Abandoned Lover [Future]

Shaw looked at his humans.

They used to be two strangers.They briefly exchanged the warmth of their arms.They each took a step back.They don't kiss anymore.

--and then?

——What kind of relationship do they have now?

——It is enough for him to be by Eugene's side, but if this only shelter is gone, where can he go?

He didn't want to go back to the stranger who was in front of Eugene at the beginning.

He even began to wish Eugene hadn't greeted him in the rain that day.

Look at me, Eugene.

Don't look at other people the way you once looked at me.

...The cyborg stood behind the glass wall for a long time, then turned and left silently.

His chest hurts so badly that he found out after walking a long distance that since just now, he really forgot to breathe.

It's not a metaphor—unlike humans, he doesn't even need oxygen, and is a real monster.

Xiao lowered his head, looked at his pale hands, then raised his hands, and pressed hard on his forehead, side of his face, chin, and neck.

He can feel the outline, touch, and temperature of a human being.

What a perfect simulation he is, but he still cannot be called a human being.

……

Behind the glass wall, Eugene knew nothing about what happened behind him.

Looking at Zane in front of him, he could finally experience a distant, almost reconciling peace.

—Before that, Eugene had been afraid of saying goodbye to Zane.The last shock was still vivid in his memory, and he had no intention of tearing out his heart again.

However, things went much better than he expected.

His emotions have long passed the most vulnerable stage, and he has also recognized the existence of Zane.Compared with the shock when he first saw the other party, when he raised his head to look at Zane this time, all he felt was a kind of discomfort that his heart wanted to shrink.

The feeling was obvious and uncomfortable for him, but not unbearable.

Even his faint fear was dispelled by the bright lights in this room.

With sufficient lighting, he was able to see all the details on Zane's face.This is a young man who loves to laugh, has a lot of rich and positive emotions, and an overabundant desire to express.

——All of these are completely different from the No. 6 in his memory.

He had never seen such a vivid No. 6, so naturally he couldn't associate and correspond to it.

As Zane uttered more and more sentences, Eugene became more and more certain that this person was not No. 6's undead, or even a fake.He even wants to talk to each other more, so that the two people can be more clearly distinguished.

So he listened carefully to every word Zane said.

Zane talked about his affairs with Eugene with great interest—he told Eugene that he was born in the No Owner's Zone of the Demilitarized Zone, and he was an illegal mine star whose main business was mining blackstone mines without laws.He had a grandfather who depended on him and loved him very much, and he came to the Rift after the other died of illness.He was very happy that his ability to identify the Blackstone Mine was valued, but he also hoped that others would pay more attention to his other advantages—"For example, I am very obedient and disciplined", he said.

Eugene thought it was amazing that this person grew up in such an environment, and could grow into such a carefree character.

The content of Zane's speech is not very interesting, what is interesting is the weird serious and innocent part of his character.Eugene looked at him, and gradually did not focus on the content of the other party's conversation, but began to think sincerely, it would be great if Number 6 had such a younger brother.

Zane went around and told some anecdotes about people Eugene didn't know well on the boat, and finally asked him: "Look, we've all chatted like this. Are we going to be friends in the future?"

Eugene was taken aback for a moment, then smiled politely: "That's fine. But why do you want to be my friend?"

"They say you are very strong, and I think your eyes are very special and beautiful." Zane's eyes are very sincere and simple, like a giant dog seeing a novelty toy: "I think it will be interesting to be friends with you .”

Eugene almost laughed.Inside this person is probably a 12-year-old child.

After confirming the relationship with his friends, Zane quickly made progress and asked him for a cigarette.

"Can you give me one of your cigarettes? You smoke the hand-rolled one, right? I only saw it at my grandpa's before."

Such comments seemed to regard himself and his grandfather as equals, but Eugene already knew that this person had no malicious intentions.After judging for a while that this was not considered to be leading a child, Eugene took out the cigarette case again, gave one to the other party, and kept the other for himself.

When Zane helped him light a cigarette, Eugene felt that the distance was too close, and subconsciously wanted to back away.When he just raised his head, he felt as if he had seen this scene somewhere.

—When No. 6 was alive, none of them smoked.

So before that, the only person who would watch him smoke and light his cigarettes... was Xiao.

Xiao Mingming doesn't smoke, but he never complained about his hobbies and habits.

Eugene's heart curled up slightly.

He suddenly remembered that in the past few days, it was Xiao who had been by his side and witnessed his weakest and most ugly side.

He never said a word of thanks to him.

……

It was long after noon when Eugene returned to the room. To express his apology and gratitude, he specially brought Xiao a dessert and lunch that the other party would like.

He put things on the small square table, and was suddenly hugged from behind.It was his familiar smell and embrace, but the arm around his ribs was so forceful that it made him ache, with a faint trembling.

Sensing the abnormality of the other party, he wanted to turn his head away, but at this moment Xiao buried his head on the back of his neck, breathing lightly and irregularly, as if he was enduring some pain.

After realizing this, he stopped his attempt to push Xiao away.

——Xiao is a person who knows how to grasp the sense of distance.In his memory, Xiao would always stand outside the range that would make him unhappy, carefully appease him, and approach him slowly.

He had never seen Xiao who abandoned his senses like today.This made him feel unexpectedly soft-hearted while being confused.

He turned around in a hugging posture, and was surprised by the other person's expression.

