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The first time Shen Wei saw Liu Guohua's useless son was the sixth Spring Festival after they met.

None of the first five were seen.

Other people’s children come with big bags and small bags during the Chinese New Year, and they come to have a reunion dinner happily, but his son is empty-handed, and he comes to collect debts after all the money has been spent.

The man is dressed brightly, with gelled forehead, leather jacket, leather pants and new leather shoes, walking on the concrete floor with a "peddling" sound, and kicking the latest mobile phone in his pocket.

He turned from one room to another in a strange manner, looking around, but the room where Shen Wei lived was locked and he couldn't get in.

Shen Wei hid behind the crack of the door and peeked.

Liu Guohua felt guilty, and responded to his son's request, no matter what the naughty son said, he didn't say a word, just counted the money for him rustlingly, Shen Wei was so angry that he gnashed his teeth around in the back room.

"That's all? You let me drink the northwest wind when it's Chinese New Year's Eve?"

Liu Guohua said outside: "No more, that's all."

"Sell this house if you don't! You don't live in a noodle shop! What's the use of this dilapidated house?"

Liu Guohua stood in front of the door: "The house is not for sale. If you have no money, you can earn it yourself. I have given you a lot in the past two years."

After 05, the city changed rapidly, elevated highways rose rapidly, private cars replaced public transportation to occupy the mainstream stage, parks and major entertainment venues were centralized and renovated, the public entered the Internet era, various wholesale markets emerged one after another, and more people began to get rid of traditions and go to the sea Do business or engage in individual economy, and seek new profit models.

In this era, as long as you want to move and are willing to move, there are ways to make money.

But some people just want to lie down and wait for others to feed food into their mouths.

It was rare for him to be so persistent, but he surprised his son, and finally became suspicious, and probed into the dark room with floral curtains behind Liu Guohua.

Liu Guohua raised his voice and repeated his words.

His son stepped past him to push the door: "The Golden House Cangjiao or something? What kind of lock is it on? If you have the ability, let me see. Which vixen is the money spent on?"

He paused and smiled maliciously: "Male, right? I even forgot that my own father is like this. He doesn't like big breasts but butts."

Before he could finish speaking, the door opened, and a high-heeled shoe flew out from the inside and hit the man's forehead. The pain made him feel dazed as he clutched his forehead.

"Your father doesn't owe you anything! He is better than you! Don't steal or rob yourself to support yourself! You would have starved to death without your father, and you still have the ability to scream here? Let me tell you! I will pay for this place." Rent! If you break in again, I will send you to the police station!"

Shen Wei has a good temper most of the time, smiling and looking kind, neither hostile nor aggressive.

Firstly, because he was beautiful, with a melon-seeded face, big eyes and double eyelids, he was the standard beauty embryo of that era.Secondly, it is because he is free and easy, and he can take things easy.At that time, there was no standard definition of "transgender" for men who wore women's clothing. People were very unfamiliar with labels, and Shen Wei never studied those things. He only knew that he liked women's clothing and hairdressing, so he did it. Yes, it made him feel free, he lived entirely on instinct.

But sometimes he is very aggressive, and when he falls into it, he doesn't care, and he curses people very fiercely.

Before the relationship between him and Liu Guohua was broken, he knew how to restrain himself, but once the veil was lifted, he became unscrupulous and flirted in different ways. The calmer Liu Guohua was, the more energetic Shen Wei became.

He yelled when his mouth was burnt after eating noodles, stuck out his tongue and asked Liu Guohua to show him.

Ding Xiang's trembling appearance was very attractive, Liu Guohua turned his face away unnaturally, but Shen Wei wanted to rush to him, wearing a beautiful skirt to show him, and walking around naked in front of him with his bathrobe open.

Many of the things Shen Wei did were very bold at that time, but what did it matter, he was already in danger, as long as he is happy today, who knows what will happen tomorrow.

Liu Guohua was very helpless, and said perfunctorily, "I'm old too, and I don't want to hurt others anymore."

Shen Wei replied to him: "I am not a clean person in the first place. If you want to avoid me, I will drag you into the water together."

That day, Shen Wei finally got his wish and was pressed on the bed for a day and a night. In the end, his whole body was sore and his throat and eyes were so sore that he was almost smoking.

The calluses on Liu Guohua's hands made his skin hurt from rubbing. He felt like he didn't have a whole piece of flesh all over his body, but he was still full of ambition, and the happiness in his heart was so full that it was about to overflow.

Seeing him happy, Liu Guohua also smiled, the first time he laughed so happily.

He went to pinch Shen Wei's nose: "I'm not a good person either."

Shen Wei turned over and lay on his knees, teasing him: "Why?"

"I went in twice."

Shen Wei said, "I know."

"I'm divorced."

"I know."

"I'm about the same age—age—about your age."

Shen Wei laughed loudly: "You are like this now, just like our agency fills out the application materials, I ask you a question and you explain it."

Liu Guohua stroked Shen Wei's smooth back, feeling extremely embarrassed: "I don't have much money, I have two passbooks, and this is all I have for the house, and I have to give them living expenses every month."

Shen Wei narrowed his eyes, holding him and gnawed on his fingers one by one.

"Old Liu."

"Ok?"

"Ahua."

"Ok?"

"Don't tell me this, you keep the money for yourself, I don't rely on you for support."

"That won't work."

"Why not?"

"You are my object, and I must confess."

Shen Wei lay on the bedside and beat the bed, laughing until tears gushed from the corners of his eyes.He suspected that those rumors were all false, and this man was so honest that he couldn't see the slightest appearance of being an asshole.

