[Rebirth] Minions are busy

In the early morning of late summer, it is slightly cool.

The old man with gray temples was walking on the steps of the cemetery holding a bouquet of primroses.

The managers of the cemetery all know this old man. They heard that the old man is a veteran. He would come here to visit his comrades in arms every day, and he would bring a bouquet of primroses every week, rain or shine.

Although everyone thinks that this cherry blossom grass is not suitable for giving to comrades-in-arms, but after thinking about it, do the comrades of the old man like cherry blossom grass?So no one reminded the old man that the flower language of primrose is: There is no other love but you.

The old man walked to a tombstone with vigorous steps. Looking at the gentle smile of the young man on the tombstone, he was still a little absent-minded for a while.Watching it every day, watching it every day, why are you still not used to it...

"Gu Xiaojing, I'm here to see you."

The old man placed the bouquet in front of the tomb, wiped the tombstone with his hand, and touched the photo from his early years.Then, he glanced at the next tomb that he had bought 40 years ago, moved his lips to the young man in the photo, but couldn't say anything.

40 years have passed, he is old, and he is still so young.When he went down to accompany him not long after, did he no longer recognize him?

The expression on the old man's face has not changed much, but the sadness in his eyes is so strong that it makes people worry.

When he returned to his home near the prison, when he was free, he still liked to sit on the chair in front of the window and look at the prison not far away, recalling the few fragments of Gu Xiaojing in his life.

In the past, he was very afraid that he would forget those memories one day, but as he grew older, those memories not only did not fade away, but became clearer.Several times he woke up from the memory, almost felt that Gu Xiaojing was back...

The old man opened the drawer and took out a notebook wrapped in a handkerchief very preciously.The pages of some old notebooks have turned yellow.The pattern on the cover of the notebook is not the style that the old man likes at first glance. The old man opened the notebook, and the immature handwriting on it that was originally written with a pencil has now been traced with carbon ink.

The old man looked at the words on it, read it over and over again, and because he had flipped through it too many times, the page had already shown signs of degumming.

"Happy birthday to Gao Chang's brother, Gu Xiaojing wishes."

The old man touched the handwriting on it, and he could imagine a primary school student biting the tip of a pencil and writing this line of words sadly.He must have been cute back then...

He raised his hand and touched the corner of his eye, it was dry but painful.

The old man clutched his chest, endured

Enduring the feeling of suffocation, he picked up the pen and wrote something in that notebook. He felt that he wanted to leave something behind.

He penned and wrote:

"My name is Gao Yi, an old man who is 75 years old and still alone.

I have never felt that I am different from other men. If I have to say that there is something different, it is that I have only one regret in my life. I couldn't tell him personally that I like him...

I have nothing to say about the first half of my life.Born into a military family, I was doomed to follow the path I would take in the future. I don't blame heaven or earth, let alone my father.He is proud, but he hopes that Gao Chang and I can become his pride.I think both Gao Chang and I have done it.

Regarding the second half of my life, I have no regrets. Being able to be with him for 40 years makes me feel content. Although I did have greedy thoughts, he didn't even give me the chance to be greedy.

I just want to say something about the person I like here, I am not very good at talking, and I have never written anything other than reports in my life.Even the reply letter to my mother, back and forth, will always only have a few words.

The person I like is Gu Xiaojing.

When did you fall in love with him?I am not sure as well.Maybe the reality is earlier than I thought.

This notebook is not mine, it was given by Gu Xiaojing, although Gao Chang tricked it under my name, but in the end it is still in my hands.It's a pity that I didn't get to see Gu Xiaojing at that age, I... envy Gao Chang, the only thing.

The first time I met Gu Xiaojing, it was very interesting.

At that time, I was thinking why a boy would put on such a coy look?But seeing what he was holding in his hand, I understood.But I still don't understand why he should be embarrassed, aren't these normal things?

The second time I saw Gu Xiaojing, it was not a real person, but a photo in a letter from my mother.

The boy standing with Gao Chang in the photo is Gu Xiaojing, I recognize it.

It was only then that I realized that his name was Gu Xiaojing, and he was Gao Chang’s classmate. After reading the letter in which my mother talked about Gu Xiaojing’s funny story when he came to my house for dinner, I suddenly began to feel that life in the army was a bit boring...

Although I've never felt this way before...

The third time I saw Gu Xiaojing was on the training ground of their university.

