hairy mouth

February 2012, 2, Lichun.Beijing.

Ke Xiaoxi took out the key and opened the door.I haven't been back for a long time, and the feeling of turning the key in the lock is already a bit jerky.A few days ago, the agent called and said that he had found a suitable buyer, and he came back to deal with the house and car.

After simply tidying up the house, it was barely able to live. Ke Xiaoxi opened the window to ventilate the smell, and the cool air immediately filled the room.Only then did he realize that since he entered the door, not only had he never thought of spraying disinfectant, he hadn't even washed his hands once.

Yes, when many things should change, we must learn to change.Such as work, such as the taste of food, such as living habits, such as... thinking about someone... Ke Xiaoxi weighed the ashtray in his hand and threw it into the trash can with a thud.

Tomorrow's interview with the buyer, Ke Xiaoxi thought about saying goodbye to her beloved car, so she drove the car to a 4S shop for simple maintenance and then drove on the street.

Shopping malls, cinemas, bars, companies... Ke Xiaoxi drove slowly, consciously or unconsciously, passing by various places that she was familiar with and had frequented.

In the end, inevitably, Ke Xiaoxi's car drove to the place where Fang Tiejun was going to open a restaurant at that time.Slowly driving past the doors of several neighboring restaurants, the five characters of Dou Da come into view——Xiaoxi Private Kitchen Cuisine.

After parking the car in a secluded place, Ke Xiaoxi entered a coffee shop opposite "Xiaoxi Private Kitchen".Finding a seat by the window facing the street, Ke Xiaoxi covered her face with a miscellaneous book for guests that she grabbed when she entered the door and turned her head to look across the street.

"Sir, what would you like to drink?" A girl with a pretty face and a sweet voice put the water list in front of Ke Xiaoxi.

"Oh." Ke Xiaoxi put the book aside and ordered a cup of English black tea.

The girl took the water slip and left. Ke Xiaoxi picked up the book and tried to cover her face again, but she caught a glimpse of the title of the book - "Self-Examination of Breast Diseases".At the same time, the voices of a few girls whispering and laughing came from the bar.

After refilling the black tea twice, Ke Xiaoxi found that most of the people who went in and out of "Xiaoxi Private Kitchen" were young people.Mostly white-collar workers, with occasional students.

"Oh, I'm hungry, let's order."

"Do you still want the 'Xiaoxi' family?"

"I've been eating it for almost a month, aren't you tired?"

"Not greasy, his food is so delicious. And, have you met his boss?"

"Oh──I said, how come you are such a lazy girl and always like to go to buy food by yourself. It turns out that the drunkard doesn't care about drinking. But don't think about it, that handsome guy is a G."

"Ah? No way?! Doesn't he have a daughter? He came to our house to see him last month."

"I don't know how there is a daughter, but I heard that the little girl who delivered food from his family

The boy said he was not interested in women. "

"Cut! You guys just can't eat grapes and say grapes are sour. She doesn't seem interested in women, maybe it's just that she hasn't met the type she likes."

"Okay, stop daydreaming, you two hurry up and order."

Ke Xiaoxi's ears stretched out and he was listening intently. The girl who ordered tea for him interrupted the conversation of the other two girls.Then they were quiet for a while, presumably looking at the menu.

"Okay, I want this privately made healthy beef and radish soup."

"Then I want to make four small samples secretly."

"I want boiled seafood."

"Guess that top-secret private dish again. I don't believe that I will never be able to guess correctly."

"You are really persistent. Guess."

"Hmm... oh ── I've tried everything I can think of, what else is there?"

"Waiter." Ke Xiaoxi couldn't bear it anymore.

A girl ran over.Ke Xiaoxi pointed to the cup in front of her, "Please add some more water, please."

The girl picked up the cup and wanted to leave, but Ke Xiaoxi stopped her again, "That..."

"Huh? What else do you want, sir?"

"What is the 'top secret private kitchen' you mentioned just now? Why do you still have to guess? Guess what?"

"Oh, that one. That's the one from the 'Xiaoxi Private Kitchen' across the street...it's a special feature. His family has a 'Top Secret Private Kitchen', it is said that it is specially waiting for someone to eat it. But there is no food in that dish There is no name, no picture, no price tag, only a hint. They stipulate that whoever can guess what dish it is according to the hint, can eat at their house for free for a month, of course, the number is limited to one person.”

Ke Xiaoxi's curiosity was aroused, "Has anyone guessed it right?"

The girl pursed her lips and shook her head, "No, there hasn't been one since it opened."

