Net Wang Fans - Yan Gui

Maybe the road was wrong at the beginning, and the result is still wrong. ——The inscription is an excerpt from Shu Ting's "Maybe", a large piece of white that covers the sky, and that person is lying there quietly.He himself felt like a vain bystander, watching himself punch the wall in the dream, the joints were bright red, but he felt no pain at all, and his body slowly slipped and fell.A tear fell silently, making a small splash on the tile floor, no one noticed except himself.

When Tezuka had that dream for the first time, he just didn't know what it meant.Both myself and Fuji seem to be in their 20s suddenly, and the strangest thing is that Fuji seems to be seriously ill.Why would he inexplicably dream that his teammates were sick?Tezuka was puzzled.In fact, he had just spoken to Fuji in the evening, who was undoubtedly in good health.Although it was a bit weird that Buer called him the minister when he said goodbye at the end, it didn't constitute a reason for him to have this dream at all, right?

Tezuka thought and thought, and finally felt that this must be just a dream, and the content was weird at best.He sat up and looked out the window. There was a quiet and deep blue night sky, occasionally a few beams of searchlights swept by, which was no different from usual.He couldn't fall asleep for a while, so he simply got up and planned to go downstairs to drink something cold to wake up.

In the days that followed, Tezuka never had a similar dream again.So he concluded that he was probably too tired during that time and didn't have a good rest at night.

When a similar dream came again, Tezuka was no longer in Japan.The winter in Berlin is cold and cold. When he woke up, he only felt that the sweat on his face was icy.

It turned out that his previous strange dream was just a fragment, and there were a lot of things that he had never seen before.They appear in reverse chronological order, wards, training, weddings, competitions, holding hands... In the earliest days, the smiles in the dream are the same as they look now. Successfully fulfilled the final oath; then U-17 went abroad by himself, and he saved money to come to see him; then he returned to China to study in university, and he was still in the same school as him; when he won the first ATP in his career When winning the Golden Tour trophy, the two went to climb Tokyo Tower together, and Fuji looked at him with a smile when the sun rose.Being together is almost smooth, but we will get together less and leave more, so it is understandable for Fuji to break up at the end...?

What Tezuka felt was right and what was wrong.The two people in the dream indeed had his compatible faces, and their personalities and tone of voice were almost the same, but he really didn't want to believe that was the truth.It is a fact that the self in the dream has a good impression of Fuji, and he has indeed thought about what to do in the future, but he basically devotes himself to tennis, and does not spend even a little more time on this matter.He didn't wake up until his family arranged a blind date for him. He had procrastinated for too long; and Satsuki and Mirazuki had two consecutive grand slam matches, and before he could react, Fuji had already proposed to break up.The panic at that moment was like a physical experience, my mind was blank, and my heart ached.

Fuji has always been a gentle person, but it is difficult for others to shake his mind about anything he believes in.For example, at the beginning, even if there were no guarantees or sweet words, Buer still agreed to him; in the end it was the same, the self in the dream didn’t know, but now he knew, Buer did it after seeing the blind date list. decision.He thought about the problem of coming back to talk to his parents after the season was over, and it was resolved before him, although not in the way he expected.

After all, I still didn't give Buer enough confidence.There was no guarantee at the beginning, although Bu Er smiled as always, but such a delicate person, how could he think that Bu Er didn't care at all?The more he likes it, the more nervous he is, the more he worries about gain and loss, he should have understood it a long time ago!As a result, until the end, even if he knew that it was useless to force him to stay, he should go all out and fight instead of being like a kite with a broken string because he was hit too hard.

But now, it is too late to break the boat.Tezuka understood his elders, his parents were alright, and his grandfather would never admit or accept it, which was why he hadn't taken any action.As a result, the story was over before he could come up with a solution.

Tezuka stood up and took a few steps, and opened the window forcefully.The icy air rushed in all of a sudden, making him shiver, but his mind became much clearer.As much as he hated to admit it, it was presumably true.That's why Fuji's game skills have improved by leaps and bounds, that's why Fuji called him a minister, and that's why he showed such an overreacting pale face when his arm was injured-because he witnessed his stubborn persistence again.

I have really experienced that kind of past, but when facing myself, Fuji never sees anything abnormal.Although the matter has not happened yet, but to completely avoid anger, still care about your own hands, and still show such a heartbroken look for yourself.Fuji has always been able to figure out the mood of others, he is considerate to his friends, but he is probably cruel to himself.

When smiling has become a habit, when gentleness is taken for granted... How can we continue to maintain this?Tezuka grabbed the window lattice, and several veins popped out on the back of his hand.

Troubled by such emotions, Tezuka's Christmas vacation was dull, and even the Matterhorn he had been looking forward to only aroused his interest a little bit.

