I want to cover up the tide

As soon as the voice finished speaking, the phone was hung up. Lin Yan stared at the phone in a daze for a long time before he realized what Lu Qinan said to him just now, and his face instantly turned red.

Zhang Ke was sitting not far from him. Although he couldn't hear what Lu Qinan said on the phone, just by seeing Lin Yan's reaction, he could guess that the person on the other end of the phone must have said something warm.

He watched Lin Yan hang up the phone shyly, with a happy smile on the corner of his mouth - his heart was suddenly filled with sourness, and his whole chest felt oppressed and painful, and he really wanted to find someone to take care of everything. All these anguish are vented out.

Lin Yan was still immersed in Lu Qinan's warm confession, and did not notice the strange look on Zhang Ke's face.

Although Lu Qinan would say things like "I like you" and "I like you very much" in the past, but I have always regarded those words as his random words. Presumably, when he was with those bed partners before, he would say a lot. More or less like that.

But when Lu Qinan said that just now, Lin Yan only felt that his heart was beating so hard and his face was about to turn red, his whole body was shocked by those words.What followed was an unspeakable ecstasy, because Lu Qinan really said "I love you".

The unprecedented sweetness made Lin Yan's excited mood unable to calm down for a long time.

After an unknown period of time, until he was no longer short of breath and his face was no longer red, he suddenly remembered that Zhang Ke was still in the room!

"Ah... just now, that... ah..."

"Are you hungry? I'll make you some breakfast." Zhang Ke didn't want to hear what he said on the phone in detail, so she took the initiative to move the topic away.

"It's, it's okay, don't bother, I'll do it later."

As Lin Yan said, he was about to get up and get out of bed to take a shower. When Zhang Ke saw his slender and straight legs sticking out from under the quilt, his lower abdomen felt hot again. Any inch of skin on Lin Yan's body could make him feel that urge , which made Zhang Ke feel very inexplicable.

Lin Yan lifted the quilt, only to realize that he was only wearing close-fitting underwear, and no other clothes were on his body - without even thinking about it, he knew that Zhang Ke helped him take it off.

Suddenly remembering that he had undressed in front of this person before, Lin Yan couldn't help but feel a little emotional when he thought of those things when he was still in the hospital.

At that time, Lu Qinan was so angry that he thought that after the man raped him again, he finally got tired of playing and didn't want to continue, so he left himself in the hospital alone.

When he woke up and didn't see him, Lin Yan just felt abandoned and bored.

At that time, he didn't realize where those doubts came from, but he just felt that he was seriously hurt, and wanted to let others do whatever he wanted.

The little warmth that was created before was completely destroyed by the cruel facts, and nothing remained, as if all the good things he had done to him were just a dream, and when he woke up, there was nothing, and there was still only Lin Yan alone in this world, Only myself.

Lu Qinan just treats himself as a toy, and when he gets tired of playing with it, he gives it to his friends for everyone to share, even worse than a male prostitute!

Lin Yan still remembers his despair at that time, and even had the plan to force him to die and leave there resolutely.He doesn't want to be threatened or forced anymore, he also has his self-esteem and anger, he is not a soft persimmon that can be bullied by Lu Qinan.

That day in the ward, he stripped himself naked in front of Zhang Ke. Firstly, he wanted to test what kind of thoughts this friend Lu Qinan had, and secondly, he wanted to know whether Lu Qinan really liked him; Well, I'm really ready to be raped by this person.

Zhang Qirui once said that Lu Qinan had a strong obsession with cleanliness, Lin Yan remembered this very clearly.If he was raped by his friend, even if Lu Qinan still had a little interest in him, he would give up completely because he had already been touched by someone else, right?

If being raped by that person named Zhang Ke can be exchanged for future freedom, Lin Yan thinks it is worth it.

He doesn't want to continue to entangle with Lu Qinan like that, there is nothing more sad than heartbreak, anyway, Lu Qinan has no feelings for him, this body has already been fucked by him, it doesn't matter if he is touched by others, as long as he can get rid of them .

Whether it's Lu Qinan or his friends, just do whatever they like, and let them go when they're done.

If Lu Qinan still doesn't let go, Lin Yan has already made plans to put a knife on his neck and threaten them, begging them to let him go.If they still have the slightest sympathy for human life, they should still let themselves go - this was Lin Yan's only thought at that time.

