Together

That night, Qin Su and Xing Wenfei sat in the glass room on the top floor of the villa, looking at the night sky in the northwest in the dark. At this time, it was just after the middle of the lunar month, and the moon was very close and bright.

The black sky is filled with stars.

The sky seems to be within reach.

Qin Su sat on the recliner, staring at the sky in a daze, Xing Wenfei returned the message for a while, came to lie beside him, put his arms around his shoulders, and asked, "What are you looking at?"

Qin Su looked at him and said, "Look at the sky. Most of the stars you can see at this time are galaxies, and some are even bigger than the Milky Way, aren't they?"

Xing Wenfei nodded: "That's right. It's just that we can't see the Milky Way in the northwest in winter. We can go to the southern hemisphere and see the Milky Way. The Milky Way is more beautiful in the southern hemisphere than in the northern hemisphere."

Qin Su said: "Looking at this starry sky, one finds that human beings are really too small. Compared to the universe, not to mention a single individual, even the entire human history is just a short moment. Looking at it this way, individual human beings The existence of me is thin and fragile, as a drop in the ocean, many times, I even doubt the meaning of my existence. When I was six years old, I asked my dad, what are we living for?"

Xing Wenfei stared sideways at Qin Su, "Why do you ask such a question at the age of six?"

Qin Su shook her head: "I don't know either. Probably at that time, I saw the adults around me living a mediocre life. I got up in the morning, hurriedly went to work, and went home after work to cook, eat, watch TV, and then It's time to go to sleep, all I saw was like this, at that time, I didn't quite understand what the purpose of living like this is?"

Xing Wenfei smiled and buried his face on his shoulder, and asked, "Then what did your father answer you?"

Qin Su: "He said he didn't know either. So live first and look for the answer slowly, maybe you can find it, maybe you can't find it."

He put his arms around Xing Wenfei's waist and asked him, "Haven't you ever doubted the meaning of your existence?"

Xing Wenfei raised his head, approached Qin Su, kissed him twice, then stared at him with a smile and said, "I doubted this question since I was four or five years old, and I was still thinking about it after entering junior high school, but after , I don’t really want to think about it. I think, my existence is its own meaning. Because I seem to be much richer than others. And I have the opportunity to go wherever I want. I used to dislike small Yu, because she always likes to follow me secretly, and then tell my mother about me, I will tell her not to follow me anymore. Xiao Yu said that she hopes that her mother will always pay attention to her movements and safety. , She has been hurt, someone will always go to her, love what she hurts, so that she will not disappear and no one will notice, but she can't get it, so she thinks I should be grateful to have parents like this."

Qin Su rubbed the back of his head lightly, and said in a low voice, "Xiao Yu has no parental love since she was a child, so she has no sense of security."

Xing Wenfei said: "It should be. So I told her that she has been following me so secretly. If she disappears, I will definitely be the first to find out, and I will not let her disappear in the world for no reason. The meaning of human existence What is it? In addition to its own meaning, there is also the meaning in the hearts of other people who care about themselves. Individuals are just a drop in the ocean, and they may not be able to see the meaning, but TA must be connected with many people, relying on this connection to bring a hurricane The same meaning. People thousands of years ago, such as Confucius and Mencius, such as Qin Shihuang, they still influence us today and will continue to influence us. This is the meaning of a small individual."

Qin Su smiled and felt that Xing Wenfei's words were right.

Xing Wenfei kissed his lips again, and said, "You mean a lot to me, and your existence itself makes me happy. Qin Su, thank you for being in the same era as me. Otherwise, you see The universe is so big, where can I find you?"

Qin Su laughed and hugged him tightly.

Xing Wenfei stared at the sky in a daze, he liked this kind of quietness.Compared to the universe, a person is so small, but at this time, he can still be with his beloved and enjoy the beauty of the universe.

When Qin Su went to take a bath, he suddenly felt a small pimple on his back. He frowned and thought about it for a while, worried that something might be wrong. After a quick wash, he wrapped himself in a towel and called Xing Wenfei.