Straight corners of the mouth, glacial gray-blue eyes.At a rough glance, he looked as calm as usual, but Eugene could feel great pain from his eyes and the slight tremor of his muscles.

... Xiao never showed such an expression before he was destroyed.

When thinking of this, Eugene's Adam's apple went up and down, and he didn't know why he felt pain.Before he found the reason, he had already stretched out his wounded hand, wanting to brush away Xiao's long hair hanging down his cheeks, as if this would alleviate some of the shadows covering those eyes.

His clumsy fingertips slid across the soft hair, and he suddenly found the broken hair that was cut off abruptly.Before he had time to ask, Xiao lowered his head slightly and said to him in a hoarse voice: "...Eugene, please give me a hug."

Eugene thought that he was already in Xiao's arms, but maybe what Xiao wanted was his initiative.

This was not a request he should agree to, but he couldn't refuse Xiao in front of him.

He held out his hand.

The place he touched trembled violently.Eugene put his face close to Xiao's ear, and gently patted Xiao's back as if comforting, "What's wrong?"

Xiao's back violently heaved twice, and Eugene could feel his breathing getting heavy in an instant.In the next second, Xiao stood up slowly and looked at Eugene.The moment the two looked at each other, the cyborg showed an expression of unspeakable despair, lowered his head, and approached Eugene's lips.

Eugene's back stiffened, and he turned his head subconsciously.The moment his breath intertwined, Xiao's kiss lost its focus.

In Eugene's arm, Xiao's body was stiff for a few seconds, and then suddenly lost its strength, like a bowstring suddenly loosened, without the tension.

In order to cover up his out-of-order heartbeat, Eugene began to force himself to speak, and even made his voice relaxed on purpose: "...wasn't it fine before? Why did it suddenly become like this?"

When he was speaking, he found that he could hardly feel Huai Lixiao's breath.The almost overwhelming pain in the air before seemed to be sucked away in an instant, leaving nothing behind.

After a long time, Xiao finally looked at him again.

This time Xiao's face was pure blank.

There was a subtle difference in where his eyes focused and where Eugene's face was.

Then Eugene heard Shaw ask him calmly:

"Eugene...WhyamIsoinsuffici*?" (Why am I so inadequate?)

This made Eugene's heart constrict into a ball.

But he still smiled and comforted Xiao: "Why do you think so? You can do everything well."

Xiao still looked at him, showing a bleak and numb smile.

I don't know how long this hug lasted, and Eugene finally thought of pulling away.When touching Xiao's arm, Eugene suddenly felt that the touch was wrong.Looking down, the sleeve that was pulled upwards exposed a section of skin on the upper part of the wrist, with cuts and scars on it.

Eugene pulled up Xiao's sleeve with his left hand, his eyes turned cold instantly when he saw the wound on it clearly.

"...Who did it?"

Xiao slowly lowered his head to look at his arms, but there was still no expression on his face, as if he was looking at someone else's limbs.

An unspeakable anger spread from Eugene's chest.He felt that he seemed to understand the origin of Xiao's anxiety.

Looking up at Xiao's forehead again, the truncated hair looked extremely glaring at this moment—the hair of a biochemical human cannot be regenerated. Xiao Mingming has such beautiful hair, but he can never go back to the way it was before.

This is the biochemical man he brought here from the green star through untold hardships.

This is the cyborg that he protects seriously and wants to keep.

……

Two days later, the Rift's combatants and auxiliaries held their regular meeting in the war room.

When it came time for the meeting's scheduled start, Eugene and Shaw showed up together.For many, this was their first official meeting with the duo.

After entering the door, Eugene first nodded to Fasha and Miles who were standing in the distance.Julian, who was standing aside with arms crossed, couldn't help showing a mocking expression when he saw the two walking side by side: "I'm not mistaken, these two people really..."

A dagger slid right past his ear and hit the wall with a clang, cutting off Julian's bound hair.

Someone else witnessed the scene of Julian provoking Xiao on the training ground, and suddenly felt that this scene was very familiar.

The speed of Eugene's shot was too fast. After the huge shock, Julian finally started to be afraid. He raised his hand tremblingly, and found a wound on the upper edge of the ear, and the fingertips he asked to touch were all covered with a piece of paper. red.

"What do you want to say?" Eugene smiled at him, and quietly erupted with terrifying killing intent. "You think about it before you talk."

Behind him, Xiao looked at him with almost sick eyes, and at this moment, the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, revealing a silent smile.

The author has something to say: *WhyamIsoinsuffici-Because the dialogue is all in English, I really don't know how to translate this sentence accurately.

In the Chinese context, no one will say "why I am so inadequate", but only "why I can't do anything well"; but the focus here is on the incomplete part of the speaker, not what he has done.

What insuffici emphasizes is a state of inadequacy—what Xiao wants to say here is that he is not enough to be loved, and he is not enough to love Eugene, so there is a very thorough self-loathing.But in Eugene's ears, this sentence was Xiao's embarrassment because of his own lack of ability.

In short, it was another perfect chicken and duck talk.

Even so, I still write this chapter as candy, I hope someone can feel my candy.

感谢在2020-10-0509:00:00~2020-10-0609:00:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who cast landmines: Yuan, the peach-flavored rabbit, and Feng Linniao; thanks to the little angels who irrigated the nutrient solution: 1 bottles of Mingyue Zhaozhao and Xinyi; 10 bottles of Happy ff; thank you very much for your support ,I will continue to work hard!