[Waiting for the end of the world] Dongli chrysanthemum

Qin Lai ordered the last glass of wine, but he didn't expect to get drunk before half of the drink was finished. On Eleven, he saw that his words were clear just now, and he didn't try his best to stop him. Now he's healed and he's become a drunk.Calling him, muttering a person's name, without any response to other people's questions.

After paying the bill, he searched all over Qin Lai's body but couldn't find anything like a mobile phone. The bar was quite crowded at this time, so he hurriedly helped Qin Lai out, and no car passed by after waiting for a long time. In a hurry, Qin Lai might have been blown by the wind and felt uncomfortable, so he vomited while leaning on a tree.

Eleven caressed his back, Qin Lai raised his head and smiled at him, Eleven thought he was awake, who knew that after laughing, he hugged himself and rubbed against him, calling "Amon", Eleven couldn't laugh or cry, and dragged him to a nearby convenience store He bought a bottle of mineral water and asked him to rinse his mouth, but Qin Lai was very obedient, and did as he was told.

The two are about the same size. Even if Shi Shi is very strong, he doesn't want to be rubbed against his body by a drunk all the time. Let him sit on the curb and stop the car on the road. He doesn't know where Qin Lai lives, so send him there. The hotel was worried, so it wanted to bring Qin Lai to his house for the night, and wait until he sobered up.

Several taxis passed by with people on them. When he went back to see Qin Lai on the [-]th, a car stopped behind him. He thought it was a taxi. He turned his head and saw that it was a black shape. It was not a taxi. The door opened and got out. It was Yan Changnian.

Yan Changnian frowned and looked at him: "Why are you still outside in the middle of the night?"

Eleven replied: "My friend's birthday, I played with him. How did you pass by here?"

Yan Changnian didn't answer his words, but said, "Can't stop the car? I'll see you off."

Eleven said happily, "That's great."

He turned around to help Qin Lai, Qin Lai rested his head on his shoulder, Yan Changnian fished Qin Lai over with one hand, stuffed him into the back seat of the car, let Eleven sit in the passenger seat, and asked him while wearing his seat belt: "Is he where to live?"

"Huh? I don't know. I want him to go to my house."

"What?!" Yan Changnian stepped on his foot, and the car running on the road creaked to a stop.

"Well, don't worry about throwing him in the hotel alone, go to my house to rest overnight and talk about it tomorrow." The car stopped suddenly, Eleven almost knocked his head, Yan Changnian seemed very angry, why was he angry?

Yan Changnian moved closer to him, so close that he could hear his breath: "Do you like him?"

His thinking was too jumpy, and Eleven was confused: "Huh?"

When he admitted it, Yan Changnian sneered, "Why didn't I know you were gay? Or are you hiding it from me?"

Eleven understood the three words "homosexuality", half parted his lips, and said after a long time: "What's wrong with you today? He is my friend, why do you think of homosexuality?"

"Someone said a few days ago that he has no friends here, but I still hang out with you all the time." Yan Changnian sneered.

"Hello! I don't have any friends. He, he met in the game. We met for the first time today." Eleven explained.

"Netizen?" Yan Changnian smashed the car, and the horn suddenly sounded, startling Eleven.

"It's a netizen, and I can get along with him pretty well." Eleven admitted generously, "He's very nice."

"So you came out as soon as he called you? So you went to the bar when he took you? So you took him home when he was drunk?!" Yan Changnian's nose almost touched Eleven's face .

Eleven patted his forehead: "I didn't drink, why are you acting weird today?"

Yan Changnian returned to his position stiffly, and said firmly: "I can't let him go to your house, it's the first time we met, I don't worry, just send him to the hotel, everything will be fine."

He ignored Eleven's protest, took Qin Lai to a nice hotel, used his ID card to open a room for Qin Lai, asked the waiter to bring Qin Lai up, dragged Eleven out and left.

Eleven turned back while walking: "Are you all right? This is not very good."

