Biganchun

The wind and the moon are beautiful, the night is like water, and thinking is like a dream.

Yan Rusi had been sitting by the window for an unknown amount of time.The tearful candle flickered, like a ray of residual thought, which seemed to be extinguished, but struggled, and couldn't bear to let go of this twilight light easily.

Outside the curtain, the full moon loses money, and it is already June [-]th.The engagement ceremony between her and Wang Zhaochen will be tomorrow.Three days ago, the Wang family sent someone to deliver the betrothal gifts. The chariots and horses were solemn, and the cabinets were full. They lined up in the street and swaggered past.Those collected in the inner treasury of the Yan family included twenty horses in charge, fifty sheep, fifty jugs of wine, one hundred pieces of red silk tied with sheep wine, three hundred pieces of brocade silk, one hundred catties of tea, and one hundred taels of gold utensils. , there are also pollen, flower power, fruit plate, silver wins, Luo wins, small color gold and silver coins, innumerable.

The other delicate and precious things that the Wang family gave to Yan Rusi's private room as dowry are now quietly placed on the long table in the hall of her boudoir.Four pairs of golden hairpins and bracelets, one pair of gold hairpins, two pairs of pearls and tiger amber necklaces, two pairs of pearls, emerald hair and jade hairpins, one gold-colored garment, ten gold-embroidered and painted garments, three pearls, emerald hair and jade hairpins each.There is also a big red letterhead with a 2000 tael silver note inside.

The piles of pearls and emerald clothes weighed heavily on her heart.The dark fragrance around her was so heavy that it was so suffocating that she almost couldn't breathe.She took a deep breath, only to feel that the pain in her chest not only failed to be suppressed, but became more violent.

If it really came to the moment when she couldn't breathe, who would she think of?Is it the mother who regretted the early death?An estranged and unpredictable father?Or... the one who is close at hand, but can never let go of... him?

It doesn't make any difference who she marries... What she said to him was understated, as if it had nothing to do with her.But when things came to an end, she could no longer stay out of it.After tomorrow, she will be the engaged wife of the Wang family, the wife to be married.

Is it really reconciled to live like this... When he asked her this, his back trembled distinctly, silently, but revealed the indescribable pain.The sleeves are like snow, and when they are stretched out, they disappear, and there is nowhere to look for them.The past and the past are tens of thousands of moments, the love is not over, and the people are far away.

Could it be... Are you really willing?

The shadow of the candle flickered suddenly, the flame jumped again and again, and swayed into the lotus wind through the window, and the slender figure flew in in the flickering light and shadow, as light as a dewdrop in a summer night.

Yan Rusi was startled at first, but when he saw that person's face, he immediately felt relieved: "Qingcheng, why is it you?"

Qingcheng smiled at Yan Rusi, straightened his clothes, sat down opposite Yan Rusi, turned over a teacup on the table, and poured himself a cup of tea.She held the teacup to her lips, her eyes full of misgivings: "It's so late, you still don't rest, could it be that you are thinking about someone?"

Yan Rusi bit his lips and said nothing, sighed suddenly, stood up, concealed the sadness in his eyes, and said indifferently: "Sisters... Even if you guessed my mind... why bother to say it..."

Seeing her being so sentimental, Qingcheng couldn't help feeling regretful in his heart, turned his eyes, saw the dowry on the director's case in the hall, smiled slightly, and said: "What do you expect in life, it's better to marry the king of the host family as soon as possible... The marriage of the Wang family is indeed a big deal. Compared with the rewards given by the officials when they made me the princess, it seems much more shabby..."

Yan Rusi shook his head and smiled and said, "Why do you come to ridicule me... I heard that you have been in and out of the palace these days, and you often visit the officials' houses. How do you deal with it?"

Qingcheng put down her teacup, spread her arms, and leaned on the back of the chair, showing a bit of laziness.She laughed softly: "The official family has a harem of beauties like clouds, so they don't take me seriously. Occasionally when I am called into the palace, it's just to sit with him and drink tea, and tell each other some folk stories in the palace. Every time the tea is not cold, he will get up and go to the state affairs. You actually believe those rumors."

Seeing that she didn't care at all, Yan Rusi shook his head secretly, but changed the subject: "You came here to see me late at night, what's the matter?"

Qingcheng straightened up, her eyes were as clear as water, and stared at Yan Rusi's face: "I'm afraid that you have some unfulfilled wish, and if you miss this last opportunity, it will be difficult to make up for it. If you want to see someone tonight, I will I can help you."

Yan Rusi was shocked, and after a long silence, he suddenly said in a low voice: "You know his temper... If he doesn't agree with each other, he gets angry and delays me, so what should I do? If I don't make it back before dawn tomorrow , but it would be bad."