"You said that dish has hints? What hints?"

The girl brought over the takeaway menu.Ke Xiaoxi saw a line of small characters under "Top Secret Private Kitchen" at a glance──Hint: Mom's feeling.

Ke Xiaoxi paid the bill and left the coffee bookstore.

When a girl came to collect the coffee cup, she found that there was a word on the receipt of the checkout. She picked it up and looked at it: the top-secret private dish-egg custard.

The location where Ke Xiaoxi parked was an alley, the road was narrow and there were many cars, his car was blocked by a car temporarily parked behind and couldn't get out.After waiting for a long time, no one came to remove the car, so he had no choice but to go back and see who was in the nearby store so that he could go in and ask.

As soon as he walked to the side of the road, Ke Xiaoxi saw Fang Tiejun standing at the door of the coffee shop with the girl who brought him tea just now.The girl pointed in the direction Ke Xiaoxi left, and Fang Tiejun rushed out like an arrow from the string.

Ke Xiaoxi quickly hid behind a tree, only to see Fang Tiejun running around anxiously

wait and see.After running for a dozen steps, he started to shout again, "Xiaoxi—Xiaoxi—Ke Xiaoxi!"

Soon Fang Tiejun passed the tree where Ke Xiaoxi was hiding.

After holding back for a while, Ke Xiaoxi poked her head out: Fang Tiejun ran faster and faster, shouting louder and louder.People on the road looked sideways.A burst of inexplicable pleasure came to her heart, and Ke Xiaoxi retracted her head again, only to realize that her heart was beating so hard that it seemed as if it was about to jump out of her throat.

Creaking──sudden brake came from the road, and Ke Xiaoxi was dumbfounded: Damn!No way! ! !

Squeezing into the crowd like crazy, Ke Xiaoxi shouted hoarsely, "Iron Army──"

Among the crowd, two car owners who had scratched each other were twisted into a ball and were lying on the ground rolling back and forth. Everyone present was stunned by Ke Xiaoxi's voice.

Realizing that she had made a mistake, Ke Xiaoxi blushed up to her neck, not knowing what to do.

suddenly──

"Xiaoxi."

Ke Xiaoxi turned her head: in the crowd, Fang Tiejun wearing an apron was looking straight at him.

A private room of Xiaoxi's private kitchen.

Fang Tiejun took off his apron and sat opposite Ke Xiaoxi, "How are you... recently?"

Ke Xiaoxi looked at Fang Tiejun as calmly as possible, "Very good. How about you?"

"Me? It's fine too."

"Where is Yanyan? Has she come back to see you?"

"She's fine too."

Ke Xiaoxi lowered her eyes and pursed her lips to hold back, but couldn't hold back, "Where's Qin Yuan?"

Fang Tiejun didn't show any surprise, and replied naturally: "He went back to Hong Kong. He changed companies."

Ke Xiaoxi raised her eyes, "Why didn't he stay with you?"

Fang Tiejun frowned, "Why is he with me?"

"Didn't you agree to him then?"

Fang Tiejun recalled, "Uh... I think you misunderstood."

Ke Xiaoxi narrowed her eyes and tilted her head, "Misunderstanding?"

"Well. At that time he thought he was sick."

"sick?"

Fang Tiejun raised one arm and put it on the table and scratched his head, "He thought he had AIDS."

Ke Xiaoxi first frowned and then widened her eyes.

Fang Tiejun continued: "At that time, I asked him to help me. He said that he was probably infected with HIV. He also said that he could help me, but he asked me to promise him one condition: if his HIV test results after two months It was positive, and he wanted me to be by his side in his last days.

"Even if it's an ordinary friend, even if the friend didn't ask, I would do that, so I immediately agreed. And I told him that no matter what the outcome of my affairs will be, I will accompany him through the final stage time."

Having said that, Fang Tiejun paused for a moment.

, Ke Xiaoxi immediately held her breath.

"He went for the final test a few years ago, and there was no problem with HIV. It can be regarded as... a narrow escape. He said that he had a great enlightenment after walking through the gate of hell. He didn't want to waste time on me anymore. He wanted to find true love. I can accompany him through the rest of my life."

Ke Xiaoxi breathed a sigh of relief unconsciously, "Why didn't you tell me then?"

"That's Qin Yuan's privacy. I have no right to tell other people about this without his permission."

"Then why are you talking about it now?"

"Of course there is no problem if there is no infection. In addition...he blessed 'you and me' when he left. I think his blessing will be invalid if I don't tell you clearly. So it should be regarded as tacit consent."

