Together

When Xing Wenfei was taking a shower, he thought, Qin Su's father actually noticed it?You can see that you haven't beat yourself up yet?How about eating and drinking?

He couldn't believe it was real.

He was also worried that father of Qin would scold Qin Su when there were no guests and only Qin Su was alone.After all, most people beat and scold their children when the guests are not there, in order to maintain the family's external image.

He hurriedly took a shower, changed his clothes, and sneaked downstairs, so that when Qin's father beat and scolded Qin Su, he could step forward to help.

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Qin Su went downstairs and knocked on her parents' bedroom door. Qin's mother was matching a bag with a coat in front of the dressing mirror in the room. Qin's father was sitting on the sofa frowning and worrying. Qin's mother didn't want to leave the mirror, so she called him: "Old man, hurry up!" Go and open the door. Qin Su and the others must be short of something, go and get it."

Qin's father took a look at his stinky wife, and went to open the door. Qin Su was outside.

Qin's mother looked back at Qin Su, then smiled at him: "Come and see, does it look good?"

Qin's father scoffed at her: "I wasn't like this when I was young, but I'm still pretty when I'm old."

Qin's mother glared at him, "It's not because I followed you. When I was young, I didn't have the money to buy a coat, so I was reluctant to buy it. Now Xiaowen bought a good bag..." She turned to her son: "Look at you Dad, this look of yin and yang is weird. The older you get, the more weird your temper is. Qin Su, you can find him a job sweeping the streets and let him sweep the streets. Otherwise, I will lose my temper all day long. It's my fault every day. Serve him with good food and drink, he is free."

Qin's father frowned and said, "Obviously I'm the one who cooks, why are you feeding me delicious food and drink?" After finishing speaking, he felt that arguing with his wife like this would not have prestige in front of his son, so he shut his mouth sullenly.

When Qin Su and the two were on the phone, they didn't see them arguing like this. At this moment, they sighed annoyedly and said, "Dad, you can just follow Mom. You say you'll live and learn, Are you still not allowed to live to the old age and love the beauty? She dresses up, you can appreciate it, or not. Why fight?"

Qin's father couldn't talk anymore, and asked, "Is there anything missing? I'll get it for you."

At this time, Mother Qin was wearing a wine-red coat with a very positive color. She also matched it with wedge shoes at night. She was holding the wine-red Hermes that Xiaoyu bought for her, and she smiled beautifully at Qin Su. Qin Su With one hand in his pocket, he was tall and slender. Even to his parents, he was polite and polite. At this time, he smiled at his mother and said, "It's very beautiful."

Qin's mother said: "when you are going to marry a daughter-in-law, it's not bad for me to dress up like this at the wedding banquet, right?"

"En." Qin Su was a little embarrassed, and said to Qin's father: "Dad, I have something to talk to you about, can I go to your study?"

Father Qin went to the study with him, and after entering the room, Qin Su locked the door behind him.

There are a lot of books in the study room, which belong to Qin's father and Qin's mother. There is also a long desk inside. The side used by Qin's mother is very tidy, and the side used by Qin's father is placed with the four treasures of the study, and the draft paper for calligraphy is piled up in a pile. .

Qin's father went to turn on the little sun, without looking at his son, his voice was wary: "What do you want to say?"

When Qin Su talked with his father, he always talked about everything straight to the point, and Qin's father was easy to get angry when he talked around the bush.This point is also criticized by Qin's mother. Qin's mother often said that Qin's father "doesn't know what kind of bullshit leadership is, and he still has to play tricks at home." However, Qin Su never had conflicts with his father in speech, So he obeyed his way of talking, stood in front of his father, and said in a gentle yet unquestionable firm tone, "Xiaowen and I are together."

Qin's father knew this was the case, he still didn't look at his son, hunched his back, sat down with the arm of the chair, and went to adjust the heat of the little sun.

Qin Su stopped talking, just stood there and waited.

The two father and son were silent for two to three minutes. Father Qin looked up at Qin Su: "When did it happen?"

Qin Su didn't know how to calculate it. If she really understood that even if she didn't stay with Xiaowen, she would never choose someone else in the future. It was probably when Xing Wenfei said that she was very scared last night. relationship, that was three years ago.

Only then did Qin Su think that maybe from the first time he slept with Xing Wenfei, he might not choose anyone else.

Qin Su was influenced by his family environment and domestic education environment. He is very conservative about sex. When he liked his classmates, he never dared to confess. After becoming a teacher, he became more conservative in this regard. Wen Fei likes him, and he may not take the initiative to contact anyone of the opposite sex or the same sex. Up to now, he has never even had a blind date, which is also related to his personality.Until Xing Wenfei appeared in his life, allowing him to experience another realm of life.

Qin Su said calmly, "About three years ago."

Qin's father didn't expect it to be so long ago. He stared at his son and wanted to get angry, but his son is now a professor, and he still scolded him, so where is his face going?

Qin's father asked: "Before him, did you also make this kind of friend?"

Qin's father realized that he actually didn't know anything about Qin Su's friendship after going to college, because Qin Su was too sensible and outstanding since he was a child, and never made people worry about it. Qin's father and Qin's mother never thought about taking care of their son of these things.

Qin Su: "No. Xiaowen is a nice person."

