden cage

Objectively speaking, a week is indeed not long, but for Li Chen, who is aware of the truth, a short week is as long as a century.

After returning to his real home, Ji Shaoting was much happier. Sooner or later, he had a lot to say, and every time he ran down the stairs on the second floor, he fluttered like a bird.

Li Chen followed him downstairs, feeling that this happiness belonged to him and had nothing to do with him.He wasn't even a supporting character.

According to the tradition on New Year's Eve, Ji's family would set off fireworks in the courtyard. That was the first time Li Chen saw Ji Shaoting's childish side. He cracked the lighter with his thumb, squatted on the ground and yelled three-two-one before lighting the fuse.A spark of light rushed into the gift box of fireworks, and Ji Shaoting rushed back to the eaves shouting Happy New Year.

He really went crazy, no longer restrained by reason, and followed his instinct to rush to his closest people.Ji Linzhang.

The gorgeous fireworks slowly unfurled their petals in the mid-air, only to be bright for a moment, and then they were lonely, and the meteors faded away, sinking into the dark blue sky.

One after another was deafening, rumbling so loudly that Li Chen's heart was also cracked.The two brothers of Ji's family beside them were talking with each other's ears. I don't know what they said, and Ji Shaoting suddenly laughed.Li Chen silently put all this into his eyelids, clenched his fists hidden by his side.

The distance between him and Ji Shaoting is only half a meter, but it is like a mountain, great sadness and great joy, the moods of each other are very different.

Li Chen wondered what was wrong with him, Ji Shaoting was the wife he was marrying back from Ming Media, he could have walked over and dragged him back to his side, why did he retreat to the corner like a loser.

Ever since he broke through Ji Shaoting's dislike for him, he has lost all his confidence.

It shouldn't be like this, he is obviously a very proud person, he only opened his business in his thirties, and he is in peak physical and mental condition, how can he be so timid.

Li Chen only told himself that it was because he was still concerned about the occasion.

This is to save Ji Shaoting's face, don't make the matter unresolved in front of his family.The conflict between them is a matter between the two of them, and there is no need for others to make irresponsible comments.

So he also hid his mind, even though it swelled day and night.His and Ji Shaoting's roles have been temporarily reversed, and now Ji Shaoting moves as he pleases, while he wears a mask to play another person from morning to night, a generous benefactor and a gentle husband.

In fact, he is not good at acting, if Ji Shaoting has the heart, he only needs to look at Li Chen for three seconds, and he can see the gloom inside.

But Ji Shaoting didn't, he couldn't help but immerse himself in this rare comfort and joy until the day he boarded the plane back to Nanyun.

But when Ji Shaoting's smiling face stopped blooming, Li Chen felt relieved.

This is a very sharp sourness, as thin as a red blood thread, crawling on the tip of his heart: because he is having a hard time, he also wants Ji Shaoting to have a bad time.

Of course he loves Ji Shaoting and wants him to be happy every second, but he does have this kind of mentality of burning everything together, which is the subtlety of love.

Perhaps love is due to mutual debts, and those who are deeply involved in it cannot avoid torturing each other, but in the final analysis it is out of fear.Li Chen was afraid that Ji Shaoting would go in a better direction, so he left himself alone.

It will take a long time for Li Chen to realize that this kind of dark psychology is actually the culprit of all the problems and the breakdown of their relationship.

His appearance and inside went to two extremes. He looks proud because he has low self-esteem, and he has a strong desire to control because he can't control it.Growing up in a depressive family environment, he didn't receive any positive comments and affirmations throughout his childhood, and his hard-working achievements gave credit to his younger siblings.

His personality has irreparable flaws, and only Ji Shaoting can fill in the gaps for him.He wanted to keep Ji Shaoting by his side, because he knew that Ji Shaoting could provide him with the purest and most impurity-free love.

Ji Shaoting will never have his dark mentality of burning everything together, he is an existence that goes against common sense, he can share another person's feelings [-]%, and he is wholeheartedly for your good and happy for you.

