Together

After Xing Wenfei left the bedroom, the room became very quiet.

Although the room is large, all the windows have three layers of glass, the outer layer is bulletproof glass, and the inner layer is equipped with two layers of soundproof glass, so when the windows are closed, there is no sound in the room.

Qin Su looked at the furnishings in the room in a daze. The furnishings in the room were simple black and white settings, but it could be seen that a lot of effort had been spent on them, and they had what Xing Wenfei called the so-called "interest".

Qin Su thought a little depressed: "Am I really a person who has no taste in life?"

But it is useless to think about this kind of problem. He really wants to get up and do things. After all, there is still a lot of work to be done, but he is not feeling well and makes him not want to move. In this contradiction, he fell asleep unconsciously, etc. As soon as I woke up and continued to be in this quiet space, I felt like I didn't know where I was, what day and what night.

Qin Su looked at the time on his phone, it was already past five o'clock in the afternoon, and he slept for several hours, but this kind of sleep did not make him feel much better. He still felt tired, dizzy, and even a little nauseous. Eat, but still feel bloated and uncomfortable.

The pain in his body made him a little pessimistic. Before, he rarely thought about the past and the future. At this time, his mind was full of the students who had been sent away by him. Some students had a good relationship with him from the beginning to the end, while others After graduation, he never had any contact again, and those who stayed in his laboratory and worked, after leaving, most of them basically lost contact.

The world has changed a lot, and he has always regarded the laboratory and research work more than anything else before, so he never thought about the changes in the world and himself, and he can always do whatever he wants. Do not move.

But now, he thinks that HIV may be amplified in his body, and even integrate the virus gene into his own gene, and he may become an HIV infected person in the future. Those who don't know the reason will reject him, and he will Living in the side effects of taking medicine all the time, and worrying about drug resistance, although people are bound to die, they have been living in fear and worry after being infected with the virus, and died of this double torture of body and spirit. There is a big difference between not thinking about death until you are old and sick and have to accept your imminent death.

What's more, now there is Xing Wenfei, Qin Su is not very sure whether Xing Wenfei suddenly became so sensible and took care of himself because he was in the blockade period and took care of himself out of morality, or because it was true. The feelings are so deep that I want to be so good to myself.

However, no matter what the reason was, it was a bit unbearable for Qin Su at this time.

Most of the students are in a state of insecurity where they can't find a foundation and are in the stage of master's and Ph.D.

Among the students Qin Su led, 90% of them expressed their confused views to him.The most confusing point is that for girls, many will say that their family hopes that they will find a boyfriend to marry quickly, but they don’t actually know whether it is better for them to find a boyfriend to marry. Boys will even come when their girlfriends are eager to get married. I asked him for advice, mainly because I didn't know why I wanted to get married, and I felt pressured and at a loss about future family responsibilities. Qin Su couldn't give any useful advice on this, but just let them think about it and strengthen their beliefs. Be a responsible person.

In fact, Qin Su is easy to answer this confusion about marriage and family. Some students come to him to talk about the meaning of their research, or they are confused about what work they want to do in the future, or they come up with questions that they never studied hard before. Many of my classmates are now successful and famous, but they are still in the laboratory repeatedly repeating the examples of experiments that they don’t know if they can be successful to doubt the value of their existence, and even have doubts about why they live and what they live for...

For these problems, Qin Su can only give them some explanations and comforts based on his own understanding according to each person's personality and situation. Off the road, he had nothing else to say.

Perhaps for the ancients with an average survival age of 40 years old, the 20-year-old is already an individual who has to bear a lot of responsibilities, but for these students in modern society who have been studying in school, most of the minds in their 20s have no Mature.Not to mention people in their 20s, even in their 30s, they are still immature...Of course, maybe humans are such animals that there is no so-called maturity from birth to death.

Qin Su has encouraged many people to strike a balance between reality and ideals, and sometimes regrets that she should not give people such and such opinions, which may have a bad effect on other people's lives.

Qin Su used to move forward in his life, and being able to immerse himself in research affairs every day was a fulfilling and reassuring thing for him. It will be resolved soon.

After having a relationship with Xing Wenfei, although he often regretted it and was worried that the matter would be exposed, the impact of this matter on him, thinking about it now, was not as great as his exposure to HIV.

Whatever he thinks now, there must be a premise, what if my HIV turns positive?

If it really turns sunny, he doesn't know what to do. It may be difficult to find a job in the hospital's laboratory. The reason is not only because his work needs to take care of students, students and parents will mind, but there are even bigger reasons , He is engaged in the research of tuberculosis. Tuberculosis can be transmitted through the respiratory tract. He has been working in this industry for so many years. The IGRA test is strongly positive in the laboratory's own inspection every year.It is also inevitable to often walk by the river.

