Drowning Reborn

Jiang Zechen had the most enviable youth, but also had an extremely hard youth. As for middle age and old age?Sorry, he hasn't experienced it yet, and he probably won't have the chance to experience it.

What should a dying person—or rather an untimely death—should feel like?Fear of dying?Unwilling to be about to pass away?For all kinds of nostalgia in the world?Resentment about unfulfilled wishes?Or is it resentment towards the person who caused his death?

Jiang Zechen didn't feel anything, just lay quietly, listening to the gentle and monotonous "Didi" sound from the heartbeat monitor.If I had to squeeze out a little feeling, it would probably be... a feeling of relief, right?

——It's like being tired for too long, and finally having time to lie on a soft big bed to relax and feel at ease.

It's ridiculous to have such a feeling in a young man in his 20s. Even Jiang Zechen didn't think he would have such a feeling, but it existed clearly, so he didn't even have a chance to deceive himself.

——In other words, when it’s all over, why does he still deceive himself?I have been masturbating myself for so long, and I have done so many things that I don’t want to do, whether it’s because of the secondary illness in the rebellious period, the refusal to admit defeat because I couldn’t swallow that breath, or because of my mother’s coercion, anger, begging or tears... …

Jiang Zechen's life was undoubtedly a life of failure. He failed so much that when he suddenly looked back, he didn't know where he made a mistake—maybe, when he took the first step, he made a big mistake.

The door of the ward was quietly opened, and a man in a suit and leather shoes walked in cautiously. His gaze under the lens was calm, his hair was not messed up, and his every move was so elegant and graceful, as if the place he was at this moment was not at all. Own mortally wounded dying brother's ward, but an upper-class business dinner.

Silently watching his brother sit down on the chair beside the hospital bed, Jiang Zechen did not expect that he would be the last person he saw—but it seemed to be a matter of course.

——No matter when, the person who comes to him is always his elder brother. He helps him again and again and solves all kinds of troubles for him, even if what he does can make his father jump in anger and make his father feel angry. The mother was so angry that she had no grace, and she always stood firmly in front of him, defending him.

Everyone knows that Jiang Zehan seems to have endless pampering and patience with his younger brother Jiang Zechen. He is the most perfect brother—however, the more perfect something is, the more likely it is a poor forgery.

The father of the Jiang family brothers focused on overseas careers very early on, and basically would not return to China once in a few years, and the woman who finally got the title of Mrs. Jiang after racking her brains naturally also followed the past to prevent any influence that could shake her status. people appear.Jiang Zechen grew up with his elder brother Jiang Zehan who was five years older than himself. Jiang Zehan gave him everything he wanted, let him live a perfect boyhood that everyone envied, and then raised him into a four-body The second-generation ancestor who worked hard and did not distinguish between grains and only knew how to enjoy himself.

——When a child who has no cognitive ability to this world is so doted on by the only person he is closest to and trusts, there are probably very few who can grow into talents in the end, right?It's a pity that Jiang Zechen is not one of the lucky ones.

Jiang's father died suddenly. The woman who always thought that as long as she tied her husband, she could have everything in the Jiang family finally realized that she was short-sighted. Unfortunately, when she realized it, Jiang Zehan had already inherited his father's business as a matter of course. Give your stepmother and younger brother who is still ignorant a chance.

Mrs. Jiang is naturally not reconciled. She thinks that she still has a chance to turn things around, because she still has a son who is of the Jiang family lineage. Unfortunately, she found that this son who was often neglected by her and neglected to discipline her Being spoiled by that elder brother into a dou who can't be supported.

For the only chance, even if it is a pool of mud that cannot be pasted on the wall, it is necessary to forcibly mold a blank that can still be seen.Everyone has desires, even the ineffective second generation ancestors, they all hope that they can succeed, that they will one day be looked up to by others.Mrs. Jiang broke up Jiang Zehan's insidious thoughts, crushed them, and instilled them into her son's head. Finally, she succeeded in arousing his dissatisfaction with her brother by taking advantage of her son's rebellious middle school illness and the contemptuous gossip of the people around him. .

However, it is conceivable that a younger brother who has a low starting point and a poor foundation and is notorious to everyone in the circle, how can he compare with the elder brother who has always been considered the most promising of the younger generation?What makes Jiang Zechen hate and helpless the most is that no matter what he does, his elder brother still has the face of a doting brother, indulges him, pampers him, cleans up the mess behind his buttocks, but remains calm They forced him to be helpless, and he even got the reputation of being a white-eyed wolf and ungrateful.

Gradually, even Jiang Zechen, a dude who has no brains, can see that he and Jiang Zehan are definitely not on the same level. If he wants to fight Jiang Zehan, he has no chance of winning even if he is stuffed back into his mother's womb.

——Even, even Jiang Zechen couldn't figure out whether his elder brother really doted on him, or just like his mother said, in order not to be criticized by others, he always held the idea of ​​drowning himself with doting, except Get rid of this trouble of yourself.

——Perhaps, only Jiang Zehan himself can know about this matter...

What made Jiang Zechen lie in the hospital was a traffic accident. If there was no accident, Jiang Zechen would probably be sitting in the company's conference room by now, facing his brother for the last time.

For this time, he prepared for a long time, patiently and meticulously, he felt that he was not like himself—he had a feeling that maybe he could really give his brother a headache this time.

——It's not about fighting for anything, Jiang Zechen is already very tired, he just wants to prove that he is not too bad, and that he... is actually capable.Then, no matter whether he wins or loses, he doesn't want to fight anymore.

It's a pity that he can't prove it anymore, and he won't know how his brother reacted when he faced his last attack.

— car accident.

——Is this just an ordinary car accident?an accident?An accident at such a coincidental time?

Jiang Zechen quietly looked at his elder brother who was sitting by the bed, stroking his hair quietly and gently, and felt that his eyes were a little out of focus.

——Will this person be the murderer who caused this "accident"?

——Could this be his way of dealing with himself?

Jiang Zechen believes that this does not mean that Jiang Zehan has no choice but to use such means to stop himself, maybe he is also tired like himself, tired of being a perfect brother all the time, tired of always being unable to see his position clearly The younger brother who kept causing him all kinds of troubles, solved it like this, and it was over.

——It’s a relief for each other, right?

No matter how many doubts there were in his heart, Jiang Zechen couldn't ask any more questions, so what if he thought about it, so what?Anyway, there is no need anymore...

"Xiaochen, are you afraid?" He raised his hand and gently touched Jiang Zechen's eyes. Jiang Zehan's expression was full of pity and sadness, his eyes were gentle, and his voice was soft, "Don't be afraid, brother is here, I will always be with you Well, take a good rest, and Xiaochen will be healthy again... Last time you pestered me to go to Hawaii together for vacation, didn't you? But my brother is busy with work and has never had a chance. When Xiaochen gets better, we will go together. OK……?"

——To Hawaii?Jiang Zechen's eyes widened, he had long forgotten when he made such a request to Jiang Zehan, when he was freshman in high school?Or a sophomore?It won't be the third year of high school, he and Jiang Zehan had already fallen out by then...

"Xiaochen, take a break, close your eyes, are you tired after a while? You should take a good rest..."

Jiang Zehan's voice was heard in his ears, with a somewhat ethereal feeling, like the whispering of a sea monster.Jiang Zechen was like those poor sailors who fell into the trap of the sea monster's predation, being tempted to close their eyes involuntarily.

"Yes, that's it... be good..."

The bedside monitor emits a final continuous beep, and everything dissolves into nothingness.