Abandoned Lover [Future]

8 month 22 day.

... Eugene hadn't smoked for five days.

The taste of gummy bears began to become monotonous, and the smell of artificial sweetener gradually became unbearable.He didn't know how Miles was able to chew this thing day and night, and he missed the calmness that nicotine brought him.

He leaned against the head of the bed, lit a match, and watched it light up quietly with the sound of "chi la".The sky in Shatas was not fully lit yet, and in the room without the lights on, the light from the fire illuminated Eugene's undressed upper body and the marks all over his wheat-colored skin.The mottled kiss/bite marks and bite marks fell on the parts that would be perfectly covered by clothing, showing the unusual thoughtfulness of the perpetrator.But the depth and density of these traces seems to reflect the obsessive possessiveness of the giver.

Every time he had an affair with Xiao, the other party would completely turn him into a container that didn't need thinking.He would always scratch each other's backs vigorously when climbing to the top, and call each other's names in a chaotic and hoarse voice.The hallucinatory bliss of such exposure made Eugene feel almost as if he were on some kind of drug.

And he always knew how easily he became addicted to drugs.

——Tobacco, alcohol, tranquilizers, and now there is one more Xiao.Now that the withdrawal reaction of nicotine is extremely unbearable, he always wants to feel the cool body temperature of the biochemical person more deeply.It's just that this addiction not only comes from his body that eats and tastes, but also from his heart that wants to become numb.

Subconsciously, he just wants to hide in Xiao's thick and heavy love, and let this syrupy feeling wrap himself in layers, becoming a barrier that can separate him from reality.

However, he still hasn't figured out whether what he wants to escape is the reality, or the self who has no clue about the future.

Eugene watched the match die between his fingers without expression, and the ignited black fines fell on the sheet covering his lower body.Xiao, who was beside him, approached him, bent slightly in front of him, and blew the crumbs under the bed, without staining the white fabric with any black marks.

"...Let's go find Sanqi."

After a long silence, Eugene opened his mouth and directly concluded the itinerary for the two of them.Xiao didn't ask much, just turned his head and smiled at Eugene: "Okay. It just so happens that I've always wanted to fix my arm."

Both of them knew very well that such a choice was only to put aside the task Basil gave to Eugene for the time being.

On the one hand, there is the sympathy that Eugene didn't know how to abandon, and on the other hand, it is the only past he can keep.Choosing the former is tantamount to taking the only landing point out of your feet, while choosing the latter means killing yourself who has firmly believed that innocent people should be preserved for the past 30 years.

Setsuna has long been not just a victim for retaliation against Hades, but a vote of honor that Eugene handed over in order to choose a path.

Basil was well aware of the nature of this matter, so he didn't set any time limit for him.

He couldn't hate Basil, so he could only loathe himself.

……

As Sagrand's most famous mechanical craftsman, Sanqi is famous for his eccentric personality and erratic whereabouts.However, his whereabouts are uncertain not because his address is hidden, but because there are too many residences under his name, all over the border and the star circle of the capital, and it is difficult to find them one by one.What Eugene got this time was the location where San Qi had already been identified.

Fortunately, the address written on it is located on a planet not far from Shatas City, and it is named after it is responsible for the production of agricultural and pastoral products for Shatas.This planet has no official name like Station A, but it is affectionately called "Barn Star" by the people in Shatas City.

The distance between Granary Star and Shatas City is so short that Eugene and Xiao set off in the morning and arrived before noon.Eugene had never been here before, so when he drove to the sky above the destination, he was surprised to find that it turned out to be a rather beautiful town.

The area of ​​the town is actually quite large, but compared to the endless wheat fields around it, it seems a bit small.The architectural style here seems to have been copied from an old western in the old earth period. The houses and shops are cute and low, with white walls.Even the road signs and restaurants and signboards on the street are painted with beautiful red cursive letters.At first glance, there is no trace of technology in this town.However, Eugene drove the ship all the way over, and the radar showed that this area was in a huge radiation interference network, and under the patches of wheat fields, there were also various electronic devices for monitoring and interfering radiation.

