Abandoned Lover [Future]

The sun shone on Eugene's back, embellishing his figure with gold.In an almost genial atmosphere, Eugene stood in the silence he had drawn for himself.

... When he woke up between the arms of No. 6, he called No. 6's name over and over again in the midst of a splitting headache.However, what he couldn't forgive himself the most was that at the very beginning, there was even a hint of complaint about the other party's reckless behavior in his tone.

At that time, he thought, even if this person is fine, he shouldn't always act like this.Unaware that No. 6 in front of him is dying little by little, and all eighteen of his colleagues have died in the line of duty.

The detonation point of this explosion was in the east wing where the laboratory was located, and it was also the assembly point he had personally set.His attempt to save the lives of his own team members ended up sending the same group to death.

Although No. 6 and the west wing where he was at that time were also severely affected by the explosion, it was much better than the almost flattened east wing.Such an ending made Eugene wonder afterwards whether both of them would have survived if Number 6 hadn't chosen to protect himself.

However, there is no if.

No. 6's sanity lasted until the moment the rescue team arrived.The man said "look at me" while calling his name with an expression he had never seen before.The smile and eyes, which were obviously several times gentler than he imagined, eventually became a curse that he could no longer shake off.

He still remembers that he wanted to block the piercing wound on the opponent's body like crazy, and then when he saw the rescue team's searchlight, he dragged his broken right leg and crawled out from under No. 6's body.On the ruins full of rubble, rubble and steel bars, he knelt down and left a gray mark. He shouted to the place where the light came from with a distorted voice, begging for someone to save No. 6's life.

The second collapse of the building happened at this time. Amidst the thunderous sound, he turned his head and watched the high-rise floor slowly fall in the slow-moving camera, crushing on the deep buried No. 6 remnant. Kagami.The steel bar under the impact nailed No. 6 firmly to the ground, and also smashed the opponent from under the chest into a pool of blood.

After that, Eugene’s eyes went black and he lost consciousness.

When I woke up again, I was in the ward three days later.He was lying on the warm hospital bed, the tears and blood stains on his face had been wiped clean.While he was in a coma, No. 6, who had no family, failed to wait for a proper funeral. After that winter night, he became a handful of quiet ashes with little weight.

——These are all details that he omitted, without export.

In order to take into account Xiao's sense of security, he said very few words about No. 6.He couldn't control his unavoidable wavering when he mentioned No. 6, and he was also afraid that the emotion he showed would make Xiao doubt the relationship between them.

So he can only say nothing.

The previous narration was too depressing, and when it was finally time to finish, he wanted to smile at Xiao.But he couldn't do it in the end - he had no reason to laugh, he still hurt like hell.

Opposite him, Xiao clasped his hands on his knees, sat in the shadows and looked at him, before opening his mouth for a long time.

"You don't need to care about my feelings in this situation." The deep voice hit the wall of the room, bringing a slight echo: "...I know you are deliberately bypassing him."

Eugene didn't speak.

The tall cyborg sat up from the chair, approached Eugene step by step, raised his right hand, and stroked Eugene's cheek.

"You can tell me about number 6, Eugene." Shaw's voice was calm: "Although I can't lie and say that I like him, just because he saved your life, I will always be grateful to him .”

"I know he is an important part of your past...even now. Pretending that this fact doesn't exist is meaningless to both of us." Xiao lowered his eyes, observed Eugene's expression carefully, and put his tone in a low tone Softer: "If you can't say what you want to say in front of me, who can you say it to?"

—Eugene had only him.He imagined that Eugene would spend the rest of his life alone with memories that he would never be able to mention to others, and felt that it was a very lonely thing.

And he didn't want to abandon his beloved human being in such a corner.

"So please tell me more about him."

"I can remember him with you."

Eugene took some time to regurgitate the sentences.These words are Xiao's understanding statement, but he is not sure whether he should take it seriously.Perhaps when he really confessed everything, what he gained was still the jealousy that Xiao concealed.

"It's okay." When he was still hesitating, Xiao said so, put his hand on the top of his hair, and stroked it soothingly.

Eugene's defense was like a destroyed outer wall, because of this action, it collapsed in an instant and fell silently to the ground.

His hand stretched out, and finally grabbed the fabric of Xiao's chest.After pulling the other party towards him, he leaned forward heavily like a statue that had been knocked down.

