Abandoned Lover [Future]

Eugene stood motionless at the same spot, his expression turned into one of bewilderment after a brief blank.

He subconsciously wanted to respond to Xiao, with an absent-minded smile on his face.After looking around, he wanted to reach out to touch the game console beside him, but he paused when he saw the dust on it.He turned his head to look at Xiao, his eyes seemed to be asking.

Xiao suddenly felt a little sad.

"...dating is not a mission. You don't have to do anything special to make me happy."

Eugene's outstretched hand fell back to his side, his expression still a little dazed.

"I just thought you might like this place. But if you don't, it's fine."

Xiao stood still in front of Eugene, raised his hands, and placed them gently on the side of Eugene's face.

"You've been thinking about it for so long, I thought you'd lost yourself."

The changing colored light spots reflected in the gray-blue eyes, like fireworks exploding on the snow at night.Xiao's face was close to Eugene's, with warm tenderness in his eyes, and he whispered: "I just want to ask you for a little time, I hope you can come out of your own world and chat with me."

Having said that, he curled his index finger and made a gesture of knocking on the door in Eugene's ear: "Knockknock. My..." He paused, and then said with a smile: "...Is my boyfriend at home? ?”

Following Xiao's words, Eugene's eyes widened.The senses around him seemed to be amplified in an instant, as if someone had removed the hood on his head, allowing him to clearly hear the brisk electronic sounds around him, smell the dust scattered in the air, and see clearly what was in front of him. The face of the lover is as beautiful as a hallucination.

He is like a chess piece that has not fallen, being pinched in the palm of hesitant chess players.For too long, he was trapped in this imprisonment that was difficult to break free, and he even took this undecided tension as the default setting.

Time and time again, Shaw's words and actions seem to have a gravitational pull, forcing him to end up on the chessboard.And when he saw the black and white grid under his feet, he was finally reminded what kind of reality he should live in.

——In this reality, the saddest memories have passed, and the most worrying things have not yet happened.The fate that always mocked him seems to have finally stopped, and kindly presented him with this warm and quiet scene that shines brightly in the dark.

Standing in such a scene, his Adam's apple went up and down, he stretched out his hand, and hugged Xiao's neck indiscriminately.

"Sorry, I just... I don't know how to..."

With a shaken expression, Eugene wanted to find the most suitable sentence to apologize to Xiao.The sense of security that Xiao brought was silent, and while enjoying this kind of attention, he habitually closed himself in his own world.

"It's okay." Xiao patted him on the back lightly, "I know you worked hard and wanted to avoid bad things from happening."

Eugene lowered his head and pressed his forehead against Xiao's side neck: "But I can't think of a way, Xiao. I don't know what to do."

At the beginning, what he thought was how to avenge the culprit of the accident seven years ago.Although such an impulse was strong and direct, it was easily extinguished by the female general's reply—there might be so many people and things he had to fight against, standing so high, and so far away from him.But when he calmed down and wanted to prevent the same tragedy from happening to others, he found that there was still so little he could do.

He is the smallest human being in this world who cannot control his own destiny or save others.

But even so, when he sees other people happy, he can't help but want to keep the other person's voice and expression without pain—just like the pair of brides who swore to each other in the church.It was like being able to show him a bright smile at the moment.It's like Joshua who is always too simple, lacks worry, and is able to move forward without doubt.

He saw the lost part of himself from them, so he didn't want the misfortune that happened to him, in any form, to be fulfilled on these people.

——After all, he cannot create happiness, he can only get strength from the happiness of others.

Eugene's body trembled a little, and all the emotions were mixed together, and finally turned into a simple sentence with a thick nasal sound.

"Xiao, I'm so tired."

The short words smashed into Xiao's chest with a heavy weight.The cyborg tightened his arms, and after a slow breath, accepted the burden with joy.

"...That's because you have always been considerate of others." Xiao's tone seemed to be comforting a child. "The Eugene I know always wants to protect many people. He is a very gentle and outstanding person."

"But he should know that he shouldn't take too much responsibility on his shoulders."

"He can also live an ordinary life and have ordinary happiness like ordinary people."

Speaking of this, Xiao looked down at the lover in his arms, and there was a smile in his voice: "...He can also act like a baby with his boyfriend. He can do it anytime."

Eugene's body froze.Xiao waited for the opponent's resistance, but only waited until Eugene's body softened slowly, and then moved his forehead against his shoulder.

It was a small, nodding motion.

……

Lines of snowflakes appeared on the old action arcade screen. The two wiped off the dust and glanced at each other.

"No cheating."

Eugene warned Xiao seriously.

Xiao looked at him helplessly, took out a few Sagrand coins from his pocket, and put them into the coin slot.

In front of them is a simple and crude fighting game.Eugene chose a male character dressed in a white karate suit with the protagonist's face at first glance.Xiao chose for a long time, and finally chose a blond female sorceress with big breasts.

Eugene cast a skeptical expression, and Xiao shrugged: "Among all the characters, she looks the most like me."

Shaking his head with a headache, Eugene pressed the confirmation button, but a small movement appeared at the corner of his mouth.

... In theory, even if Xiao didn't cheat, Eugene couldn't beat him.The fact is exactly the same. Xiao's reaction ability is far superior to that of human beings. Even if Eugene is the best in this area, there is still a gap.But Eugene still never tires of it, always using the same character, with more or less gaps, being KO'd by Xiao again and again.

Xiao watched Eugene bit his lower lip, his face was obviously competitive, and he refused to admit defeat.The old electronic screen flickered frame by frame, lighting up Xiao's favorite eyes.

——If he could see Xiao's expression at this moment, he would be amazed at the humanity Xiao showed at this time.

