Abandoned Lover [Future]

Half of the space in the iron box was filled with things Xiao had seen before—cigarettes, alcohol, records and books, and the other half was occupied by a metal box with a lid.This box is deliberately retro, with the words "Extraordinary Cookies" engraved in embossed cursive on the colorful lid, and the corners are already rusted.

Shaw never knew Eugene was a sweetie, but it sure looked like an aging cookie jar.He imagined that Eugene kept the box quietly when he was a child, and he only felt sore and soft in his chest.

He really knew too little about Eugene's past.

Now that he has made a decision, Xiao has less hesitation in opening the box.If what's outside the box accurately reflects the preferences of adult Eugene, what's inside this box is more like Eugene's teenage years-romantic, trivial, even childish.Xiao saw a few round-trip tickets from Cornova to Rhino Bay, movie ticket stubs, sand sealed in clay pots that would crackle when shaken gently, and a poem written on a note: "If the land lets If you are disappointed, come back to the embrace of the starry sky."

The image pieced together from these tiny things is completely different from the Eugene in Cash, full of sentimentality unique to teenagers.Looking at these yellowed things, Xiao felt that some kind of secret desire of his had been satisfied a little bit, but because of the food he had obtained, the hollow part became more and more inflated.

He suppressed his emotions and continued to look through everything.On the way, he found a shiny metal military badge, and subconsciously held it in front of his eyes.

Seeing the words on it clearly, Xiao was a little surprised, because it was not Eugene's name engraved there.

Seis "No.6" Palmer

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Xiao had never heard of this person from Eugene before, but this person had the same surname as Eugene, and maybe he was a relative of Eugene's father.

Facing the surname Palmer, Xiao suddenly remembered what happened when Eugene gave himself a fake identity.At that time, the clerk in the black/market asked Xiao what surname he wanted to take. Seeing that Xiao couldn't think of it, Eugene directly put his surname after Xiao's name.

The expression of the black/market guy was a little surprised at the time, perhaps because of such behavior, most of it was between partners.

Xiao chewed the word "partner" silently, feeling a strange tingle in his heart.He took a deep breath and turned the contents of the box to the bottom in one go.

There, he found something he didn't expect.

——In the gap between the side and the bottom of the metal box, there is a cropped photo.The remaining part has Eugene's smiling face printed on it, and his temperament is somewhere between a teenager and a young man, about eighteen or nineteen years old.His hair is longer than it is now, he wears a battered biker jacket, and his smile looks sweet even.

If the current Eugene's aura is like a sword, whether it is unsheathed or in the sheath, it is powerful and fascinating, but the Eugene in the photo looks a little softer.The way he looks at the people around him is full of attachment, and there is a sense of innocent desire in the clear eyes, making people want to dirty him gently.

Xiao's heart was about to speed up, but at the moment when the blood was about to turn around quickly, this throbbing was forcibly smoothed out, turning into a weird calmness.

In this unnatural lucidity, Xiao thought almost nonchalantly that Eugene had shown such an expression before.

It was a feeling that was almost broken, and he put the photo in his pocket without hesitation, and then restored the box and everything in it to perfection.

It was when he turned around and walked towards the bedroom that he suddenly had a question.

——Who would make Eugene show this expression?

What flashed through his mind were multiple movie ticket stubs, two boat tickets on the same day and in the same direction, and the military badge that puzzled him.

It is true that it is not only relatives who can have the same surname, but also partners.

……

The next day, Eugene sat on the flying boat flying back to Cornova, frowning slightly, tapping the armrest of the seat with his fingers, while thinking about what Joshua had said to him before .

"The gatekeeper's internal slump", "the general's power has been compressed"—combined with the fact that Winona might be set this time, it always made him feel a little uneasy.

As the only anti-war faction with a clear stand among the three generals, if the power of the female general is being suppressed, is it really going to war?

But is it possible?

In the habitable zone of the galaxy where the Alliance is located, there are only two human governments of the same origin, the Alliance itself and the "Scarlet United" Sageron.These two regimes have been in constant conflict since their establishment, and the reasons for the failure to break out of a full-scale war are extremely complicated.The "war" that the female general opposes is the armed conflict with Sagrand, and it also represents the attitude of the majority of the people towards this matter.

