Abandoned Lover [Future]

Eugene originally planned to sail to Shatas, the main city on the border of Sagrand today, but because of Xiao's unexpected situation, he could only temporarily change the plan and head straight for the first inhabited planet after the sentry post.This planet doesn't even have a serious name, only a town for passengers to rest and resupply, code-named "Station A".

The natural environment of stop A is extremely barren, even after artificial transformation, it is still a bleak desert.It was still daytime when Eugene and Xiao came, but as the strong wind blew, the sky darkened in an instant, thick wind and sand fell on the old and dilapidated buildings, and everything in the field of vision was gray.

Eugene parked the ship in the berthing area, wrapped Xiao's arm around his shoulders, and supported him step by step towards the hotel in front of him.The room they used to stay was narrow and dark. When the cyborg sat down on the edge of the bed, Eugene kept standing, took out the terminal with one hand to retrieve information, and clenched a fist with the other.

- Cyborg/Overheat

——cyborg/overload/solution

——Sagron/cyborg/repair

He quickly checked the search results, but couldn't find the answer he wanted.The clenched fist reached his lips, and he subconsciously bit the knuckle of his index finger.

"...Eugene." Xiao called his name. "Eugene."

Eugene finally stopped what he was doing, but he didn't look back for a while.After reacting for two seconds, he finally looked at Xiao.

That expression made Xiao want to sigh.

"I'm really fine." Xiao's voice sounded extremely patient: "After information overload, it's normal to overheat for a while. Now my energy is almost bottoming out, and the temperature has also dropped."

So saying, he opened his neckline to show Eugene.The skin there was still red, but much better than before.

"Look. I just need to take a break and recharge my energy."

Eugene put away the terminal, walked to the luggage of the two without saying a word, and took out Xiao's energy line from it.Seeing that Eugene was about to lift up the hem of his clothes without saying a word, Xiao directly leaned against the head of the bed, blocking the position of the joint on his lower back.

"I don't want to charge right now."

No matter how gentle Xiao's tone was, this kind of speech still made Eugene leak a little anger.He frowned and looked at Xiao, but before he began to refute the other's willfulness, his temper was blown away by the other's next sentence.

"...I also want to feel what it's like for humans to be sick."

Eugene's hand holding the energy cord paused for a moment, and finally dropped to his side.Xiao's words made him suddenly feel heartbroken, and even briefly covered his nervousness and anxiety at this time.

"Hug me, Eugene."

As if seeing through his wavering, Xiao stretched out his hand to him, showing a smile he couldn't refuse.

……

After that, Xiao rested on Eugene's lap, looked up at his lover, and gently stroked the hair on the other's forehead.

He asked in a low voice, "Why are you so scared?"

It took a long time before Eugene said, "If something is wrong with you, I don't know how to fix you."

——Lover model cyborgs belong to the category that requires precise maintenance. They are placed in the alliance, and they are all repaired and serviced by the society.Now that they have left the academy, because Sagran doesn't have a product that completely corresponds, those who can repair Xiao can only find it by luck.

If you can't find it... Eugene doesn't want to imagine that possibility.

Even if the cyborg didn't die in the true sense, after Xiao was shut down due to a malfunction, he would still lose the other side.After all, a biochemical person stripped of consciousness is no different from a scrapped machine.

He could imagine how he would rush back and forth until he could wake the other person up again.But he still couldn't guarantee that when Xiao opened his eyes again, whether the other person was still the person he was familiar with—or would he go back to the beginning and become the one who had no memory of himself and was extremely gentle and obedient to the "master" biochemical man.

Once he would fall in love with Xiao like that, but he couldn't imagine that the same thing would happen again.

He always felt that the person in front of him who had shared all his experiences and memories with him, piled up with countless data, was the soul named Xiao.

... Noticing that Eugene's arm holding him was trembling slightly, Xiao couldn't bear it, but also felt the real and cherished feeling.Eugene was afraid of losing him—Eugene needed him so, so badly.

This made him feel supreme, indescribable satisfaction.

"I won't lie to you, Eugene."

Xiao's voice was soft and low, almost exuding a sweet breath.

"If something serious happens to my body, I will tell you as soon as possible."

"Because I cherish the time I have with you, and I will do everything possible to protect it."

He emphasized slowly: "...No one can take it away from me, including myself."

The cyborg smiled immediately, and tugged at the hair behind Eugene's ears in a harmless smile, as if trying to snatch his lover's attention from the hands of fear.Eugene watched him, and finally hugged Xiao's shoulders and neck slowly.

It was after a long silence that Xiao Cai spoke again.

"Tell me about yourself, Eugene." He begged in a low voice, "You rarely tell me about yourself."

"What do you want to know?" Eugene's voice was like a whisper.

"What kind of kid were you? I mean, before you got on the Rift." Shaw's hand stroked the inside of Eugene's wrist. "Has anyone ever bullied you?"

Eugene raised his chin slightly, and smiled without a smile: "No. My childhood was quite...ordinary."