Xing Wenfei was sitting on the sofa talking on the phone with his mother, when he saw Qin Su coming out of the bathroom and looking at him, Qin Su's wet eyes looked particularly dark, like ink scattered in water, with a deep and mysterious beauty.

Xing Wenfei realized that something was wrong with him, so he quickly said a few concluding remarks to Ms. Wang, hung up the phone, walked up to Qin Su, and said, "What's the matter?"

Qin Su was a little nervous, and said, "I should have some rashes on my back, I don't know why?"

Xing Wenfei looked over right away, Qin Su's back was very white, except for a small mole on the shoulder blade, there was no blemish, and he was very thin, with only a thin layer of muscle on his back. Large red and white rash.

Qin Su reached out to touch it, and called Xing Wenfei: "Go and take a picture with your mobile phone, and I'll take a look."

Xing Wenfei also became nervous, and took a picture of the rash with his mobile phone and showed it to Qin Su. After seeing it, Qin Su said, "Is this an allergy?"

Xing Wenfei looked at it for a while, but couldn't make up his mind, afraid that he would be cold, so he took a bathrobe and asked him to wrap it up, and said, "Call the doctor in the villa area to take a look."

Qin Su didn't believe this kind of doctor: "At most, they are general practitioners who can see a little bit of everything. They definitely don't understand what the specific problem is, and they are not experts in dermatology. Forget it, wait and see if it will disappear tomorrow. "

When I took the medicine before, I didn’t have a rash. Now it’s been nearly two months, but I suddenly developed a rash. Is it possible that HIV has not been completely blocked?

Qin Su said it easily, but he was very scared in his heart, and Xing Wenfei was always messing around, he was very afraid that there would be a situation where Xing Wenfei would be infected.

Xing Wenfei was still very worried, and Qin Su was sick, but he didn't do anything, which made him restless, and said: "Why don't you let the doctor take a look. No matter what the other party says, just take a look." good."

Qin Su was unwilling, "I may know better than that doctor what the situation will be. There is no need for the doctor to come."

Xing Wenfei said: "No. The doctors here are not that bad."

Qin Su went to dry her hair, and said, "Don't think about it, it should be that sand got into my clothes today. There may be something in the sand that made me allergic. The skin on my back is prone to allergies."

Qin Su changed into pajamas and sat at the desk to handle the work. Xing Wenfei frowned at him and said, "I'll let Xiaoyu do it, and find a specialist in dermatology to show you."

Seeing that he was going to make a call, Qin Su said, "Xiaowen, go take a shower, don't call the doctor for now. If it's an allergy, I always get better the next day. If not, I'll go to the doctor tomorrow. OK?"

Xing Wenfei didn't want to argue with Qin Su because of this matter, so he had to forget it.

That night, Xing Wenfei was going to sleep with Qin Su in his arms. Qin Su was always a bit reserved and unwilling to kiss him. Xing Wenfei knew what Qin Su was thinking, so he said, "Are you worried that the previous HIV blockade failed? ?”

Qin Su whispered: "No."

Xing Wenfei turned on the light, propped his body up and lowered his head to stare at Qin Su: "It's no wonder you didn't. Why did you say such things against your will to me? Aren't we together? You still say you love me today, but you refuse to say Tell me your true feelings?"

Qin Su turned his head away, not wanting to meet his gaze, he sighed: "I'm just a little worried. Don't think too much about it."

Xing Wenfei said, "It's okay. If you're worried, I'll ask Xiaoyu to think of a way to see if there are any HIV test strips. I'll test it for you. Didn't Zhou Xun say before that psychological factors can also cause many problems."

Qin Su put his arms around his shoulders and pressed him halfway into the bed, "Sleep, don't embarrass Xiao Yu. Besides, the sensitivity and specificity of the test strips are not enough. When I go back, the test time is already at the end of February. I'll test it again."

Xing Wenfei touched Qin Su's back, touched the rash on his back, and asked, "Does it hurt?"

Qin Su shook her head: "Don't talk about pain, it doesn't even feel itchy."

