Self-salvation of a cheap substitute

Tired of pretending to be like this, right?

Tired, tired, exhausted, exhausted, there are many words to describe his life status in recent years, but Wang Miao did not choose to say it to Chen Man, but smiled to him. Since meeting Zhao Kai, he has harvested the first A kindness, met Chen Man today, and gained the first understanding in this city. Wang Miao felt that his fate was gradually getting better. If this is the case, why should he complain.

The young man's smile was a bit shy, like the light shining down through the gaps in the leaves and branches in a summer afternoon. Chen Man looked at him and couldn't help pinching his face.

"Thank you." Wang Miao thanked him like a kindergarten student.

"I did hear rumors about you when I came to Pingcheng, but before that, the image of you in my mind was drawn through Jiaming's description." Chen Man smiled.

"He still remembers me." Wang Miao scratched his head embarrassingly.

"He also said that you are a very responsible brother. You have fulfilled his dignity. You also know Jiaming's character. He seldom mentions everything he has experienced in Shenhai City to others, but he occasionally tells me about it. In the past, I couldn't avoid you." Chen Man gave Wang Miao a cigarette.

"It's all in the past." Wang Miao was a little embarrassed to be praised in person.

"Aren't you going to change jobs?" Chen Man asked.

"Maybe in the future, but not now." Wang Miao lowered his head again.

"Alright, you can save my number and call me if you need it." Chen Man didn't ask why, but just patted Wang Miao on the shoulder.

"No need." Wang Miao shook his head, "I helped Jiaming because he shouldn't be in the mud. I can't watch such an excellent boy have his life ruined by others. Helping him is not for the sake of gaining something in the future. But I am different, I would not have a good future, but I am greedy, relying on other people's bonuses to climb to a position that does not belong to me, met people who do not belong to me, and because of my greed I was punished , no one can save me."

"Let's go and meet Jia Ming." Chen Man squeezed Wang Miao's face again.

"I won't go." Wang Miao smiled, "It's good to know that he is fine."

"Then where are you going?" Chen Man asked.

"Going shopping, it's rare to get up so early." Wang Miao turned around gracefully.

"Hey, this kid is pretty cool." Chen Manli stood there dumbfounded, and helplessly raised his hand to scratch the back of his mind.

"Brother, take a look!" Chu Jiachen pouted Lao Gao, who threw his phone on Jiang Lin's desk with an unhappy expression on his face.

"What's the matter baby?" Jiang Lin raised his head in the file, and glanced distractedly at Chu Jiachen's phone. The interface on the screen was the campus network of Chu Jiachen School, written clearly in a big line, "The whole network Look for this handsome guy."

"It's Wang Miao!" Chu Jiachen took off his shoes and sat cross-legged on the sofa, thumping the armrest of the sofa angrily, "Look at him, he ran to my school to show off, he's so annoying, villain!"

"You, you should focus on your work." Jiang Lin changed the subject, "I'm not going to be filming recently, when will I join the group?"

"Not going!" Chu Jiachen yelled.

"What's wrong?" Jiang Lin completely lost the mind to read the file.

"This drama is invested by the Jiang family. I am the protagonist. I asked to change the script. I don't think my role is highlighted in the script. The director just disagrees. He is the dog you raised, brother. I really think of myself as an artist, just like Wang Miao, shameless!" Chu Jiachen spat.

"Director Zhao Fengming is a big shot in the industry, and the box office is guaranteed. You have to be modest and don't talk back all the time." Jiang Lin persuaded.

"It's so annoying." Chu Jiachen puffed up her cheeks and hummed angrily, "It's not going my way at all."

"Calm down." Jiang Lin took a sip of coffee.

"Stinky Wang Miao, the more you think about it, the more angry you get!" Chu Jiachen waved his arms twice against the air, as if hitting Wang Miao in the face.

"How can I calm down?" Jiang Lin asked, amused by Chu Jiachen's childish actions.

"Wang Miao is shameless, so don't blame me." Chu Jiachen folded his arms and sneered.

"What way?" Jiang Lin walked up to Chu Jiachen, and easily picked up the boy in his arms.

"Well, so..." Chu Jiachen leaned close to Jiang Lin's ear and said mysteriously.

Lanjiang Park is a famous place in the city, mostly old ladies and grandpas, there are activities such as spinning tops, Tai Chi, roller skating, blind dates for the elderly, playing chess, etc. There are also children running around on the lawn. When Miao didn't know where to go, Wang Miao would come here, snap, Wang Miao pressed the lighter, the sound of the shredded tobacco being lit and burned was very clear, he closed his eyes and inhaled the smoke deeply, the excessive nicotine let He was a little dizzy, he staggered and put on the hood, the young man squinted his eyes, and looked at the world in a whirl, bustling and bizarre, Wang Miao walked through the crowd like a migratory fish, he turned around and fell himself on the grass Above, the sky is foggy and gray, and there is never a sunny day in this city.

