I want to cover up the tide

Lu Qinan was thinking about Lin Yan all the time.

He wanted to be with Lin Yan, he wanted to have everything about him, not only his body, but also his heart, and he wanted Lin Yan to belong to him thoroughly.

I want to see how Lin Yan is intoxicated by the love I gave him, and I want to see Lin Yan's expression of confusion because of emotion.

Lin Yan was the first person he wanted to treat sincerely, to know and love each other. Before him, Lu Qinan never knew what love in this world was.

When Lin Yan was hospitalized a long time ago, he clearly wanted to do that kind of thing to him every day (Lu Qizhen said that he could do it, and it would not affect Lin Yan's physical recovery), but he was afraid that his enthusiasm would scare Lin Yan away. Over and over again, he restrained his desire to get him.

Because of respecting Lin Yan, he asked Lu Qizhen to remove all the surveillance devices in this ward and give him a completely quiet and normal ward.

He knew that he was obsessed with this man named Lin Yan, even though Lin Yan's temper was not very good, under the gentle surface, his heart was always as cold as an iceberg, and he calmly rejected others thousands of miles away outside.

At first, he silently hated Lin Yan's coldness in his heart, but then he found that the source of his inexplicable hatred was his care for Lin Yan.

He cared more and more about Lin Yan's every move. Lin Yan would be surprised when he frowned. Lu Qinan was a little happy to feel that his heart was on another person.

The way Lin Yan was jealous of him afterwards was still unforgettable to Lu Qinan when he recalled it, that coquettish look really made him unable to put it down.The sweet days of living together with him made Lu Qinan feel comfortable all over. Not only was his body satisfied, but the satisfaction in his heart was also the source of his spirit.

He had never loved anyone before, Lin Yan gave him such a strange desire to protect and possess, this strong feeling took root in Lu Qinan's heart, and the desire to completely possess Lin Yan became more and more intense.

This emotion eventually turned into an uncontrollable strong love, and because of loving him, my whole person changed, which surprised everyone around me.

It's not that Lu Qinan didn't notice the great changes in himself, he was happy and proud of his changes, and he liked the changes Lin Yan brought to him.

The misunderstanding this time may cause great harm to Lin Yan, Lu Qinan is also ready to make up for it, he believes that Lin Yan will forgive after hearing his explanation.

The first time he heard Lin Yan talk about Lu Xin, Lu Qinan re-examined his confidant. At that time, he thought that Lu Xin just didn't like Lin Yan. There was no special reason, but he just didn't like him. So he dismissed the idea of ​​letting Lu Xin take care of Lin Yan.

He was very glad that he didn't foolishly hand over Lin Yan to that person's care.

But if at that time I had been more mindful and had been able to observe Lu Xin for a while longer, perhaps this incident would not have happened.This negligence made Lu Qinan extremely regretful.

Lu Qinan knew very well what Zhang Qirui had in mind for Lin Yan, and he also knew very well that he must never let Zhang Qirui have another chance to attack Lin Yan.

But that person still persecuted Lin Yan, and hurt Lin Yan so badly through indirect means.This made Lu Qinan feel very guilty.

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Although I knew that Lin Yan's family was not very rich before, standing under such a dilapidated house, when the wind blows, the trees fluttering with the wind cast strangely shaped shadows on the ground. Can't help but panic.

If it wasn't for his foot injury, Lu Qinan would almost have the urge to kick open the door and pull up Lin Yan who was still sleeping and take him back to his villa, but when he thought of the extremely bad consequences such behavior might cause, Lu Qinan still had Abandoned plans to resolve the matter violently.

Just when he was worried about how to speak to Lin Yan to explain the situation of the past few days, the door of the room suddenly opened.

Lin Yan didn't see him at all, he just came out in a daze while rubbing his eyes, took the newspaper in the mailbox, and prepared to go back.He was a little fairer than before, and under his fair skin, red blood flowed slowly in the blue veins.

Lu Qinan never thought that a person's skin could be so transparent that he could almost see the blood flowing in the underground blood vessels through the skin.

Lin Yan already looked completely battered, a little thinner than before he left.

Before Zhang Ke said that Lin Yan had a good appetite during this period, and his appetite was stronger than before, but what happened to Lin Yan who looked like this now? !

Unable to bear it any longer, Lu Qinan quickly shook his wheelchair, the noise made Lin Yan turn his head and look at him.

That look was full of astonishment and astonishment, Lin Yan looked at Lu Qinan almost as if he were looking at a foreign creature, which made the latter a little unhappy.He grabbed Lin Yangang's hand that opened the door, and quickly pushed him into the room with the latter's eyes full of surprise and fear.