In addition to frictions, the delicate balance between these two "countries" has been maintained for centuries, and Eugene has not seen any signs of a breakdown in the balance recently.

Unable to come up with a clue, Eugene could only put the matter aside.

Considering the aftermath of the gladiatorial fight, he deliberately put on sunglasses and a hat.Now no one on the flying boat recognized his identity, and he was able to relax and look at the passengers around him.

Families traveling with children, office workers in formal suits, hippies with modified bodies—and sitting at the front, two boys in black cadet officer uniforms.

Eugene was stunned for a moment.After staring at the two for a long time, he smiled self-deprecatingly, tugged at his neckline, and turned his head.

……

When the flying ship was about to reach Cornova, the vibration of the terminal woke Eugene up from his doze.After the gladiatorial qualifiers, Eugene has quickly blocked all non-contacts, and now in the projection of the caller, Mary is winking with short bright orange hair.

Eugene allowed the call, got up and went to the ship's lounge. "Is there something wrong?"

"Baby!! When is it better for us to come to your house tomorrow?? We have everything ready, you can set a time!! Bchesarereadytoparty!!" Mary blinked one eye at him, and the corners of her mouth raised exaggeratedly stand up.

Eugene didn't react for a while, and after communicating with Mary for a long time, he finally understood the current situation.

It turned out that as early as the second day after Eugene won, Mary took drugs and started a workshop news group, and began to gather colleagues in the workshop to hold a "Congratulations to Eugene for surviving" party .During the three days when Eugene went back and forth about Winona's affairs, Mary also persistently poked him in the group for three days, and finally said bluntly, "If you don't show up again, it will be regarded as your acquiescence."

Others in the workshop were still a little hesitant about Eugene's silence, but the boss Earl waved his hand and approved the leave of the party tomorrow, and also notified that everyone can apply for reimbursement of thirty star pounds for Eugene's gift, It made everyone think about coming to his house for a drink.

By now, Eugene had already missed the chance to refuse.Facing the expectant look in Mary's eyes, he thought about it and decided to have a gathering with the people in the workshop at seven o'clock tomorrow night.

After closing the line, Eugene sent a smiling face in the group to show his attitude, and then sent a message to his boss Earl, thanking him for being so attentive to his personal affairs.

The old man's reply came quickly and was divided into several pieces.

"It's nothing, having a party is a celebration, but it's also considered a big deal for you."

"I'm just worried that if something happens to you, we've said goodbye."

"I'm getting old, and I always think about this kind of thing. Don't dismiss my thoughts as unlucky."

How could it feel unlucky.Thinking so, Eugene didn't reply any more, but just smiled bitterly.

If the next opponent is not Winona, Eugene judges that the possibility of winning is nearly [-]%.However, because he promised that the female general would not kill her, the uncertainty suddenly increased by [-]%.

Let the party be the party.After all, no matter what the result of the next game is, he will not have much time to spend with this group of people.

……

"...So the next match will be the same. Afterwards, I will watch the replay of the last match and study her fighting habits."

After returning home, Eugene went straight to the kitchen to pour himself a glass of water, then turned his back to Xiao, and explained to him the conclusion after going to Rhino Bay.

Xiao stood aside and remained silent.Eugene turned around to look at him, and found that the other's expression was a little different from usual, but he couldn't tell what it was.

"what happened?"

Eugene asked him.

Xiao stood in front of Eugene with a calm expression, but his mind was already occupied by some endlessly repeated questions.

—Who is Seyes?

——Why do you keep those things in your box?

——Which person, and in what way, made you show the expression in the photo?

None of these questions, however, is exportable.Not to mention that he didn't have the right to flip through Eugene's private possessions without authorization, even if Eugene spread out these things in front of him today, he didn't know whether he should ask.

After all, they were not real lovers, and he had no right to question Eugene.

He doesn't even know why he cares about the answers to these questions.But for the first time he was in an indescribable mood as he thought of the possibility that Eugene had ever had a partner.

It was as if a piece of the treasure he once thought he had monopolized had been chiseled away before he noticed it.

