Self-salvation of a cheap substitute

"My story is very long, where do you want to hear it?" Wang Miao asked.

"I don't know, but I want to know everything about you." Fu Xizhou said with his chin resting.

"Okay, let's start with my alma mater, Xihuang District No. 05 Middle School. I spent my short high school life there carelessly. Frozen flowers formed, and there would be fog outside from time to time. At that time, I would look at my watch. It was about 30:[-] in the morning, and a warm yellow halo gradually appeared in the mist, creating a quiet and peaceful atmosphere. Every time at this time, I I feel like it’s Christmas, and I’ll even hear the wind chimes.” Wang Miao looked at the orange in his hand, and he shook it in front of Fu Xizhou, “That’s how it feels.”

"Why do you think it's Christmas?" Fu Xizhou pinched Wang Miao's little nose and asked gently.

"I don't know, but do you know why crows like writing desks and why mad hatters like Alice?" Wang Miao puffed up his cheeks and replied in a muffled voice.

"I love you, just like a mad hatter likes Alice, like a crow likes a writing desk, it doesn't make sense." Fu Xizhou raised the corners of his lips, his eyebrows and eyes curved into a smile, and he said, "I didn't expect you to like watching Disney movies."

Wang Miao couldn't understand Fu Xizhou's words. He hummed and said, "It was still in elementary school. The teacher would ask if anyone wanted to order extra-curricular books. Every time around this time, my dad would ask Will sign up for me, I remember it was noon, I received milk from the teacher, and a small pink cardboard box, which contained "University", "The Analects of Confucius", "The Doctrine of the Mean", and "Aesop's Fables", "Andersen's Fairy Tales", "Grimm's Fairy Tales" and so on, such stories as the Tin Soldier, the Little Match Girl, Alice in Wonderland, and the Girl and the Pea, and the Mermaid, etc. I like all of them."

"Ha, did you read so many books in elementary school?" Fu Xizhou couldn't believe it, and asked, "This really doesn't seem like something you can do."

"It's too far away!" Wang Miao cast a reproachful glance at Fu Xizhou, lowered his head and muttered, "It's all your fault."

"Okay, okay, you continue to talk, I won't ask, you tell me to listen." Fu Xizhou smiled.

That's more or less.

Wang Miao cleared his throat and said: "Where did I just say, oh yes, Christmas, and then I went out. At that time, I had a bicycle. I rode it to and from school every day. I also like to stand up and pedal. 05 : At 30, it was still dark, and the light from the street lamps could not penetrate the fog, it just spread a layer of halo on the top of the head, and the sound of the tires pressing into the snow was 'creaking'. At that time, I felt that I was Tang Ji Hede, the school is that nasty big monster. When you go out from home, you have to go through a dark path, then turn a corner, go straight, and turn after two red street lights, you will arrive at a pancake shop. The pancakes inside are delicious, soy milk I made it by myself. I chose the package and threw it in. There are red dates, black rice, and many more. I add how much sugar I put in. It costs three yuan and fifty cents a pack. In today’s words, it is three yuan and fifty cents. .”

"There are also my classmates in the store, one is a top student and the other is a scumbag. Every time I will decide whether to ride faster or slower on the next road according to who I meet in the store, but I I usually put the pancakes in my schoolbag, hang the soy milk on the handlebars, and occasionally warm my hands with them. After all, I don’t have gloves, and my hands are sometimes numb by the cold wind. It hurts a lot. I have a cup of soy milk to warm them up. Hands are much better."

"On the way to school, I will pass by an Internet cafe. Every time I pass by, I will see many people running out of the Internet cafe, with their hands in their trouser pockets and cigarettes in their mouths, walking slowly towards the school. But this kind of This situation will definitely not happen in our class, our head teacher will pinch the watch at the door and wait at six o'clock on time, there will be no thunder, rain or shine."

"Then it's morning reading. The head teacher will stare for a while and then go to have breakfast. Except for the people in the first row who are still reciting, everyone else is starting to catch up on sleep. Let me drink some soy milk and eat some pancakes and continue reading what I didn't read yesterday. After finishing the comic book, the classroom will be very quiet and quiet, I think the sound of my chewing will wake them up, and then there will be class, lunch break, class, evening self-study, and school."

"The course schedule is very tight. There is a holiday every four weeks, on Friday morning, and then back to school on weekend afternoons. During the holiday, I will go to the teacher's house with my guitar. He is a very punk guitar teacher. He is very rebellious. It is us. The first man who played a band there, after returning to Wutong City, he rented a small yard to teach students. In the yard, there are morning glory, grape trellis, and vines that cannot be named are climbing along the bamboo trellis and growing wildly. Inside the house, I played the guitar on the swing, I listened to the sound of singing inside, the sound of the drums beating, and I spent the happiest, happiest, and most unrestrained summer there.”

