Abandoned Lover [Future]

Zane Currier is 22 years old.He joined the ship two years ago, and his current position is combatant and quartermaster Fasha's assistant.His favorite things are strawberries and sunny days, and what he likes to do is lie comfortably in the sun room.The people on the boat nicknamed him "Puppy", saying that when he was happy, there would be an invisible tail wagging behind his buttocks.This title probably has a derogatory meaning, but because he likes puppies, he doesn't actually hate them.

When he first came to the Rift, many elderly crew members would run up to him, look at his face with long sighs, and then shake their heads and leave.If he had asked, they would have said he looked like the old captain's adopted son, a taciturn but valiant youth.

"It's a pity that number 6 left too early, otherwise you would be like a pair of twin brothers." The speaker would always end his speech with a similar sentence, which made him wonder what that person would look like.Facing his question, the navigator pointed him to the old captain's room.

... When he saw that photo, he had to admit that that person looked like another self at a glance.

It's just that the person named No. 6 looked into the camera without any emotion in his eyes, his brows were slightly frowned, and his whole person was as cold and rigid as a machine, and he didn't seem easy to get close to.It's hard for Zane to imagine himself making such an expression. After all, he thinks there are many things to be thankful for in life, and he feels happy just thinking about it.He would probably feel bad if he wasn't made to smile.

In that photo, there is a younger boy standing beside No. 6.The young man smiled shyly, and his golden eyes narrowed slightly, with a peculiar pupil color that he had never seen before.

He asked others who that young man was, and he received a lot of emotion—the youngest full-time combatant on the ship, a mechanical genius, Gao Ge's child like a parent, and the pair of No. 6.

Unfortunately, Eugene is no longer here.The other party sighed, with a very regretful expression.

He died too?Zane raised a hand, subconsciously trying to cover his mouth.

He just left the ship and hasn't come back yet.

Zane breathed a sigh of relief.

when will he be back

Nobody knows.

——Nearly two years after that conversation happened, Zane suddenly had an unbelievable feeling facing the man kneeling in the room.

Looking at those golden eyes, he thought, this is probably the boy in the photo.

It's just that he didn't expect that this person was actually older than him.

It's no wonder that other people say that his brain circuits are strange, because in that weird, tense scene, his attention is completely misplaced.

……

In front of Zane, after seeing the other person's face clearly, Eugene stretched out his hand subconsciously—not forward, but sideways.

He firmly grabbed Xiao's front collar clothes.

He didn't pay attention to restraining his strength, so his fingers scratched the center of Xiao's chest, and his nails drew burning marks on the other's skin through a thin layer of clothing.

However, Eugene could no longer take Xiao's feelings into consideration.

When the young No. 6 in front of him smiled at him, he just wanted to find something to cover himself up.

Xiao watched as Eugene trembled visibly, and pulled harder and harder on the hand holding his front.Suddenly, he understood what Eugene wanted him to do.

The previous assailant was still saying something to Eugene, but Xiao didn't have any intention to mind it.He shook off the clenched wrist, turned around, and really completed the action he had imagined before, hiding Eugene behind him.

But during this process, Eugene kept looking at the young man at the door.

Those golden eyes were full of fear, but they never took their focus away from that person for a moment.

- My name is Zane.

— I'm sorry my partner did such a rude thing.

——Are you all right?

After introducing themselves, the youth approached step by step, using their bodies to separate them from the attackers.Xiao kept looking at Eugene's face, watching Eugene's eyes follow the man's footsteps, defeating him step by step.

There was something in that look that forced him to reach out and forcefully press Eugene's face to his chest.

"Can you please leave?"

As he said so, he looked up at the two people beside him, with the most polite smile on his face.

It was clearly a gentle request, but the young man named Zane shrank his neck subconsciously.After nodding obediently, he pulled away his partner who was still muttering.

……

Eugene trembled violently in Shaw's arms.

...Just now, in the hallucination-like scene, No. 6 stood in front of him, smiling at him.

That smile has no ill will, it is warm and kind, and it should make the person facing it easily let go of their guards.

But Eugene only felt the fear and despair of MadeIn.

Because he still remembers the scene when No. 6 smiled at him like this for the last time.

——In the accident seven years ago, he woke up from the explosion, behind him was the ruins and the ground covered with debris, and his chest was moist and warm.

He had a severe headache, and he called number 6's name in the dark, but the other party never responded.In the end, it was only with the help of the light from the rescue team that he could see the appearance of No. 6 clearly.

That familiar, handsome face was clearly right in front of him right now—with both hands on his head, No. 6 was looking at him from top to bottom.

Eugene felt a little confused at first, wondering why No. 6 didn't speak.He tried to move his painful cervical spine, and when he moved his eyes, he suddenly found that No. 6 was supporting him with the collapsed structure.

On the space No. 6 propped up for him with both hands, several steel bars poked out from the broken column, entered from No. 6's back, and then pierced through the front chest.The few steel bars that pierced No. 6's body almost touched his heart, and the blood slowly dripping from the end soaked his chest.

