Abandoned Lover [Future]

After being able to move freely, Eugene unfastened the strap that was pressing on his chest, slowly opened his eyes and blinked.

The green star has gradually faded away under his feet.Really come to this step, in addition to the relief, there is also an unavoidable sense of emptiness.This made him sit in his seat, not knowing what to do for a moment.

Fortunately, Miles appeared and patted him on the shoulder from behind: "Are you hungry? Go and eat something."

Eugene nodded.

…Led by Miles, Eugene and Xiao sat down in the dining area between the main cabin and the cargo cabin.There was only one dining table in the dining area that could seat six people. After Miles handed the meal to the two, he naturally sat down at the corner next to Eugene.Although Eugene looked very tired, he gave Miles a thankful smile.

Shaw sat across from Eugene, on the other side of Miles.He originally wanted to sit by Eugene's side, but found that it would be difficult for him to see Eugene's face from that angle.

Especially with Eugene always turning his head to look at Miles.

"How long does it take to get to the main ship from here?" Eugene didn't talk much during meals, but this time he made an exception and started talking with Miles.

"A little more than a week?" Miles thought for a while: "The main reason is that you can't jump at will in the center, otherwise it wouldn't take so long."

"Even so, the main ship is too close to the center." Eugene frowned: "What if someone from the military finds out?"

"Are you an idiot?" Miles leaned on the table with one hand to support his chin, and pressed the other hand heavily between Eugene's brows: "The captain asked the Rift to come over to pick you up conveniently."

"Pick me up?" Eugene was startled, and put down the food in his hand. "It's been so long..."

"No matter how long it's been, it's time to take you home." Miles said so, and moved the finger between Eugene's eyebrows to the corner of his mouth, and poked it lightly.

"Just smile, little one*."

"Forget me, please, don't call me that again." Eugene was distracted by what he said, and casually pushed away the finger pointing at him.

Miles laughed.

Sitting next to Miles, Xiao clearly noticed Eugene's different attitude when facing Miles.

He is obviously a man with a strong sense of boundaries and can easily release coercion on others, but at this moment he suddenly seems a little... defenseless.Before he knew it, the personal distance that Eugene had always paid attention to on weekdays was being slowly eaten away by Miles.

In the end, Miles was actually able to chat with Eugene while pulling Eugene's hair in front of him seemingly inadvertently.This kind of action is already close to the level of flirting, but Eugene seems to be unaware of it.

Xiao's expression remained unchanged, but he found that he couldn't recognize the taste of the food in his mouth.All his senses were concentrated on Eugene's body, tensed to the limit, not knowing what kind of move Miles would make next.

Sure enough, after the reminiscence between the two came to an end, Miles suddenly got closer to Eugene.Those naturally smiling eyes looked at Eugene, looking extraordinarily ambiguous.

"Speaking of which, I've been thinking about what you said before." His voice was slightly lowered, and the distance between his lips and Eugene's face was only ten centimeters at most.And Eugene looked up at him inquiringly.

Xiao clenched his fists under the table.

"You and this kid are really just friends, right?"

Without any foreshadowing, Miles brought up the topic that Shaw least wanted to face directly.While Xiao froze his movements, Eugene, who was sitting opposite him, also froze for a moment.

Both avoided the other's eyes at the same time.

"……What's wrong?"

Eugene's tone sounded quite relaxed.

"If the two of you really don't have that kind of relationship," Miles stopped his hand movements, put some distance away from Eugene, and his eyes became serious: "Then can I pursue him?"

The next second, without looking at Xiao, Miles pulled Xiao toward him.

"I think he's pretty good-looking." Miles showed a pretty bright smile, "Since you're going to take him to the main ship, I might as well act first. After being single for so many years, I also Time to find a pair."

"Myers..." Eugene frowned: "Are you serious?"

Miles asked him generously, "Why would I joke about this kind of thing?"

Eugene finally set his sights on Xiao's face.There was obviously no expression on the deserted face of the biochemical man, but Eugene was inexplicably convinced that Xiao was waiting for his answer.

--up to you.

—What does it have to do with me?

—He can't like you.

Eugene repeatedly selected among these possible answers, but in the end he found that what he wanted to say the most was "No".

"...You should ask him about such things." After a moment of silence, Eugene finally spoke. "He's not mine."

Miles kept his arms around Xiao, noncommittal.The biochemical man's tall physique was similar to that of Miles, and his movements seemed a little laborious and funny, but Eugene couldn't laugh.

Eugene took a deep breath and turned his gaze back to the food in front of him.He tried to continue to complete the meal, but in his heart he hoped that Miles would let go of Xiao's hand.

Change your posture.

Say something else.

The awkward silence was unsatisfactory between the three of them.

Before he could react, Eugene stood up with his hands supporting the metal dining table.He wasn't quite sure if it was the weird scene in front of him that was intolerable to him, or if it was himself who would react to something like this.

