Xu Jun's life

I was hospitalized.

I didn't know how to spend the three days waiting for the result to come out, and I was in a daze.

After the holiday, I received a call from Zheng Yehu, who said, "Xu Xu, I underestimated you."

I don't know why he said that out of nowhere.

But I also happened to have something to say to him.

I told him, Zheng Yehu, I might have a deal with you.You wait for me for three days, and I will take the initiative to contact you after three days.

It's funny, it's obviously not a good thing, but suddenly there are more choices.

I told Meng Su that I had something to do and I had to go out for two days, but Meng Su didn't ask.

When I left home, Meng Su had almost finished reading his book, and he was going to ask his family to send him some from the United States.

I thought, maybe there is no need to send it.

Lin Youxi took the puncture results for me.

He's not the moody guy, and I don't see results.I can't read the test sheet either, so I can only wait for his explanation.

He sat beside my bed for a while, and then asked me, "When are you going to see Li Zhurong?"

I called Zheng Yehu.

"I'm Xu Xu, where are you now?"

"Beijing."

"Where is Li Zhurong?"

"Los Angeles."

"I'll pass you something."

I hung up the phone, and Zheng Yehu called after half a minute: "What do you mean?"

"I'm sick, lung cancer."

"Why did you send it to me? It's not that it can't be cured. Aren't you still alive and well?"

"Don't say such nonsense, you know what I want to say."

"I really do not know."

"Get me away, whether abroad or in other cities, before Li Zhurong knows about me."

"Why do you count on me? Didn't you have a hot fight with that American man?"

"I didn't count on you." I scratched an apple with a knife in boredom: "As long as you don't stop me, he is now trying his best to deal with Meng Su, and you should be the one watching me. As long as I have your help, it will be easy for me to disappear .”

Zheng Yehu laughed: "Do you think I will help you?"

"You will help Li Zhurong." I said, "Although you are cold-blooded, he is your friend."

It is really easy to talk to a smart person like Zheng Yehu.The only fly in the ointment is that he has a bad personality and laughs at every turn, as if it was a very happy thing for him that I was dying.

"I want to make a plan." He said to me like this: "You are too smart, it's a pity that Xiao Zhe fell into your hands."

"Why don't you say that I'm also very pitiful."

Li Zhurong and I, whoever is a bit stupid and willing to suffer a little bit, will not get to where we are today.

The girl from my aunt's family just graduated from college and is in a relationship. She is the gossip that my mother has been following.The girl is stupid, the current boyfriend treats her badly, has a bad temper, and is not considerate enough, but she likes it.Stumbling to graduation.I think, if she died suddenly, she should not regret it.

Because in the past days, she has been by his side.

She doesn't care about who is more disadvantaged or who has a lower status between the two.She doesn't care like me. Others say that I am gentle and have a good temper. In fact, I have a good memory.One thing can be remembered for ten years, and after calculation, I don't know whether I won or lost.

Sometimes I think about it, if I didn't quarrel and run around, eat together every day and sleep together at night, wouldn't my life be the same?

I don't know why, but I suddenly remembered that day, he and I went back to my parents' house together, and stood at the door carrying things, when he suddenly leaned over and kissed me.

At that time, we probably all want to spend our whole life with this person around us.

Unfortunately, there is no chance.

Call Meng Su and ask him to come to the hospital.

call my dad.

Although my mother is usually very strong, she is a woman with a sharp mouth and a tofu heart. If she knows about this, she will faint from crying.So tell my dad first, even if it is discovered, he can still help me hide it.

My dad answered the phone in the study.

I said to him: "Dad, I may have to go abroad for a trip at the end of the year. I want to go home and live first..."

You can't tell him to go abroad immediately, it's too abrupt, and you will be noticed.We must first say that we will go at the end of the year, and then change the plan, step by step.

My dad doesn't talk much, and every time he answers the phone, he just says "uh" and "uh". ..."

My dad cherishes reputation the most, and he has never let go of his heart over the years.

In fact, think about it, it was not Li Zhurong who shamed him, but me.

I don't know if I'm purely gay, I've never liked anyone else.

If I'm gay, it's not Li Zhurong, it's probably someone else.The path of homosexuality is very difficult. If there is no Li Zhurong, I may also make a mess of my life...

But I can't think so.

I can't forgive him, because then I will regret it.

Meng Su suggested that I go abroad for treatment.