"It's fine if I say yes, why are you so wordy! I don't want to see news in the newspaper tomorrow such as "Netizens meet and rob the bedroom of the dead body"..."

Yan Changnian sent Eleven home, got out of the car on Eleven, and stood at the entrance of a dark alley, but Yan Changnian didn't intend to drive, and asked him: "You are so mean, I will do you a big favor, even Please let me go up and sit down without saying anything?"

Eleven embarrassed: "It's too late... I thought you were in a hurry to go back. If you want to go up, go up."

Yan Changnian still didn't move, and asked for a while, "Eleventh, let me ask you a question."

Eleven said, "What question? You ask, and I will answer."

"Do you like men or women?" Yan Changnian said.

"Ah?" 11 never expected that Yan Changnian would ask him such a question, do you like men or women?He never considered that he himself is a man, so of course he likes women, "Shouldn't men like women? Passing on the family line or something, I think I should find a woman when I want to get married, how do men marry men?"

Although he never considered the issue of getting married and starting a family.

City G is an open metropolis. Eleven knew about homosexuality when he was studying there. He even saw two men kissing. However, he didn't have much reaction, he just regarded the two men as trees beside the road, He casually walked over, but the two men were taken aback. They were his classmates. Since then, when they saw Eleven, they showed a defensive look. They were afraid that Eleven would tell the story of their kiss. Hearing similar messages, they didn't know that they would forget about it in a few days, and they were worried for nothing.

"Come here, I'll tell you something." Yan Changnian pointed at Eleven Gou.

"What's the matter?" Eleven approached the car window.

Yan Changnian quickly kissed him on the lips, and when he left, he swept his tongue over his lips: "That's it. Goodbye."

As soon as he stepped on the accelerator, he ran away, and Eleven in the rearview mirror was stuck like a wooden stake.

After going back on eleventh, he took a shower with cold water, tossed and turned on the bed, slept on his back, on his stomach, on his side, on his side, and on his side, but couldn’t fall asleep. He took out the phone under his pillow and dialed it key.

"Yan Changnian, why did you kiss me?" As soon as the call was connected, Shi Shi didn't wait for the person on the other end to speak, and such a sentence popped up.

Yan Changnian thought that the eleventh phone call was finally coming to his senses and he was going to scold him, but he didn't expect to hear this, so he wasn't angry?He couldn't help laughing: "What do you say?"

"How do I know! So I want to ask you, you made me sleepless." Eleven said, "Did you bet with your friend?"

Yan Changnian tightened his grip on the mouse: "Why do you want to bet? Who should I bet with? It's no fun."

Eleven said: "Some people are so boring, just kidding about this, I remember when we were in junior high school, there were classmates who bet like this? But it doesn't matter, are you my friend?"

Eleven determined that Yan Changnian kissed him after making a bet with someone else, and before Yan Changnian could reply, he said, "Okay, I'm going to sleep, good night, bye!"

"Hey! Who made a bet with a friend? I'm serious..." Yan Changnian listened to the monotonous beep on the other end with a dark face, and threw the phone aside.

In less than a month after reuniting with Yan Changnian, Eleven got used to his existence. Now he is transparent in front of Yan Changnian and can see everything clearly. What is in his mind? It couldn't be clearer, it's a pleasant process to dissect a person's mind and let him approach the trap a little bit according to the steps he imagined.

Before the first snow fell in winter, Yan Changnian went out to play a few more times on Shiyi, and introduced some friends he knew, but Shishi didn't get along well with his friends, they were not on the same level at all, and There was no common topic, Eleven said he didn't want to attend those gatherings, and Yan Changnian didn't force him.

It was the first heavy snow that winter, and the sky was covered with goose feather snow. Eleven put on a down jacket, put on a hat, and walked in the snow.

He likes snow very much, just like he likes rain. He often has the urge to enter the rain and snow. Looking at him like a lunatic, Eleven doesn't care. This is one of his few hobbies. Ever since his voice broke, he has learned not to care about other people's eyes.

He remembered how Yan Changnian took him out to play two days ago and sent him home in the middle of the night.