Soon, a new set of sofas was added to the house, they bought new imported mobile phones, and moved a large color TV to the house.

It turned out that Liu Guohua didn't need these things alone, but now it's different. With one more mouth, there will be more popularity in the room, and life will have hope.

Every time the sun comes out, they take the quilt out to dry. The beautiful floral cloth stands out against the backdrop of gray walls and gray tiles.

Shen Wei also didn't allow Liu Guohua to go to the hairdressing stand at the street corner, or he would go to the western-style hairdressing shop next to the department store, or he could simply do it at home.

Shen Wei's craftsmanship is quite good, and regular customers in the store said he was energetic when they saw the styling for Liu Guohua.

Liu Guohua spoiled Shen Wei like a child, saying "don't be afraid", "I'm here" and "here". It's okay to be a woman and want to be loved.

They are precarious, afraid of being scolded, afraid of losing their jobs, afraid of running out of money, they make money every day, but they also have the right to pursue happiness.

I also want to rely on my own hands to live the life I want to live.

After a while, Liu Guohua kept saying that he had an upset stomach, and Shen Wei joked that he must have been eating irregularly, and that a cook who doesn't eat well is too disgraceful.

They originally thought it was a stomach problem, so they went to the hospital for an examination, and the diagnosis report clearly stated "malignant tumor".

Shen Wei's head "hummed", and he didn't regain his composure for a long time. In an instant, he felt that the sky was falling, he was at a loss, and he almost couldn't hear what the doctor said.

The doctor told him: "The situation is not optimistic, chemotherapy can be done, the result cannot be guaranteed."

Shen Wei made an excuse to go to the toilet.Holding the report, he hid in the cubicle in pain. When he came out, Liu Guohua was waiting for him at the door.

He handed over a tissue and said, "Wipe it off, the makeup is all gone."

Shen Wei pulled him into the fire escape, kissed him fiercely, and wished so sadly that everyone could be buried in his body.

Liu Guohua patted him on the back, like coaxing a child: "Don't worry, I'm destined to die."

Shen Wei couldn't hear the word "death", he gritted his teeth and rubbed his body with snot bubbles.

"How dare you! If you are going to die, I will go to your grave every day to scold you!"

Liu Guohua smiled happily, the creases in the corners of his eyes couldn't be hidden, he kissed the top of Shen Wei's head, and then his forehead: "Well, I will definitely live, I don't feel relieved to leave you alone."

Imported medicines are sky-high, all at their own expense.

Liu Guohua said that the money thrown in is like the stones thrown into the lake. It disappears after a "gudong", maybe you can't even see the splash, so it's not worth it.

With tears streaming down his face, Shen Wei tugged at his sleeve and said, "But I want to save you, and I want you to spend more time with me."

The man put his hand on top of his head, touched and touched.

Liu Guohua survived for several years, but God did not take special care of him. On the day he fell down, he was still holding the dough in his hands, and the water in the stove was still steaming.

As usual every day, he got up early in the morning to prepare to open the shop and cook his favorite noodle soup for Shen Wei.

But in the end, he vomited blood all over the place, and large patches of red spread from the fundus of his eyes to Shen Wei's heart.

This result was not unexpected. In the following days, they carefully avoided this topic, but they were both fully prepared in their hearts, knowing that one day would come.

In fact, it doesn't matter, people always have to return to the soil, Shen Wei understands the reason, but he still panicked, because he suddenly realized that the only thread in his hand could no longer be grasped at last.

He wants to be alone again.

But what about the rest of his life?

He didn't think about it.

I dare not think about it, and I can't think about it.

He didn't want anything that Liu Guohua left for Shen Wei, they were all belongings outside his body.The hospital made him realize his patheticness once again. He has no identity, no position, and cannot sign. The fate between him and that person can never be recognized by the world.

Liu Guohua's ex-wife and son scolded him and taunted him. They thought that the two of them had long been secretive, and that's why he dominated the courtyard. Liu Guohua had to divorce and refused to sell the house.

Shen Wei smiled and did not respond, he was used to misunderstandings and speculations from the outside world, not to mention these things are even more insignificant to him now.

He exchanged all his wealth for that little box, and he was satisfied.

The days to come will really be like running water.

The green leather car whined.

The scenery outside the window changes from lofty mountains to majestic mountains, from poplars everywhere to green farmland, to endless deserts and grasslands.

Shen Wei has seen the desolation in the north, walked through the misty rain in the south of the Yangtze River, and finally crossed the wilderness and snowy mountains in the northwest. Only the small box in his arms never leaves his hands, and no one can touch it.

After ten years, Sister Hua’s blog finally stopped updating, leaving only a blurry photo—a small shop in Shilaiping in the early morning, a man was busy in the kitchen, the sun was like smoke and dust on the man, like a Touch it and it will fall apart.

Shen Wei has no fixed place to live and is always on the road. His parents no longer try to persuade him, nor do they want to have any contact with him.

The only thing that is concerned is the grave of Liu Guohua's parents, and Shen Wei still comes back every year to clean it for him.

Regarding his relationship with Liu Guohua, Shen Wei didn't dare to speak out, but he couldn't panic to the people inside, so he could only vaguely introduce himself as a "good friend".

He bought good wine and vegetables and piled them in front of the tomb, and burned two barrels of paper money, crying against the wind while burning, as if he would feel better this way.

"I'm sorry, son, I can't return it to you, I... I'm sorry..."

Shen Wei gritted his teeth, even if he went to hell, he would admit it, but he couldn't hand over the person in his arms.

This is his, no one can give it.

He was crying so hard, but no one would come to comfort him this time.

Never again.