I want to cover up the tide

Lin Yan saw Lu Qinan staring at him in a daze, with a smile uglier than crying, and felt a little uncomfortable, although he himself couldn't explain why he felt that heart-wrenching feeling - his heart seemed to be grabbed by a hand I stopped, pinched in the palm of my hand, like being rubbed back and forth, it hurts like hell.

He reached out to touch Lu Qinan's somewhat cold face, smoothed his frowning brows, and imitated what Lu Qinan did to him before, holding his face, imprinting his own on those tightly pursed lips, thinking To use this to comfort that Lu Qinan who showed a sad expression.

It was only then that Lu Qinan realized that he had lost his composure just now, and quickly got up from Lin Yan - the little bit of desire before had already dissipated.

"Have you had enough oranges? Come and rinse your mouth, and I'll take you for a walk in the garden later."

Said that Lu Qinan handed Lin Yan the warm water for gargling, and Lin Yan obediently did so.After Lu Qinan took the mouthwash spit out by Lin Yan and went to the bathroom to empty it, he didn't take his eyes off Lin Yan during this period, for fear that he would stumble somewhere again.

On the first day Lin Yan returned to the villa, he knocked his knee black and blue on the coffee table. At that time, the pain made him burst into tears, and the big guys in the Lu family villa thought he was extremely pitiful.

After Lu Qinan rinsed the cup and came out, he saw Lin Yan taking off his socks, and hurried to him to stop him from taking off: "Don't take off the socks!"

"But it's so itchy, itchy...itchy!"

As Lin Yan said, he was about to break open Lu Qinan's hand to take off his socks. Hearing that it was itchy, Lu Qinan quickly took off his foreign capital and carefully checked Lin Yan's feet. He found a red bump on the instep, which looked like Was bitten by some kind of bug.

Pressing lightly on the small bump with his finger, Lu Qinan raised his head and asked Lin Yan: "Is it itchy here?"

"Hmm, it's so itchy! Scratch it, scratch it for me... Woo, itchy..."

Lin Yan almost cried when he said that, Lu Qinan couldn't bear him to feel uncomfortable, so he quickly found a green ointment and applied it on him, and blew on him for a long time, making sure that Lin Yan no longer felt itchy before helping him put on socks.

"My feet are cold after such a fuss, remember to wear socks in the future, you know?"

"understood."

"It's better to be this good in the future."

As Lu Qinan said, he scraped Lin Yan's bridge of nose, and asked Lin Yan to stand up to add clothes. Although the villa is considered warm in winter and cool in summer, even in the garden, Lin Yan is not easy to catch cold, but Lu Qinan is still worried that he is wearing too thin , it will be bad if you catch a cold.

Lin Yan's mental aspect was almost driven to collapse by him, because of his evasion and cowardice, Lin Yan was driven unconscious by him.And his physical condition has always been bad. Ever since the two of them had a relationship for the first time, Lin Yan has been in a thin and weak situation. Thinking of this, Lu Qinan's heart sank again.

Seeing him holding the clothes in a daze, Lin Yan felt a little worried, so he stretched out his hand and gently pushed him: "Lu Qinan?"

"I'm here. What's the matter? Don't want to go?"

Lin Yan watched Lu Qinan take out his coat from the closet, knowing that he was going to take him to the garden, but he was still a little depressed, and asked Lu Qinan in front of him with some uncertainty: "Are you unhappy? If you're not happy... we, we don't go."

With an innocent face, Lin Yan asked Lu Qinan cautiously, as if he was afraid that Lu Qinan would cry if asked.Seeing his worried and frightened look, Lu Qinan hugged Lin Yan tightly in his heart.

"Why? I'm not unhappy, as long as you get better soon, I will..."

Lu Qinan wanted to say that as long as Lin Yan got well soon, he would have no regrets, but looking at Lin Yan's innocent and ignorant eyes, he couldn't say what was on his lips for some reason.

He didn't say anything more, he just put on a thick coat for Lin Yan, and after making sure that he wouldn't catch a cold, he took his hand and went downstairs to the garden.

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"Xiaoyan, is it cold? Are you wearing warm enough clothes?"

"Well, it's very warm! Are you going to see flowers today?" Lin Yan had an innocent face, Suo Ran was almost 30 years old, but his innocent face looked like a five or six-year-old child.

Lu Qinan was not at ease, and helped Lin Yan adjust his collar - even though he had already wrapped a scarf around him before he came out, and the buttons of the thick cashmere coat were all buttoned up, but Lu Qinan was still worried, it was like this every time , have to be checked again - this kind of obsessive-compulsive disorder occurred frequently after he took Lin Yan home to take care of him, and it has not been interrupted.