It's ridiculous that he doesn't love Eugene, but wants everything about this man.

... When Xiao hugged him, Eugene was a little surprised, but he didn't resist.After all, Xiao's future can be considered to be firmly bound to himself. Facing the approach of the next gladiatorial fight, it is understandable that his actions are somewhat abnormal.

Xiao's movements seemed to be a little more gentle than usual, but inexplicably carried a bit of strength that he couldn't help but refuse.The fingers around Eugene's waist tightened slowly, and in the end it even hurt a little.Eugene endured the pain, and when Xiao lowered his head close to his lips, he slowly loosened his teeth.

He wanted to appease the restless cyborg.

Xiao's kiss was gentle and long, and Eugene relaxed himself, allowing himself to immerse himself in this rare warmth.

...until he started to experience something unnatural in this kiss.

As if to prove the superb kissing skills of the lover model biochemical man, Xiao used his body and breath with ease, almost deliberately mobilizing Eugene's senses.When Eugene's breathing began to become heavy, Xiao stretched out his hand without hesitation, trying to reach into the hem of the opponent's jacket.

Then Eugene grabbed his wrist tightly.

"...Stop it." Eugene opened his eyes at some point, and put his other hand on Xiao's chest, opening the distance between the two of them.

Xiao looked at him, his eyes were clear, without any trace of emotion.

"Does it make sense?" Eugene stared at Xiao's eyes with sharp eyes, and pulled out a smile without a smile. "What do you want to do?"

Xiao didn't speak.

"Is there nothing to explain? Or do you just want to see me happy?" Eugene was still smiling, tilting his head slightly, almost looking like he was asking a normal question.

Feeling the anger emanating from Eugene, Xiao finally opened his mouth: "I just want to try..."

"There's no need for that." Eugene interrupted him, the corners of his mouth slowly retracted, and the temperature in his eyes became even colder. "I know what you can and can't do, I don't need you to 'try' to desire/desire me."

"Eugene..."

"I have never treated you as a plaything, and you don't need to try to satisfy me in this kind of place." Eugene wiped his lips vigorously with his thumb, twisted his index finger and thumb, his face It was a fleeting revulsion. "Or do you feel sorry and want to compensate me in this way?"

Xiao couldn't say a word.

"It's unnecessary, and it's very insulting." Eugene took a step back and looked at Xiao with a look that the latter had never seen before.It took Xiao two full seconds to discern that the emotion was probably called "disappointment".

"Next time before you have a whim, I hope you can consider the other person's feelings." Saying this, Eugene gave Xiao a deep look for the last time, turned and walked out of the apartment and closed the door behind him.After all, if he didn't isolate himself first, he was afraid that he would really say something to attack Xiao.

This is because both he and Xiao knew that Xiao couldn't have physical desires for people other than his master.

——After discovering his feelings for Xiao, Eugene didn't naturally restrain his urge to get close to Xiao.Before making up his mind to sign up for a duel, Eugene's mood gradually sank to the bottom as the day when Shaw was destroyed approached day by day.At the last moment, he couldn't hold it back, and even nestled in the study and got drunk.

When Xiao carried him to the bedroom, Eugene gradually woke up.And then the moment Shaw put him on the bed, Eugene let his unconsciousness go, looking into those beautiful gray-blue eyes.

He stretched out his hands and forcefully brought Xiao towards him, causing Xiao's weight to press up in a panic.

He didn't know how to describe his feelings at that time. Perhaps the extreme despair became a terrible longing.At that moment, he really hoped to have Xiao for a short time.

Until Xiao said sorry to him.

Under his palm, Xiao's heartbeat was steady and gentle.Eugene's feverish body temperature slowly dropped, and he noticed that Xiao looked at him with an apologetic expression.

...Standing downstairs in the apartment, Eugene's fingers trembling while lighting a cigarette.

One time is enough for self-inflicted humiliation.

……

Xiao upstairs looked at the blank space in front of him, and felt that he seemed to understand what human hatred is.

Because he hates himself.

He hated himself for clearly not being able to fall in love with Eugene, but for being able to have a terrible desire for exclusive possession of this same person.

——I just want you to show that expression in front of me.

— Mine, Eugene.