Qingcheng stood up, walked in front of Yan Rusi, and said with a small smile, "Don't forget who I am? I can send you away with the stars, so naturally I guarantee that you will return with the moon."

Yan Rusi went up to her and opened her bright eyes, only to see the clear waves slowly, but beneath it seemed a sense of unfathomable melancholy, and couldn't help but move in his heart: "Why are you helping me so much?"

Qingcheng was at a loss for words for a while, and didn't know how to answer. After a long time, he forced a smile and lowered his head: "It should be the return gift of those mandala flowers you gave me that day, okay?"

Sighing softly, the last petal of the candle was peeled off from the candle flame on the table, and with a beep, dust was scattered all over the table.

The breeze passes through the alley, and the buildings are empty when people go.In the backyard of the Qingfeng Building, there is an inconspicuous wing room hidden, which is no different from an ordinary old residential house. It is the place where Bai Yutang settled in the city of Tokyo.In those days, people in Kaifeng Prefecture searched everywhere but couldn't find it. This is here.

The night was long, everything disappeared, Bai Yutang lay down with all his clothes on, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.Suddenly he heard light footsteps outside the door, he was instantly alert, propped up the bed with both hands, flitted to the door, and shouted in a low voice: "Who is it!?"

The voice was as light as a soft cloud, and it seemed to have drifted through his dreams many times. There was a little hesitation, but finally there was a trace of no hesitation: "It's me."

Bai Yutang clenched his five fingers tightly, he felt the blood flowing from his palm flowed through his whole body like flying, rushing freely, he couldn't hold back any longer.He took a deep breath, reached out and opened the door.

Under the faint moonlight, Yan Rusi's clothes were as heavy as water, and he stood quietly, his shallow figure reflected two pots of Tianzhu evening lotus under the eaves.

The Hanzi Pavilion does not need to be in full bloom, and it will be drunk all night with the breeze.

He gave a wry smile, and immediately understood the cause and effect, glanced at her, turned around and walked back into the house, lit the candle, with a hint of mockery in his voice, his eyes shimmering in the light of the newly lit candle.

"It must be that girl's trick again... You are a person with ideas, and now you listen to her in everything, and you will regret it in the future."

Yan Rusi walked into the room slowly, stopped in front of the table, faced Bai Yutang's back, and said quietly: "Actually, I begged her to lead me to see you... I have a few words in my heart, if you don't If you say it, I'm afraid you will regret it in the future."

Bai Yutang suddenly turned around and stared at her closely. After a while, the sharpness in his pupils disappeared, and he passed her body sadly, and cast it far away to the shadow outside the door: " Between you and me... Is there any unsaid words?" Is it?"

"Yes." Her voice was low and soft, but without any hesitation.

Bai Yutang's eyes returned to her face, blending with her eyes: "Say it."

Yan Rusi slowly looked away, raised his hand and took out something from his bosom, held it in his palm, and held it in front of Bai Yutang.She said in a low voice: "This bead ring was originally left to me by my mother. I lost one in Peng Lidian that year, and I can't find it again. I have thought about the rest of the bead ring, except for you. , I am afraid that there is no one to trust..."

In the slender hand, the bright pearl is shining, and the light of the candle is faint, reflecting Bai Yutang in a trance for a while, and he suddenly recalls the first time he saw him in the village that day, and the years are green.

"My father... is an official in Beijing..."

"It turned out to be a lady from an official family, no wonder she speaks in an official accent..."

When we meet again, the mountains and rivers are on the same journey, and the stars are shining together.

"Be careful... I just heard the howling of wolves, it's nearby..."

"It's okay, those few voices just now were originally pretended by me..."

Bai Yutang's heart suddenly felt sad, and he wanted to reach out to touch him, but he felt his fingers were cold and stiff, trembling slightly.

"Since this thing is so precious, you...why don't you take it with you?"

Yan Rusi forced a smile: "After the appointment tomorrow, I will belong to the Wang family. This bead ring is my most cherished thing. I never want to take it there. It must be properly arranged..."

She suddenly raised her head and looked into Bai Yutang's eyes: "The past and the past, I already owe you a lot, this is the last time to trouble you... Will you?"

Bai Yutang suddenly choked his throat and remained silent for a long time. Finally, he took the bead ring from her palm and held it tightly in his palm until the silver hook on the ring pierced deeply into his skin, oozing dark red blood beads.

Yan Rusi smiled in relief, his sleeves drooped weakly, as if a butterfly was falling from exhaustion: "Thank you..."