The masquerade party was very interesting. It was a couple of gays celebrating that they broke through many obstacles and finally got together. Passers-by were invited to participate. Most of them were young people. Young people are quick to accept and there are many blessings. Pulling him to join in the fun, the couple gave Yan Changnian a rose and encouraged him to give it to Eleven. Eleven felt very embarrassed, but Yan Changnian couldn't see it and forced the rose into his hand. He said in his ear: "Don't pay too much attention to it, you can have fun. It's not true."

To be honest, although Eleven felt that he might be gay, he didn't realize it very deeply, even though Yan Changnian kissed him and gave him roses (in Eleven's view, it was the gay couple. prank), he never thought that Yan Changnian liked him because of this.The reason is that the distance between him and Yan Changnian is too far away, and there is a huge and unbridgeable gap between this distance.He also knows that although it is always said that love does not distinguish between age, gender, or family background, love is vulnerable to real life. Love is short, how can it be against the wind, knife, frost and sword of life?How to fight against secular prejudice?How do you get over those trivial things?Their world outlook, outlook on life, and values ​​are so different.

Or Yan Changnian has been in their class for a long time and feels that life is boring, so he starts to look for things that can make life more different. It just so happens that Tao Shishi just appears, so he becomes the target.Eleven didn't feel angry or sad. Being friends with Yan Changnian, he didn't lose. On the contrary, because of Yan Changnian, he saw things that he could only see on TV, newspapers, and the Internet before, and he also ate them. I have eaten many famous snacks that I have never eaten, but I have never seen them before. Although I did not gain weight because of it, my rough skin is definitely more oily and moisturized because of it.

Yan Changnian was just adding flavor to his life, would he disregard the views of his family and the outside world with him, an old man?Besides, he is not one of those fresh and beautiful young men, who has the youth that can be squandered at will, and the courage to move forward bravely.After all, he has lived for 30 years. Even if he had blood, it was exhausted in the trivial and ordinary days. His life is too ordinary. Standing at the age of 30, one can see the end at a glance. landscape.

So when some of Yan Changnian's friends secretly considered Yan Changnian's weight in Yan Changnian's heart with special eyes, Tao Shixi continued to live his life calmly, but stopped seeing Yan Changnian's cronies. I don't know what Yan Changnian knew, and I don't ask him anymore.

It seems that the days have returned to those days when there was no Yan Changnian. If there are jobs, I can earn some water, electricity and phone bills by online games. Occasionally, I will visit the mountains and rivers with Qin Lai, and occasionally go out to play. Most of them are what Qin Lai wants to do. To eat vegetables, I called Eleven to study together. Two cooking idiots made Qin Lai's kitchen a mess. The inedible things brought out were dumped into the trash can, and the edible ones were barely eaten. Most of them belonged to Qin Lai. As for the food, I didn’t realize that Qin Lai was also the same after a long time, but the difference between him and Yan Changnian was that no matter whether it was Qin Lai or his, the retired special soldier named Lu Meng, the other party was the only one for each other. one.

Lu Meng very simply and neatly ate the things that they had tampered with that couldn't see the original appearance, and ate them into his stomach without any pause. Qin said that he had been in the army for a long time, and he had developed a I got into the habit of eating turbulent clouds. Fortunately, my stomach is strong enough and I haven't suffered from stomach problems.Although Eleven thinks that he is not particular about himself, there is a person who is even less particular, and he is not a little bit high in rank.

He envied them.

But he also knew that he couldn't get the same happiness.

But life is still going on.

It snowed lightly during Christmas, and Eleven nestled in his small rented room, surfing the Internet surrounded by quilts. Yan Changnian called and asked him to go to the bar for a drink. There was no heating in the room, the window panes were covered with frost, and the scenery outside was blurred. He simply refused: "No."

"Are you laying eggs at home at Christmas? Hurry up and pack yourself up, I'll pick you up in a car, I won't freeze you." Yan Changnian knew his inertia, and hung up the phone neatly after speaking.