fear game

Qi Mo's sexual dysfunction is undoubtedly caused by some painful experience in the past.Why is it okay to masturbate, but not when having sex with others?Could it be...Qi Mo was once forced to have sex with someone he didn't want to have sex with?Lance knows that in clinical cases, being raped is likely to cause this kind of problem, but Qi Mo dared to let Chandler hear his self-comforting voice in front of the killer. Obviously, this It doesn't match the psychological profile of that kind of weak sexual assault victim.What kind of experience caused this conditioned erectile dysfunction?Lance doesn't know, he can only temporarily regard this as another puzzle piece that Qi Mo opened his heart to him, and collect it for the time being to get a glimpse of the whole picture in the future.

Lance remembered helping Qi Mo take a bath when they first met. When asked about the tattoo around his waist, Qi Mo suddenly turned his face and said to him, "I'll tell you if you lick me hard." The words are not purely out of vigilance and deterrence against strangers prying into his privacy, he should be sure that even if Lance does it - although the possibility is extremely small, he will not be hard, and naturally he will never intend to Tell Lance about the origin of the tattoo, it seems that the meaning of the tattoo is very important to Qi Mo.

Lance recalled the circle of green seals that were densely packed like spells, and suddenly he was so blessed that Qi Mo said that he liked numbers and words together—numbers, languages, passwords... But Lance guessed that it was not like any The imprint of the national language and characters is some kind of religious spell or symbol, and now he thinks, could it be... a certain string of codes?Probably.Lance was happy that he had quietly connected the two pieces of the puzzle together. He felt that, vaguely, he seemed to be approaching the dark secret in Qi Mo's heart.But the more it is like this, the more calm you have to be, and you can't let Qi Mo feel that you are studying him and spying on him.

At this moment, Lance recalled the second sentence about sex that Qi Mo said to him. That time he played chess with Qi Mo and he won. Lance asked him what reward he wanted, and Qi Mo was "just kidding." Said "I want to fuck you".Now it seems that behind that "joke" that is not funny at all, there may be hidden great sadness in Qi Mo's heart - a broken soul with a secret, a crippled body that cannot fuck anyone, a man who has lost his masculine dignity and claims to be is a dog man.Qi Mo, under your crazy appearance, how many heavy things are you carrying?

After thinking about this series of events, Lance at this time no longer has the sexiness that Qi Mo teased just now.Qi Mo's frankness about his physical defects not only didn't make him feel contemptuous, but made Lance love him even more.

"It's okay," Lance stood up, cupping Qi Mo's sad face with both hands, "You also said it's only 'temporary', I can wait for you." By coincidence, Lance said this sentence.This sentence is equivalent to confessing to Qi Mo that he is willing to have more physical contact with him, but the timing is not right and the mood is not right now.As Qi Mo's psychiatrist, Lance should never break through the bottom line of professional ethics and give Qi Mo such unrealistic hopes, but seeing Qi Mo's sadness, no matter what the future holds, Lance I just want to give him hope and warmth.

"Really?" Lance actually didn't just want to enjoy his "service", but hinted that he was willing to have more with him.Qi Mo looked at Lance in disbelief, as if standing in front of him at this moment was not an ordinary psychiatrist, but a god who descended from the sky, irradiating the darkest depths of his heart with compassionate eyes.

"Really." Lance said, and leaned forward to press a kiss on Qi Mo's cheek.So gentle, so lingering, so compassionate—a completely different seriousness from the perfunctory one given to Chandler.