The first 12 years of his life had no scars and no smiles.The memory related to it is like a colorless silent film, apart from ordinary, maybe it can only be described as strange.

— he felt strange to that memory, and also to his family.

The Arning family's mansion is very large, with many servants and a beautiful garden, which has not changed for more than ten years.Because there are not many side branches, the Arning family is much quieter than ordinary noble families.

Father, mother, Dietrich, myself—these only four people should have formed a beautiful and simple family, but it was more like a group of irrelevant people gathered together bluntly.

As evidence, in his memory, neither his father nor his mother ever hugged or kissed him once.

He could somewhat understand his father's position.His mother, Ada, married into the Arning family when he was a baby.No one tried to hide his identity as an illegitimate child, and he knew for as long as he could remember that he was not related to his father by blood.Therefore, he can accept his father's polite alienation both emotionally and intellectually.

What is difficult for him to judge is his mother's attitude towards him.In the quiet and dark room, the mother would stare into his eyes for a long time, as if looking at others through him.

"You're not like him. You're not like me."

Mother once muttered like this, frowning.

"You are not a monster." (youareamoer.)

Such conversations made him feel uneasy, because he clearly understood that the "he" his mother referred to must be his biological father.A person who would abandon himself and his mother—he once wondered what kind of person that would be, but after such a conversation, he completely gave up the desire to inquire.

He didn't know what kind of hateful person he was called a monster by his mother.

It's just that in the mansion of the Arning family, he is not the only one on the edge. Even the relationship between his mother and father reveals a superficial alienation.The three of them seemed to be dummies in a gorgeous cage, and if it hadn't been for Dietrich, he might have felt that he had never been exposed to any real emotions in his childhood.

Dietrich would cry, laugh, lose his temper at him, reach out for a hug.When he touched the soft palm of the other party for the first time, he was just a child and even sobbed softly because of it—that was the only human body temperature he could feel, and it was his redemption before he understood the meaning of redemption.Young babies are naturally sensitive to the presence of people around them. When he was being held by him, Dede looked like a little animal without worries.When he got older, Dietrich almost turned into his baby bird, always following behind him step by step, grabbing the hem of his clothes tightly.After the occasional quarrel, Dede, who was always capricious in front of others, would admit his mistakes first, and stammered to him, brother, brother, please don't ignore me.

Eugene felt that he could almost hear the other party's immature voice at that time, which made him couldn't help but raised his hand and pressed his forehead.He even recalled that when Dietrich went to public school on his first day and began to learn to write in cursive, the first thing he practiced was his own name.The childish strokes spelled out seven letters with irregular arcs. Dietrich looked up at him and said, brother, can I write well?Please praise me.

He really didn't mind that he and Deed could live together like that, and the day when they were forced to separate finally came.

...Later, he once thought that he, who was abandoned by his parents, actually got the truth and freedom he wanted most by mistake.But Dietrich was left in that cage by him, without his only companion and friend, and without the snack that would show up on time every Friday afternoon.

And perhaps because of his absence, Dietrich became a stranger when we met again.

How can such a childhood be depressing? Eugene picked up some scattered things and said them, and he felt dull and boring.It's ridiculous that he used to desperately want to hold this kind of life that has no bright spots in retrospect.

Xiao will always take care of his emotions in this kind of place as always.As if he was not affected by such a low-key topic, Xiao said softly in his ear: "I really wish I could live next to your house and watch you grow up."

"If possible, I would want to climb over/the wall to your yard, accompany you to do whatever you want, and hug you when you need it."

Then Xiao smiled: "It's a pity that I don't have much past, and I don't have anything interesting to share with you."

This sentence is not entirely correct.Eugene hesitated for a moment, but still asked, "Did Dietrich treat you badly when he was there?"

—He has never asked this question, nor does he want to ask it.At first it was because he didn't want to pry into Dietrich's privacy, then it was because he was embarrassed.

No matter how indifferent Dietrich's attitude towards Xiao was, no matter how hard he could imagine the relationship between the two before, Dietrich was still Xiao's master in name.He had never felt jealous of Dietrich, but he still couldn't escape the fact that it had happened.

Xiao lowered his eyes and gave his own answer.

"You can't say it's good, and you can't say it's bad."

He thought back to his days at the Arning mansion.Eugene's previous description of the manor was very accurate, it really looked like a huge prison.

In Dietrich's absence, all he could do was a closed bedroom.In the huge room, only he and a gorgeous clock are active, but their functions are almost the same, that is, as a beautiful decoration that few people see.

He only needs and can only do one thing, which is to wait for his master to call him over.

Dietrich had never actually been close to him.The closest time was when the other party pinched his chin and carefully examined his face at a distance that was almost close to each other.At that time, he thought that the other party was going to kiss him, and he was as excited as a dog that finally got his master's attention.

Xiao actually didn't really want to recall those days.Thinking of many things made him feel sick, but what he hated was not Dietrich, but himself at the time.

He can't deny that he once had animal-like slavishness, and his every move was just to please and please his nominal master.And his master wouldn't even dine with him, or go out with him, because he hated his inhuman parts.