With a huge blank in his mind, Eugene watched as Number 6 gave him the most gentle smile he could imagine.

Then Number 6 spoke.

Viscous blood mixed with broken internal organs overflowed from the corner of No. 6's mouth, fell drop by drop between his brows, bypassed the bridge of his nose, and slashed down the side of his face.

Eugene opened his eyes, watched Six's lips open and close, and called his name.

……

Xiao looked at Eugene.

This is the action he is most familiar with and does most often.

Now, he watched Eugene break free from his arms.

Eugene kicked his bent legs towards the ground, propped his hands back, and retreated into the corner of the room in a embarrassed posture.During this process, Eugene's head was lowered, and the strong trembling never stopped.The hair on his forehead hung down, blocking his eyes, Xiao could only watch him raise his trembling hands, put them in front of his eyes, and then slowly clenched into fists.

Then Eugene slowly turned his wrist at an odd angle, and stretched out his fingers again.Like a rusted machine, the hands started to move with a pause.

In gestures like sign language, Eugene drew a square with his trembling hand, closed it in the middle, raised it, lowered it, and turned his right hand with the palm facing up to cover his left hand.

He repeated the movement over and over until it became smoother and faster.From Xiao's perspective, he could only watch Eugene's lips open and close numbly, and he murmured a few words back and forth.

— Gather them together, put them in a box, and close the lid.

— Gather them together, put them in a box, and close the lid.

— Gather them together, put them in a box, and close the lid.

Xiao looked at him, like every time before, looking at him from a distance.It's just that when such actions were repeated to the extreme, but Eugene still didn't intend to stop, Xiao found himself becoming more and more afraid.

He felt like he was losing Eugene.

Xiao's lips trembled a little.He licked his lower lip and tried to call Eugene's name softly.

Eugene didn't respond to him.

Shaw's Adam's apple went up and down, trying to put a smile on his face.He reached out and tucked a strand of hair that fell on Eugene's cheek behind his ear.

A golden eye peeped out from under the mask, unfocused and dull.Eugene stared blankly at the ground, an uncomfortably blank face.

"If you do this, I will be afraid."

Xiao's voice was uncommonly undulating.

no respond.

"...Can I hold you?"

no respond.

The cyborg calmed his breathing, tried to maintain a smile, and sat down behind Eugene.

He used his arms and long legs to wrap Eugene in front of him, but he didn't hug him tightly immediately.He didn't seem to want to disturb the movements of Eugene's hands, he just put his hands on Eugene's shoulders.Then, as if he was afraid that Eugene would feel cold, he rubbed the part from the shoulder to the upper arm of the other party back and forth in a small way, and said softly, "I'm right here."

"If you need me, I'm here."

He wanted to say a lot more, but in the end he couldn't utter a single word.Eugene looked so weird at this time, he didn't want to alarm the man in front of him because of any small mistake of his own.

He was waiting for his Eugene to come back.

The flow of time lost its concept in such torment, and after an unknown amount of time, Eugene finally slowly put down his hands that had been moving all the time.

Xiao's heart seemed to be squeezed tightly by someone.He slowly adjusted his breathing, silently removed his hand on Eugene's shoulder, then changed his posture, standing up to face Eugene's face.

Eugene looked extremely tired, all the blood on his face had faded, his eyelids blinked slowly, as if he was about to be unable to open his eyes.

However, the moment Xiao saw the other person's expression, he knew that this was the Eugene he was familiar with.

As if fighting a long battle with himself, Eugene was exhausted to the limit, revealing a strong sense of weakness from the inside out.Although he looked at Xiao with sleepy eyes, there was also a strange calmness.

Then Eugene called Xiao's name in a very soft voice.

"resemble."

Eugene said so.

"I want to kill myself."

"But I probably shouldn't have done that."

"What do you think."

Listening to Eugene talking about his life and death in a tone like talking about the weather, Xiao only felt that his breathing was stagnant, and the pain in his chest made him want to shiver.

However, he restrained all his weak performances, raised his right hand instead, and gently wiped away the fine cold sweat on both sides of his nose with his thumb.

"...I think you should stay."

The cyborg smiled at his human, carefully avoiding the verb the other had just used, and replaced it with a soft word that would not irritate the other.

After perfectly suppressing the trembling, his voice was so gentle, it sounded as warm as the sun in an early spring afternoon.

"I want you to stay."

—Stay at this moment, by my side.

The author has something to say:

Originally, I didn't want to write about Eugene's past trauma in two consecutive chapters, but this person's personality is that if you don't hit him consecutively, he will hold on to it again.

After all, the old festering wound had to be torn open to heal.

Here Xiao told Eugene to stay because Stay means StayAlive.

I hope everyone can still feel the tenderness in the depressed atmosphere.

感谢在2020-09-2809:00:00~2020-09-2909:00:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Mio, Hermit1;

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