There are so many people in the training ground, I saw him at a glance.

It's fate, I think.

But it's a pity that I'm not their instructor, otherwise I could instruct him myself.Looking at it from the side, compared to those students who look like ruffian soldiers in military uniforms, Gu Xiaojing looks pretty good, not bad.

It was the fourth time I saw Gu Xiaojing, and it had been several years since the last time.

At that time, there happened to be a shooting in the prison where he was, and there happened to be new students on my side who needed to practice courage.So I took the students to his side, but this time I still couldn't talk to him.

Actually, I don't know what to say, maybe he doesn't know me.

But this time, I have a new discovery.He is not the kind of good baby that his mother thinks he is, he is actually very cunning, he can talk to anyone, but he is not distracted by others at all, I can see that.

But if a person like him is really kind to others, he must be sincere.

The fifth time I saw Gu Xiaojing was the time when I was on the last mission.

That time, I was really both happy and worried, being able to be so close to him...

He looks good in prison guard uniform and has a good temperament.

He noticed me, and to be honest, I felt like my heart was going to jump out of my chest.

That mission was my least favorite. I hate procrastinating things, but I can't disobey orders.In the end, something happened, so why don't those people have a brain?Why would such an innocent little prison guard like Gu Xiaojing be involved?

No one can understand the feeling of me beating him unconscious with my own hands, and no one can understand the feeling of me cutting his wrist and watching the blood flow out little by little.I have seen too much blood in my life, but Gu Xiaojing's blood, if possible, I would never want to see it.

It was that time, I kissed Gu Xiaojing.Although it was forced by the situation, it was also my selfishness.

The moment I kissed him, I suddenly thought I didn't want anything, so I just took him and left.I am confident that I have the ability to take him with me.

But I can't...

I was afraid that I would really make an impulsive mistake, so I quickly pushed him into the sea, hoping that rescue would come soon...

The sixth time I saw Gu Xiaojing, what I saw was the cold tombstone and his photo on the tombstone.

At that moment, I almost went crazy. When I calmed down, I quickly started to find out the cause of his death.But when the result I get is drowning, who can understand my feelings, I think it is no different from killing with my own hands.I locked myself in the house for a whole week, until the psychological evaluation said that I could not continue to stay, and I finally left the army.

But it was too late, and the outside world no longer had the place I was longing for.

i don't know where to go

here, what to do...

Until one day, I accidentally saw Gao Chang crying in front of Gu Xiaojing's tomb.A man who is about to get married, crying out of breath, this is the first time I've seen such a cheerful man.At that moment, I suddenly understood one thing, Gao Chang once liked Gu Xiaojing, maybe he still likes him now.

That day, I didn't go to see Gu Xiaojing, I didn't want Gao Chang to know that I had discovered his secret.

Without Gu Xiaojing, life is still going on step by step.

However, without Gu Xiaojing, I really lost the most important thing.

Later Gao Chang got married and went abroad soon after.My family is also urging me to get married. Those enthusiastic aunts who came out of nowhere introduced me to someone one by one. My parents also said many times, but I ignored them.I don't need to say anything, as long as I put on a face, no one dares to speak.

I was thinking, Gu Xiaojing was alone when he left, and I have the responsibility to accompany him.

I bought a piece next to his cemetery for myself, even if I can't be together alive, it's good to be a neighbor after death, at least I can watch him so close and be with him.

Written like this, if you ask me why I fell in love with Gu Xiaojing, I don't know, probably liking is just a feeling, if the feeling is right, I like it.For no reason, I trust my feelings. "

Jingle Bell--

The old man's memory was interrupted by the ringing of the phone. He got up and answered the phone. The voice on the other end of the phone seemed very cheerful, "Yes." He answered lightly and hung up the phone.It was Gao Chang's daughter who called, saying that his father was going back to China soon.

Gao Chang is coming back?It's good to come back...

Gao Yi walked to the desk, turned to the last page of the notebook, wrote a few words, then he closed the notebook, and he planned to give this to Gao Chang. buried with their ashes.

However, Gao Yi was still unable to hand over the notebook to Gao Chang by himself. When Gao Chang got the notebook, it was already five days after Gao Yi passed away. When he finished flipping through the notebook with emotion, the last line But it made him cry.

The last sentence Gao Yi wrote was: Gu Xiaojing, my love, I will never regret it.