"After I decided to drop out of school, I stayed at the teacher's house for a long time. I asked him if my life would be wasted if I didn't study. He asked me if I regretted this decision. I said I didn't regret it. I just felt that my student life was over. It’s a pity that it’s so fast. He said that since I don’t regret it, then I don’t have to think about whether it is wasteful or not. He said that people live for themselves in this life. Isn’t the most important thing in life is to be happy? He said that it is not reading It is the only way for a person. He said that reading is a way for people to live a simpler life. As long as they live happily enough, it doesn’t matter whether they read or not. As long as they don’t regret it, he also said that he knows my family situation. If I am not happy outside, I can go back to his small yard and be his teaching assistant, teaching students with him, I said I like boys, do you think I am a monster, the teacher smiled , and then told me that if you love someone, you will enjoy every minute and every second with him, instead of being greedy for his organs. The ultimate state of loving someone is to resonate with your lover's soul. Since love is not about organs, Then it doesn’t matter if the love partner is a boy or a girl, the important thing is to enjoy the time with him. To be honest, I didn’t understand it at the time, but I felt the kindness of the teacher. After I realized that I like boys From now on, I will live in self-doubt every day. This is the first time someone pointed out the direction for me. Last time I went back to Wutong City, I wanted to take you to find him, then give him a hug, and tell him that I finally I understand what he said."

"Then, I left Wutong City. A bus ticket, a suitcase, and a guitar were all my belongings when I went south. I went to Shenhai City first. I did all kinds of jobs. I changed jobs frequently and moved frequently. Later, I went to be a trainee, the effect was not bad, the grades were also very good, the company sent me to Pingcheng to participate in the program, everything was fine, until I met Jiang Lin, he started a crazy pursuit of me, I thought I met Love, but I didn't expect him to approach me but he has his purpose. Through his management, everything that originally belonged to me became a halo on Chu Jiachen's head. I couldn't accept this blow and said a lot of bad things to him , and then returned to Shenhai City in despair, but the company did not let me go. They threatened me to repay the debt and forced me to go to sea. I became a tool for the company to create wealth. At first I wanted to escape, but I would always be hunted down After a long time, I got used to it and accepted my dirty self."

"Then, I met Yan Jiaming. In him, I saw me back then, with dreams in my arms, and a smile that was so sunny that I couldn't look directly at him. I wanted to help him, and I swore I would Help him, we must push him out of this fire pit, a beautiful flower must not wither silently in the mud, I spent a lot of money, dredged up a lot of relationships, arranged everything, and sent him to Gu Yi, And it was me who was supposed to appear in front of him, but I knew that even if I appeared in front of Gu Yi, Gu Yi, who is obsessed with cleanliness, would not like me, and would even hate me. Yan Jiaming is so similar to me, I seem to have seen an ideal version of myself, and I am willing to be his shadow, even if it offends the local boss."

"Then, I was revenged, brutally revenged, I had many operations, I was stitched up like a rag doll, and I got my life back, I thought my life was like this, but I didn't When I use value, I will suddenly disappear in this world, but my aunt is sick, very sick, I can only run back to Pingcheng again to see Jiang Lin, to apologize to him, to borrow some money from him, After all, he is my ex-boyfriend, and I felt that he might feel guilty towards me, even if it was sympathy, but he didn't see me, and I went back to Wutong City in a daze, accompanied my aunt to Pingcheng, and tried my best to go to Pingcheng. I raised money, but it was not enough, it was not enough, and later, my loan was blocked, and my aunt missed the best time for treatment."

"At that time, I wanted to go to Jiang Lin with a knife, but I didn't dare to go, so I stayed in Pingcheng. At that time, I was taken to his villa by a black-hearted boss. He was a sadist. I, again, I walked through the ghost gate, but by chance, I met Yang Yunting, or he came to me specially after knowing what happened to me and Jiang Lin. He gave me light, he did justice for me, and found the best for my aunt. The doctor paid all the medical expenses in advance, although I don't like him coercing me, but in fact I can give this life to him, revenge if there is revenge, revenge if there is grievance, I have always been like this."

"Later, my aunt passed away, and I fulfilled my promise to Yang Yunting. I underwent plastic surgery and became Chu Jiachen's appearance. Of course, this was something I only found out later. At that time, Chu Jiachen was studying abroad, and I Changing her real name as a substitute, she reappeared in front of Jiang Lin, until Chu Jiachen came back, everything changed."