Xing Wenfei quickly took his hand away, afraid that it would itch for him, he would definitely scratch the rash, "How about I disinfect you with alcohol?"

Qin Su said: "It's not necessary at all. If there is any pathogen, that little alcohol will definitely not kill it. If not, disinfection is meaningless. Don't bother."

Xing Wenfei looked at him helplessly, and Qin Su couldn't feel at ease seeing that he really didn't do anything, so he said, "That's fine, you can wipe it for me with the alcohol swab you brought."

Xing Wen quickly got out of bed, took out an alcohol swab from the box, and Qin Su lay helplessly on the bed, letting him disinfect his rash.

When Xing Wenfei was disinfecting, he found that there were more rashes on his back than before. He didn't dare to touch it more, and worried: "Call a doctor."

Qin Su got up and said, "That's it. I called the doctor. Are you going to lie during the interrogation process? If you tell me that you have been exposed to HIV before, the other party will probably be surprised. This is a small place, and a doctor Seeing all kinds of diseases, when the time comes, the news that the guest in this villa is an AIDS patient will definitely spread. Don't worry about it, come to sleep."

Xing Wenfei looked at him with a frown, and said, "Then go back now. Go back to your hospital to see."

Qin Su said angrily: "Come and sleep, will you listen to me or not!"

Xing Wenfei had no choice but to go to sleep, but couldn't fall asleep at all, so he hugged Qin Su tightly and said, "Why do you have to suffer like this?"

Qin Su was also a little worried, but after hearing his exclamation, there was no worry at all, and he laughed instead: "It's as if I am suffering and hating deeply. You may not have seen more suffering in society, so It was only then that I realized what I had suffered. Not at all. We will come into contact with a lot of tuberculosis patients, most of whom are from families with poor conditions. They are sick and have no money for medical treatment. The two children are suffering from tuberculosis, compared with the suffering of these people, mine is not suffering at all."

Xing Wenfei said: "Everyone's pain is real pain. Some people suffer from having no money, some suffer from poor academic performance, some suffer from being loved by people who don't like themselves, and some suffer from relatives getting sick. , Some people suffer that their love is not blessed by their relatives, some people suffer that they have gained weight and cannot lose weight, and some people suffer so much that they cannot sleep because their subordinates are not capable enough to be obedient or obedient enough... There is no distinction between high and low in pain, everyone has their own life, and there must be their own unique happiness and pain. Seeing you like this makes me feel very uncomfortable."

Qin Su sighed, and said: "But as long as a human being lives, he must suffer from illness, old age and death. If you say that you are happy to be born with me in the same life, then you can only accept that I am going to be sick. From now on, I'll also age faster than you and die sooner than you."

Xing Wenfei was in more pain for a while, "I don't want to hear this."

Qin Su laughed and rubbed his hair, "Okay, don't think about it. I'm fine now."

Xing Wenfei buried his face by Qin Su's neck and fell asleep at some point.Probably after venting, Qin Su felt that it was useless to think too much, so he didn't think too much anymore.

In the morning, Xing Wenfei got up early and went to study Qin Su's back. Most of the rash disappeared, and there were only a few spots left. He took a photo and showed it to Qin Su. After seeing it, Qin Su said: " Probably because of allergies to something in the sand."

But Xing Wenfei stared at the room and said, "Could there be something in this house that causes allergies? If sand made you allergic, you should have been allergic long ago, and you have to wait until you take a shower?"

Qin Su frowned and said, "Don't you want someone to come and remove all the dust and mites in the house again?"

Xing Wenfei nodded.

Qin Su: "..."

Xing Wenfei really did this, but Xiaoyu didn't feel that the boss had too many things to do. If the boss was okay, she and Sister Chen would also lose their jobs.

After asking the driver to send Qin Su and Xing Wenfei to Yulin Cave, she and Sister Chen stayed in the villa and instructed the staff to carefully clean the place where Qin Su and Xing Wenfei were going to stay, removing dust and mites.