A hallucinatory pastoral utopia—Eugene can probably understand why Sanchee would want to live here.However, even though he knew that what was in front of him was just an old illusion, his expression still subconsciously softened a little.

After all, the sunlight falling on his shoulders is real, and so are the ears of wheat he casually picked up by the roadside.The white doves flying over their heads were real, as were the church bells in the distance.

It was the first time Eugene heard the church bells after leaving Cornova.He originally thought it was the bell used to tell the time at noon, but he quickly discovered the difference two seconds later—it was not a flat and single sound, but a melody woven by eight notes through repetition.

——This is the wedding bell that only rings at weddings.

Eugene was stunned for a moment.

Eugene had been no stranger to wedding bells during his days at Arning House.On weekends in June, from several magnificent and towering church towers in the White Tower area, there will always be bells ringing specially for the marriages of noble children.Perhaps because of their different identities, these dignitaries never bothered to use such a simple scale, but wanted to compose gorgeous and unique tunes one after another to show their uniqueness.

Eugene and his family have also been invited to several weddings.After all, it is a noble family with a long history, and they are always able to sit in the front seat of the guests.But even so, he was still so far away from the newcomer when he was young, and he had never been able to see the expressions of the two when they took the oath.

A sudden memory made Eugene stop in his tracks.The reason why he finally recovered was that Xiao opened his mouth.

"I want to go and have a look." Xiao said, smiling gently at him.

……

When going to the church, Eugene just planned to pass by and take a look.However, when they got to the door, they found that they had caught up with the guests entering the arena.An elderly woman standing at the door silently beckoned people to pass through the gate, and he and Xiao also became the objects of the beckoning.

Not wanting to block the flow of people, Eugene stepped sideways, bent down and explained to the old woman slowly and clearly that he and Xiao were just strangers passing by by chance.The old grandma stared at his lips for a while, and finally opened her mouth, but she didn't make a sound.It was only then that Eugene realized that the other party was missing a tongue, and now he was repeating two simple sentences with the movement of opening and closing his lips.

- it doesn't matter.

- We want to share joy with people.

Such silent sentences are far more touching than loud shouts.Eugene still hesitated, but when he was "talking" with the old lady, all the few guests had already entered the church.As if not wanting the hesitation of the two to delay the subsequent ceremony, the old woman who was only as tall as Eugene's shoulder simply pushed the backs of the two, pushed them into the door, and then closed the door with a smile.

The size of the church is not large, which is why it can only play bells with only eight notes.However, because of this, even if Eugene and Xiao sat in the last row, they could still clearly see the altar slightly above their line of sight in front of them, and the white-haired priest in front of the altar.

The noise of the guests lasted for ten minutes, and then quickly disappeared after the pipe organ played a note.After another moment of waiting, the door of the church opened again, and it was time for the groom to enter.

...The first thing that catches the eye is the white skirt.

A young woman in a floor-length white gauze dress stepped in slowly, with a bright and dazzling smile, and one of the hands holding the bouquet was a prosthetic limb made entirely of metal.Amid the smiles and gazes of everyone, she walked to the right side of the altar step by step with steady and firm steps.She raised her jaw, and cast her eyes in the direction of the door, with obvious hope and joy in her eyes.

The organ played the wedding march.At the gate that opened again, a man, a woman, and two young children stumbled in.The boy among them was a little lame, and his walking pace was obviously weird, but his big and bright eyes were still fluttering, and he looked left and right and walked forward.

——And at the end, what appeared at the door was another woman in white gauze, and the old lady who had greeted Eugene before.

The bride's face is as soft as her partner's, and although she has no prosthetics, her throat has been replaced by a single piece of metal.She is holding a woman who looks like her mother in her arms, and is walking forward with a smile.The dimples on her lips were filled with all the happiness a person could imagine, and there was a tearful smile in her narrowed eyes.

Another bride beside the altar watched her lover walking towards her, raised her hands, covered her lips silently, her eyes turned red quickly.