Research results in recent years have shown that after being exposed to tuberculosis, only 5-10% of them will develop the disease, and 90-95% of the majority of people will never develop the disease because of their own immunity.But this does not include HIV-infected persons. Infected HIV will attack the immune system of the infected person, weaken the immunity, and cause tuberculosis, which would not have developed the disease, to develop.

This is also the reason why TB/HIV dual-infection patients will develop diseases very quickly and have a short survival period.

If he turns positive from HIV, he probably won’t be able to do research in this area anymore, because if he continues to engage in tuberculosis research, he will have a higher probability of becoming a dual-infection patient of tuberculosis and AIDS, and he will lose his current career.

At that time, it is estimated that I can only go back to my hometown to take care of my parents for the elderly, and plant some land by the way.Maybe even let the white-haired parents send the black-haired ones.

Of course, it is even more impossible to be with Xing Wenfei.

Qin Su stayed on the bed for a long time, and he didn't get up until he felt that he was going to be useless if he kept thinking like this.

He thought that he might be more confused than his students now.

**

Xing Wenfei thought of going back to the bedroom to sleep and disturbing Qin Su again, so he didn't go back. Instead, he drank a cup of strong coffee and started working in the study. You have to look it over, so in just a few years now, he can't explain the technical things clearly, but he can't be easily fooled.

It is naturally very hard to manage and understand technology.

In fact, he can also ask Qin Su to be his technical consultant and ask Qin Su technical questions. However, he is so strong that he doesn't want to appear "stupid" in front of Qin Su, so he hasn't discussed professional issues with Qin Su so far. question.

Yu Yuan arrived at Xing Wenfei's apartment at around three o'clock in the afternoon. She probably knew more about this apartment than Xing Wenfei and Qin Su combined, because many of the things in it were assigned by Xing Wenfei. added.

After she arrived, she whispered to Sister Chen in the laundry room.

With Yu Yuan checking all the clothes, Sister Chen felt more at ease now.

Yu Yuan asked her: "Xiao Xing left all the clothes?"

Sister Chen said, "Yes."

Yu Yuan brought several more clothes over and said, "That should last for a while."

Sister Chen said: "Mr. Xing cares about that Mr. Qin very much. Maybe in the future when you install Mr. Xing's clothes, you can help him along the way. It doesn't take much effort."

Yu Yuan thought to herself that she didn't have a boyfriend or a son, so she was very happy to be able to dress up a boss like Mr. Xing who pays attention to figure management. After all, she could buy beautiful clothes, and the money was not her own. money.

She said: "Mr. Xun's clothes are all paid for by his wife. The Mr. Qin's clothes you mentioned can only be paid for by Mr. Xing himself. Otherwise, if there is a problem with the cost of the clothes, the wife will definitely be able to see it. "

Sister Chen flattered her and said, "Xiao Yu is more thoughtful."

While ironing the clothes with steam, Xiao Yu asked curiously, "How is Mr. Qin?"

Sister Chen didn't know what to say, and she didn't dare to say more, so she said, "Mr. Qin is sleeping, and when he wakes up, Xiao Yu, you can see it."

Xiao Yu couldn't hold back his curiosity, "If Mr. Xing finds out that I'm here and tells me to go back quickly, I won't be able to see it."

Sister Chen said embarrassingly, "There will always be opportunities in the future."

When Xing Wenfei came out to pour coffee again, he happened to meet Yu Yuan, and he couldn't help raising his eyebrows: "Have you arrived yet?"

Yu Yuan smiled softly, and said softly: "It's been a while, and Sister Chen said you were doing something in the study, so I didn't bother you. The clothes you brought are all hanging up, do you want to take a look? If there are any If I like it, I will go back."

Xing Wenfei didn't like to read these things before, but now he went to the hanging room with her to watch them. After reading it, he felt that Xiaoyu really understood his thoughts, and he did a good job. He smiled and praised her The two sentences have good taste, and I asked again: "My mother called you and said that your phone was turned off. I think you were on the plane at that time. I was worried about what you said to my mother before, so I didn't explain it for you, so as not to be with you. The reason you are looking for is not right, but exposed. Did you call my mother back? "

Yu Yuan said, "I'm back to my wife."

Xing Wenfei stared at her: "What did you tell her?"

Yu Yuan said: "My wife asked me why you didn't tell her about your coming to S City first. I said you came here on a business trip suddenly. I didn't know about your work, so I didn't tell her first. I said this It's cold out here, and you didn't bring enough clothes, so I sent you clothes. I didn't receive a call on the plane."

Xing Wenfei nodded in agreement, and said, "I want to stay here for a few more days, and you don't have to go back these few days, so you can report for a business trip later."

Yu Yuan smiled and said, "Thank you, Mr. Xing."

Xing Wenfei said: "Qin Su doesn't like meeting strangers very much, so you should be more careful around him."