The legacy of the human form looked at his lover, and let go of those cold rejections hidden under the perfect appearance.His brows were slightly frowned, and the emotions in his eyes were mixed. Apart from relief and satisfaction, he revealed a wish to preserve this moment for a long time.

Eugene, who was concentrating on the game, was still thinking about the strategy for the next battle, but Xiao stretched out his hand to block his movement.

"What's the matter?" Eugene looked at him with clear eyes like a teenager.

"We've only got three coins left. There's one more machine I want to try."

Eugene nodded.

...After Xiao stood still in front of the claw machine, Eugene looked at him with some surprise.

Inside the gray cover, there are some small furry animal pendants scattered here and there.Xiao stretched out his hand to brush off the dust, and pointed at Eugene: "Choose one you like."

Eugene froze for a moment: "Do you want to give it to me?"

"Yes, if I can get it."

Maybe it was the lighting, but Xiao's expression seemed to be softer than before.

"I don't know if you still remember, when I was working in the amusement park, you came to visit my class."

"At that time, I couldn't leave. You said hello to me and left soon."

"Later, I kept thinking that it would be great if I could come to the amusement park with you in the future. I will definitely give you a gift as a souvenir."

Xiao Man smiled apologetically: "...In the end, I prevented you from returning to Cornova, and the place I found was old and dilapidated, and there was nothing good about it."

"But choose one, Eugene."

"When we get old, even such a worthless gadget should become a good memory."

"What do you think?"

The sentence that Xiao simply uttered was full of beautiful expectations about the future that Eugene never dared to imagine.However, at this moment, he couldn't resist this invitation from Xiao.

"You really talked a lot today" "You don't need to ask this kind of question" - Eugene seems to have said something similar to making fun of Xiao, but he doesn't remember it himself.His gaze had long been cast on the machine that had been forgotten for a long time, and in a somewhat stalled heartbeat, he pointed his fingers to a small dog with blue eyes and light beige fur in the corner.

While making a choice, he heard Xiao's laughter beside him as expected.

The cyborg came up from behind, his lips were already close to his ear, and he opened his mouth vaguely.

"...Wang."

The tips of Eugene's ears turned red immediately, and he turned his head with a disgusted expression, but Xiao's palm on his chest could clearly feel the chaotic beating of the opponent's heart.

Xiao lowered his head and gave his lover a long and fiery kiss.

……

At the end of the night, Eugene was sitting in a seat in front of an arcade machine, his long legs stretched out, his eyes watching the boxing machines with different numbers rolling in front of him.

He held the pendant of the light beige puppy carefully in the palm of his hand, and he stroked its fur lightly with his thumb, as if he was afraid of wrinkling it, or as if he was worried that the slight sweat on his hands would get dirty it.

Xiao leaned on a machine beside him, with his hands naturally propped on the console, listening to the singing on the old-fashioned record player with him.

Amidst the slow music, Eugene suddenly spoke.

"...Xiao, I might not be able to attack Setsuna."

"Really. You just make up your mind."

Eugene turned his head and glanced at him: "You don't look surprised at all."

"I'd be surprised if you made other decisions." Xiao lowered his head and smiled, "I probably guessed it from the time you started avoiding eye contact with him."

"...He is a very good boy." Eugene lowered his eyes, "Seeing the way he smiles, I would wonder if Dietrich would have become similar if I hadn't left."

"Eugene, you didn't 'leave' at the beginning." Xiao reminded him, "You don't need to take responsibility for things beyond your control."

Eugene nodded, with a complicated smile on the corner of his mouth.

"You're right." He looked at Xiao again: "I don't want to embarrass myself anymore. It's time for me to try to be an ordinary person."

Xiao quietly looked at him.

"If Basil doesn't want me anymore, I'll find a place to live with you."

"If something bad happens, I will do my best to protect those who are still around me."

"That's it. I... want to live in the present."

Eugene smiled at Xiao, with a well-disguised anxiety mixed with relief in his expression.

"So, please don't abandon me."

Such a sentence sounded like a joke, but Xiao didn't take it casually.

The cyborg turned towards Eugene, and after a few seconds of silence, he stretched out his right little finger.

Eugene froze for a moment, and almost laughed out loud: "Do you want to pull the hook?" (Pinkypromi color?)

Xiao looked at him.

"Yes." (pinkypromi color.)

...Fingers with obvious skin color differences touch and bend each other, locking each other firmly in the confinement of the fingers.Behind them, the music on the record player quietly changed to the next one amidst the rustling sound.

In the gentle accompaniment of the guitar, the male voice is singing the tune softly.

take me home we don't even need a horse

Take me to the peace I need

I don't need to build a house of stone

where you are is my home

Because "we" are me and you

We drink and laugh and dance in the wee hours

I have everything I need when I'm with you

Home is where I spend my nights with you

Our starry night does not need eaves to cover

I'll lie here with you and watch the time fly by between us till I die I know I've made mistakes

I made you cry all the time

But these are the past

We're closer than ever

I used to wonder why I exist here

but no idea

It was after I met you that the answer finally became clear

I am here

to meet you

To meet you who became my home

……

After a long time, Eugene would think of the sentence that Xiao left that night.

"ipromi color toneverleaveyoubehind."

I promise never to leave you behind.

It was one of the warmest nights in his memory.They hugged to the tune, and Shaw even tried to hold his hand, wanting to dance with him.

……

Shaw eventually missed the appointment.

The author has something to say:

This is a song that actually exists, it is BrunoMajor's Home, and the MV can be found on Bilibili.The Chinese lyrics were translated by myself, and the translation was not good, but the English lyrics are very simple, very moving, and very corresponding to the stories of these two people now and in the future.

Because today is not enough six thousand, I will update it again tomorrow.

Thank you little angels for your continued support.

感谢在2020-11-2218:08:43~2020-11-2318:08:20期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of Xinyi;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!