He instinctively wanted to go out and smoke a cigarette, only to realize that he didn't have what it took to do so.It's a pity that his body was ready to leave, but he still couldn't find a suitable excuse to leave.

"I'm done eating. Leave first."

Eugene put the remaining half of the food back into the compressed recycling bin behind him, and walked towards the cabin.Xiao watched his leaving back, and couldn't help but want to catch up.

The red-haired man grabbed his wrist vigorously at this moment.

Xiao turned around and looked over.Miles had already changed his smile in front of Eugene, and shook his head silently at him.After seeing the other person's expression clearly, Xiao didn't resist anymore, but really followed the person's signal.

The cabin door opened and closed, and Miles also let go of Shaw's hand.

Xiao looked at Miles: "Why are you lying?"

Lover model cyborgs are top-notch in observing human emotions and desires.Since meeting, Miles has not shown any words or actions to show interest in him.

"I'm helping you." Miles smiled casually.

Xiao looked in the direction of the cabin, but didn't speak.It is undeniable that the moment he saw the shake on Eugene's face, his heart almost jumped wildly.

"Wait a little longer, and then go find him."

Saying so, Miles got up from the table.

……

It sucks.

In one of the cabins, Eugene lay on the narrow bunk, slowly curling up his body.

He didn't expect that the last straw that crushed him today would come from Xiao.

Before boarding the boat, he felt that he had already made the most perfect plan for Xiao.He will put him in a safe place where he will not be disturbed, help him settle down his future work, and then formally say goodbye.

From the very beginning, he knew Xiao's limitations, and he also knew that he could not accept this ambiguous relationship.So now, he really just wants to finish the whole thing completely.

He doesn't even need Xiao's thanks.

However, what he didn't expect was that in this process, there may be many other side issues.For example, Xiao, who is "not enough" for him, may also be a perfect enough partner in the eyes of others.

It was when this possibility was placed in front of his eyes that he realized that he had completely let go of Xiao, unlike what he thought.

He didn't want others to touch the arms that once hugged him casually.

He didn't want Xiao to show his familiar attachment and obedience to others.

He was even more afraid of seeing Xiao easily copying his attitude and behavior in front of others.Because that means that those expressions and actions that once tempted me are only due to the unselected tenderness that biochemical people can show to everyone.

He didn't want to realize that he still thought too highly of himself when he got to this point, and had to retreat again and again.

It's ridiculous.

He endured the great loss of the past, and successfully suppressed the anxiety about the future.Obviously, as long as he is given a little more time, he will have enough courage and buffer to cover up the current feeling without a trace.

But just now, this fresh wound fell on his accumulated scars over the years, involving his long-unhealed flesh and blood.

Eugene closed his eyes.

He really hopes that someone can be by his side at this moment, let him hug him silently.

……

"Click".

After an unknown amount of time, there was a knocking sound at the cabin door.Eugene opened his eyes and looked there.

Behind the transparent hatch, the cyborg raised his hand and looked at him quietly in the posture of knocking on the door.

After looking at Xiao for two seconds, Eugene supported himself to sit up and pressed the button to open the door.

"What's wrong?" He tried to make his voice sound as normal as possible.

"Can I sit down?" Shaw asked him.

Eugene hesitated for a moment, nodded, changed to a side-sitting posture, and gave Xiao the space around him.

Shaw sat down beside him.

"Miles was just joking."

Shaw said so.

The cyborg looked down at his hand, then turned to look at him again.

"But I heard everything you said in the restaurant just now." Xiao's voice was low and gentle. "I should be able to understand it as, you want to end our previous relationship."

Eugene instinctively tried to explain, then found that he had nothing to correct.

A sense of exhausted fatigue suddenly surfaced, causing Eugene to lean back against the wall of the cabin and stop looking at Xiao.

"If you don't want me to touch you from now on, then I won't touch you."

The cyborg continued his words calmly.

"In front of others, I will try my best to keep a good distance from you, so as not to embarrass you."

"As long as you want, I am willing to be your friend."

Hearing this, an indescribable anxiety rose from the bottom of Eugene's heart.

He didn't know why Xiao deliberately told him this.

It's obviously something that each other needs to know each other well, so what does Xiao want to get after such a clear line of demarcation?

Is it the freedom not to be bound by him?

But he never wanted to restrain Xiao anything.

The unexplained depression stuck in his chest has exceeded the upper limit of his willingness to endure.Just when he was about to take a deep breath and end this conversation with an unknown purpose, Xiao's voice accurately reached his ears.

"But Eugene, as long as you need me, I will always be here."

This sentence made Eugene finally look at Xiao again.

Xiao's eyebrows and outlines are too sharp, and his pupils and hair are too light.It's obviously not easy to get close to, but when he smiles, he looks extraordinarily gentle.

It's like a river that finally thawed in March and April. Although it is hidden under the still cold ice, it can make people feel the warm temperature more personally than everything else.