Xiao caught him in his arms.

……

After leaving on the 6th, which part was the most unacceptable to him?

Did you lose your only friend, relative, lover?Did he kill this man with his own hands?Is it because I handed over all the ugly, selfish, and weak parts to No. 6, and then after No. 6 left, I found that there is no other person in this world who knows my true self?

——He is afraid of loneliness and pain. Since he was a boy, he always hoped that someone could look at him all the time, give him many hugs and kisses, and tell him that he would never leave him alone.He himself hated himself for being so greedy, but No. 6 gave him everything without making a selection.

He who has always been politely rejecting this world has long since forgotten how to show his true needs to others, let alone beg for tenderness.So while he lost the number 6, he was even robbed of a part of himself that he thought he could not lose.

The apartment they used to live in is still the same as it was before No. 6 left. The clothes that this person often wears are still hanging in the closet, and there are two pillows of different heights in their bedroom.On the note in the refrigerator, No. 6 wrote a brief message in excessively forceful handwriting, telling him that he had run out of milk, but did not say whether he would buy it.

All the traces left by No. 6 were killing him, and standing in this huge, unspeakable sense of loss, he found that there was no one around him who could understand his pain at this time.

He had no one to talk to, nothing to say, at the end of the day, he could only turn on the computer at home, and said to No. 6 who no longer existed, take me away, I am in so much pain.

……

Eugene covered his face with his hands, but when he breathed, tears fell silently from the gap between the heels of his palms.

In the past few years, he seldom shed tears in front of others, and the few exceptions seemed to be given to Xiao.

The sentences that came out of his mouth were fragmented, he didn't know if Xiao understood, but that didn't matter.The important thing is that he was finally able to expose the ugliest part of himself in front of this person, and smashed it in front of Xiao like a broken can.He didn't know what he would get, but the lump on his chest, like the suffocation brought by an old blood clot, finally dissipated silently as he spoke.

He has done things unimaginable seven years ago.He found such a person who could make him have the courage to expose his bloody and unguarded soft belly, and look back at the heart-pounding pain at that time again.If Xiao couldn't heal him, he didn't mind being left with a mortal wound by this man, a scar that would end him.

He didn't want to be stuck in the past, but he didn't want to move forward into the sun either.If Xiao was the one who left him in the end, he could at least say without regret that he really tried his best, even though he couldn't leave anything in the end.

Even though he blocked his view with his hands, Eugene could feel Xiao looking at him.In silence, Xiao's right hand lightly pressed on the back of his head, and his left hand hugged his waist after tightening.The soft long hair brushed against his fingers and shoulders, and Xiao's lips moved to his ear, speaking the sentence that lifted his curse.

"You were exchanged by him with your life, the most precious thing."

"You deserve a lot of love, and a lot of kisses, then and now."

"You will always be me...and number 6, worth everything, someone special."

……

Feeling the shrugged shoulders of the person in his arms because of choking, Xiao lowered his eyes and kissed Eugene's temple.

For Eugene's speech, he did not feel any surprise.Because he had already discovered that Eugene was actually the simplest and most difficult kind of lover—a person who needed the absolute purest attention and understanding, without the slightest hesitation or boredom.A large part of the reason why No. 6 can stay with the other party is that No. 6 is not an ordinary human being.

He who can really enjoy and fully respond to this longing, in this world, he does not want to be anything but himself.

In a kind of secret satisfaction, he tightened his strength to hold Eugene—everything about this human being seemed to be designed according to his preferences, and even now he was trying to suppress the choking appearance, and the bulge on the red neck. The bulging blood vessels made him terribly fond of them.

He didn't lie to Eugene, but the fact is that he didn't really care about what Number 6 saw and thought at that time, nor would he be moved by the epic sacrifice of this person who had never met before.If No. 6 stood in front of him at this moment, all he would say was one simple sentence.

——Thank you for sending him to my side, making him the most suitable pair of lovers in the world.

The author has something to say: The article has been revised on December 12.

There are still the last nine chapters to fix, thanks for your patience.

In order to maintain the sense of atmosphere, this chapter is interrupted before the next episode, which is a little short.

Continue tomorrow.

感谢在2020-11-1417:26:17~2020-11-1517:53:49期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: I am just a small mushroom, 10 bottles of acridine; 5 bottles of Xinyi;