Winter went to spring, and Tezuka returned to Japan.Everyone was very happy, but Fu Er was still smiling as always.When he heard familiar words from his familiar voice, Tezuka felt like a world away.No matter how long the dream is, it can't replace the reality. Tezuka knows very well that he can't fall in love with someone just based on the fragments he saw in the dream.

So Tezuka kept his usual expressionless face.But between workouts or whatever, his eyes would inadvertently fall on someone who was smiling.Buer is indeed very good, nothing could be better for him; in comparison, the self who has let him down again and again is really terrible.If he hadn't insisted on the request, he would still be like the third grader in his dream, stiffening on the tennis court until his arm collapsed, right?The game between the second country and Atobe has confirmed this in advance.That expression of disappointment that almost collapsed...

No matter how good Buer is to him, he makes Buer sad.

When he realized this, Tezuka couldn't forgive himself at all.

The result of Qingxue's next match was similar to his dream.No, it was winning faster and more brilliantly, and Tezuka knew that there was more than half of the credit for that.His dream mainly revolved around two people, so he didn't have many detailed content about the game, and played a very limited role.

So when Gan jokingly said that his number one would be taken away, Tezuka decisively answered him that it was not important.With such strength, he is worthy of the first position, whether it is skill or character.Others can only see the brilliance of genius in full bloom, but Tezuka really doesn't want to think about the hard work that Fuji has put in behind it.What kind of perseverance and patience does he need to get out of such a cruel shadow and face a new life with doubled smiles and efforts.

Of course, this is not the only thing he discovered.The number of times that Tezuka saw Buji was so many times, the few other nervous people didn't notice it, but the data madman must have counted it.

After the national competition, Tezuka asked Fuji to fight, but Fuji declined politely.Bu Er has always known that he is interested in the career network, so he cleverly replied, "See you on the world stage, and has no other explanation except worrying that he thinks the gap is too big."

When he was U-17 in his previous life, after he reached the limit of seamlessness, Bu Er disregarded Kikumaru's dissuasion and asked him to fight, but he was completely defeated.At that time, he was so eager to try his hand at professional tennis that he didn't even notice the tears behind Fuji.Even if Fuji has always been passive, stronger opponents can stimulate his deeper desire to move forward, but he is not a person who loses a game and becomes sluggish.

He agreed, but Buer refused. This is the difference between Buer and him.Bu Er likes to play pranks, but in fact he is extremely gentle.Only when tenderness doesn't work, he stops smiling - like Akutsu, like Kirihara, like... himself.

In fact, Tezuka had expected this possible outcome long ago, but he still wanted to say it.He has learned his lesson, even if he fails, he will not remain silent.

Similarly, Tezuka can understand where Atobe's hostility towards him comes from.Fuji will definitely not say it, but with Atobe's insight, he can definitely see something.Such a domineering young master's style, every step of the way is for the camp to make public to the world... Atobu has done much better than him in this regard.He knows exactly what he wants and what to do to get it.For the sake of Fuer, he can go on the speed dating show that he has never dismissed, he can not hide his likes and dislikes for the sake of Fuer, he can propose marriage in front of everyone for the sake of Fuer, and he can also sing a song that is completely inconsistent with the occasional bad taste of Fuer. A love song tasted by young masters.He feels sorry for Buer, complains that Buer is too considerate, and takes care of everything related to Buer, which is so natural that people feel that it should be like this.

Yes, you deserve this treatment.

In the end, Fuji fulfilled his promise and they met in the Wimbledon final.The same weather, the same grass, the same white clothes, the same ball...the only difference is probably the people.A real genius is always smiling, and a real genius is invincible on the court.It should be said that as long as Bu Er is willing to do it seriously, there are few unsuccessful things.

Tezuka lost, but he felt suddenly relieved when he saw Fuji standing in front of him, doing that little trick he'd seen so many times.It's great, after so many things, Buer is still the same as before, still the carefree Buer in his memory when he was young.In the future, he can still see Budu like this, without any haze or sadness, standing on the tennis court, looking magnificent.

This is already good.

It doesn't get much better than this.

What more and better could he greedily ask for?

Later, Fuji retired, and Tezuka was still working hard in professional tennis.

Later, Tezuka met Keixiang Atobe and Keisuke Fuji. When they called him uncle, one was awkward and the other was cute.

Later, Fuji's world travel photography album was published, and Tezuka found several photos of Mont Blanc in it, and the date was during their winter vacation in the second year of junior high school.

The Alps are very large. At the same time, one of them is in the east pass and the other is in the west pass.

The world is also big, and he met someone who loved him when he didn't understand.

When you understand it, that world is gone forever.

They have been walking on different paths, and the intersections have been left behind.

"No two, go straight ahead and don't look back."

Maybe your world I will never reach.

But no matter how high, no matter how far away, I hope I can always look at you.