...a red carpet without too much decoration, and a wooden bench with mottled backs.The hydrangeas that line the aisles are a single shade of pink and white, and the simple pipe organ has a faded brass body.Only rough geometric figures can be pieced together on the painted glass windows. After the sunlight passes through it, it will still cast gorgeous light and shadow on the ground, as if in a dream.

Eugene sat in such a scene, watching two girls with their own disabilities, telling each other their love for many years.One of the girls' metal arms trembled uncontrollably as she pinched the words, while the other girl's electronic voice full of mechanical traces revealed a sob or two uncontrollable during the confession.

Directly above the altar, a beam of undyed sunlight fell on the center of the couple, reflecting the dust floating in the air, and also illuminating their eyes looking up at each other when they raised their heads at the same time.

... At that moment, Xiao took Eugene's hand.

Eugene looked at Xiao subconsciously, but found that Xiao's eyes were looking at the hands they were holding at this moment.

The cyborg's slender fingers moved, and his thumb slid across Eugene's ring finger.Then under Eugene's gaze, Xiao raised his eyes, smiled at Eugene, and slowly opened his mouth.

Light blonde long hair, as if transparent white skin.Gem-like clean gray-blue eyes, light-colored lips as soft as satin, and a honey-like smile.

In the pouring sunlight, Eugene watched his angel's lips move silently.After being dazed for a few seconds, Eugene slowly realized that Xiao was repeating the oath from the altar to him.

Eugene failed to respond in the same way to the other newcomer when he spoke.

...He just looked at Xiao, rolled his Adam's apple, and frowned slightly, showing a confused and bewildered expression.

Xiao didn't care.

Amid the cheers and applause from the crowd, Xiao quietly leaned to his side and kissed the corner of Eugene's eyes.

……

At the end of the wedding, a group of guests filed out of the auditorium and went to a wide lawn behind the church.There were already several long tables covered with white tablecloths, on which various home-cooked meals were set.

Eugene and Xiao didn't choose to sit down. They stood under the shadow of an oak tree, amidst the lazy chirping of cicadas, watching the people attending the wedding ceremony laughingly eating in the distance.

There was no expression on Eugene's face.After a long silence, he withdrew his gaze, looked at the shadow at his feet, and opened his mouth in a low voice.

"...I've been thinking about Setsuna."

"I can't imagine that I can attack Setsuna. But Basil also told me that this child will die immediately."

"His premonition never missed. So I've been thinking very hard about the circumstances under which I would make such a terrible decision."

"Because I'm terrified that I'm going to be someone I don't even know."

Eugene took a deep, slow breath.

"Then I thought about it. If someone wants to take you away from me, even if they are innocent people... even if it is a child like Setsuna, I will do it."

"I don't know if it's a possibility, but at the end of the day, I'm not a noble person at all."

——What protects the innocent, what does not draw a knife to people who are weaker than oneself.Eugene laughed at himself almost viciously in his heart, and finally uttered his own sentence: "Before I feel guilty for Setsuna, I have already killed too many people without feeling it."

"Have you ever seen anyone more hypocritical than me?"

He raised his head and showed Xiao a bleak smile that was almost brilliant.

Xiao looked at him silently, and finally came to Eugene's back, gently wrapped his arms around the other's waist with one hand, and covered Eugene's eyes with the other.

……

The blindfolded Eugene slowly retracted the arc of the corner of his mouth.In a black field of vision, he was replaying the previous scene that he never expected to happen.

Xiao Zai repeated the oath to him silently.

"I am willing to make you my legal partner."

"From this day forward, rich or poor, sick or healthy."

"I will take care of you and love you until death do us part."

Eugene's eyelashes trembled in Shaw's palm.

—This is for me, for my sentence.

— I am like those who stand before the altar.I am also someone who is loved.

——I also have... the happiness that I want to hold on to forever.

The hands that had been soaked in blood countless times slowly clenched into fists.

In this wedding full of laughter and laughter, in order to keep this selfish happiness, he took the initiative to become a sinner whom he despises.

The author has something to say: The article has been revised on December 12.

感谢在2020-11-0818:07:05~2020-11-0918:07:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: 1 piece of autumn blue;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 40 bottles of Hantang Duheying;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!