He wants to keep Ji Shaoting to heal his wounds, and absorb the nutrients he needs to survive.

Don't you really know that Ji Shaoting will feel lonely when he is alone at home every day?But his fear surpassed all.

The feelings they provide to each other are never equal, Ji Shaoting's love is priceless, and the balance will always be on his side.This fear caused by inequality has always been hidden in the deepest part of Li Chen's heart, subconsciously controlling his words and deeds, but he himself has not been aware of it.

He continued to imprison Ji Shaoting in his golden cage.

Chen Pei has returned to work at the university, and the huge Li's house is even more empty than before.Winter is harder, because the sun is not hot enough, and the smell of the grave swims from the shadows of the horns where the sun does not reach.

Ji Shaoting fell into the state of doing nothing again, sitting on the sofa and watching the second hand on the clock face beating, and each second continued into a large piece of useless time.

Occasionally there is a gust of drafts, and I can't find a way out.

It is already an undoubted world of two people, and there are no other so-called others. Li Chen has the opportunity to have the "talk" he has always wanted with Ji Shaoting, but the fact is that he has been unable to open his mouth for three whole days.

Whenever he wants to ask Ji Shaoting what dissatisfaction he has with him, his subconscious will automatically order him to retreat.

He has always been afraid of being denied, and even more afraid of being denied by Ji Shaoting.

What Ji Shaoting said has always been entrenched in his mind: it turns out that he is the type that Ji Shaoting doesn't even want to make friends with.

If it wasn't for this kind of transaction, he and Ji Shaoting are two irrelevant people.If one day Ji Shaoting fully repays this debt, he will definitely leave without looking back.There has already been a lesson learned from the past. Isn't that how Berg was left behind by Ji Shaoting.

Li Chen thought that he really had nothing, and seemed to have Ji Shaoting under his control, but in fact, the order of subject and object was reversed, and it was Ji Shaoting who held him firmly.

Ji Shaoting didn't have the slightest sincerity towards him, and he was already stuck in the mud, no matter what he couldn't pull himself out of this farce, he would rather be a clown to hold on to him, which is both ridiculous and sad.

After a whole week, Li Chen failed to start the article.

The excuse he made for himself was that he was busy with work, there were countless documents piled up behind the scenes after the annual leave, and there were a few drinking parties, so he couldn't concentrate on dealing with emotional matters.

And why bother to destroy the peace, the state between them seems to have relaxed, as usual, Li Chen returned home from heavy work, had dinner, and fell asleep with Ji Shaoting in his arms.

But it's only apparent.

Their true relationship is undercurrents surging under this calm lake, becoming more and more tense until it approaches the critical point.

The tipping point is the board's annual drinking session, where all big shots come, and Li Chen drank a little too much.When Ji Shaoting picked up the drunk Li Chen from the driver, he smelled the pungent smell of alcohol all over his body.

Although Li Chen is not keen on socializing, he has participated in several drinking parties for work.Ji Shaoting knew that he had always had a good capacity for alcohol, and he drank moderately, so he did not know what stimulated him to get himself drunk tonight.

Ji Shaoting helped Li Chen back to the bedroom, spread him out on the bed, and squatted down to take off his leather shoes.Li Chen was talking about drinking indistinctly, Ji Shaoting was not in the mood to listen, he just thought that Li Chen would die of a headache when he wakes up in the morning like this, and wondered if there was any medicine at home that could alleviate the discomfort of a hangover.

After taking off Li Chen's shoes and socks, Ji Shaoting knelt on the bed and planned to change Li Chen into pajamas directly.Li Chen's eyes were half-opened and half-closed, like a soulless shell, his lips were still parting, uttering some words of unknown meaning.

Because of the proximity, this time Ji Shaoting pieced together his meaning from the scattered syllables, and it turned out that he was calling "Ting Ting".

There was an obsessive sound followed by an indescribable madness.

He called "Ting Ting" and said, "Love me."

Ji Shaoting's heart suddenly became still, emptied out, and even his breathing ceased.