The pile of plastic bags of instant noodles in the garbage bag in the corner made Lu Qinan's heart wring.

Could it be that Lin Yan has been living on those junk food for a while?How exactly does he view his own health? !

Suppressing all the anger and heartache in his heart, Lu Qinan ordered the man behind him who couldn't help shaking, "Lin Yan, pack your things and go back with me."

Lu Qinan's words made Lin Yan tremble a bit, and then he returned to his previous calmness, expressionlessly rejected Lu Qinan's request: "No, I don't want to go with you. Please let me go."

Lu Qinan grabbed his hand in the past, unable to ask him calmly: "Let me go? I took you back because I want you to live a good life, instead of eating this junk food every day and doing such a hard job. Everything before It was a misunderstanding, you go back with me first, and I will explain to you carefully. I was let down by them..."

"No! I don't want to go back with you!"

Lin Yan yelled and shook off Lu Qinan's hand, who held him tightly, not letting go.Seeing that he was struggling, Lin Yan had no choice but to look at him bitterly: "Forgive me, I won't give you any more affection, don't force me anymore..."

The hand holding Lin Yan's arm tightened, Lu Qinan approached Lin Yan, staring at him with red bloodshot eyes because of being too tired, as if he wanted to poke two holes in his face before letting go .

Facing Lu Qinan's fierce gaze, Lin Yan was not afraid at all.Lin Yan, who bravely met Lu Qinan's gaze and his gaze, didn't know that the reason why he dared to contradict Lu Qinan so boldly was precisely because Lu Qinan couldn't let go of him.

Lu Qinan stared at Lin Yan fiercely, and his throat moved up and down several times. Lu Qinan seemed to have endured it for a long time, but finally he couldn't bear it anymore and gritted his teeth at Lin Yan: "Come back with me right away, don't eat any instant noodles. We'll talk about anything when we go back !"

The harsh words made Lin Yan tremble all over, Lu Qinan looked at the trembling man, feeling sore in his heart.

It's not that he didn't think that this would happen.Lin Yan saw himself and Lu Xin doing that kind of behavior, and after being heartbroken, he put away all his feelings for him, and at the same time closed the door of his heart that was open to him.

Seeing Lin Yan's severe fear and rejection, Lu Qinan didn't know how to explain to him what had happened in the past few days.

What Lin Yan thought in his heart was far from what Lu Qinan thought.

The scene of seeing Lu Qinan and Lu Xin making out in the villa before is still imprinted in Lin Yan's mind. Lu Qinan's words to tell him to get lost are still ringing in his ears. This fatal blow nearly knocked him down completely.

This is a kind of destruction, it is a complete trample on his masculine dignity, it is a torture that is more cruel and terrible than death.

Lin Yan didn't want to have anything to do with Lu Qinan anymore, all she could think about was how to reject this man, and never thought of going back with him.Although Lu Qinan kept saying that there was a misunderstanding about that incident, but what he saw and heard with his own eyes, where did the misunderstanding come from? !

He didn't want to have anything to do with him anymore, he just wanted to live a stable and stable life, and Lu Qinan's repeated pestering made Lin Yan even more resentful, and he almost had the urge to chase him away.Although Lu Qinan came over in a wheelchair, he was somewhat curious, but the despair in his heart made Lin Yan refuse to care about everything about him.

The hand was suddenly pulled hard, and the hot touch from the lips. Lin Yan recovered from the analysis of Zhang Qirui.

Looking up in puzzlement, Lu Qinan's eyes were full of anger that was about to erupt.

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Lin Yan had a lukewarm temperament since she was a child, and she was not interested in any personnel and affairs, and basically she would not lose her temper with anyone.Regarding Lu Qinan's violent rage again and again, Lin Yan was more curious than scared.

She tried a little bit of strength to push away the man who was suppressing her, but found that she had no extra strength at all.

Recently, he has been eating instant noodles, and the taste of meat has already faded away. Lin Yan's physical function is in a very poor state, and naturally he doesn't have Lu Qinandu who is very strong and physically fit.

"Hmm... Let go, let go! Lu Qinan!"

Lu Qinan bit Lin Yan's lip as if punishing him, he really bit down hard, the skin was torn and blood flowed, the mouths of both of them were filled with the smell of blood.

Lu Qinan withdrew from Lin Yan's mouth slightly, and frowned tightly against Lin Yan's forehead, as if muttering to himself or questioning Lin Yan: "What should I do?"

Lin Yan could hear the decline and helplessness in his tone, and the brain that was deprived of oxygen by the kiss was a little chaotic, and the thoughts that had been clamoring in his mind instantly blurted out: "Don't touch me!"