After a moment of silence, Ke Xiaoxi did not continue Qin Yuan's topic.

"You always knew where I was. Why didn't you come back and find me?"

"I also need time to think about the things between you and me. And... I always think that you will come to me sooner or later."

Ke Xiaoxi gritted her teeth, "What if I never come?"

Fang Tiejun smiled, "Are you going to talk to someone about selling the house and the car tomorrow?"

Ke Xiaoxi widened her eyes again, "How do you know?!"

"Well... If you see the buyer tomorrow, even if you don't recognize him, you will feel familiar."

"Someone I know?

"Ah."

"Is it someone you know?"

"Ah."

"Who?"

"Xiao Xiao."

"You let him buy it?"

"Looking for you. You weren't there and saw an ad for sale. So..."

"Why does he listen to you so much?"

Fang Tiejun couldn't hide his complacency, "Best friend. Besides, you can't afford to buy a house in Beijing."

Ke Xiaoxi stopped talking.

"What's wrong?" Fang Tiejun dragged the chair and moved closer to him.

"Before..." Ke Xiaoxi pondered over her words, "I thought you were just a big boy who would never grow up in a daze, but now I realize that there is actually a beast in the boy's heart. I can't control the other end. I am your prey, I can only go forward according to the route you have drawn, if you make a mistake, you will be slapped, and if you run away, you will kill me, until I obediently come to your mouth and be eaten by you willingly."

Fang Tiejun was amused by Ke Xiaoxi's metaphor, "Beast? So that's the case. Then my dad is a failed animal trainer?"

Ke Xiaoxi didn't smile. After a long time, he looked at Fang Tiejun and said word by word: "I plan to use the money from selling the house to go to other cities and start my own company."

Fang Tiejun's smile slowly disappeared, his eyebrows were tangled in one place, he stood up and walked to Ke Xiaoxi and pulled him up, "Xiaoxi... I'm sorry. Maybe this apology is a bit late, but it is well thought out, yes most sincere

inner.You say I live with a beast inside, well, maybe you're right, there's an alter ego inside me that no one can control.But now it's hibernating, and I'm back to being that stupid, befuddled idiot.Then can I ask you?Stay by my side, in case that beast comes out again, you have to find a way to tame it. "

"What if... I say it can't be done?" Ke Xiaoxi's voice became hoarse, and her eye circles were also red.

Fang Tiejun stretched out his arms to hug Ke Xiaoxi, "No one in the world can do it. You say where you are going, and I will pay the hotel to go with you."

The warmth of the long-lost embrace is hard to describe, Ke Xiaoxi lowered her head, "Anywhere?"

Fang Tiejun buried his head into Ke Xiaoxi's neck, "Anywhere, anywhere in the world, I will never let you slip away from me again. Do you know how I live these days when you are not around?

"It's not that I didn't try not to think about you anymore, but I found it harder than killing myself. I can't think without you. For the past few months, every day, every hour, every moment, I regret it. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I hated everyone, blamed all my friends, and thought I was the poorest guy in the world. Until one day I suddenly realized: I have never heard from you anymore.

"I started to go downstairs to your house every day to look at the dark windows, and I went to your company to chase and intercept, hoping to meet you someday. Then my mother called me, she said you went back to your hometown, and asked me to go back too .

"At that time, I suddenly woke up, and carefully recalled what I had done. In the end, I decided to open a restaurant, run it well, and wait for your return. I believe that you will return to Beijing sooner or later. I will see you later I decided at that time: At least you will come back to deal with the house. As long as you keep an eye on it, I will definitely see you again. No matter how much you scold me, I will follow you. Really, From now on, Fang Tiejun's life is your person and his death is your ghost, so don't even think about driving me away. Do you think it's okay?"

Fang Tiejun's arms tightened as he spoke, and Ke Xiaoxi, whose vision became more and more blurred, slowly raised his arms to hug him back. All the grievances and resentments disappeared in an instant, "Why? Why do I like you? Why can't I just forget Did you? Did I hurt too many people before I met you? Yes, it must be like this, this is karma.”

"I have the same question as you, and I have asked myself these questions countless times. But..." Fang Tiejun raised his head, stared into Ke Xiaoxi's eyes, and the two eyes met, "Later I finally figured it out: human nature Life is like this—you will always meet someone in your life, you don’t need any earth-shattering birth and death, you don’t need any unforgettable life and death parting, you just want to be down-to-earth and live with him for the rest of your life.”

"Lucky, I, met you."

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