After an unknown amount of time, Li Chen slowly opened his eyes, turned his head sideways, and faced Ji Shaoting to distinguish between inside and outside.

The impression absorbed by the pupils gradually gained depth of field, and Ji Shaoting's face emerged from the hustle and bustle of personnel affairs, becoming more and more clear, and he could even recognize the upward curve of each eyelash.

Li Chen's chest suddenly rose and fell violently.

The alcohol that was supposed to subside was swimming in the blood again, and the strong alcohol smell came out of the throat that had been scratched by the strong alcohol: "What are you dissatisfied with?"

Just like this, the words that came out of my mouth every time I touched my mouth but swallowed them in the past half month rushed out of my mouth like a water splash, with no room for turning back.

Ji Shaoting was startled, not knowing what Li Chen was talking about, but the smell of alcohol was so strong that Ji Shaoting couldn't help frowning.

It was purely because of the wine, it had no other meaning, but in Li Chen's eyes, it was already a heinous crime.His heart is now so sensitive and slender that even he can't believe it, he only felt a twist in the depths of his body, and then he suddenly turned over, pressing Ji Shaoting under him.

Ji Shaoting was terrified by this sudden attack: "What are you doing!?"

"The evening when it rained." Li Chen threw out a time node.

The warm white bedroom crystal lamp smears light on Li Chen's back, while his face is hidden in the shadows, his eyes are flickering with terrifying arrogance, and the acrid smell of alcohol flutters on Ji Shaoting's face with his breath .

Ji Shaoting has always been reluctant to recall that wet and cold rain, and had a premonition that once he started to respond, it would be the beginning of another spiritual interrogation, so he pushed his shoulder, tried his best to soften his voice, and persuaded: "Ah Chen, you're drunk, you'd better change your clothes and rest."

But Li Chen narrated on his own, and didn't need Ji Shaoting's answer: "I thought we were reconciled, what else are you dissatisfied with?"

What are you dissatisfied with?He is not satisfied with anything, look at Li Chen's appearance.

"Do you have to have sex?" Li Chen continued, "I didn't give you a clear answer at that time, but now I tell you, yes, there must be, because it's you. Tingting, you don't know that I am for you How long have you endured it?"

"How many people have been stuffed in my arms tonight? But I didn't touch any of them, because it wasn't you. Ting Ting, if it wasn't you, I couldn't do it. We've known each other for almost a year, and I haven't touched you, you know me How hard did you endure it? Why do you still think I didn't give you time?"

"Tingting," Li Chen's voice lowered, "You've never done it before, you don't know what it's like, it's very comfortable..."

Then there was a long passage full of oily words, every word made Ji Shaoting feel sick to his stomach.Li Chen blamed him for being conservative and reserved. He said that his skills are very good, how many people want to do it, but they can't get it if they want to climb into his bed again. Ji Shaoting is too stupid——

Hearing this, Ji Shaoting finally got angry: "Enough of Li Chen!"

For the first time, he was called by his first name.

Li Chen blinked vigorously, and his dizzy pupils gradually became focused.He saw the hatred from that night reappeared on Ji Shaoting's face.

why?

Why did you kill him? He was hurt so deeply by him, and he was still reluctant to kill him. Where did he, Ji Shaoting, come from?

"Can you, can you stop being self-righteous?"

Are you questioning him?What presumptuousness?He put himself so low.

He asked him what he was dissatisfied with, and planned to apologize to him and make corrections for him. He had already become so humble, and he was accused of being self-righteous.

"Do you think I want it?" Ji Shaoting finally broke out, his eyes were red, "Don't you think it's an honor to go to bed with you?! You've been with so many people, don't you think you're dirty?"

Immediately consciousness splashed.

Ji Shaoting finally spoke the truth, right?In an instant, all the anger, all the unwillingness, all the pain, despair, and fear all rushed out.Li Chen's whole face swelled up, the veins on his forehead were twitching, he grabbed Ji Shaoting's cheek,

"I'm dirty?" Li Chen gritted his teeth, "That's right, I'm dirty! - Then you can be dirty with me too?!"