Lu Qinan was stunned for a moment, then understood, and quickly explained: "I was drugged by them, so I did those things in a daze, I'm sorry."

As Lu Qinan said, he suddenly remembered something, and immediately took out a ring from his pocket as if by magic - it was a ring he had ordered in a jewelry store not long ago, and he picked it up when he took a taxi and passed by.

Before Lin Yan could understand what Lu Qinan said before, he felt a chill on the ring finger of his left hand.

Looking down, there has been a ring that symbolizes marriage and the love of a lifetime.

Lin Yan's other hand was held by Lu Qinan, no matter how much he shook it, he couldn't break free.

Lin Yan looked at the strange ring in disbelief, and thought of the profound meaning contained in the ring on that finger, and immediately shouted angrily at the man in front of him: "Lu Qinan! What are you doing?! Give me Take it off, you take it off for me!"

As if he had expected this kind of reaction from Lin Yan, Lu Qinan calmly hugged Lin Yan, who was emotionally excited, and reached out to touch his soft black hair. The ferocity and anger just now did not appear on his face, replaced by It's full of pampering and love.

His characteristic magnetic baritone sounded above Lin Yan's head: "No, I will not take it away. You are mine, Lin Yan. Even if you die, this ring will still be worn on your finger. "

"..."

Lin Yan was so shocked that she didn't know what to say.

He hated Lu Qinan's self-righteousness and self-assertion. Taking advantage of Lu Qinan's inattention, Lin Yan did not give up and wanted to take the damn ring off his hand.

No matter how hard he tried to pull, pull, or push, the ring would just be obediently wrapped around his ring finger, motionless, as if it had been cursed.

"What kind of ring is this?! I don't want to wear it, you take it off! Lu Qinan, don't go too far, I'm not someone like you, I have my freedom, don't... don't treat me like this..."

Lin Yan's voice trembled as he spoke, as if the ring weighed a thousand catties, and he just wanted to escape from the bondage of the ring as soon as possible.This ring was like a symbol of humiliation. When Lu Qinan put it on with joy, Lin Yan felt that his last bit of freedom and dignity had been taken away by this ring.

More or less sensed that something was wrong with Lin Yan, Lu Qinan was inconvenient to move around in a wheelchair, so he just stroked his back and comforted him in an extremely gentle tone: "You have your freedom, the ring is just It's just a symbol, a symbol that you are mine."

Speaking of this, Lu Qinan suddenly paused, and looked up at Lin Yan, only to find that the man's eyes were filled with tears, his eyelashes were trembling uncontrollably, and the red eye circles fully expressed the owner's inner anxiety and fear .

Before Lin Yan was raped by him, he had never shown such an aggrieved expression. Seeing Lin Yan like this, Lu Qinan suddenly felt a pain in his heart.

He didn't care about the injury on his foot, so he stood up and hugged Lin Yan in his arms to comfort her: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, those things won't happen again. Let them pass the past. What? Lin Yan, I will treat you well, I promise."

Listening to Lu Qinan's confession that he thought was trustworthy enough, Lin Yan could only grit his teeth tightly to control his urge to hit him on the head with a bench.

He had never hated Lu Qinan so much as at this moment.

In the past, Lu Qinan was just domineering, but now he has intensified and started imposing all kinds of desires on himself, not only treating himself as a toy, but shortly after yelling to let himself go, he actually put on this inexplicable mask for himself. The ring, and saying that he belongs to him, this is simply unreasonable!

If he hadn't seen Lu Xin and Lu Qinan kissing passionately in the living room, Lin Yan felt that he might still have believed Lu Qinan's explanation.But what drugs can make people kiss and caress each other with someone who was not close at all before? !Lin Yan didn't believe Lu Qinan's explanation at all, and he couldn't imagine what kind of things would happen to him in the future.

Lin Yan is a person with strong psychological cleanliness. In his eyes, love and love are unified, and the ring finger of his left hand is reserved for the person he loves the most.

After Lu Qinan did that kind of thing, he came over as if he was okay and explained the previous things to him in a few words, and then self righteously forced him to wear the ring with an unjust name, which made Lin Yan feel that Lu Qinan's only remaining The few traces of goodwill dissipated in that instant.

Lu Qinan reached out to grab Lin Yan into his arms again, but he dodged it.He looked at Lin Yan with some puzzlement, and was about to ask him what he was dissatisfied with, but he saw Lin Yan suddenly turned around and strode towards the bathroom.

Lu Nan limped along and took a look, only to find that Lin Yan was wiping the ring finger of his right hand vigorously with a piece of soap.