Qin's father was in a mess. Knowing that his son was 35 and six years old and had already started his career, it was impossible for him and his mother to control him.

He asked: "Have you ever thought about it, you are a teacher, so many students are looking at you, how bad the influence will be if you are with a man."

Qin Su had no choice but to say: "Work is work, and family is family. There is no need to connect the two. We can take our time."

Qin's father fell silent, and he didn't recover from the dazed state until the little sun made his hands ache from the heat, but he only moved his hands away a little, and continued to remain silent.

Qin Su didn't know what to say, and after a long time, she said softly, "Dad, I'm sorry."

Qin's father looked up at him, and saw his son frowning slightly, pursing his lips, with a heavy expression, he didn't know what to say for a while, because this matter probably couldn't be changed by saying anything, but he was very concerned about his son's matter. , It is indeed sad.

One of the things he was most proud of was raising an excellent son. Of course, when he brags to others, he will definitely say that we didn't bother Qin Su at all. When he was young, he would do his homework at home instead of playing around. He always had good grades. He even went to college by himself by car. We didn’t bother to go to graduate school. He had his own ideas since he was a child, and he knew how to work hard. What did we urge him to do? In addition, his son started to receive scholarships when he was an undergraduate, and he didn’t even spend a penny of the family’s money when he was a graduate student... After that, such an excellent son was able to enter the university only by himself Doing research in a well-known hospital, and being a doctoral supervisor at a young age, others are envious of him when they hear it...

But is such a son actually a comrade?

If it is true, he should have been troubled since he was a child. Since junior high school, he has been reticent, withdrawn and dedicated to studying. Maybe it has something to do with his sexual orientation not conforming to the mainstream consciousness of society.

He should be more painful and troubled than himself.

He didn't find a boyfriend until he was 32 and three years old. Maybe he had thought about being single before, because his sexual orientation was not in the mainstream of society, and he was a teacher, so he needed to restrain himself all the time, so he didn't look for a partner.

For more than 30 years, neither I nor the child's mother has ever cared about his mental state, nor asked him about his difficulties in this area. He has carried it all by himself, and he has no one to tell.

Qin's father thought a lot by himself, not only stopped being angry with the child, but also felt sad for him.

Father Qin's nose felt sour, and he thought of an example he had encountered before retirement. There was a male student in the third year of high school who was afraid to speak out because he had a crush on the male classmates in his class. He tricked me into participating in a messy gay sex party. That man and most of the comrades present at the time were registered HIV-positive patients. Later, the male student’s classmates found that something was wrong with him. They followed him and found that something was wrong, so they called the police. Qin's father followed other colleagues to deal with the situation, brought the male student back, and provided him with blocking and psychological counseling. At that time, the boy was only crying and had suicidal tendencies. Qin's father and his colleagues took turns guarding him for three days, and he was better. I am also willing to talk about why I went to that kind of party. He was just cheated, because he likes boys, so he was very scared. There was a big brother who was willing to comfort him, and there was a group that could accept him, so he followed him, because he It was really lonely and scary.

Fortunately, this boy succeeded in blocking the disease in the end, and the six-month reexamination was still negative. After graduating from a bachelor's degree and working, this boy still went back to CDC to thank them.

Qin's father thought, did Qin Su feel so scared and lonely when he was in high school? He was still so young and had no contact with society. How did he get through that time?

Qin Su felt that he was very unfilial, but he really didn't know what to say to his father, as if all words were cold and powerless, but what could he do to make his parents feel better in the future.

When Qin Su blamed himself more and more, he found his father wiping his face. He was startled, knelt down and half knelt in front of his father, and found that his father was really crying.

Qin Su said in pain: "Dad, I am unfilial, I'm sorry."

Qin's father wiped away his tears, looked up at him, and said, "It's my fault and your mother's. You have been too sensible since you were a child, and we haven't been with you well. It's because we didn't do well. We should have cared more about you at that time."

Qin Su was even more sad, "No, you are already good parents, and I will always be grateful for your kindness in giving birth. Don't say that."

Qin's father shook his head, "I know you have always been good, but you are so good, your mother and I did not fulfill our responsibilities. When you knew you liked men, you must have suffered a lot. You have always been like this You're sensible, but you never told us that we didn't pay enough attention to you. We've been alone for so many years, and we were all worried that you were too demanding, so we couldn't find a partner. I didn't expect this to be the reason. I'm very sorry I am worried that your matter will affect your work and career, but you were so miserable before, and neither my mother nor I helped you. In the future, if you have any difficulties with this matter, you must tell your family. I am not so An unreasonable person. I have also seen that Xiaowen is a nice kid, polite and capable, and has a heart for you. He is a little small and lacks stability, but since you have been with him for three years, then It’s a good thing. Your gay circle is uneasy, there are too many people messing around, you can’t mess around by yourself.”

Qin Su didn't expect his father to be so reasonable, and he blamed himself even more for a while. He caused a lot of trouble for the family. Although his father understood that he was willing to support him, he must still worry about him secretly.Parents are old, but I still have to worry him, and I have HIV exposure, so I can only keep this matter from the two old people.

Qin Su lowered her head and said, "I understand."

Qin's father pulled him: "It's cold on the ground, don't kneel on the ground, get up. It's also good to talk to me about Xiaowen's situation. Does his family know about him?"