Abandoned Lover [Future]

——From a long time ago, Eugene noticed that he always seemed to lack the ability to reject and resist this sudden biochemical man.

In the first rain, he held an umbrella in one hand and covered the other's head with a towel with the other, apologizing for his late arrival.

The biochemical man didn't respond at first, and Eugene thought the other party was angry.He helped the other party wipe the drenched long hair, a drop of water fell from the tip of the other party's nose, Eugene's attention was attracted, and then he saw the thin lips in front of him move.

"It's okay, as long as you come to pick me up. I can wait forever."

This was the first sentence Xiao said to him.

After saying this, the cyborg took the towel by himself, and pulled the hair on his forehead back, revealing a pair of extremely beautiful eyes.

Eugene then saw Shaw smiling at him.Probably because of the cold, the biochemical man's lips trembled a little, but his eyes were very gentle.

This made his heart tighten slightly.

At that time, he hadn't felt the existence of this organ in his chest for a long time.So he thought, it was probably because Xiao was too docile, that's why he had such an unbearable feeling.

No wonder he thought so.Looking at Xiao, Eugene would always think of an abandoned dog with a pure and kind nature—never encountered any good things, but still had no complaints.Even if you have suffered bad treatment for no reason, as long as you give a little compensation afterwards, you will let go of the bad memories lightly.

Therefore, at the beginning, it was indeed sympathy and pity, plus some self-compensation and self-satisfaction, which made Eugene regard himself as the objective and factual owner of the other party.

Give each other food.bed.clothing.company time.An opportunity to go out and see more of the world.He used to do these things smoothly, but when he saw Xiao's smile again and again, he gradually went astray.

——Shaw has nothing.

—so I'm going to give him some more.

He ignored the lack of necessary logic in these two sentences, and put everything that Xiao wanted in the other party's hands.Even if he sometimes faintly feels that he has done too much, he can always easily convince himself that Xiao is a biochemical person with no future after all, and he has reached this point, and it is better for a good person to do it to the end.

Until one day, when Xiao held his hand from the side and he didn't refuse, he suddenly realized that what he was willing to give to Xiao had already exceeded the upper limit of morality.

However, he still stretched out his arms, closed his eyes, and opened his lips, almost responding to the cyborg's request for an upgrade.He thought that everything he did was based on the premise that Xiao would leave, without any deep meaning, so naturally he didn't need to think about it.

What will happen afterwards is probably the price he paid for his laissez-faire.

Holding hands, hugs, and intimate conversations again and again.See your own shadow in the other person's eyes.A kiss on the forehead when you wake up.Two glasses filled with milk on the breakfast table.The lights you can see when you look up when you come home.Someone hugs him when he opens the door and tells him he misses him.

In this most false relationship, Xiao has truly become a part of his life.

After all, in the long and lonely time in the past, no one needed him so purely.It seemed that he regarded him as the whole world, and it also gave him the illusion about happiness that he had fantasized for a long time.

then at the very end

"I will never be able to love you."

……

When Miles passed the door leading to the cabin, through the transparent window, he saw Eugene standing behind the door.The other party was leaning against the wall of the corridor, although there was no expression on his face, his eyes were blank.

It's the kind of blankness that looks fragile.

Miles frowned, stopped, and pressed the door open button.

"What happened?"

Eugene raised his head slowly.

He looked at Miles, said "nothing", and subconsciously took out a metal cigarette case from his arms.It was only after taking it out that he realized that something was wrong. He looked at the things he was using and felt that it was strange to put them back directly.

In the end, he could only take out a cigarette, but held it in his hand without lighting it.

Then he showed an apologetic smile to Miles: "Sorry, I didn't thank you properly before..."

That expression made Miles very uncomfortable.He raised his hand, stopping Eugene's next apology.

"Don't tell me this." Miles looked at Shaw's cabin, as if he knew the reason for Eugene's gaffe early in the morning: "There are two days left before rendezvous with the main ship. What do you want to do about him?"

Eugene was silent for a moment.When he spoke again, his voice was hoarse.

"...It's still the same as before."

Miles showed a disapproving expression.Before he could speak, Eugene smiled wryly, and stopped what he hadn't started: "More, just stop."

Saying so, Eugene moved the unlit cigarette between his fingers to his mouth.

Miles took the cigarette off his hand and put it in his palm.With his other hand he reached into his coat pocket and threw a plastic-wrapped packet at Eugene.

Eugene subconsciously reached out to take it, and found that it was an unopened pack of fudge.

"Before going back, try to sort out your emotions as much as possible. Just don't regret the decision you have to make." Miles gave him one last look, turned and returned to the main cabin.

Eugene was still standing where he was, maintaining the motion of holding the fudge with both hands.After a while, he lowered his head, pinched the bear's face with his thumb through the packaging.

The brown bear was squeezed out of shape and then bounced back, looking back at him with two dot-shaped eyes, showing the most innocent appearance.

Eugene wanted to smile, but when he did, he felt a little sad.