Yu Yuan quickly said, "I understand."

Xing Wenfei: "You can't let my family know about him."

Yu Yuan almost swore: "I understand."

Sister Chen saw that it was getting late, so she came to ask Xing Wenfei what to eat, and Xing Wenfei said: "You don't need to cook much, just a few light dishes will do."

Xing Wenfei went back to the study with coffee, and met Qin Su who came out of the bedroom on the way. Qin Su was dizzy, and he was still in a bad mood after sleeping. He smelled the coffee in Xing Wenfei's cup. If you want to smell the aroma, say: "Let me have a cup of coffee too."

Xing Wenfei refused: "You are taking medicine, will drinking coffee not affect you? It is better not to drink."

Qin Su frowned and said, "Since the doctor didn't say you can't drink it, you can drink it."

Xing Wenfei disagreed: "It's okay if you don't drink coffee these days, so why don't you just refrain from drinking it?"

Qin Su: "I want to drink a cup of coffee and do things, or my mind will not be clear."

Xing Wenfei: "If you are not clear-headed, don't do anything. You should rest more."

Qin Su: "I slept all afternoon, how can I still fall asleep?"

Xing Wenfei: "Resting doesn't necessarily mean sleeping, you can watch dramas, read books, or play games..."

Qin Su: "I don't like these."

Xing Wenfei smiled and said, "Then you can sit and watch me in the study, is that okay?"

Qin Su was stunned, he was talking to Xing Wenfei about something serious, and he didn't want to listen to his nonsense, and said: "Stop messing around, I still have a lot of work to do. I know my own body, and I have my own arrangements ..." Ever since he was a graduate student, Qin Su has never been supervised like this. He has always done whatever he wants, but now he is being supervised by others, and he just feels annoyed.

Xing Wenfei said: "I am also doing it for your own good."

Qin Su's physical discomfort made him very irritable, "I know, thank you, where is my computer, I don't drink coffee, but I want to use my own computer."

Xing Wenfei frowned and looked at him: "Qin Su, I'm worried about you, do you know that?"

Qin Su was stunned for a moment, her heart softened a little, but immediately she became a little irritable, "I know. It's uncomfortable for me to sit like this, and it's easier to think wildly. It's better to do work and divert my eyes."

Xing Wenfei thought about it and said, "I bought you some clothes, or you come to try on the clothes, and the time will pass. Let's watch a movie together at night, can we?"

Qin Su asked puzzledly, "Why do you buy me clothes? It's not that I don't have any clothes. But you, you still have a set of clothes at my house that haven't been washed yet."

"Don't think about my dirty clothes. Sister Chen can get them later." Xing Wenfei drank the black coffee in the cup in a few gulps, put the coffee cup on the side table, dragged Qin Su to the guest room, and gave it to the guest room. Qin Su's clothes were all hanging in the cloakroom of the guest room.

Qin Su was dragged uncomfortably to the guest room. Before entering the room, he glanced at a room on the side of the dining room. A little girl with big eyes was looking at him. Qin Su was very concerned, who was that?

"These are all bought for you, do you like them?" Xing Wenfei excitedly took out the clothes and asked Qin Su to try them on. Qin Su stood in the cloakroom in pajamas and asked, "So many clothes, how many clothes are there?" Did you buy it for me?"

Xing Wenfei nodded: "That's right. I asked my assistant to do it early this morning. I also asked her to buy all my clothes. She majored in art appreciation and has a good aesthetic. She hasn't messed up with the decoration yet No. I think you'll like these clothes."

Qin Su is not particularly unfamiliar with luxury brands, but he doesn't know much about them either. Facing a row of cabinets full of clothes at this moment, he didn't know what to think at all.

If Xing Wenfei was rejected, it would hurt his heart again, but if he was to accept it, it was impossible for him to accept such a gift.

Qin Su lightly blocked Xing Wenfei's hand that wanted to take off his pajamas, and said, "Xiaowen, I know this is your wish, but I can't take your clothes."

Xing Wenfei smiled and said, "These are not my clothes, they are yours."

Qin Sudao: "Don't pick words with me, what I mean is, I won't accept these clothes."

Xing Wenfei didn't understand why he rejected his intentions like this. To be honest, since last night, he had suffered from Qin Su's previous three years of accumulating all the anger he should have. How much he was looking forward to these clothes Wearing it on Qin Su's body, how much he hoped to make Qin Su happy, but when Qin Su rejected him at this time, he felt so annoyed and uncomfortable.

Xing Wenfei said: "Qin Su, do you think you are too much? Did you do it on purpose? You have been against me on purpose, just to say, you are sick, I can't bear this, so I have to leave! You You want me to leave on purpose, right?"

Qin Sudao: "I don't. I'm not sick, but you think I'm sick. I don't need you to take care of me! I don't need you to buy clothes for me!"