At the beginning, Lu Zhi couldn't stand it, and advised him not to be too nervous, but Lu Qinan insisted on making sure that Lin Yan was safe.

"Don't you want to go to the garden to see the flowers? Or do you want to see something else?"

"No... Next time, can we... go to another place?" Lin Yan said timidly, fearing that her request would be too unreasonable and Lu Qinan would reject her.

"Well, what do you want to cut, tell me in advance next time, I'll show you after I prepare, okay?"

Lu Qinan coaxed Lin Yan like a child, afraid that he would burst into tears in the next second because of disappointment - Lin Yan was crying terribly now, he couldn't stop, scarier than a baby.

"Okay..." Lin Yan's voice was a little lower, and Lu Qinan felt that he might be disappointed.

"Xiao Yan, are you unhappy?"

"No, no! I'm happy wherever you take me, really!"

"Okay, you are the best. Let's go."

"Ok!"

"Hey, put your hands in your pockets."

"Can I put it in your pocket?"

"...OK. Come on."

Lu Qinan shot at Lin Yanyan, and the latter happily put his hands in his palms, and put them together in the pockets of Lu Qinan's coat. The warmth went straight to the hearts of the two of them, and even the air they inhaled became warm.

Recently, the first thing Lu Qinan does when he wakes up every day is to look at Lin Yan who is lying in his arms, bend down to kiss him, wake him up with a good morning kiss, and then wash and dress with him, and then accompany him He went out for a walk, and then came back to eat the nutritious breakfast that Lu Zhi specially ordered people to sit down.

After breakfast, Lin Yan will be taught to read and speak, and then there will be lunch.After lunch, Lin Yan likes to listen to him tell stories, sometimes he also likes to play games, and takes a nap when he is tired.

After waking up, there was nothing to do, but his energy was extremely strong, which always made Lu Qinan flustered. Fortunately, he was more adaptable to hunger. Now, he was able to skillfully dress Lin Yan and wash his hands.The masseur that Zhang Ke mentioned last time would come to the villa to give Lin Yan a massage every other day to promote blood circulation and metabolism so that his body can recover quickly.

The days are going on in an orderly manner like this, although after Lin Yan's sanity returns to normal, he will remember the past, and the damage caused by the previous misunderstandings will come back, but no matter what, the most important thing is now.

Taking good care of Lin Yan is the biggest focus of Lu Qinan's life.

From now on, he wants to make that Lin Yan named Lin Yan happy and happy every day.It doesn't matter if he is crazy or stupid, even if his intelligence stays at the level of five or six years old, it doesn't matter, as long as he can eat, sleep and laugh, that is already the best.

Although Lin Yan's performance during this period was not bad, but for Lu Qinan who had never taken care of others, this kind of physical work of taking care of others was obviously much more tiring than all kinds of mental work in the company. When he came down, he had lost a lot of weight.

Lu Zhi persuaded him more than once to rest a little more, and that Lin Yan should be taken care of by him and the other servants at home, but Lu Qinan didn't listen to the advice at all, basically spending 24 hours a day with Lin Yan, the rest of the time Also just go to the bathroom.

Lin Yan doesn't even know how to take a bath by himself now, although it was a good job for Lu Qinan to take a bath with Lin Yan, but now it seems that this good job has a bit of "pain and happiness".

The garden is full of roses and Chinese roses, because Lu Qinan loves these two kinds of flowers, and the climate here is particularly good, so he can see all kinds of roses in his villa all year round.

Although it was not the first time for Lin Yan to enter the garden, it was the first time to see so many flowers up close.

The whole garden is like a sea of ​​red, the chime fragrance of roses floats in the air, and the whole garden is filled with a strange smell.

Lin Yan's nose sucked and then sucked again, Lu Qinan thought his nose was not used to so much pollen, so he hurriedly asked, "What's wrong? Nose discomfort?"

"No, no...it's a strange smell, do you smell it?"

"What smell? The smell of flowers? If you don't like it, let's go back to the room."

As Lu Qinan said, he was about to lead Lin Yan back, the latter shook his head at him, then turned his head to look around, stood on tiptoes and whispered something in Lu Qinan's ear, Lu Qinan immediately petrified.

"Xiao Yan, you are..."

"Ha, I just said it was shocking, forget it, just pretend I didn't say it."

As Lin Yan said that, he was about to let go of Lu Qinan's hand and walk forward. Lu Qinan grabbed him, pulled Lin Yan hard, and obediently returned to his embrace.

The handsome Lin Yan held the skinny one in his arms, and his extremely gentle voice sounded in Lin Yan's ear: "Is it really that kind of smell? Do you want it?"

"No way! I don't have one!!!"

Lin Yan hastily denied it, but Lu Qinan's smile deepened.He didn't say anything else, just walked with Lin Yan for a while in this posture, and after about half an hour, he was sure that Lin Yan's body had been exercised, and he took him back to the living room.