Just like Xiao who is facing Eugene now.

At this time, Xiao looked at Eugene with the eyes that the latter had imagined, the eyes that he would see from his lover's eyes.

When you are looked at by those eyes, you will feel that you are good and complete - as if you can forgive and tolerate what you did wrong, as if you have time to start over and make up for what you missed.

... Eugene never thought that in the end, he actually saw this kind of look from Xiao.

The gentle voice of the biochemical man continued, and with a moderate volume, he accurately poured the sentences Eugene needed into his ears gently.

"You just need to take what you need from me."

"You can treat me whatever you want."

"Because to me, I'll always be just your thing."

Xiao no longer belongs to anyone.Such a phrase is more like an oath at this time than a self-deprecating one.While speaking absolute words without hesitation, the biochemical man meekly kept the distance between him and Eugene.

Facing Xiao like this, Eugene felt a kind of sincere panic for the first time.

The cyborg seemed to see through the vacillation he wanted to hide, and with an almost extreme promise, he precisely dispelled the source of his uneasiness.However, after being so comforted, anyone will have a sense of dependence.

A sense of dependence that he no longer needed.

Feelings like this rusted his defenses, tempting him to back off, to return to the fruitless relationship he had been determined to give up.

Wariness and old habits mingled in a confusion Eugene had never known.His rationality told him that such words would not change the situation of the two of them in any way, but the long-term loneliness made him want to reach out and get some warmth and comfort from the biochemical man.

The silence between the two lasted until the end, and Xiao asked him in a low voice: “Can I hug you.”

Eugene lowered his head, did not move, and did not refuse.

……

Xiao tightened his arms, but he also carefully controlled his posture and strength, and did not let the hug cross the boundary at any angle, which was unilaterally stopped by Eugene.

The body measured by his arms was much thinner than before.When I realized this, the pain in my chest actually outweighed the possessive desire and the fear of being abandoned all the time.

He carefully put his lips close to the top of Eugene's hair, but he didn't dare to kiss it.

... Nothing he said to Eugene just now was a lie.

However, under such an expression, there are still two opposite and completely different emotions hidden.

Half of him felt that he was humble and inadequate-he didn't know if there would be a day when he would be able to kiss this human's lips with passion, and then, like all normal lovers, combine to form the other half that completes each other.So he only hoped that what he gave could occupy Eugene's attention for as long as possible, regardless of his status, he could stay by this person's side every day.

And the other half of him wanted to put this person in a golden cage, so that this person would never have the opportunity to throw himself away easily.If he can achieve this goal, he can abandon all useless and weak emotions, plan carefully, make serious calculations, and make any necessary disguises, just to complete this hunting that does not allow failure.

Passive or active, this person is something that he cannot lose no matter what.

And with someone he cared about so much, he had more than one burning question.

He waited patiently for Eugene to recover.Then he let go of his hands, which he didn't want to let go, and looked into Eugene's eyes while asking a very reasonable and harmless question.

"Eugene, why do you know the people on the Rift?"

—he wanted to know about Eugene's past.

The author has something to say: *Myers called Eugene "little one" or "littleone", which can be used to address younger brothers and sisters/children, and can also be a nickname for a loved one. Not as deliberate as Chinese looks.

I hope everyone is satisfied with this [-]D update (bow)

Little angels who still have time, I hope you can listen to my nagging.

The structure of this article is a bit complicated, and the subject matter is cold, so it is really not easy to write.I was able to survive until the day I entered V, thanks to the teacher who helped me read the text at the beginning, and the friends who coded with me.

Among them, my friend Xiaoyaoguan helped me read the first fifteen chapters of this article word by word, forced me to scrap the manuscript of tens of thousands of words, and also dispelled my idea of ​​giving up on writing an outline article.

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Put the text for everyone:

In the year 806 of the star calendar, in the first battle with the Alliance, the empire suffered heavy losses. Marshal Lu En, known as the God of War, was involved in the wormhole storm and fell.

Twenty-five years after being forced to sign a peace treaty, the empire enforced the ABO gender transformation program to stabilize order and boost fertility.

Bai Zhuyue, the only son of the richest man in the empire, accidentally picked up an Omega experiment.This Omega has super mental power, and can drive all the mechas in the empire with a single thought, but it is so fragile that even if it is held a little heavier, it will leave bruises.

When the nobles were fighting to the death for gender modification, Bai Zhuyue only wanted to protect the Omega in his arms.

He didn't know yet that as the secrets of the empire collapsed, his heart would also be riddled with holes.

In an era when the definitions of vows and romance have long been blurred, Bai Zhuyue read about the past ceremony of swearing loyalty to his lover in the book, and happily made a ring for his lover that has long since disappeared.

That night, his Omega looked at his sleeping profile and gently took off the ring on his ring finger.

"If I meet you when there is still a future, I will accept it."

...The above, thank you all very much.