Xing Wenfei said angrily: "Then you don't want these clothes."

He tugged at a shirt and tried to tear it into pieces, but the clothes might have been so well made that he didn't tear them apart after pulling for a long time.

Qin Su was so angry that he didn't know how to react when he was competing with the clothes, but finally he laughed instead. Xing Wenfei saw that he was actually laughing, so he threw the clothes away, annoyed: "What are you laughing at! Look at me Is it fun to look like a fool like this?"

Qin Su glared at him: "If you insist on giving me clothes, don't give me these expensive clothes. I can't recognize the brand of these clothes. They are valuable or not, but my students and colleagues, especially Girls, you are very sensitive to these things, and you can see it at a glance. I will not accept these expensive things."

Xing Wenfei sneered: "Okay, then I'll go to the garbage dump to pick up a few and bring them back to you, is that okay?"

Qin Su was about to vomit blood from his anger: "Then you go."

Turning around and leaving the guest room, Xing Wenfei followed him out of the room, annoyed: "Qin Su, do you have any problems! Don't you still follow the idea that you must be hard and plain? Do you think the worse you dress? , your students and colleagues admire you even more! This kind of concept has long been outdated! I think your colleague, Zhou Xun, is also well dressed? People nowadays, no matter how nice they say , but my heart has long been flattering and depressing, only respecting clothes and not respecting others, if you don't dress well, others will immediately associate you with downfall, especially if something happened to you..."

Qin Su was so annoyed by what he said, she turned around and scolded him: "You can think whatever you want, and it has nothing to do with me. If you want to only respect Luo Yi, then you go to respect Luo Yi...it's none of my business!"

Xing Wenfei was about to die of anger from him. He felt that his heart was being trampled in the dust. He had never been treated like this before, so he couldn't control his anger and yelled at him: "You are simply unreasonable! ill!"

Qin Su blushed and wanted to go home, but found that he was wearing pajamas and had to go back to the bedroom to change. When he ran back to the bedroom, he found that the cell phone in the bedroom was ringing. He went over and saw that it was his mother calling. I have called several times, because he didn't hear the sound of the phone call just now, so he didn't answer it.

He, who was originally angry, became a little clearer. When he went to get the phone, he realized that his hands were shaking because of anger. He clenched the phone tightly, took a few deep breaths to control his emotions, and then answered the phone. Pass.

As soon as he connected, he heard his mother calling him: "Qin Su?"

Qin Su took a breath and let herself say in a very peaceful tone: "Mom? Is there something wrong?"

Qin's mother said: "Oh, don't you have to call every Saturday? You didn't call last night. We thought you might be busy and didn't dare to call you. Isn't it time for dinner? We thought we should I can call you, have you eaten?"

Hearing the concern of his parents, Qin Su's nose turned sour instantly, and tears overflowed his eyes. He restrained himself, not wanting his mother to hear the fragility and sobbing in his voice, and said, "Mom, I have something to do last night. I was busy, so I forgot to call you. Now I’m going to eat, don’t worry. It’s been very cold recently, you and Dad didn’t catch a cold, right?”

Qin's mother said: "It's just that my stomach is not very good recently, but it's not particularly bad. I don't have a cold. I plan to kill two geese we raise, make spiced goose meat, and send it to you. It's cold now. It should be sent."

Qin Su was in a daze, and said, "No need, don't be too tired. I've been on a lot of business trips recently, so I don't have time to eat when it's sent."

Qin's mother said: "It's okay to put it in the laboratory for the students to eat."

Qin Su said, "It's really unnecessary."

Qin's mother was a little disappointed: "well then. When will you come back for Chinese New Year this year? Will it be New Year's Eve again? "

Qin Su: "There are still several months. Are you starting to prepare for the New Year at this time?"

Qin's mother laughed: "Did you not even check the time? It's already November, and the Chinese New Year will be in less than two months."

Qin Su sighed: "Two months is not too short." He would have to wait at least three months before he could rest assured whether he had HIV or not.

Qin's mother said, "your dad is waiting by the side, why don't you talk to him too."

Qin Su said, "Yes."

Qin's father took the phone over and said, "There's nothing to talk about. You live alone, just pay attention to your health. I know your job, and many students point at you to graduate, and you are under a lot of pressure, but you still have to Take care of yourself."

Qin Su: "Well, I know."

Qin's father: "then hang up the phone, don't waste your time."

Qin Su listened blankly to the beeping sound of the phone being hung up, and put the phone down in a daze.

Xing Wenfei wandered around outside the room, and came in only after Qin Su finished speaking on the phone. He wanted to have a few words with Qin Su, but he didn't expect to see Qin Su standing beside the bed with a face Tears were all over his face, and all anger was frightened immediately, thinking that he didn't hear anything when he called just now, why did he cry like this.