People have no color, and Wang Miao suddenly felt a huge, indescribable, and huge sadness. Loneliness is a very smart thing. It will only charge when you are alone and helpless, and wait for you to open your mouth to tell others. Sometimes, it will be choked in your throat, and you can't make a sound when you open your mouth. In the end, you can only shut up and be silent.

Wang Miao folded his arms to hide his face, and then bent his legs. He was lying on the yellow and green grass in late autumn, like a newborn baby. Fu Xizhou looked at him from a distance, and he wanted to ask why Wang Miao wanted to leave without saying goodbye and let him search for it all, but Fu Xizhou felt a sense of sadness under Wang Miao's calmness. Fu Xizhou turned his back on his back. Perhaps what a person needs most when he is sad is not comfort. A microenvironment in which to release the grief might be better.

After Fu Xizhou sorted out his mood, he looked around, and suddenly his eyes lit up. After confirming that Wang Miao would not have the desire to get up for a while, he trotted closer to the little brown bear who was selling balloons not far away.

"What's wrong?" Wang Miao, who was in a shallow sleep, was patted. The boy thought he was blocking the way, and he opened his eyes in an instant and bounced on the ground.

"..." Little Brown Bear didn't speak, but just handed a leaflet to the boy, and then sat beside Wang Miao with a balloon in one hand and the last leaflet in the other.

"Thank you, milk tea shop..." Wang Miao, who confirmed that it was a false alarm, muttered and lay back down again, earnestly addressing the reader, "Oh, your milk tea is so cheap, and there are desserts, too. It’s very cheap, will you lose money?”

"..." Brown Bear shook his head.

"After distributing the leaflets, you can get off work." Wang Miao smiled, got up and grabbed the last leaflet from Brown Xiong's hand.

"..." Brown Bear shook his head again, and he moved the balloon tied to his wrist, indicating that he could leave work after the distribution.

"Oh, then I'll buy them all. I just made a fortune a few days ago." Wang Miao lay down again with his head in his arms, looking at the sky.

Brown Bear followed the voice and saw that the boy's arm was full of scars. Brown Bear stretched out his hand and pressed the crooked head. He crossed Erlang's legs again and lay down again: "I used to have a boyfriend who got drunk every day."

The answer is self-evident, Brown Bear nodded and sat looking straight ahead, as if still, Wang Miao suddenly said without thinking: "Have you ever been in love? What do you think true love looks like? Isn't it possible to kiss and hug each other every day, and then if it rains, we can nest together and watch dramas?"

Brown Bear nodded, Wang Miao propped up his upper body and looked at the stupid Brown Bear next to him, and said with a smile: "I'm not happy today, I bought all of your balloons as an exclusive benefit for big customers, how about listening to me?" ?”

Brown Bear nodded again.

Wang Miao lay down again, as if thinking of something funny, he continued with a smile: "Since I came to this city, I haven't had a good night's sleep. In my dream, others scolded me, scolded me for being shameless. , but I have to live."

"My ex-boyfriend is very nice to his incumbent, and he is responsive to every request. To be honest, I am very envious, but it is useless. When I was 16 years old, I was working in Shenhai City. I gritted my teeth and bought myself a cake. I blew it out. When I lit the candle, I told myself that I am an adult, adults can’t cry, adults can only laugh.” Wang Miao patted his head vigorously, tears were hiding in his eyes, his voice was a little hoarse, “They did it for a boy. Come to beat me, come to bully me, I want to take revenge on them, I don’t want to forgive them, but I dare not, I dare not make them angry, I am afraid that I will not be able to survive when they torture me again.”

"My debts will be paid off next year. At that time, I will definitely leave this city and travel by myself without taking it with anyone or telling me the destination. I have wronged myself for many years, and it is time to apologize to him. " Wang Miao sniffed, stood up and patted Brown Bear's head, took out his mobile phone and scanned the QR code on Brown Bear's body, and transferred two thousand. Wang Miao grabbed the handful of balloons and shook the flyer , grinning, "Thank you for listening to my nonsense, I'm leaving, you have to work hard, well-intentioned people like me don't exist every day, bye, the first stop, go to your shop to eat cakes, eat support."

"This guy is quite cool." After Wang Miao disappeared in front of his eyes, Brown Bear took off his headgear, and Zhao Kai smiled wryly with red eyes.

"Brother, what did he say?" Fu Xizhou came running from a distance.

"Don't ask any more questions, he didn't say anything, he's going to do what he wants to do." Zhao Kai patted the dirt on his pants, his eyes still fell on the direction Wang Miao left.

"Give me some more money?" Fu Xizhou scratched his head, feeling a little helpless.

"Don't ask, I won't tell you. It doesn't matter how much money you give me. He told his secret to his friends." Zhao Kai put on the hood again.