Taking advantage of the moment when he put the pearl ring into his arms, she bent down, bowed to Bai Yutang, then turned and left.

Once you say goodbye here, you will never look back.

As if waking up from a dream, Bai Yutang took a step after her and held her arm: "Wait a minute..."

This hand grip was like lightning, and the object in Yan Rusi's sleeve was caught by the force, and fell to the ground with a rustling sound. Bai Yutang frowned, let go of Yan Rusi, and leaned over to pick up the object, but it was a small silk bag , revealing a faint fragrance of agarwood.

Bai Yutang brought the sachet to his nose and sniffed it, his complexion gradually became serious, his eyes sank, and he looked straight at Yan Rusi like a thick cloud: "What is in this sachet?"

Seeing him picking up the silk sac, Yan Rusi was startled. At this moment, he had no choice but to avoid his gaze: "It's just some ordinary scattered flowers."

Bai Yutang shook his head slowly: "That year, I invited that old gentleman to treat your asthma. He once told you and me that you are most afraid of smelling madder with this symptom, and it is best to avoid it for life. You... But he still carries this bag of madder grass and aloes on his body, is it because he is afraid that he will die if he lives too long!"

There was deep anger in his voice, like a cold wave, rolling in his face.Yan Rusi was silent for a while, then sighed lightly.

Perhaps it was God's will, what he should know would eventually be known.

She whispered: "If it weren't for these madders, how could my asthma not heal for a long time?... How could my father and the Wang family's marriage, which was arranged early in the morning, be delayed for all these years?... Now, although it is no longer I can't hide it, but at least I've made it to the day I see you again..."

After a long whisper, he suddenly stopped.Bai Yutang's breath suddenly swept over her body.A deep force came from his arm, straight to the marrow, no longer irresistible, before Yan Rusi raised his eyes, he was already tightly embraced in his arms.She seemed to have been drained of all her strength, and she could no longer push or avoid it.

Etiquette, reservedness, and hesitation all disappeared instantly at this moment.This time, he couldn't let her go easily.On weekdays, all the wildness and arrogance disappeared from his expression, and he finally showed his sincerity and sincerity.With all my heart and mind, I only want to end my life with her as my companion.

"So, come with me!"

Yan Rusi's heart ached like a knife, but finally shook his head slowly: "My mother told me when she passed away that she was stubborn all her life and failed to fulfill her responsibilities as a wife. What she wishes for at the end of her life is that I can treat her well. My father is filial to his knees, and he lives up to his expectations in everything... My father is in the position of prime minister, and the most important thing is face. If I go with you, my father will be ridiculed by the court. can bear..."

She raised her head, her eyes filled with tears, lightly shattered like a lotus light: "The Wang family is also a high-ranking and powerful person, once this matter happens, they will never let it go... In the end, it will definitely hurt you..."

From the moment she first met him, he was as casual as the wind, as comfortable as the cloud, and as bright as the light.She would rather break away from him, and never want him to be dragged down because of her, and never be free again.

"Between you and me, the only thing is to wait for the next life..."

Bai Yutang could only feel a surge of grief and anger pouring out from the bottom of his heart: "The next life is too far away, I, Bai Yutang, only want this life!"

He let go of Yan Rusi with both hands, poured all the flowers and plants in the silk sac into his hands, held them tightly in his palms, let go, and the crumbs fell gently, staining both of them's lapels.The deep affection in the eyes, deep in the words, no longer allows her to argue: "I have nothing else to ask, as long as you live well in this world, no longer for others, but for yourself!"

Yan Rusi closed his eyes slightly, and when his eyelashes trembled slightly, tears were already falling down his cheeks.There seemed to be a ray of warmth injected into the usually empty heart, the bitterness was still there, but it was mixed with great satisfaction.

With his words, her life will not be wasted.

"So, come with me!" Bai Yutang stretched out his hand to hold her shoulder, very gentle and sincere, just waiting for her reply.

Finally, Yan Rusi raised his head again, and smiled faintly at Bai Yutang, like a lotus in the deep rain, cold and charming, with all the gentleness in his heart.

With slender hands, through the sleeves, slowly caressed his face.

The dark fragrance floats, the feeling is like silk, it seems real, it seems illusion, it is bitter, it is sweet, it is inseparable for a moment.

The eyes that were originally clear like stars suddenly trembled heavily, a flash of disbelief flashed, the brows tightened, and when he was about to struggle to return to the clear, he had already fallen into a hazy obsession.

The mind is far away from the clouds, turning a thousand times, it is difficult to stay, and it flies away, and it is more and more exhausted.

The moon is bright, there are tears in the pearl, and the love is silent.

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