"I should thank him for not being interested in me, so the first meal I ate, the first person I kissed was with you. Think about it, the first time I went out, I went to your apartment to meet you .”

Xiao's tone sounded natural and calm, as if he hadn't been affected by such a past.

Eugene shook his head and sighed: "He's too headstrong. Although it doesn't make sense to say it now, people should always be responsible for their own decisions, and he shouldn't have bought you from the very beginning."

Xiao laughed: "Don't say that, I'm very grateful to him for letting me meet you."

…He had nothing else to say about Dietrich.

After all, Dietrich's dislike for him was so obvious that it didn't take him long to realize that he had made a mistake.

After a drunk, Dietrich even told him:

"Everything you and I want is the opposite."

"You will never be my Sickert."

This was the first time Shaw regurgitated this statement from Dietrich.After thinking for a moment, he casually threw out the question: "Do you know a man named Sickert?"

Eugene's body suddenly became stiff.

"……I know."

Eugene said so.

"He was gone a long time ago."

"Really." Xiao keenly sensed that Eugene didn't want to talk more about this topic, so he didn't ask any more questions—his curiosity about his former master was so low that it didn't matter what Dietrich wanted to treat him as Who's stand-in.

He tried to turn his body, and as expected felt a burst of dizziness.This feeling has nothing to do with the so-called health, it's just the system reminding him in an anthropomorphic way that his energy has completely bottomed out.Xiao didn't want to fall into unconscious dormancy in front of Eugene, so he sat up without hesitation, and stretched out his hand to the energy line beside him: "...Sorry, I seem to be in a state where I have to recharge."

He smiled at Eugene, his eyes still looking at Eugene's arms, and there was an obvious nostalgia in his eyes.Eugene didn't think Shaw needed to apologize, and was slightly confused as the other walked to the bathroom.

Eugene stopped him:

"What are you doing in the bathroom?"

Xiao still smiled: "I don't want you to see me replenish energy."

Eugene thought for a while, and realized that he really had never seen Xiao when he was charging.Seeing that Xiao was about to go in and close the door, Eugene stopped him: "It's fine here."

Shaw looked up at him.

"I want to see."

Xiao looked at Eugene for two seconds, and finally sighed in compromise.He showed a helpless smile to Eugene, his expression was still very gentle: "...if you ask."

The tall biochemical man grabbed the hem of his clothes with both hands, and raised his crossed arms, revealing his muscular upper body with a sense of oppression.Different from his delicate and almost beautiful face, Xiao's bone profile is half a circle larger than Eugene's, with broad and straight shoulders, and even and obvious muscles.Such a body does not seem to be possessed by human beings. If it is more, it will appear strong, and if it is less, it will appear slender. Even because it is too appropriate, it creates a sense of unreality.In the middle of Xiao's chest is an opaque film, which covers the wound Xiao stabbed with the dagger, and also covers the exposed metal inside.

This is not the first time Eugene has seen Xiao's naked body, but his heart is still speeding up uncontrollably.Such a reaction made him feel a little ashamed—at his age, he probably shouldn't be so easily swayed.However, his body seems to be trying to compensate for the default throbbing of the past few years, and he sometimes feels like a teenager who has just touched his own desire/desire.

Xiao, who has always been keen in insight, failed to capture Eugene's expression at this time - he was looking at the ground in front of him, his eyebrows were slightly frowned, and there was some hesitation on his face.Taking a deep breath, he turned and turned his back to Eugene.On both sides of the spine at his lower back, two sunken metal round holes with a diameter of five or six centimeters gradually emerged from under the smooth skin.

In fact, he didn't want to remind Eugene how inhuman he was by his side.

Xiao lowered his head and closed his eyes.The long, light-blond hair flowed down smoothly, and then slipped quietly from her shoulders.His slender and strong hands went around behind him, aiming the end of the energy line at his own interface.The metal buckle made a crisp sound when it was inserted, which was too obvious in the silence.The energy lines falling behind him were like two slender silver snakes, with an inorganic and cold texture.

Xiao didn't look at Eugene's expression at this time.He walked quickly to one end of the room, and connected the other end of the energy cord to the power socket.As a result, the lights above their heads flickered slightly for a moment, and he needed too much electricity.

Eugene remained silent all this time, which made Xiao even more anxious.He sorted out a docile smile, ready to face his lover with it after turning around.

However, when he really looked at Eugene, he was stunned for a moment because of Eugene's expression.

Eugene was walking towards him slowly, then looked up when he stopped in front of him, and kissed him on the lips.When they parted, Eugene's eyes dodged a little, but he couldn't hide the background color of obsession.

Xiao looked down at Eugene's body, then put his hands on the other's waist, and said in a low and playful voice next to Eugene's ear: "...you will react to this kind of thing...you seem to be a little question."

Eugene raised his left hand around his chin, and bit his lower lip mercilessly: "...shut up."

Xiao smiled gently.

In the next instant, he pushed Eugene onto the bed behind him.

The author has something to say: The article has been revised on December 12.

A little comment on courtship~

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