Mr. Bai seems to have a secret

Suihan didn't know if Bai Muchen could accept this set of arguments, he just hoped that Bai Muchen would stop asking, although if he stood in Bai Muchen's position, he might not accept such arguments.

And Bai Muchen was very sensible and didn't continue this topic, but said to Sui Han: "Then do you know why I became like this?"

"Why, why?" This is undoubtedly what Sui Han wants to know the most. What has troubled him for many years is not only why Bai Muchen disappeared for no reason, but also how he lived his current life.

Suihan remembered that Bai Muchen disappeared on a certain day in the third year of high school. Something happened to his family that day, so he went back early, and when he came to school the next day, he could not see Bai Muchen. After more than two weeks, I found out that Bai Muchen had dropped out of school.But he didn't know why, and when he asked others, they said he didn't know.

Sui Han was really curious about why Bai Muchen left suddenly, how his mother died, and how he got to where he is today.

Bai Muchen looked at the unconcealable curiosity in Sui Han's eyes, the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, and he began to explain slowly: "It's actually quite simple to say, you can listen to it casually, don't take it to heart. In [-], my mother died of a heart attack. At that time, our family was very poor, and we spent almost all the money in the family just for the funeral. We had no money to go to school, and I had no intention of going to school, so I dropped out of school. .”

"Then your grandfather..."

"That is indeed my grandfather, but..." Bai Muchen thought for a while, and then continued after organizing his words, "My grandfather and his family can be called a wealthy family, and the company I work for now also belongs to the family. Under his estate. He has two children, one is my mother and the other is my uncle. When my mother was young, despite the opposition of my family, she stayed with my father. My grandfather looked down on my father, so he cut off mother and daughter from my mother. I don’t know if it’s a trick of fate or something else, but my uncle passed away when he was less than 40 years old, and he didn’t leave a son and a half daughter behind. My grandfather took me back home because he wanted to inherit the family property.”

Life is like a play.For Bai Muchen's experience, Sui Han can only give such an evaluation.Originally, he thought that his family was already worrying enough. He originally thought that Bai Muchen was happier than himself, but it turned out that everyone has their own difficulties, and superficial happiness may not be real happiness.

So Suihan was thinking, maybe God was punishing him for being naive and ignorant when he was young, so that Nian Guohua went bankrupt, and he lived the poor life that Bai Muchen once lived; or maybe God was punishing Nian Guohua for his wife Disloyalty made that woman Tang Jing resolutely leave after learning of the bankruptcy news.

Seeing that Sui Han frowned slightly, with a hint of bitterness and hatred, Bai Muchen boldly reached out and tapped his forehead gently, and said, "Why do you have such an expression? It's all in the past. it does not matter."

Sui Han hid back for a while, and sighed softly: "It's over, but... in retrospect, it should be quite uncomfortable."

"It's okay, at least I met you."

I don't know whether what Bai Muchen said is the truth or irony under such circumstances, Sui Han looked at Bai Muchen with a wry smile on his face: "It's not good if you met me, I'm just you One of the great disasters in my life."

"You are not my disaster." Bai Muchen gently raised his hand, put it on the back of Suihan's hand, and held his hand with a little force. "Meeting you is the luckiest thing in my life."

"You, you..." Sui Han vaguely felt that something was wrong, he glanced down at Bai Muchen's hand covering the back of his hand, gently pulled it back, and said to Bai Muchen, "You Don't say it like this, is it okay to be so gay? If you are like this, people will be misunderstood."

"I was originally gay."

"Oh, you're just..." Sui Han thought he was joking at first, but after careful consideration, he felt that Bai Muchen's words were not joking.Thinking back to Bai Muchen's attitude towards him before, and thinking about what Mr. Zhang said before, everything became clear.He looked at Bai Muchen in surprise, and his tone was full of confidence and suspicion, "Are you really gay?"

"It can be said to be yes, or it can be said to be no," Bai Muchen looked into Sui Han's eyes, as if he wanted to pour all his affection into Sui Han's heart through those bright eyes.When Sui Han forgot to escape, he held Sui Han's hand again, put it on his chest, and said to him in the most gentle tone, "I am gay because the person I like is male, but I am not completely gay. gay, because I only like you alone. Do you know? Actually, you are my first love. After so many years, I thought I could forget you, but it was not until we met that I realized that I have always liked you .”