If he hadn't figured out what Lin Yan wanted before, the moment he saw the soap in his hand, the naked man had completely understood what this person thought of him.

Trying to restrain his emotions, while Lu Qinan kept warning himself not to get angry with Lin Yan, he also couldn't help suppressing the sourness and depression in his heart.

He just wanted to use that method to confirm Lin Yan's identity. Why did Lin Yan interpret the ring as an insult to him?Lu Qinan couldn't figure it out.

Walking to the side of the person who was still rubbing his fingers desperately, Lu Qinan looked at the red fingers from his rubbing, his first reaction was not anger but distress.

He felt sorry for Lin Yan treating himself so roughly.

Pressing Lin Yan's hand with some distress, Lu Qinan said in a low voice: "Don't wipe it, it won't come out. I asked when I bought it. If you really want to take this ring off, go to their store and find them Only the store manager can pick it off."

Lin Yan raised his head and looked at him, the disbelief in his eyes made Lu Qinan feel a little unbearable.

"Sorry, I didn't mean it. If you mind, I'll take you to get the ring next time."

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"I didn't mean to, I just..."

"..."

Lin Yan didn't say anything, but just looked at Lu Qinan without any expression.

The two looked at each other for a long time, neither of them could figure out the real emotion in each other's heart. Finally, Lin Yan gave up the idea of ​​taking off the ring, washed off the soap bubbles left on his hands, and went back to his room , and continued to work on the translation of the manuscript he was due to hand in tomorrow with a blank face.

Looking at Lin Yan's tightly knit brows, Lu Qinan felt distressed and wanted to soothe him, but he also knew that if he touched him now, that person would definitely jump up and run away.He moved back and forth along Lin Yan's increasingly thin cheeks through the air with some sadness, as if he was stroking|stroking it - Lu Qinan never thought that he would have such a timid day.

After being silent for a long time, Lu Qinan suddenly remembered that it is already early morning, Lin Yan is still working at this time, is he working too hard? !

As for Lin Yan's violent reaction before, did he not believe his explanation at all?

Realizing that he still can't gain this person's trust until now, Lu Qinan felt a pain like a needle prick in his heart.

He had already explained everything. In order to let Lin Yan know the facts as quickly as possible, he chose the simplest language, but why didn't Lin Yan believe him?

If Lin Yan still had the slightest love for him, he wouldn't be so resolute at all, would he? !

This realization made Lu Qinan's whole body stiff, and his hands and feet became cold in an instant.He didn't dare to think that Lin Yan no longer had any love for him.

The air here is full of Lin Yan's smell, but the lovely man doesn't believe him at all, and doesn't listen to his explanation. The past that the two of them have is like a bubble at this moment, and Lu Qinan even doubts Lin Yan Did you really care about him.

When he saw Lu Xin's fake DVD before, he was also furious and couldn't believe Lin Yan, but he still retained a little reason and asked Zhang Ke to take care of him.

The reason why Zhang Ke came to take care of Lin Yan was that Zhang Ke was one of the most reliable friends around him, and Zhang Ke was Zhang Qirui's second elder brother, so he didn't know how high his status in the Zhang family was, but he couldn't say how low it was. He is also Zhang Qirui's elder brother, Zhang Qirui doesn't look at the face of the monk or the face of the Buddha, and he will give Zhang Ke some courtesy no matter what.

Although Zhang Ke doesn't have much influence in the Zhang family and has always acted like a fool, Lu Qinan knows Zhang Ke's ambition better than anyone else. Shi, was also within Lu Qinan's expectation.

Although letting Zhang Ke take care of Lin Yan would owe a huge favor, Lu Qinan didn't care too much. In order to protect Lin Yan's safety, he could only get in touch with Zhang Ke as soon as possible and let him take care of Lin Yan while making more arrangements around Lin Yan's house. Some people are needed to avoid the trouble of Zhang Qirui or Lu Xin coming to Lin Yan.

I also told Lu Zhi before that if Zhang Ke needs any help, just send the people in the villa to help him.

At that time, he also sent a safe mobile phone to Lin Yan in a timely manner, and talked to him in time.At that time, Lin Yan trusted him so much, and the two of them were so in love with each other, how could Lu Xin be allowed to do anything wrong?

But now, Lin Yan no longer trusts him, and doesn't even bother to listen to his explanation.

Feeling panicked and extremely uncomfortable, Lu Qinan knew that he could no longer stay in this place full of love, so he said to Lin Yan in a hoarse voice: "Don't try too hard, I'll just go." Then he limped He staggered back to the living room and sat back on the wheelchair. He glanced at Lin Yan's room again, suppressed the pain in his heart, and left there.