In fact, I really want to stay in China, stay with my parents and friends, and take care of it slowly. You Qi said that I can observe it for a month before deciding on the operation plan, and I am not afraid of the disease developing too fast.

But no.

I don't know what the outcome will be, so first of all, I have to hide it from my parents. Even if a son doesn't go home for a few years, it's better to just send some money back than to die completely.

What's more, this matter, no matter what the result is, must be completely hidden from Li Zhurong from beginning to end.

If I die, Shen Wanyi will be the first to suffer - he hates Shen Wanyi.I don't know what weird things he will do, his character cannot be judged by normal people.

If I was still alive, he wouldn't have time to take care of others, he would only focus on making trouble for me.

No matter what, he had to think I was alive.The way I thought of was to let him know that I ran away, and then go find him.Maybe Zheng Yehu has other ideas, who knows.

In fact, I also have a little selfishness.

I don't want to make him sad - I think he should be sad.

I am terrified of dying.

To die means to be out, to be completely wiped out of the world as a person, you no longer have a mind, you, a "person", have disappeared into the void.

Death means that you can no longer be with your parents, you can no longer gossip with your friends, you can no longer hug your loved ones—even if you were arguing just a second ago.

I asked Meng Su: "What happens after a person dies?"

"I don't know, I haven't died," he said.

I haven't died either, so I'm terrified.

Lin Youxi brought a bunch of laboratory test sheets, explained this to me, explained that, and explained the operation plan to me.I was so irritable that I didn't even want to eat.

Shen Wanyi arrived in the afternoon, in a hurry, hugged me and cried loudly, as if I was already dead.

I'm so sorry for her.

Originally, it was good that when she was 40 years old, she was not married, and I was not married, so we would get married.Now I might miss my appointment.

I'm not worried about him, she's strong.There was once a man who also said he wanted to marry her, but he died in a bank in Hong Kong more than 100 days before the wedding.

Xiao Yao came here in a sneaky way - he wanted to hide it from Xia Chen.

Xiaoyao has a very tough temper, and he is determined to beat Li Zhurong.He is a person who has been lost too many times, I should thank Xia Chen, he should be the person appointed by heaven to fill the vacancy in Xiaoyao's family.

In the past six months, I have been avoiding Xiaoyao intentionally or unintentionally, but fortunately we are not unfamiliar.He still opened his mouth and called me a hooligan, saying that I made a big fuss, that cancer would not kill people if it was detected early, and that I was just worrying.

Go to dinner together in the evening.Lin Youxi held the menu and ordered a bunch of light dishes. Everyone except Meng Su complained. My cigarettes were taken away, and my fingers always felt empty.

Both Xiaoyao and Shen Wanyi were drunk, one giggled and the other sang.Meng Su ate bibimbap, Lin Youqi pinched two cigarettes.

I felt stuffy in the private room, so I went outside for a walk. This small hotel has a courtyard with a lot of flowers. I squatted in the courtyard and chewed gum.

It was so lively, but the left chest was empty.

I never missed him so much.

Even when I was alone in City C, when I was sleepless at night, I didn't think of him that way.

Footsteps came from behind, Xiaoyao walked over with a silly smile, patted my shoulder hard, hooked my neck, and leaned on my back.

He is crying.

Zheng Yehu told me that Li Zhurong is coming back.

"You know how to kill him," he said.

"Leave your family to me. You just have to let him give up and go abroad. I'll take care of the rest. If possible, I hope you don't come back after you go abroad, and don't let him hear any news."

"I will make arrangements for my parents, and you don't need to intervene." I told him, "I won't come back."

"That's good."

"Nothing else, it's settled like this..."

"Wait a minute." Zheng Yehu suddenly stopped me: "Teacher Xu, there are actually a few words that I have always wanted to ask you."

"You said."

"Why do you want to cooperate with me to lie to him?"

"You and I are both for his good and have common interests, don't you?"

"I'm not asking this, I'm asking, why did you keep this from him?"

"I'm afraid he'll get out of control." I slowed down and said, "Also, I'm afraid they will be sad, just like hiding it from my parents."

"I can understand that you are doing this because you love him?"

"I don't want to discuss these issues with you. I still have a lot of things to do." I interrupted him coldly: "Also, there are only four people who know this news besides you. I believe they will not leak it. So if it leaks , that's what you said."

Zheng Yehu laughed again.

After laughing, he said to me in a serious tone that he had never had before: "Be with Xiao Zhe well, he will miss you very much in the days to come."

Yes, you must miss me very much, right?

Xiao Zhe.