Sui Han was even more shocked than Sui Han when he knew that Bai Muchen was gay and that the person he liked happened to be him.Bai Muchen likes him?How can it be?His conditions are not good, he has no money, no lust and bad temper, and he was a school bully before, so he doesn't know how Bai Muchen likes him.

But the other party's eyes are so earnest, and his tone is so gentle, Sui Han can feel the frequency of Bai Muchen's heartbeat through his palm, he doesn't feel that the other party is lying.

"But, but... I, I, I, I..." Sui Han stammered for a long time without saying anything, as if he had never been so nervous since he was a child, and even during the college entrance examination, his heartbeat was not as fast as it is now.Bai Muchen smiled at him, and Suihan's brain was stunned. He withdrew his hand in a panic, turned around and turned his back to Bai Muchen, "I, I'm a straight man."

"Did you know? Many people think they are heterosexual before they try to have sex with homosexuals," Bai Muchen slowly approached Suihan, and said gently, "Try with me, I will let you know, so It is also a very pleasant thing for a man to fall in love with a man."

Of course, Suihan knew that there were more bisexuals in the world, and he never had a real attitude towards homosexuality, but he never thought that such a thing would happen to him one day.Sui Han had only been in love with women in the past, not many, once in high school and twice in college, each time they broke up after only a few months of dating, and it was all brought up by the woman, even the reason is the same: I think Sui Han is not don't love yourself.

Suihan also really felt that he didn't love them, and when he was with them, he didn't even have the desire/desire to touch them, so when they were separated, they were separated. He didn't even have a woman he really loved.

Thinking about this question now, he seemed to have another answer in his mind.

He turned his head, was looking at Shang Bai Muchen's eager eyes, and avoided it in a panic, and asked, "I don't even know, what do you like about me?"

"Do I need a reason to like you? As long as it is you, your existence is the reason why I like you. Just like now, as soon as I see you, I can't help but want to touch you and hug you," he said Whispering softly in Sui Han's ear, as if telling intimate words to his lover, "Can I hug you?"

Suihan didn't know what happened, he nodded his head in a strange way, then shook his head hurriedly after a second, then stood up in a panic, rubbed the corners of his clothes with his hands restlessly, pretended to glance at the clock on the wall, and said to Bai Muchen: "Time It's getting late, I'm going back."

He walked to the door in a panic, and when he put his hand on the doorknob, he remembered that Bai Muchen's clothes were still on him, so he turned around again, wanting to take off his clothes and return them to Bai Muchen, and go back by himself.

Bai Muchen pressed his hand that was about to unbutton, and said: "I'm sorry, I was too impatient, but today's atmosphere is so good, and you are so close to me, I really can't control myself. The words came out of my mouth naturally, I'm sorry for scaring you."

Sui Han took a step back, and then picked up the buttons of his coat: "It's okay, the clothes... I'd better return them to you, and I'll just call them home later, so I won't freeze."

"You really don't need me to see you?"

"No need." Sui Han pushed his coat into Bai Muchen's arms, thanked him, and left without even looking at Bai Muchen.He didn't want to stay here for another second, and he always felt that something beyond his control might happen if he stayed for a while, so it was better to leave earlier.

When he walked to the door, he heard Bai Muchen say to him: "Suihan, I'm waiting for your reply, no matter what decision you make, I will respect you."

When Suihan returned home, he recalled the high school again, and what appeared in his mind was no longer the scene of Bai Muchen being bullied on campus, but instead, the eyes of Bai Muchen who always lingered on him in high school for some reason .When he was in high school, he didn't think much about it. He simply thought that maybe it was a kind of adoration among classmates, as if everyone always liked good-looking people or thought that people with good grades were very powerful.

So he never thought about love.

According to Bai Muchen, did he like himself in high school?

If it's high school...

Sui Han couldn't help but think of the time when he watched those gangsters bullying Bai Muchen but didn't make a move. He felt that if Bai Muchen liked him at that time, but he watched him being bullied and didn't make a move. Chen must be very sad.

Sui Han actually doesn't hate Bai Muchen, he didn't hate him before, and he doesn't hate him even more now, he even thinks he's pretty nice.But it's impossible for him to admit that he likes her. He doesn't think he is a person who is easily fooled by a few sweet words, let alone agree to be his lover because of those affectionate confessions.

So he tossed and turned and thought about today's events for a long time. All that appeared in his mind were Bai Muchen, the figure of the other party, what the other party said, and the memories of being with the other party. It was not until the early morning that he fell asleep in a daze.