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When the two returned to the living room, Lu Zhi had already prepared dinner.

When Lin Yan saw a table of delicious food, he couldn't wait to grab it and eat it. Lu Qinan finally dragged him to wash his hands.

After coming out, Lin Yan said to Lu Zhi excitedly: "Butler Lu, you have worked hard!"

"Master Lin is too serious, I dare not take it seriously."

"Dare to be brave. You are amazing!"

"Oh? How can you see it?"

"You ask people to cook different dishes every time, and they taste delicious every time, so I think you must have arranged it carefully, and it must be very hard, right? I used to feel very tired when I was cooking for Lu Qinan , I don’t want to do it at all.”

As he said that, he glanced at Lu Qinan and found that the other person's eyes were filled with astonishment, then quickly added: "Actually, it's not that annoying, it's just a little annoying."

When Lu Qinan heard his words, his face turned from white to green. Lu Zhi who was standing next to him thought that Lu Qinan was about to lose his temper. The latter asked Lin Yan in a trembling voice: "Xiao Yan...do you remember?"

"What do you want? Oh, I'm so hungry, dinner is ready. Let's have dinner with Butler Lu! This soup looks delicious!"

After Lin Yan finished speaking, he ignored Lu Qinan, and directly filled a bowl of soup for Lu Zhi, then filled another bowl for Lu Qinan, and finally made it for himself.After he finished a bowl of soup contentedly, he realized that Lu Qinan was staring at him seriously.

Feeling hairy from that look, Lin Yan stretched out his hand uncomfortably and shook it in front of Lu Qinan's eyes, then said to him: "Hurry up and eat, aren't you hungry?"

"Xiao Yan, you remember, don't you?"

"what are you saying?"

"Are you playing dumb?"

"Lu Qinan?"

"Lin Yan."

"I've eaten."

The two confronted each other like this for a while, and in the end Lu Qinan couldn't hold him back, so he had to eat first, and wait until Lin Yan was full.

After Lin Yan was full, he ignored Lu Qinan and went to the living room to watch TV for a while.

Lu Qinan sat over, and Lin Yan moved aside, as if to be angry with him.

Lu Qinan didn't know if he understood it or not. When the TV screen switched to news from the Middle East, Lin Yan threw a pillow towards the TV, and then ran over to pick it up by himself. When the explosion screen appeared on the TV again, He threw the pillow over again, and repeated this a dozen times, he was finally tired, leaning on the sofa a little drowsy.

Lu Qinan walked over helplessly and told him to get up and take a bath, Lin Yan lay lazily on the sofa and refused to get up, so the tall man had no choice but to hug him into the bathroom.

After making sure that the temperature in the bathroom was not lower than 25 degrees, Lu Qinan reached out to undress Lin Yan.

Thanks to Lu Zhi's thoughtfulness and meticulousness, Lu Qinan has enjoyed the benefits of this bathroom so many times, and now Lin Yan's clothes are all button or zipper style, which can be easily taken off, which makes Lu Qinan very satisfied.

Bathing Lin Yan may be the last thing Lu Qinan wants to do now, because Lin Yan likes to take a bath with him very much.

In fact, taking a bath is not a big problem, the main reason is that Lin Yan is different from before, no longer the shy blushing person, but a devil with countless little tricks that make people nosebleed unintentionally!

The bathtub is big enough, and it is very comfortable to lie in. If you ignore the reaction of a certain part, Lu Qinan actually enjoys the process of bathing with Lin Yan very much - Lin Yan's skin is very smooth, especially when soaking in the water, which makes people feel more comfortable. He couldn't put it down.

However, Lu Qinan is a man with normal development after all, and he is also a normal young man who has been abstinent for quite a long time!

Sitting in such an emotional bath with his sweetheart, it is easy to think of some pink things in his mind - what's more, at the beginning of the establishment of this bath, he has already thought about how to deeply "love" in it. "Lin Yan, again and again, until Lin Yan lost all strength...

Now, the man who was still sulking with him on the sofa before has completely changed his appearance.

In the bathtub sprinkled with rose petals, he had a great time playing with the water. Many petals had already been laid on the surrounding floor tiles. Lu Qinan looked at Lin Yan with an excited face, and suddenly thought, "The energy of a child is really great." Infinity" emotion.

It's nothing more than Lin Yan having fun playing in the water. The most terrible thing is that he always rubs against some of Lu Qinan's most sensitive parts, moves up and down from time to time, and asks desperately: "That's strange. , why are you so hard there?"

When Lu Qinan heard what he said, he immediately wanted to find a hole in the ground to get in, but there was no room for him to drill in this huge bathing pool.All he could do was blushing and explaining to the innocent man in front of him: "Because it has grown up."

