lucky probability

Dazai Osamu's back was stiff, even the burning pain could not attract his attention, his whole body and mind were focused on Komaeda Nagito's words.

...Did he mean what I thought?

... Wh, what does it mean to not be able to bear his liking?

Osamu Dazai's brain was in chaos, and his brain, which was running at high speed all the time, was in danger of shutting down. For the first time, he felt that his brain that could easily calculate anyone was not enough. He regretted that he did not study Chinese well. You can't even understand the confession, and you have to carefully brew it, so that you can understand the meaning of the word-by-word response?

It's a confession.

Dazai likes Komaeda, and luckily, Komaeda likes Dazai too.

After Osamu Dazai realized this, ecstasy swept over him belatedly. At this time, the pain became weak, and the hand that Komaeda pressed on his shoulder was hot and had a strong sense of presence. On my shoulders that became slightly cold due to being naked/exposed for a long time, it was like a cluster of flames, instantly igniting a prairie fire in my heart.

He tentatively stretched out his hand, pressed his finger on the other's fingertips, stayed for a moment, until he didn't feel Komaeda's retreat, and then slowly and hesitantly covered the entire palm.

Dazai's cold palm touched the other's hot and dry hand, and he could feel his warm blood flowing rapidly in his blood vessels. This blood flow caused by the high emotion made him feel fresh.

Osamu Dazai, who is familiar with the human body, guessed in an instant that if he continued to let this posture continue, the flowing blood would soon rush to his heart and spread to his cheeks. After a few minutes, his cheeks, ears, Or somewhere else is red.

——This is because of shyness.he thought silently.

Even so, Osamu Dazai did not turn his head.

He just lowered his head slightly, reflecting a slender and graceful light and shadow on the ground. The eyes under the eyelashes were like flowing amber, and the affection contained in them made his already unique eyes brighter and more attractive.

Folding his hands, this gave Osamu Dazai a sense of security psychologically, which made him firm up. To Komaeda Nagito's statement about luck, he replied this way: "It is my luck to get your response. "

Osamu Dazai held his hand tightly, turned his head slowly, and looked directly at his sweetheart: "If a relationship needs to be measured by luck, then I am willing to suffer the same misfortune to have you."

He looked at Komaeda, who was in front of him, hidden in his eyes that he didn't even notice, and the tenderness in his heart overwhelmed him. Osamu Dazai grabbed Komaeda's hand, pressed it on his face, and rubbed his head Then he said to the dazed Komaeda Nagi, "I think God heard my wish, so that's why he let me get shot?"

Osamu Dazai blinked, and his voice softened: "If your misfortune alone is not enough, how about adding me."

"Let me bear this misfortune, you just need to be lucky."

This person's liking, to me, is like a person in the mouth of darkness, who sees the little sparks shooting out. There came a bright and twinkling light all over the sky.

Osamu Dazai knew it a long time ago. Maybe when he met Komaeda for the first time, he had a certain conclusion somewhere. He saw another possibility and another hope from Komaeda, so he finally met Komaeda. I started to be attracted to this person and followed him again and again, just to see what this person could do.

And Komaeda didn't let him down, so he would say: Since he can't experience the joy of being alive, then if he keeps looking at Komaeda, he will be redeemed, and he will find his own survival from Komaeda. Meaning, he's always done that.

Time and time again, his heart gradually got used to the existence of this person, until he couldn't leave him.

Thinking of this, Osamu Dazai gave a low laugh, then he raised his eyes, the eyes were vivid and bright.

"So, what do you think?"

Komaeda Nagito was completely stunned. The person in front of him, the words in his mouth, the warmth in his hands, and even the light shining in his eyes all brought him an unparalleled impact.

He was in a daze, and now it was Komaeda Nagito's turn to be dumbfounded, as if his brain was not enough, he stumbled back and asked, "What, what?"

Osamu Dazai slowed down his voice, and asked solemnly, "Do you agree to this proposal?"

Komaeda Nagito subconsciously wanted to agree with his muddy mind, but the moment he opened his mouth, he reflected Dazai Osamu's previous words.

He said: Let me bear this misfortune, you just need to be lucky.

Komaeda Nagito didn't know what it was like for a while, he wanted to say, this is not something that can be changed by talking, otherwise his life would not be lost and gained forever, he wanted to say, Dazai, you didn't realize Will the misfortune affect the people around me, but all rebuttals are lost in those bright eyes.

He knew Osamu Dazai, just like the other party knew himself. He knew that both of them were cowards, and the first reaction after realizing his intentions was to avoid. Osamu Dazai chose to stay away from him, but why not himself.