——No matter what happens to you, I will not drive you away.

When holding Xiao in his arms, he was almost about to promise so.In front of him, he was familiar with Xiao's touch and body temperature. The breath of the biochemical man fell on his heart through the clothes, and the tightly clasped hands had a kind of tenderness that could resist death.

All of this made him want to reach out and stay.

However, this kind of scene is so familiar, as long as you think about it carefully, you can predict the next drama-the soft heart back and forth, the unrealistic fantasy, the self-deprecating and embarrassing after the illusion is disillusioned.

In the reality he couldn't escape, Xiao's expectations and his expectations had long since had an irreparable gap.

He yearns for Xiao, longing for him to fill his huge void and loneliness with love and desire/desire.And under the premise of being unable to produce such emotions, Xiao seems to want to make up for him with bottomless tenderness and let him stay.

But not enough is not enough—his mistakes in the past remind him that no matter how much he tries to compromise, he will always end up falling into unavoidable dissatisfaction in the end.

He hates such hopeless greed more than anyone else, so seven years ago, he picked up the dagger left by No. 6 and accurately cut his own veins.After being rescued, he thought that he might be destined to live with such a despicable self.

With the lessons learned from the past, he chose to let go of everything and move forward in the face of expectations that were bound to fail.At the same time, Xiao chose to go back to the beginning of the relationship, as if everything had no beginning.Such diametrically opposed needs and positions made their brief synergy seem so far apart.

So at the end of the hug with Xiao, he still didn't speak.

He didn't want to make a vow that was bound to be broken.

——Early before coming to the Red Squirrel, he sent a message to Miles and the captain about Thorjensen.He wanted to borrow the help of the Rift to send Xiao to the border of the neighboring country Sagrand.As for himself, he will stay on the ship and be a star thief who has no past and is not bound.

Such a decision is still the best solution between the two of them at this time.

Even if he wants to protect Xiao from the shadow of his inheritance, it is safest for Xiao to send him to a border town where there is no conflict and no attention is paid to him without knowing the nature of Xiao’s inheritance. .Due to geographical reasons, Sagran's body transformation is not only popular but also highly advanced, and the control over artificial intelligence is also much looser than that of the alliance.In such an environment, Xiao not only won't get looked down upon, but even after his inhuman identity is exposed, he can live freely.

He still doesn't know what kind of timing he should give Xiao his plans and plans.He didn't want to imagine Xiao's expression at that time, and he hadn't learned to reject the last tenderness that had changed.

--"this is for you."

What came to mind was the flower occupying the center of his field of vision, and the person smiling at him behind the flower.

Eugene shook his head, sniffed, and tore open the packaging of the fudge.The brown bear was placed between the teeth, chewed, and it tasted like a mixture of rum and cola.

"Indeed it's better than smoking..." he murmured in a low voice.

He was thinking about getting another one, but someone stopped in front of him.Before Eugene raised his head, the other party's voice entered his ears softly.

"What are you eating?"

Such questions no longer have a weird tone, and they sound the same as usual.

Eugene looked up at Xiao.The other party's expression was lighter than the ones he had seen in the past few days, although it was not obvious.Thinking that perhaps his previous reassurance had worked, Eugene didn't know whether he should blame himself or be thankful.

"The fudge given by Miles." Eugene poured out some, put it in his hand, and handed it to Xiao. "Want to try it?"

Xiao nodded.

Then Eugene watched Xiao bend down, and his long light golden hair fell on both sides of his hands.The cyborg lowered his eyes, took his hand, and took the candy with his lips.While moving, the soft tongue touched his palm, leaving a moist and warm feeling.

Eugene's back tightened, and his expression immediately became a little helpless: "...Are you a dog?"

Xiao stood up straight, his eyes were innocent and gentle, he really looked like a big dog who didn't know he had made a mistake.

Eugene sighed and let him go.

"Is it tasty?"

Xiao's Adam's Apple went up and down, and he finished swallowing, and then he said "um" and showed a very happy smile.

"That's good." Eugene said so, letting himself remember Xiao's expression at this time.

No matter in the past or now, the relationship between him and Xiao always seemed to be put under a deadline—until Xiao was destroyed, until Xiao was taken away from Green Star, and until Xiao was sent away.

He is looking forward to, but also afraid of the end.

……

Xiao stood in front of Eugene, while maintaining a smile, savoring the taste remaining on the tip of his tongue behind his closed teeth.

He swallowed the candy whole without chewing it.

Only in this way can he not be affected by the saccharine, and concentrate on savoring the taste of Eugene - the texture of the texture of the palm, and the extremely light, salty smell of sweat on that patch of skin.

……

Forty hours later, the Red Squirrel officially arrived at the location of the Rift.

The author has something to say: I can't wait for two people to doi in place.

It's not that I want to delay the progress of the relationship so that the two of them can't confess. It's because Eugene didn't finish his confession in the past, and Xiao's restraint is still there (he can't be hard on Eugene now), and temporary patience is necessary...

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