"Huh?! Are you sure?! It's so hot! Don't you really have a fever?! It's so hot..."

Lin Yan quickly slipped away from Lu Qinan's arms as she said that, trying to run to the opposite side of the bathing pool.Lu Qinan was originally lustful, but when he saw the rose petals sticking to Lin Yan's fair and smooth body, the part of his lower body that reacted suddenly became harder and hotter than before...

Lin Yan didn't move after walking a few steps, Lu Qinan was curious about what he was going to say that made him feel like thunder, Lin Yan suddenly turned his head and said to him: "I'm so tired, I can't walk anymore, come and hug me go back……"

The fiery demon just now had disappeared, and the lovely and pitiful Lin Yan in front of him made Lu Qinan unable to express any temper.

He had no choice but to obediently walk towards Lin Yan who was standing in the middle of the bath, just as he was about to stretch out his hand to pull someone, Lin Yan couldn't wait to throw himself into his arms, the strength was so great that Lu Qinan almost slipped in the pool—— At this time, Lu Qinan suddenly sighed, thanks to the fact that he had done some exercise before, otherwise if he threw him like this and fell into the pool, wouldn't he be laughed at by Lin Yan for the rest of his life? !

"Wooooow, take a shower, take a shower, I don't want to soak anymore, I'm sleepy."

The coquettish man lost the aura he had at dinner, and he didn't look like he had regained his sanity.Lu Qinan took a little effort (it was difficult to hug in the water) to hug Lin Yan, and walked to the small pool next door specially used for bathing.

Lin Yan sat obediently between Lu Qinan's legs, but he didn't move so much, but the thing between Lu Qinan's legs was still unbelievably hard.

Lu Qinan comforted himself that the heat between his legs could be completely ignored by him, he took the bath ball and concentrated on wiping Lin Yan's back. There was only the sound of dripping water in the bathroom, which somehow made Lu Qinan feel a bit sour.

Lin Yan is crazy and stupid, is he happier than before?Then what was the good that I thought I had done to him during the previous period?

He always looked calm and calm, as if everything had nothing to do with him, without any sorrow or joy.It was as if he was outside this world, and everything that happened outside had nothing to do with him.

When he was working, he desperately translated one academic paper after another. Lu Qinan dared to bet that Lin Yan's knowledge of chemistry and physics would not be one centimeter worse than that of any university professor in China!

However, even so, Lin Yan would never talk to him about work.When he was in the hospital before, he felt sorry for Lin Yan. He always felt that it was too hard to translate things in front of the computer. He hoped that he could take care of his eyes and take a proper rest.But when the man woke up, he ignored his words and never listened to him, which made him extremely helpless.

After living together, Lin Yan still didn't have much temper.

It seems that there is nothing in this world that can make him angry or happy. He doesn't smile or be sad, and always looks expressionless.Occasionally, when she is in love, she will show a more real expression. The blushing Lin Yan leaning against her arms is much more vivid than the expressionless Lin Yan who is sitting opposite her eating.

Not because of love, but a feeling of love.

When holding him in his arms, Lu Qinan could feel him in his arms, and he had himself in his heart.

When he released his physical strength, it was a feeling of blending with each other's lives, and he was always moved by it.If Lin Yan is a woman, then I must let him give birth to a child, and I want to see what kind of offspring will be born after the two people combine.

But Lin Yan is not a woman, he is a man, a real man, there is no way to change it.

Lu Qinan never treated him as a woman, he only liked Lin Yan because he was Lin Yan, it had nothing to do with gender, social status, or background.

Just because it is him, just because I love him.

But this person, because of his love and love for him, became what he is now, which made Lu Qinan feel very guilty.He knew that everything was useless, and it was unknown whether Lin Yan could return to normal when he became like this. He felt ashamed of him and felt distressed at the same time—a good university teacher was tortured by himself to become what he is now .

Whenever Lu Qinan thinks of these things, he feels like there are thousands of knives cutting and cutting in his heart, like Ling Chi in ancient times, making him unable to die or survive.

The thing between the legs had gone down unknowingly, Lu Qinan came back to his senses and found that Lin Yan was leaning against his shoulder in a drowsy manner again, he couldn't help smiling - Lin Yan likes to sleep very much now, tired of playing Go to sleep when you wake up, and continue to play when you wake up, which is completely the style of a child.

He never knew that it was so difficult to take care of someone, and he never thought that Lin Yan could be so beautiful when he smiled.

In the past, it was only occasionally that Lin Yan smiled at her. Recently, Lin Yan smiled more times in a day than in the past three or four months combined.

Lu Qinan planted his own kiss on Lin Yan's forehead, his eyes were sore - after this man went crazy, he seemed to be much happier than before.