It's really frustrating for Qin Su to want to go out to play like this. She used to stay in hotels casually, and it wasn't that much trouble.It is both beautiful and distressing to have a lover who pays attention to him all the time.

But seeing that Xing Wenfei was always nervous because of his affairs, Qin Su had no way to refuse.

On the fourth day, it was originally planned to go to Yangguan and Yumenguan, but Qin Su started to have a nosebleed just after waking up in the morning.

Qin Su didn't have time to think about it, so he hurried to the bathroom to stop the bleeding, but Xing Wenfei was terrified, and ran to the bathroom to see Qin Su, Qin Su's nosebleed made the sink all red, Xing Wenfei said: "Quickly raise your head Ah, so much blood."

Qin Su didn't listen at all, and applied ice water to his nose and the back of his head. After a while, the bleeding finally stopped.

Xing Wenfei scolded him: "Why don't you look up and see how much blood you bleed."

Qin Su frowned and said: "Look up, it's just that you can't see the blood, the blood is not flowing back into the throat, and it may even flow into the trachea and choke. I know how to deal with it myself, don't worry."

Xing Wenfei looked at him suspiciously: "Really? You always said you could handle it, but you lost so much blood."

Qin Su looked at the blood in the sink, and while washing the sink, said: "Not much, probably not even 400 milliliters, and you can donate [-] milliliters once you donate blood."

Xing Wenfei was very upset: "What's the point of telling me this. Will you prove that you won't die from a nosebleed?"

Qin Su thought that was the meaning.

Xing Wenfei frowned and went to wipe the water off Qin Su's face with a tissue, and said, "Go back, if you stay any longer, I'm going crazy."

Qin Su laughed, let him wipe his face, squeezed toothpaste for him, handed him the toothbrush, and said, "Aren't you going to Yumen Pass today?"

Xing Wenfei said: "You are always like this, I don't want to go."

Qin Su also felt very guilty: "I guess it's too dry here. No problem. Isn't the rash on my back healed?"

Xing Wenfei threw the toothbrush aside and looked at him with a frown: "I want to go back. Qin Su, go back with me to check your body first."

Xing Wenfei went downstairs to ask Xiao Yu and Sister Chen to pack their things, and told them to contact the plane, saying that they would go back this afternoon. Xiao Yu and Sister Chen looked at each other in blank dismay, the house had just been cleaned, and they were leaving immediately?

Xiao Yu asked: "Is there something urgent?"

Xing Wenfei stood on the steps with a dark complexion, which made both Xiao Yu and Sister Chen feel uneasy, thinking that something serious had happened.

Xing Wenfei said: "Qin Su had a nosebleed just now, it's better to go back."

"Ah?" Xiao Yu was taken aback, thinking that it would be abnormal if she didn't have a nosebleed if she did this here.

She said: "Sister Chen and I both have nosebleeds. We have had nosebleeds since the day before yesterday. It's too dry here, so it's easy to get nosebleeds. But I think drinking apricot skin water is helpful, otherwise not only nosebleeds are easy, but also constipation." .”

Xing Wenfei was annoyed: "But Qin Su needs a physical examination, you should hurry up and get ready, go back first."

Qin Su came down from upstairs and said, "Don't worry about it, I'm fine at all. Let's go with the original plan."

Xing Wenfei: "I want to go back."

Qin Su: "..."

Xiao Yu looked at the two with a troubled face, Qin Su went to pull Xing Wenfei: "You and I go upstairs."

He also told Xiao Yu: "Don't contact me."

Xing Wenfei frowned and looked at Qin Su: "Do you know how worried I am about your body?"

Qin Su said: "Come upstairs with me!"

Xing Wenfei didn't like to fight with him in front of others, so he had to let him drag him upstairs.

Xiaoyu and Sister Chen looked at each other, and Sister Chen said, "What should we do now? Do you want to pack your things?"

Xiao Yu thought for a while and said, "Don't clean it up yet."

Xiao Xing should be persuaded by Teacher Qin.

She really didn't expect that in terms of Qin Su's health, Mr. Xing was simply oversensitive!It was just a nosebleed, and that was all the fuss.