After feeling Dazai's distance, although he didn't know why, it was undeniable that he was relieved deep in his heart. Until later, he had to admit that leaving Dazai would not make him feel better.

But even so, he chose to ask Oda Sakunosuke for help in a roundabout way.

This is the mutual temptation of two cowards.

Because he deeply understands this point, he knows how, how difficult it is for Dazai Osamu in front of him to say these words.

He is like a ray of light, coming straight towards him with a firm, confident, and indomitable attitude, just like his words, splitting away all worries, only waiting for himself to nod.

——But he could feel that Osamu Dazai seemed to be able to do a job with ease, but his fingers were trembling undetectably, and the sweat on his palm was fine and cold.

A coward named Dazai is trying to poke his head, how could he back off?

Komaeda opened his mouth, but didn't say anything, and smiled before saying anything.

Osamu Dazai noticed something from his attitude, his eyes lit up, and he squeezed the other's fingertips even more tightly, Komaeda could even feel the pain.

But he didn't care, he even turned his back on the customer, and tightly clenched that hand in his palm, the warm touch gave Komaeda Nagito the supreme courage, and he stared closely at the pair of iris eyes that dazzled him Said: "If I can have you, then I am even grateful for the existence of misfortune."

"Dazai, I like you, will you be my boyfriend?"

Osamu Dazai was stunned for a moment, and after realizing what Komaeda Nagito said, a huge sense of happiness surged in his chest, making him feel dizzy.

Unable to control his volume, he replied loudly, "I do!"

For a moment, Dazai Osamu seemed to be floating in the clouds, light and soft, and now even seeing a bunch of flowers, he became extremely cute, and the new boyfriend in front of him filled him with joy.

The strange and surging emotions rising from his chest overwhelmed him, as if in an instant, he felt that he had found something more important than death.

This kind of spontaneous joy filled his brain, but besides the joy, a kind of panic and greed gradually emerged, the panic of fear of losing, and the greed of wanting to possess the person in front of him forever.

However, before Dazai Osamu tasted this feeling carefully, Komaeda Nagito grabbed his hand, clasped the palms together, and the warmth flowed from his fingertips to his whole body.

Osamu Dazai raised his eyes to look at him, and saw Komaeda Nagi cross-eyed with a smile, looking at him for a moment, so he felt relieved again.

This feeling is wonderful and incredible.

Komaeda Nagito pulled him to sit down again, and said with a smile: "Boyfriend, can you bandage it well now?"

Osamu Dazai stretched his body, trying to show Komaeda his most perfect body, he also had a smile in his tone, turned his head and said: "Komaeda is good or bad, I just said that when I was in the most pain."

Dazai Osamu's back has been reapplied with ointment, but it has been a long time, and now the ointment is transparent and slightly melted.

But it is easier to absorb the effect of the medicine, Komaeda Nagito wrapped the brand new bandage around and around, while answering his words: "No, I just want to divert your pain."

Osamu Dazai smiled: "Is it to divert the pain? I thought Komaeda liked me so much that I couldn't bear it."

Komaeda Nagito snorted, "I don't know who can't bear it."

After confirming the relationship, there was no embarrassment on the contrary, and the two people bickered over the question of "who liked it first and couldn't bear it".

Meaningless words are also given interesting definitions when talking to the other party. Dazai Osamu and Komaeda Nagito talked about messy topics, and they even had nothing to say. Just looking at each other, they can find different infinite fun.

Komaeda Nagito motioned for him to raise his arm, and the bandage wrapped around his chest. The latter subconsciously hugged the man in his arms, and then hissed when he was touched by the unbandaged wound.

Komaeda Nagito didn't dare to move anymore, afraid of touching Osamu Dazai's wound again, but was annoyed that he moved indiscriminately, and while being hugged by him obediently, he gritted his teeth and said: "Let go of me quickly, you want the wound to collapse again open?"

Osamu Dazai turned a deaf ear, feeling the fullness of his arms, he said contentedly: "I don't want to let go."

Komaeda Nagito pressed his ear against his chest, listening to the sound and frequency of the powerful beating like a drum in his ear, he pursed his lips, feeling embarrassed-why didn't he do that.

Komaeda Nagito fell silent.

It turns out that mind-to-heart connection is such a beautiful thing. A rotten person like him actually has a symbol of hope, like a dream.

Slowly, Komaeda Nagito's eyes sharpened.

Just because he has tasted the feeling of connectedness, he will never let others take away this happiness.