He really didn't expect that Lu Qinan would really abandon the woman beside him (at first he thought they had JQ) and come to him, and even condescended to go to the kitchen to make soup several times, and he didn't get angry when he maliciously spilled it .He also didn't expect that Zhang Ke would do nothing, just cover him with the quilt, sit quietly by the bed and wait for Lu Qinan's return.

Lu Qinan quickly came back and appeared in the ward with a worried expression on his face.His cautious attitude and tone full of care and pity made Lin Yan's previous anger dissipate in an instant.When did Zhang Ke leave, he didn't realize at all, only Lu Qinan's anxious and gentle face remained in his mind.

Looking suspiciously at all of Lu Qinan's actions, after confirming that this person's heart is really what he said, and now it's completely on him, Lin Yan smiled where Lu Qinan couldn't see.

From then on, he no longer had any fear of Lu Qinan.

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Accompanied by Zhang Ke, Lin Yan went back to her parents' home.

Lin Yan has never been home since the last time when she hurriedly went to the condo she rented to put away the things she didn't need.Even though he lives in T City, he hasn't been home for several months, which makes Lin Yan a little helpless.Now that he was asked to come back to live, he was a little reluctant - he couldn't do without Lu Qinan anymore.

The key was in the previous apartment, and now there was no way to go back to get it for a while, so Lin Yan had to ask someone to come and pick the lock, and then changed another lock before entering his house with peace of mind.

A house that has not been lived in for a long time has an old smell and lacks popularity.Zhang Ke called someone to help Lin Yan clean the house together, and then took him to a nearby supermarket to buy enough food for him for ten days.

When passing by the shopping mall, Zhang Ke originally wanted to buy some underwear for Lin Yan, but Lin Yan refused with a smile: "That's my home, all my clothes are there, so you don't need to buy any more."

Zhang Ke immediately felt embarrassed, and answered dumbly: "That's right, look at my memory."

"I've troubled you for the past two days. I ran out to pick me up in the middle of the night last night, and now I'm taking me to buy food. Thank you."

"You're welcome. I'm Qinan's friend. If you want, we can be friends too. Don't take it to heart if you do me a favor among friends."

"Well, thank you anyway."

Speaking of which, Lin Yan smiled at Zhang Ke. The smile was not deliberate and flamboyant, but it looked so gorgeous that people couldn't take their eyes off it.

Zhang Ke didn't dare to have unreasonable thoughts about Lin Yan anymore, but he really wanted to treat this person well.

Even if he is Lu Qinan's lover, as a friend, it's not too much to buy something for Lin Yan, right?

But he just didn't take into account that he was living in his own home, and he didn't lack anything except food—he felt ashamed of his lack of concern.Thinking that the only person Lin Yan might lack was Lu Qinan, which he couldn't do no matter what, Zhang Ke's mood fell to the bottom all of a sudden.

With Lu Qinan's phone call, which was more reassuring than a pill, Lin Yan stayed at home without any worries, and the translation work was not interrupted-he did not forget that his parents were still receiving treatment abroad and needed a lot of medical treatment. medical expenses.

After Zhang Ke received the news that Lu Qinan had asked him to take care of Lin Yan, he never received his call again. Knowing that the man should have thoroughly investigated and was busy dealing with those thorny issues, he did not. If you bother him again, An An will be Lin Yan's flower protector with peace of mind.

He would come over to Lin Yan's house when he was free, and occasionally bring him something delicious.

Usually, he would sit quietly in the living room and read the books recommended by Lin Yan, while Lin Yan himself would sit on the carpet next to the coffee table, flipping through a large dictionary and doing complicated translation work.

This kind of tranquility gave Zhang Ke the urge to cry.

He yearned for such a life.

There is a lover, he does not need to be beautiful, as long as he likes it; the two of them sit quietly in the living room reading, listening to music, drinking coffee, and in the evening on a sunny day, they can go to the balcony to bask in the sun; Lying on the big chair together with him, just looking at the blue sky and white clouds, you will feel that the world is so beautiful...

But he never met such a person.

Lin Yan was the first person who gave him the urge to spend his whole life with this person, but he already belonged to Lu Qinan—whether it was his body or his heart, Lin Yan's whole body had been engraved with Lu Qinan's identity from the inside out. Mark, no one can change this.

Zhang Ke looked at Lin Yan's work masochistically, seeing his side face and long eyelashes leaving mottled shadows under his eyes, making people want to lean over and kiss his eyelids.

The green tea in the cup had already gone cold, but he didn't notice it at all.